kill a canary

Chen Ran doesn't actively search and pays attention to Shen Yixiu's news, but this does not prevent the other party's every move from reaching him through various media, platforms, and people's word of mouth, and he can't avoid it even if he wants to.

Shen Yixiu is committed to a number of charitable and public welfare projects, fully supporting the research on the treatment of autistic children, publicizing and raising funds for social welfare organizations that oppose domestic violence and school violence;

Shen Yixiu launched the "Big Dipper Dream Project" to provide a series of support for singers, actors, and painters who seek dreams in Beidiao;

Shen Yixiu established a foundation to provide special assistance for depression research and mutual assistance for patients and their families;

On Shen Yixiu's Weibo, he would occasionally repost Buddhist classics that Chen Ran couldn't understand, and he would occasionally go to a certain ancient temple in the fairy mountain to visit a certain master or eminent monk;

And the news that has been hotly hyped recently is that his new movie has started. Shen Yixiu has retired for many years and is coming back to direct and act on his own. The subject matter involves homosexuality.

That day, Chen Ran was bored watching TV at home, pressing the remote control to change channels, and caught sight of the handsome face he was familiar with.

Chen Ran put down the remote control subconsciously. Since she couldn't hide from it, she might as well take a look at it.

Shen Yixiu was on the last talk show to promote the upcoming new movie.

"...Director Shen, this new film is very different from the previous ones in terms of style and form. How do you define this new film?" The hostess smiled cordially.

"This is a romantic literary film." Shen Yixiu sat on the sofa elegantly and calmly, with a peaceful and natural laziness on his face: "To be precise, it is a fantasy action romantic comedy."

Chen Ran felt that Shen Yixiu on TV hadn't changed much, but the people in the camera would generally look fatter, if he hadn't changed, he must have lost weight.

"Actually, many of your fans and viewers, including me, have a question. Why do you insist on expressing same-sex-love in a fantasy romantic comedy? From a commercial point of view, this It’s actually quite risky…”

"So I feel that I am lucky enough to have my own company and my own team, and I can complete the works I want. Now that I may be older, I feel that the original intention of making and acting in movies is self-expression. I have this ability. Why not make a movie for yourself?"

These words are actually very self-willed and self-willed. The translation means, I am rich, and I make movies to amuse myself. You like to watch, but don’t watch.

Chen Ran couldn't help but raise the corner of his mouth, which is very Shen Yixiu.

The hostess was a little embarrassed, and she didn't seem to think much about it and asked back: "Why do you want to make a movie for yourself?"

Shen Yixiu glanced at the young host with pity, with a lonely smile in his eyes: "Maybe everyone has regrets, some regrets can be made up for when they happen, and some people can be found back when they are lost, but There are always some things and some people, even though we are heartbroken and regretful, there is nothing we can do, it’s not that we don’t want to save it, but we just feel that if we let go of it, the other person will live a better life..."

"I don't know what other people will do if they encounter this situation, and the way I make up for my regrets, other than dreaming myself, is to make a movie and play a role in it." Shen Yixiu leaned casually On the sofa cushion, the deep and handsome face is rendered with a rare softness and innocence by a touch of melancholy and warmth, as if he is having a beautiful daydream: "In fact, it is not just for me to see, but also for my life. The most important person, I also hope to show it to my friends who have regrets like me, or those who are immersed in happiness but don’t know it, I hope they will like it.”

"Oh? The most important person in your life? Are you going to confess your love through a movie?" The hostess was obviously a little excited, her eyes sparkled, and she seized this opportunity and didn't intend to let Shen Yixiu go easily.

Shen Yixiu slightly hooked the corners of his lips, and smiled softly: "It's not a confession, I just want him to know that I miss him very much." He ignored the host's request to continue to ask the bottom line, but before she opened her mouth, he directly changed another A topic: "As for the commercial considerations you mentioned, if this movie doesn't make money, there will be another one. After finishing this movie, I plan to cooperate with Hollywood to make a superhero movie..."

……

Chen Ran didn't plan to watch Shen Yixiu's new movie, he couldn't imagine what it would be like to sit in a dark movie theater with Shen Yixiu's face shaking on the big screen.Moreover, this movie called "A Second Before Falling" could not be released in theaters in mainland China, which also gave Chen Ran another grandiose reason not to watch this movie.

But things backfired, he didn't want to watch it, and couldn't bear to drag Mr. Xiao Cai, Director Shen Da's diehard fan.

"Xiao Chen, accompany me to Hong Kong this weekend to watch Shen Yixiu's new movie." Teacher Xiao Cai had already started talking to Chen Ran many days in advance as a routine.

"I have something to do. I won't go. Let your boyfriend go with you." Chen Ran always refused in a muffled voice.

"Same-sex theme, my boyfriend is a straight straight guy, I watch it with him, not to die of embarrassment."

"Then you go with your rotten girl friends."

"Chen Ran, please, can you bear the heart of me being a weak woman wandering the restless streets of Hong Kong late at night?" Xiao Cai pitifully looked like a red-eyed little white rabbit: "I treat you to curry fish balls and egg waffles... ..."

Chen Ran sighed silently, and finally nodded in agreement, rejecting others, especially the skill points of rejecting women, how much he really wanted to do.

"A Second Before Falling", Shen Yixiu's fantasy action love light comedy, the plot is very unconstrained and unconstrained, and does not follow the usual path.

The male protagonist S and the male protagonist R are a model couple. They have been respectful to each other for many years, like glue and tenderness. In the first ten minutes of the movie, this couple is basically giving sugar and abusing dogs. Across the screen, Chen Ran can feel the deep love Mr.'s deep resentment, there is no way in real life, make a movie to spoil your lover to heaven.And not surprisingly, Chen Ran found that the actor who played R in the movie was very similar to himself.

Then the plot took a sharp turn. R suffered from depression and committed suicide by jumping off the building. S followed him out of the window on the seventh floor at the last second, grabbed him in the air and held him in his arms. .

Traveling to a magical world, R was still a little boy. He was hunted down by his enemies when he was 6 years old, and he was confronted by a 16-year-old boy, S, who saw injustice and drew his sword to help him. From then on, the elder brother led the younger brother to make jokes, upgrade and fight monsters, and the road of passionate revenge , by the way, the elder brother will take good care of the younger brother, and the sweet cultivation mode will be opened. When R grows up, the two will be together without shame.

S and R began to live sweetly and warmly. One night, R had a dream. He dreamed that he was in a different world, still with S, still sweet and happy. Unfortunately, he later suffered from depression. , he committed suicide by jumping off the building, S hugged him and jumped down together, and a second before falling, he woke up from the dream.

At the end of the movie, there is a gorgeous long shot like a dream. The two people are slowly falling in the air. The four seasons of wind and rain, the myriad of prosperity, and fleeting images pass by the two people one by one. In the end, everything merges into a pair of lovers who love each other deeply. Eyes looking at each other affectionately.

Chen Ran watched Shen Yixiu's body spinning and falling in the air. In the last scene of the movie, he looked at everyone in the movie theater with affectionate eyes through time and space, through the screen, and looked at Chen Yixiu who was sitting in the dark and was in a trance. Ran, showing a desolate but warm smile that was so beautiful that it was shockingly beautiful.

In the end, amidst the lively and ethereal music, small white characters gradually emerged on the black background: For my dearest child.

Chen Ran sat there quietly, the theater lights turned on, and people began to leave one after another. Most of the audience spoke Cantonese, commenting on the movie with joy, anger, or indifference. Li was suddenly a little out of breath. He closed his eyes while leaning on the armrest of the seat, feeling his whole body trembling slightly, like a long-distance running that finally reached the end, exhausted, but also relaxed and joyful.

"What's wrong with you? Chen Ran." Teacher Xiao Cai stood up and patted him on the shoulder.

"It's okay." Chen Ran opened his eyes, breathed a sigh of relief, and smiled sweetly: "Let's go."

On the way back, Xiao Cai kept evaluating the movie. Seeing that Chen Ran didn't talk much, she went to Douban to read movie reviews to find a common language.

"This film is very willful... Don't you think so? Chen Ran... You read this film review also said that 'the middle-aged uncle Shen Yixiu is a gorgeous and second-year-old man-pornography?'...But it is still very good-looking , at least the fights and special effects in the middle are very cool, the flipping, and revenge scenes are also very hot... hey, Chen Ran, why don't you talk?"

"Hmm. Yes." Chen Ran ate the curry fish balls and said perfunctorily. He looked at the brightly lit Hong Kong night outside the taxi window.

"Which world do you think they are in? Which one is real and which one is illusory? What is the final ending? Is it just so open?" Xiao Cai said depressedly, after a while He also worried for Shen Yixiu: "I read film reviews saying that this movie actually cost a lot of money, but now the reviews are polarized, and it can't be released in mainland China. Do you think Xingyi will lose money?"

"Xing Yi is not short of this little money, don't worry about it." Chen Ran looked away, and said with a smile: "I am worried that Shen Yixiu will lose money, so you come to Hong Kong a few more times, and watch this movie a few more times."

Xiao Cai laughed twice, then frowned and said, "What do you mean by this? And the last subtitle, who is it going to be for? Well, if someone makes a movie and gives it to me, It's okay to let me die... I heard that Shen Yixiu is really gay, but all kinds of media can't figure out who his lover is. If you have a little clue, you can click it all... It's amazing..."

Chen Ran stopped talking, and listened to Teacher Xiao Cai's chatter with one ear but not the other.

But he knows what Shen Yixiu wants to express. Shen Yixiu made a movie for him and told him very clearly: How I wish I was by your side when you were young, so that you will not be hurt in any way, and all those who bully you Go to die, watch you grow up, give you everything I can give you, make you happy for the rest of your life, cherish you and protect you when you are alive, and never leave when you die.

But the movie is just a movie after all, they have no chance to go back to his childhood, and also have no chance to go back to the time when they met six years ago, all the fait accompli that happened are irreversible.Chen Ran calmed down and thought about it, got out of the taxi with Xiao Cai, and threw the box of curry fish balls into the trash can.

But when he was awake, he could think like this. After falling asleep, his subconscious mind was like an iceberg, exposing a huge part hidden under the water, making the last scene in the movie reappear in his dreams.

In the dream, Shen Yixiu spun and fell from a height again and again, sometimes they embraced each other, sometimes he stood on the ground and watched, sometimes he was able to catch the falling person in time, sometimes he was too late to run desperately.Chen Ran woke up from the dream again and again, with a vague sense of fear in her heart.

June and July are the seasons of phoenix flowers and lychees. The fiery red phoenix flowers stretch into patches in mid-air, and the voices of lychee sellers on the ground keep coming and going.It rained a little that night, and Chen Ran was picking lychees from the small stall in front of his house. The bright red lychees were steamy, sweet and attractive.

"They were picked from Nanshan this morning, and they are very sweet! Do you want glutinous rice cakes or cinnamon flavor?" the hawker greeted warmly.

"Let's get some." Chen Ran picked up the lychees and put them in the bag, and suddenly remembered that six years ago, when Shen Yixiu returned to Beijing from a business trip in Shenzhen, he also brought him a big bag of lychees, and said it was In the morning, he personally watched the workers pick it from the century-old tree in Nanshan.

At that time, he was not yet 19 years old, and he had just met Shen Yixiu not long ago, and he would blush when he saw him.

Chen Ran carried the lychee in a daze, and instead of going home directly, went to the public phone booth next to it.

After hesitating for a moment, he still dialed the phone number already engraved in his memory, he just wanted to hear Shen Yixiu's voice suddenly.

"Ran Ran?" The bell rang three or two times, Shen Yixiu answered the phone, after a short silence, he called out in surprise and helplessness.

"Hmm." Chen Ran said softly, not knowing what to say, tell him are the lychees in Shenzhen ripe?Why are you so stupid?

"What are you up to lately?" Chen Ran asked uncomfortably after a long pause.

"I'm making a movie. I've been preparing for a superhero movie. Didn't you say you wanted to watch me blow up an alien spaceship?"

Chen Ran: "..." I really don't know what to say.

"Are... are you okay?" Shen Yixiu tried his best to suppress the joy and trembling in his voice, Chen Ran could hear it.

"Very good." Chen Ran made a swallowing movement, and said with some difficulty: "How about you?"

"I...not well." Shen Yixiu was silent for a moment, his low and magnetic voice was like a warm monsoon: "I miss you very much."

Chen Ran hung up the phone almost instantly, he was afraid that Shen Yixiu would suddenly say: Come back, okay?

He was afraid that he would agree impulsively.

Fortunately, Shen Yixiu didn't say anything, he just said: "You have to take care of yourself."

Chen Ran nodded, and said a few homely greetings that friends who haven't contacted for a long time would say, and then hung up the phone in a hurry.

Outside the telephone booth, the phoenix flowers that were wet by the rain fell to the ground, like burning flames, also like the painstaking efforts that had been drained, and the sky was overwhelmingly red.

……

A few days later, there was a heavy rain in Shenzhen. Chen Ran had no class and couldn’t go out. She was lying on the sofa at home, humming songs and playing with her mobile phone in boredom. Accident, high fall seriously injured, has been sent to hospital urgently. XX Entertainment will continue to follow up the progress of the incident...

Chen Ran stared at the message for several seconds, his breathing and heartbeat stopped instantly, and the cold fear relentlessly gripped his heart tightly. He didn't know how he flipped through other related messages, and then dialed Got Sun Yang's call.

Sun Yang's phone couldn't be reached at all, it was busy all the time, and so was Lin Yihui's. Chen Ran stood up almost instinctively, changed his clothes, packed his backpack and prepared to go out.

Just as he was about to go downstairs, the phone rang. Chen Ran's hands were shaking all the time, and he flicked the screen a few times to get through.

"Chen Ran?" It turned out to be Zhou Yun's voice over there, old and haggard with a crying voice: "Can I ask you to go back to Beijing? Yixiu is injured and is on the way back to the Beijing hospital from a foreign studio. want to see you."

The author has something to say: I think the ending is so difficult to write, uh, the last chapter may be tomorrow or the day after tomorrow or Tuesday, thank you for persevering until now, bow~

☆, finale

Chen Ran responded a few times in a daze, and before she could hang up the phone, she rushed down the stairs.There was thunder and lightning outside, and the torrential rain was pouring down. Chen Ran was soaked in water very quickly. Standing on the side of the road and looking over, there was no taxi.

Chen Ran turned around and ran towards the subway station, the rain kept falling on her face, and countless white water splashed under her feet. When she ran a red light and crossed the road, there was a sound of sudden braking, the sound of the horn, and the driver's scolding.

But Chen Ran couldn't feel these anymore, all the colors, sounds and touches became dispensable backgrounds, and he only had one thought in his mind, how is he doing?

Finally arrived at the airport. Due to the weather, the flight was delayed in a large area. Chen Ran pushed everyone away without grace, squeezed to the front of the counter, and grabbed a first-class ticket from the delayed flight.

When he finally passed the security check and sat at the boarding gate, with nothing to do but wait, the dark and cold anxiety and fear pervasively occupied every cell in his body, making every inch of his skin terrified Trembling, every breath is extremely difficult.

He mechanically refreshed the news over and over again, and called Sun Yang over and over again, and finally got through after countless busy and no one answered the phone.

"I'm sorry... Ran Ran, I'm too busy... I was planning to call you." Sun Yang's voice was anxious and hoarse, and the background sound was chaotic.

"How is he?" Chen Ran bit her knuckles, forcing herself to calm down.

"When I was filming an action scene, I fell down. My shoulder, back and leg were broken. The main reason is that I hit my head and had intracranial hematoma. The medical conditions here are not very good. Now I have a special plane back to Beijing for surgery. It takes about 2 hours. Later to..."

"Is he awake? Can he talk to me?"

"No... When he was awake, he said he wanted to see you, and..." Sun Yang paused, his voice lowered: "I left a will."

"Come back and see him, just in case..." Sun Yang didn't say any more.

"Yeah. I'm at the airport, I'll go back." Chen Ran hung up the phone, only to find that the joint of his left index finger had been bitten by himself. He watched the blood mixed with rainwater flow down the back of his hand and dripped onto his clothes, but he felt no pain at all. less than.

……

Four hours later, Chen Ran finally returned to Beijing, where he had been away for a year. He got off the plane and rushed to the hospital. Shen Yixiu was pushed into the operating room by doctors and nurses.

"Brother Yixiu!" Chen Ran rushed forward recklessly, the emotions he had suppressed all the way finally broke down, and he knelt down in the hospital corridor and cried.

Shen Yixiu, who was in a coma, seemed to realize something. His fingers moved slightly, and he opened his eyes weakly. His eyes gradually changed from lax to focused. He stared at Chen Ran's tear-stained face, smiled, and said, "Ran Ran? Don't I'm afraid, I can't die."

You are back, I can't bear to die.

Sun Yang ran over and pulled Chen Ran up together with the nurse: "Don't worry, let him have the operation first." Sun Yang held his head and rubbed his back lightly twice.

Chen Ran hugged Sun Yang and cried for a while before asking in a muffled voice, "How did you get hurt?"

Sun Yang sighed: "I filmed a scene of jumping and fighting on the cliff on a rainy day. The boss was not satisfied with the stand-in several times. He felt that he could do those actions by himself, so he insisted on doing them himself. It's okay, so talk to him. The actor in the play slipped and fell, the boss stretched out his hand to pull it, but he was taken with him and fell down... The little actor was not seriously injured."

Chen Ran nodded, wiped her face indiscriminately, then raised her head, and saw Lin Yihui, Shen's parents, and other colleagues and family members nervously guarding the door of the operating room.

He didn't want to go there and sat in the corner.Sun Yang sat quietly with him for a while, and said in a muffled voice: "The boss told me when he was still awake after he was injured, if he died, all his property under his personal name would be given to you. let me record..."

Chen Ran listened quietly without saying anything.

"He also asked me to find something in his bag, and asked me to give it to you." Sun Yang said, took out a small black velvet bag with a belt from his bag, and handed it over.

Chen Ran opened it, and saw that there were two strings of lovesickness beans bracelets inside. The string of one string was obviously newer, and the beans on it were also missing a few; there were also two paired platinum rings with naked circles. Chen Ran held the rings on the I looked carefully in my hand, the bigger one had his name engraved on the inner ring, and the other smaller one had nothing inside.

Chen Ran squeezed the two rings tightly, so much force that the round rings were slightly flattened, but he didn't notice it.

Sun Yang gently pulled his arm, and said cautiously: "Ran Ran, you still care about him, don't you? After so much trouble, if the boss recovers safely this time, can you just..." Sun Yang Yang didn't say it directly, as if he was afraid of embarrassing him, he paused and continued: "I have been with the boss for many years, he used to be a very selfish person, if it was before meeting you, I don't think he would have rescued him at all. He didn't even bother to know the names of those little actors who played with him. But this time he went to rescue him without hesitation. I always feel that maybe he was thinking of you at that time, and that child also 17 or 8 years old, just as old as you were at that time. Maybe the boss himself doesn’t want to admit it, but I can feel that he has changed a lot in these years, especially the year you left... So , can you forgive him?"

Chen Ran was silent for a while, and finally nodded, as if she had lost all her strength, she closed her eyes and leaned on Sun Yang's shoulder, sobbing softly.

He thought he had the courage to leave alone, he thought that such a humble love had already been exhausted in the years of turmoil, but when things came to an end, the fear of loss and the longing buried deep in his heart would still stand out from the encirclement and overcome his self-righteous armed forces , like a snail whose shell was suddenly crushed, suddenly exposed to broad daylight.

As long as he is well, is there anything that cannot be forgotten or forgiven?

……

When Shen Yixiu woke up, Chen Ran was dozing beside him, nodding his head like a chicken pecking at rice.

"Ran Ran." Shen Yixiu looked at him for a while before calling out with a smile.

"Ah?" Chen Ran woke up suddenly and looked at him in a daze. After a few seconds, she finally came to her senses. She wiped the saliva from her lips embarrassedly, and said with a joyful and relieved smile: " you're awake!"

"Why don't you go to sleep? Let's see how sleepy you are." Shen Yixiu looked at him tenderly and affectionately.

"They said you might wake up, I'm afraid you won't be able to find me when you open your eyes."

Shen Yixiu felt as if a needle had been pricked in his heart, leaving a small, brief but sharp pain, Ran Ran seemed to have said this before, I am afraid that if I go too far, you will not find me.

This time it won't happen again, Shen Yixiu thought, there will never be any reason for you to leave me again.

"Ran Ran, you have left me three times in total, will you still leave when you come back this time?" Shen Yixiu looked into Chen Ran's eyes and stretched out his hand to him.

Well, three times.The first time he ran away secretly, it was Shen Yixiu who forced him to come back; the second time he deliberately broke up and broke up, it was Shen Yixiu who rescued him; the third time, he left for a year, to recognize his heart and shake hands with the past Yanhe, I came back on my own initiative.

Chen Ran held Shen Yixiu's hand and smiled mischievously: "It depends on your performance."

Shen Yixiu had mixed feelings for a moment, and wanted to say something.Chen Ran didn't give him this opportunity to brew his feelings and swear with all his heart and soul. Instead, he took out the larger of the pair of rings from his pocket, took his hand, and slowly put the ring on his ring finger. Then Chen Ran raised his head, his eyes were as clear as the evening stars: "I'll give you this back."

Shen Yixiu lowered his head and stroked the ring he bought last year and kept it by his side. The smaller one had his name engraved on it, but after Chen Ran left, he erased the words "Shen Yixiu" inside.After this accident, he thought about leaving the two rings to Chen Ran. If he finds his sweetheart in the future, it would be nice to give them to others.

Shen Yixiu looked at the lost and recovered ring, his throat choked up: "Where's yours?"

"I've got someone to engrave the characters." Chen Ran said.

"What characters to engrave?" Shen Yixiu looked up at him with a smile.

"Keep 'Brother Yixiu is a monk'." Chen Ran grinned, showing his shell-like teeth, and he kissed Shen Yixiu's bald head, which was shaved because of the craniotomy: "I am a monk alone."

……

Three months later, Shen Yixiu recovered and was discharged from the hospital, and Chen Ran moved back to Lilac Apartment with him.Shen Yixiu was very excited along the way, and kept urging the driver to drive faster. Rarely, he complained impatiently and graciously about why there were traffic jams everywhere.

"What are you in a hurry for?" Chen Ran smiled and said, "I don't like traffic jams, so hurry up and buy a helicopter."

Shen Yixiu turned his head, his hair had already grown out, and he shaved a clean and neat size, he looked younger, he leaned close to Chen Ran's ear, and rubbed his stiff hair against Chen Ran's face , whispered viciously: "I'm starving to death, I want to eat meat. It's really not easy to be a monk."

It is true that Mr. Shen has suffered in the past few months. Before Chen Ran was not around, he was still able to cultivate with a pure heart and few desires. After Chen Ran came back, he couldn't eat every day. Later, his health improved, and at most he just hugged and hugged , pulling the little hand, kissing the little mouth, and masturbating to death, the result is that the more the teasing, the more angry, and now the whole person is on the verge of sparks from the inside out.

Chen Ran looked at the way his eyes were shooting fire, and couldn't help leaning his body towards the car door, but Shen Yixiu pushed him down on the seat and kissed him.

The driver was distracted, and the car almost missed the rear of the police car in front.

Finally arrived at home, just as Chen Ran put down his things, Shen Yixiu jumped up and pulled his clothes without saying a word: "Baby, I miss you so much."

Chen Ran dragged the middle-aged man, who had gained more than a dozen pounds from being in the hospital without exercising, to the bathroom: "Brother, calm down, can we take a shower first?"

In the end, before entering the bathroom door, all the clothes had been taken off.

Immediately afterwards, there was the sound of rushing water in the bathroom, and...

"Hey, can you lighten up... oh..."

"Well, yes, that's it..."

"Ah... so tight, I like it..."

"I can't do it anymore, please let me go..."

The next day, the autumn was high and crisp, the sky was bright and clear, the sun was shining, and the years were quiet.

Chen Ran woke up, squinted his eyes to adapt to the sunlight, he turned his head and glanced at his side, Shen Yixiu was not there.

Before he could call out, the bedroom door was slammed open, and Shen Yixiu leaned in with half of his body: "Ran Ran, do you want a Western breakfast or a Chinese breakfast?"

Chen Ran: "..."

Shen Yixiu: "Then do it all."

Chen Ran hurriedly jumped down and followed into the kitchen, asking a person recovering from a serious illness to cook him breakfast, which was a bit too careless.

During the meal, Shen Yixiu said that he was going to attend a film festival in Hong Kong in a few days, and asked him if he wanted to go together.

Chen Ran shook his head first, and then couldn't help asking curiously: "Did your film win the award? I heard that there are shady people in these film festivals, but the awards have already been decided, right?"

Shen Yixiu sighed pretendingly: "Maybe I can win the 'Most Lost Film Award', do you know how much I lost in my last movie, "One Second"? I lost two movies in a row. The superhero movie I made was forced to be tentative again, and I don’t think it will take long before I can take you to perform on the street, and when you sing, I will pick up money with a broken hat.”

Chen Ran imagined the wonderful scene, heavy snow fell, he stood beside the road and sang "Little Cabbage", and then Shen Yixiu squatted on the ground counting money with red eyes...

Simply perfect.

"Really not going?" Shen Yixiu picked up a chopstick and scrambled eggs for him: "Such a good opportunity, why don't you take advantage of it? Force your husband to come out publicly, and people all over the country will help you supervise me in the future."

Chen Ran was still immersed in the heavy snow, smiling so much that his eyes almost disappeared: "No, no, you want to come out, why don't you ask me if I want to? If one day, I'm tired of you old man , I want to find a little fresh meat, but I don’t want the whole country to know about it.”

"You..." Shen Yixiu stared dryly with anger, put down the bowl and chopsticks, and said with a sad face: "I won't eat. Lose weight."

Chen Ran didn't go to the scene, but watched the live TV broadcast at home.He knew that Shen Yixiu had put in so much pains, and maybe he really wanted to take this opportunity to come out of the closet to express his feelings to him, and tell him how firm he was.But Chen Ran doesn't need it anymore. Firmness and trust don't come from words. Since he chose to start over with Shen Yixiu, he must trust the other party. No one forced him this time. He has to do it by himself. go forward.

Sure enough, as Shen Yixiu said, "A Second Before Falling" was severely polarized in its reviews and could not be released in China. The box office was dismal, and the very self-willed film only won one award for best visual effects.But the judging committee is still very interesting, and maybe they want to take advantage of the topic of Boss Shen’s recovery and discharge from the hospital to market, and specially tailor-made a "Special Contribution Award to the Film Industry" for Shen Yixiu in recognition of his years of hard work. He has made outstanding contributions to the Chinese film industry, and his "Big Dipper Dream Project" has input a large number of fresh blood into the film industry-excellent young directors and actors over the past year.

Shen Yixiu thought about the huge sponsorship fee he had given to the film festival, and then he was very calm, and went up to the stage to accept the award without any embarrassment.

Host: "Mr. Shen, we are very happy that you can come today. The audience and fans are very concerned about you. Are you healthy?"

Shen Yixiu said directly in Cantonese: "Thank you for your concern, I'm fine."

Host: "Mr. Shen, you have been enthusiastic about charity and public welfare undertakings in recent years, including this 'Big Dipper Dream Project', which is also one of many public welfare projects, especially supporting young directors, actors, singers and painters with dreams. We have always been curious. What is your original intention and purpose of doing these charitable and public welfare activities?"

Shen Yixiu looked around the audience with a smile, personable and radiant: "To be honest, I used to do charity and public welfare, but it was more because everyone did it. I didn't really think about why I did it. Until something happened The thing, or should I say, is that I fell in love with someone. I used to think that loving someone is nothing more than keeping him around and giving him everything you think is good until he makes me understand that you love someone , is to love the whole world with the love for him. Because if the world is not good enough and you are not good enough to the people around you, it is possible to hurt the person you love. On the contrary, if the world is getting better and better , then no matter where he is, he will be happier..."

Chen Ran in front of the TV screen was dumbfounded.

Sisi, who was picked up by him to play for two days, looked confused, pointed at Shen Yixiu on the TV, turned his head and asked him: "What is Brother Yixiu talking about?"

Chen Ran wiped the sweat off his forehead, and laughed a few times: "Don't pay attention to him, he's just pretending to be tough on TV."

"What is pretense?" Sisi asked, blinking her eyes.

"This..." Chen Ran realized that he shouldn't speak like this in front of a pure little girl, and said embarrassingly: "It means that things that can be explained in one word must be explained in a paragraph, and things that can be understood without saying it, have to be explained." It’s hard to understand.”

"Then what did he mean by not pretending just now?" Sisi frowned and asked.

Chen Ran played with Sisi's braid twice, then smiled triumphantly: "He said he loves me."

……

In the spring of the second year, on a certain day when the spring breeze was warm and the grass was growing, Shen Yixiu said that he would take Chen Ran on a short trip for a vacation.

Chen Ran was exhausted by him the night before, and fell asleep in the car. When he arrived at the place, he opened his eyes and felt that this place looked so familiar.

"This is..." Chen Ran got out of the car, looked around, and remembered that this was the resort hotel where he and Shen Yixiu met for the first time.

Chen Ran turned to look at Shen Yixiu who was standing behind him, not quite understanding what he was going to do: "Why did you bring me here?"

Shen Yixiu kissed him on the forehead, looked into his eyes with a smile: "Today you are the master here."

Chen Ran looked at him ignorantly, and Shen Yixiu said, "Go."

Chen Ran nodded with a vague understanding, turned around and walked towards the hotel gate. He was not sure what he should do, hesitated for a while, walked into the restaurant on the left side of the lobby, found a seat by the window and sat down.

The waiter came over and asked, "Sir, what would you like to order?"

Chen Ran said, "Wait a minute, I'm waiting for someone."

The waiter nodded, smiled and turned to leave.

Chen Ran picked up the lemonade on the table and took a sip, then looked in the direction of the door a little nervously.

After a while, Shen Yixiu walked in.He walked easily and gracefully to Chen Ran's table, a few steps away from him