kill a canary

One day even he himself couldn't distinguish his true thoughts. At this moment, sitting in this house which he had lived in for four years, carefully decorated by himself, and filled with Shen Yixiu's breath, he numbly asked himself countless times , Chen Ran, what kind of self-deprecating intention do you have to stay by his side for so long?Is it really just because you can't escape?

He did think about running away from it all, from that man, and he tried but failed.

☆, snowy night

In the winter of the first year Chen Ran and Shen Yixiu were together, Shen Yixiu went to Chongqing to film a movie. Chen Ran didn't see him for a month, and he found that he missed him a little bit, although he didn't want to admit it at all.He follows Shen Yixiu and Sun Yang's Weibo and Moments every day, like a star-chasing teenage girl, paying attention to every bit of his information.

Until a night when the north wind was howling, Chen Ran nestled in the warm house, watching the big movie "Transformers" while checking Shen Yixiu's Weibo.As soon as it was refreshed, Shen Yixiu updated it. He posted a very literary photo, dim street lights, late night streets, and scattered snow in the sky, with a few words on the photo: It is snowing in Chongqing.

It's snowing in Chongqing, how cold it is.Chen Ran thought about it, and couldn't help laughing. He ran to the closet to find a down jacket of Shen Yixiu, packed it up and saluted, and then went to find out the plane ticket to Chongqing.He needed an excuse to go to Shen Yixiu, even if it was the worst excuse.

At noon the next day, Chen Ran went to Daoxiang Village to buy some snacks, and then went straight to the airport, but the weather in both places was bad, and the flight was always delayed. When Chen Ran finally arrived in Chongqing, it was almost midnight.He knew from Sun Yang's circle of friends which hotel the crew was staying in, and he took a taxi straight to the hotel as soon as he got out of the airport.After entering the hotel lobby, he sat in the lobby bar and called Shen Yixiu, but unexpectedly, Shen Yixiu turned off the phone.

Chen Ran looked at the time, it was less than 11 o'clock, could it be that he was too tired from work and went to bed early?Chen Ran was hesitating whether to call Sun Yang and ask about Shen Yixiu's room, or to stay here and talk about it tomorrow?He didn't want to and was embarrassed to tell Sun Yang first, Sun Yang would definitely laugh at him, and he would definitely tell Shen Yixiu immediately, what kind of surprise would there be...

Just as he was thinking, the two men walked into the lobby and sat down on the sofa behind Chen Ran.

"Brother Yang, thank you this time, if it weren't for you, how could the boss remember me?" A soft voice said.

"Why are you being polite. The boss is happy, and everyone's life is going well... What have you been up to lately, Xiao Qiao?"

Hearing this voice, Chen Ran's mind suddenly went into a frenzy. He shrank back into the sofa and pricked up his ears to listen to the movement behind him.

The boy named Xiao Qiao said angrily: "Oh, don't mention it, I haven't been filming recently, I counted ants in my free time, and I didn't finish my meal... Brother Yang, what is the progress of our film now?" ? Can I still show my face?"

Sun Yang sneered: "This one is probably out of play, but there will be more chances in the future. Look at your performance tonight. The boss has never treated his own people badly."

Xiao Qiao giggled: "Of course, everyone in the circle knows that Brother Yixiu is famously generous...When will I have time to treat you to dinner?"

"Don't bark outside..." Sun Yang glared at Xiao Qiao dissatisfiedly because he said Shen Yixiu's name. I have to go out for a while, you can go up by yourself? 1507, here is the hotel floor card, just knock on the door when you arrive."

Xiao Qiao took the card, thanked him again and again, smiled apologetically and sent Sun Yang to the door of the hotel, then whistled and walked towards the elevator.

Chen Ran remained expressionless and followed him.The two stood waiting for the elevator, and Chen Ran took a sneak peek at Xiao Qiao. The kid was dressed in trendy clothes. He was wearing cropped trousers in winter, showing his slender ankles. His upper body was wrapped in a large sweater coat. The woolen scarf tightly covered the neck and mouth, only revealing a pair of bright and charming eyes.

Chen Ran felt that pair of eyes looked familiar, and wondered if she had seen them on TV before.

The elevator door opened with a "ding", and Chen Ran followed Xiao Qiao into it.Xiao Qiao didn't move, waiting for Chen Ran to swipe his card to press the floor, Chen Ran stood stiffly without moving, Xiao Qiao gave Chen Ran a vigilant look.Chen Ran had no choice but to bite the bullet and sneered: "I live on the 15th floor, and I forgot to bring my room card when I went out, can I trouble you to scan it for me?"

Chen Ran tried his best to make his face full of sincerity and innocence, and thanks to his innocent and harmless face, Xiao Qiao glanced at him coldly, and finally swiped his card and pressed "15".

There was a strange atmosphere in the small and closed elevator, the time was infinitely stretched, and the two felt guilty.

Chen Ran lowered his head and stared at his toes, the blood in his whole body cooled down little by little as the floor rose little by little, he just followed because of a malicious curiosity, he wanted to see how many pounds Shen Yixiu could carry to bed A few taels, what is it, and even compared himself with Xiao Qiao out of boredom.Now that I have seen it, what should I do later?Could it be possible for him to rush in and catch the rape in bed?Or fight for favor in a brazen manner? ...

Chen Ran laughed at herself hundreds of times in her heart, and the elevator finally arrived.Xiao Qiao stared at him, waiting for him to go out first, with eyes that wanted to eat him alive, Chen Ran quickly glanced at the room sign, and hurriedly turned in the opposite direction of 1507.

Only then did Xiao Qiao go out, staring at Chen Ran's back suspiciously, until the figure disappeared at the corner at the end of the corridor, then he breathed a sigh of relief, adjusted her breathing and expression, and walked towards Shen Yixiu's room.

Chen Ran fled all the way to the dark stairwell, feeling that the short steps had exhausted all his strength, so he slid down the corner and sat down.The stairwell was very cold, and the whimpering wind passed through the window sill, passed through his thin body, and blew into his empty heart.He just sat there in the dark and cold for a long, long time, until his mind became blurred, hallucinations appeared in front of his eyes, he saw another Chen Ran sitting on the opposite steps, that was himself when he was a child.

Little Chen Ran was fiddling with a bumblebee model in his hand, with a contemptuous and cold smile on his face: "Chen Ran, what more do you want? Love? You don't deserve those things, you don't deserve all the good things..."

Chen Ran looked at him viciously, and shouted hoarsely: "Get out!" He pinched his temples with his fingertips until the phantom of the little boy melted into the darkness and disappeared.He stood up slowly, thinking numbly, since it's all here, let's put down the things before leaving.

Chen Ran moved his stiff body, and walked slowly to the door of Shen Yixiu's room. He couldn't help his heart beating faster, his mouth was dry, and he subconsciously pricked up his ears. There was faint chatter and laughter in the room, but there seemed to be nothing.

He took out the clothes and scarves, Shen Yixiu's favorite Daoxiang Village ox tongue cakes and hawthorn pot helmets, and put them at the door of the room. Just when he was about to stand up and leave, his phone rang suddenly.

His ringtone at that time was "Empire of Angels", and the magnificent music suddenly echoed in the quiet corridor, like a thunderclap on the ground.Chen Ran was startled, and hurriedly took out his mobile phone, the words "Brother Yixiu" on the screen stuck into his eyes like needles.

Just as he was about to hang up the phone, the door in front of him was slammed open.

Shen Yixiu was wearing a nightgown, revealing his tight chest muscles. There was a faint blush on his cheeks, and sweat was profuse on his forehead.At this moment, he was holding the mobile phone in one hand and leaning on the door frame with the other, frowning slightly, looking at Chen Ran with momentary astonishment and confusion.

"Why are you here?" Shen Yixiu asked.

Chen Ran raised his head and met his eyes. At no time in his life had he wished to completely disappear from the world more than now.He pursed his dry lips, stood up and said, "I'm sorry, I... bothered you..."

A protracted coquettish voice came from the room: "Brother Yixiu, what's wrong? You opened the door, and the cold wind came in..."

Chen Ran couldn't stay there for a second, he said vaguely: "It's cold outside,...you should go back quickly." Then he turned his head and ran towards the elevator.

Shen Yixiu said coldly behind him: "Stop."

Chen Ran didn't stop, he didn't even turn his head, but turned around the corner at the fastest speed, like fleeing from a wild beast that would fill him up at any time and tear him apart.He stood in front of the elevator, kept pressing the down button, panting heavily, as if the surrounding air had been sucked away suddenly.

There was a loud slamming door slamming in the corridor, and of course Shen Yixiu would not come after him.

……

Shen Yixiu slammed the door, exhaled, and sat down on the sofa with a gloomy face.Xiao Qiao sneaked a glance at him anxiously, thinking to herself why I am so unlucky, I can be wrong if I do nothing, and I can be unlucky if I don’t know anything.The corner of his mouth twitched, and he forced a smile: "Are you okay? Brother Yixiu..." After saying that, he walked up to wrap around Shen Yixiu.

Shen Yixiu suddenly lost interest, pushed him away calmly, and said coldly: "You go first, I'm a little tired."

Xiao Qiao was startled, and immediately changed into a cute and pitiful expression: "Did I do something wrong... to make you angry?"

Shen Yixiu gave him a faint smile, and said, "No. You go first, there will be opportunities for cooperation later, and I will find you."

Of course, Xiao Qiao is not blind. Speaking of this, is he still waiting for supper?He hurriedly got up and put on his clothes, thanked Shen Yixiu and said goodbye, and went out resentfully.

Shen Yixiu hesitated for a while, and finally picked up the phone to call Chen Ran, who turned off the phone.Shen Yixiu only felt an inexplicable evil fire rushing to the top of his head, he plucked his hair irritably, walked around the room a few times, and thought to himself, what happened to him?

He never denied that he was a flamboyant and domineering son. He would do anything to get someone he liked. Of course, most people didn't need him to use any means.In the past few years, there have been countless true and false lovers around him, those who play tricks on the occasion, those who exchange money and goods, and those who end up entangled and tearing up their faces. It is nothing new, but no one has ever made him so worried. He leaned against the window On the other side, I saw light snow falling from the dark sky, thinking that it was so cold outside, where would he go?

Shen Yixiu sighed softly, and persuaded himself like self-deprecating, it's better to look for it, and occasionally lowering your body to coax Xiao Qing'er is also sentimental.

He put on his clothes and opened the door, and when he saw the things Chen Ran put at the door, his heart felt as if he had been pinched by a small hand, and he was still moved.He took the big paper bag into the room, shook off the down jacket and the big scarf, and wrapped them all around his body.

When he went downstairs, Shen Yixiu called Chen Ran again, but the phone was still turned off. He thought angrily, anyway, I looked for it, and if I couldn't find it, don't blame me. Go wherever you like, and you deserve it for freezing to death.

But he still went to ask the front desk, and then asked the porter at the door, and the porter told him that a handsome young man ran over there just now.Shen Yixiu walked in the direction of his fingers, walking faster.

There was a thin layer of snow on the street, and there were hardly any people outside in the winter night, occasionally one or two cars would speed past Shen Yixiu, rolling up thin snowflakes.Where is Ran Ran?Shen Yixiu thought lonely, if he really wanted to go away for a while, he wouldn't be able to find it...

Shen Yixiu passed a crossroad and was hesitating whether to go back first. When he turned around, he caught a glimpse of Chen Ran standing under the streetlight at the corner with his hands in his pockets and his head slightly lowered.He immediately strode over and shouted anxiously, "Ran Ran!"

Chen Ran turned around, and saw that Shen Yixiu was already standing in front of him, looking down at himself, with warm eyes and a touch of reproach: "Why don't you answer the phone? Is it cold? You don't even wear a scarf..."

"The phone is out of battery." Chen Ran whispered.

Chen Ran's eyes were red, and his cheeks were flushed by the cold wind. His eyes were black and white, and they were as dazzling as crystals.Those eyes flickered in the dim yellow light of the street lamps, and lowered down.

Shen Yixiu took off his scarf, wrapped it around Chen Ran with a wave of his big hand, and held his icy face with both hands, and said softly: "Go back."

Chen Ran struggled slightly, and said in a low voice, "Be careful that people see you."

Shen Yixiu smiled loudly: "That must be tomorrow's entertainment headline."

Chen Ran still broke free from his hand, took a step back and stood with his head bowed, with dense snowflakes falling on his hair.

Shen Yixiu stared at him deeply for a moment, took a step forward, and asked softly, "Why are you standing here? How long do you plan to stand if I don't come?"

Chen Ran raised his head, his eyes were as blurred and deep as the night, and his voice was suddenly filled with grievance and choking, as if he had suddenly become a child who couldn't finish his homework and was afraid of being discovered: " I dare not go too far, I'm afraid you won't find me..."

A tiny thorn suddenly appeared in Shen Yixiu's heart, causing his flesh and blood to throb slightly.Small snowflakes all over the sky were blown by the wind and drifted obliquely on the two of them, countless small white spots in the cold light of the street lamp were dyed with a faint yellow halo.Shen Yixiu lightly brushed the snowflakes off Chen Ran's hair, and hugged him tightly into his arms.

Chen Ran closed his eyes in this familiar and warm embrace, and sniffed Shen Yixiu's breath greedily. He thought, such opportunities are running out.

When he uttered those humble words, he actually made a superior decision, he thought he had to leave Shen Yixiu, after he realized that he was about to fall in love with him.

☆, running away

After returning to the hotel, Chen Ran hesitated outside Shen Yixiu's room and did not go in. Shen Yixiu thought about it, and now his bed is still full of wars and sorrows after the war.He coughed lightly, and said in a delicate tone, "Let's open another room."

Chen Ran nodded and stood waiting for him in the corridor. A few minutes later, Shen Yixiu came back and took him to another room at the end of the corridor. Chen Ran followed him in and heard him say briskly: "Since you are here, I will Let's take you around Chongqing, tomorrow will be a holiday for the crew."

Chen Ran was noncommittal, put down her things, took off her coat, and went into the bathroom.He had just turned on the hot water when Shen Yixiu came in in his pajamas.

Chen Ran turned around, but before he could react, he was pushed on the washstand and kissed roughly.

Chen Ran was almost out of breath from his kiss, he struggled and turned his head, and said unhappily, "Aren't you tired?"

Shen Yixiu stared at him for a few seconds, then let go of his hand angrily, with an evil smile on his lips, and said contemptuously: "I'm not tired. The one just now is not as good as you." He said and kissed the corner of Chen Ran's mouth , blinked at him: "Hurry up, I'll wait for you."

That night, Shen Yixiu kept wanting it, but Chen Ran kept refusing it awkwardly. The two fought back and forth on the bed, but in the end Shen Yixiu didn't force him too much, and finally fell asleep in a daze.

When they woke up the next day, both of them acted as if nothing had happened, as if they had completely forgotten what happened last night.

Shen Yixiu really gave the crew a holiday and asked the driver to take them around. Fortunately, it was winter, so they were all greeted with scarves, hats and masks, so they were not too worried about being recognized.

They were eating small noodles in a small restaurant on the street. The enthusiastic proprietress asked Shen Yixiu why he was still wearing half of the mask while eating, and whether it was too cold in the restaurant. Chen Ran hurriedly said embarrassedly that he had a cold.

After eating a Dongzi old hot pot at night, Chen Ran felt that his internal organs were all burnt out, and he stuck out his tongue while yelling to go outside to eat snow.

Two people watched the night scene on the edge of the Jialing River, the mountain city was brightly lit, and the two rivers surrounded this three-dimensional magical city like a jade belt, and the bottom of the feet and the top of the head were indistinguishable.

Chen Ran's eyes were slightly blurred in the brilliance, Shen Yixiu put his hand on his shoulder, and he was talking about something, what are you talking about? ... Chen Ran was in a daze, and she became impatient when she heard Shen Yixiu's voice: "...What are you thinking about? Ran Ran? Let me ask you, where do you want to go tomorrow? We can take the cableway across the river, but there are too many people there Let's see if we can reserve a place... what else? What else do you want to do?"

Chen Ran thought for a while, smiled, and asked tentatively: "I heard that Chongqing's light rail is very interesting. It goes through the sky and underground, and even passes through residential buildings. Shall we go and sit? I think See if you can see someone else's TV from the car."

"Uh... this..." Shen Yixiu smiled helplessly: "You really make things difficult for me. But since you want to go, then let's go."

Chen Ran cheered happily, raised her head and kissed Shen Yixiu on the cheek.

The two of them really went to take the light rail the next day. Shen Yixiu wore a big down jacket, thick hat, cashmere scarf and big mask, wrapped himself up like a black bear, and wore a pair of plain glasses. He just went out with Chen Ran, who was dressed casually and lightly.

It was not rush hour, and there were not too many people on the light rail. The two of them were leaning against the corner of the car door. Shen Yixiu wished that he was an invisible person. Even so, there were still many eyes with unclear meanings looking at them intentionally or unintentionally. How much did he dress up? It's a little too much, Chen Ran is too good-looking, and the two of them are so close... Although with Shen Yixiu's status in the world, he doesn't have to be afraid of anything, but he still doesn't want to trouble him.Chen Ran, on the other hand, was elated, and his eyes lingered out of the car window.

The light rail finally entered the ground from the sky, Chen Ran looked away, looked up at Shen Yixiu with a smile, with a bad expression, as if he was thinking of some bad idea.After a while, he suddenly laughed softly: "Brother Yixiu, do you dare to kiss me here?"

Shen Yixiu was stunned for a moment, Chen Ran was rarely coquettish like this, most of the time, he was a docile and obedient cat, he would come if you asked him to come, but he would never take the initiative to pester you to flatter you, today What's going on here?Are you having fun?

Shen Yixiu narrowed his eyes, feeling strange but inexplicably excited, in this closed carriage, under the gaze of so many people, kiss him?

The next moment, Shen Yixiu put his arms around Chen Ran's waist, Chen Ran's eyes were full of excitement, he didn't even wait for Shen Yixiu to lower his head, but quickly raised his head, and lightly bit Shen Yixiu's lips through the mask.

The slight pain was like a small arrow, hitting the softest part of Shen Yixiu's heart, and it melted his heart in an instant, so that he didn't even have time to laugh at himself, how can a 30-year-old be as excited as he was when he was a boy...

Shen Yixiu hugged Chen Ran into his arms as if no one was around, resting his chin on top of his head, he suddenly thought in his heart that Chen Ran has been by his side for more than half a year, why does it feel like less than a day has passed.

In the evening, Chen Ran didn't reject him anymore, and even took the initiative to be a little abnormal. He tried his best to cater to everything, and even took the initiative to give him a blowjob. This was never before. In Shen Yixiu's impression, Chen Ran has always resisted this If he said yes, Chen Ran would do it too, but it was always as if he had completed the task, reluctantly.In the extreme excitement, Shen Yixiu didn't have time to think about what was abnormal, he just unconsciously pinched Chen Ran's bare shoulder tightly, so hard that he left bruised finger marks on Chen Ran's shoulder.

The two worked for half the night, until they were exhausted at last, and then they hugged each other and fell asleep.

The next morning, the driver sent Chen Ran to the airport. Shen Yixiu finally returned to the set under the threat of Lin Yihui's series of fatal calls, invincible soft and hard foam, and the threat of flying to Chongqing immediately if he didn't start work.

Before leaving, Shen Yixiu said to Chen Ran tenderly: "It will be finished in about ten days, you go back and wait for me obediently."

Chen Ran smiled, took a deep look at him, and said nothing.

……

On the sixth day after Chen Ran left, the weather in Chongqing turned warmer, and the snow that had fallen before had almost melted.When Shen Yixiu returned to the hotel at night, he passed the intersection where he found Chen Ran, the street lamps still gave off an ambiguous light, but there were no more snowflakes flying in the sky, and the ground became muddy.Shen Yixiu suddenly missed Chen Ran very much, so he called him before he could return to the hotel, but the connection there was not as fast as usual, but kept ringing for a long time.Call again, still no answer.Shen Yixiu threw the phone aside, thinking he might have gone to take a shower.

He went back to the hotel and continued to make calls, the busy beeping sound repeated over and over again, Shen Yixiu couldn't sit still, he paced back and forth in the room irritably, did he bring his mobile phone when he went out?Lost your phone?Could it be sick?Will something happen to him living alone? ...

At eleven o'clock, countless phone calls were made, but still no one answered, Shen Yixiu cursed in a low voice, and called Lin Yihui.

"Go to Lilac Apartment, I can't get through to Chen Ran." Shen Yixiu said bluntly after the call was made.

"Hello? Is that brother Yixiu? Yihui is playing with Da Mao in the living room. I'll call him." There was a lazy and dissatisfied male voice over there.

"Oh, it's the weekend. Please call him for me." Shen Yihui was a little embarrassed, and he didn't like him very much on weekends.

Immediately there were sounds of walking, dogs barking, Lin Yihui's bluffing, and weekend's disapproving laughter.

"Hey, boss, what's the matter with you?" Lin Yihui said carelessly.

"I can't find Chen Ran anymore, help me to look."

There was a moment of silence, Shen Yixiu could think of Lin Yihui with his eyes closed and his lips pursed with his toes, the unhappy expression on his face that he wanted to kill but couldn't do anything.

"...He may have just fallen asleep, or the kid forgot to bring his mobile phone when he went out to play. It's so cold in the middle of the night..." Lin Yihui said patiently, suppressing the anger in his heart.

"Go and have a look, please. If you don't go, I'll fly back right now." Shen Yixiu interrupted him.

Lin Yihui: "..."

Lin Yihui parked the car at the entrance of the building, got out of the car and slammed the door hard, holding back his anger, cursed in a low voice, looked up at Chen Ran's room on the seventh floor, but couldn't see anything in the dark.

"Damn it, I'm going to look for you when you go out to play in the middle of the night..." He wrapped his coat tightly and walked quickly into the corridor.

He rang the doorbell first, but of course there was no one there, so he had to use the spare key to open the door. When Shen Yixiu was not in Beijing, he would leave a key for Sun Yang or Lin Yihui.

As soon as he entered the door and turned on the light, Shen Yixiu's phone came chasing him: "Are you there?" The voice sounded very urgent.

"It's here," Lin Yihui said impatiently, "There is no one at home, and the phone is on the table, so I guess we should go out and play."

He looked around while talking, the room was clean and tidy, but it was... a little too clean, even the dining chairs were neatly placed under the dining table, just like a student dormitory for inspection, There is no atmosphere of ordinary life at all.

With a thought in his heart, he walked into the bedroom, opened the closet, and saw that the usual place for the suitcase was empty.

"Impossible, I have long stopped letting him go out alone in the middle of the night, he won't go to any night club." Shen Yixiu was a little out of breath on the other side of the phone, wishing he could fly over with his wings.

"He's three years old? Then listen to you?" Lin Yihui sarcastically said, "Why don't you let him go out to play when you're not here?" He looked through the closet again and found that it was mostly empty, and the thick clothes worn this season were almost gone. .

"...Brother Hui, can you wait over there for a while?" Shen Yixiu softened his tone.

Shen Yixiu hadn't been called this name for many years. Lin Yihui didn't realize that he was calling him, but when he realized it, he couldn't help but feel a sense of anger, hum!Since having Chen Ran, Shen Yixiu has been very abnormal!

"I'll wait here, won't he be scared to death when he comes back later? I don't know how to slander you at that time! I'll go back first, at worst, come back tomorrow, okay?! He is such a big man, what can he do? Only a few Does the hour matter? You have to wait 24 hours to call the police anyway!" Lin Yihui said into the phone like a cannonball.

There was no movement for a long time, Lin Yihui thought the phone was disconnected, Shen Yixiu finally said: "Okay, you go home first. I will call again."

Lin Yihui breathed a sigh of relief, and said a few words of comfort before hanging up the phone.

Driving all the way home, Lin Yihui's face was as calm as water, thinking that it would be good for Chen Ran to leave, but he had long thought that although he was silent, he was not a fuel-efficient lamp, and staying by Shen Yixiu's side would be a disaster.

He would rather Shen Yixiu live among thousands of flowers than to stay for even a minute longer for Chen Ran, this restless little leaf.

Best to never come back.

☆, coercion

This was the third night after Chen Ran left. He was sitting in the McDonald's near the small hotel flipping through the newly bought small mobile phone. He didn't have much money with him, and he didn't take any money or gifts from Shen Yixiu.He struggled for a long time on whether to take the old mobile phone, because there were too many messages with Shen Yixiu in it, he was a little bit reluctant, but in the end he decided to keep it.

He used the fake certificate to change a small hotel for a day, thinking that the money on his body should be enough to rent a house and find a job.In the past half a year, he lived a life of parasites who got nothing for nothing, and he was actually very uncomfortable. When Shen Yixiu was not around, he was very bored, thinking about going back to the bar to sing, but before he practiced, he was severely criticized by Shen Yixiu, and he resolutely refused. Allow him to go to nightclubs and the like again.

Chen Ran had no choice but to take part-time jobs with fixed working hours, or online part-time jobs. Shen Yixiu acquiesced to these. Later, seeing that he was bored, he asked a good teacher to learn guitar and piano for him, and said that he would not be too busy after a while. At that time, find someone to take Chen Ran to open a coffee shop or something...

Chen Ran habitually flipped through Yixiu's Weibo. He must have known that he was gone. At first, Chen Ran was worried that he would look for him all over the world in a panic.But now, he feels that he is simply overthinking himself, he is just a plaything of Shen Yixiu, he will leave as soon as he leaves, and just keep another one, he makes a self-deprecating smile, because he thinks too much...

Pulling to refresh, Shen Yixiu popped up a new Weibo, which was about the "Children from the Stars" public welfare activity for autistic children. Shen Yixiu squatted halfway, surrounded by a group of children with different expressions...

The time to send Weibo is exactly 19:14.

Chen Ran's heart skipped a beat, it must be just a coincidence, it has nothing to do with Sisi or his birthday, he comforted himself like this, but he still couldn't help thinking wildly.

Before he left, he went to see Tian Sisi. Sisi had already adapted to life in the care center and looked good.Chen Ran knew that it was impossible for him to take Sisi away. The care center only recognized Shen Yixiu as a nominal guardian, and autistic patients had rigid attachments to familiar environments and consistent behavior patterns. If he insisted on taking Sisi away, It wouldn't do any good to the little girl who was just getting better, not to mention that he was too busy to take care of himself and couldn't afford to take care of this poor little girl.So he just stayed with Sisi for a day, and then gave a large amount of cash and bank cards to Sisi's guardian teacher Luo Qian.

Teacher Luo was very puzzled, and it was completely against the rules. She insisted on not accepting it, and asked suspiciously what was wrong.

Chen Ran didn't want to explain too much, but only said that the money was reserved for Sisi, so that even if Shen Yixiu didn't care about her, it would be enough for her treatment and living expenses for quite a long time.After finishing speaking, Chen Ran left in a hurry, and asked Mr. Luo not to tell him about his visit before Shen Yixiu came to him.

Luo Qian vaguely knew about the relationship between Shen Yixiu and Chen Ran, and she finally agreed to hand over the money to the center for safekeeping, and see how to deal with it when Mr. Shen comes.

Chen Ran bet that even if Shen Yixiu got angry again, he wouldn't do anything to the child. Could it be that he made a wrong bet on this?

Chen Ran couldn't sleep all night. When the sky was dim, he told himself in a daze that it was just a coincidence. Shen Yixiu often does some public welfare activities, and the autism project is not a day or two. Besides, he himself Where is it so important that Shen Yixiu needs to threaten a child?It's ridiculous.

But Sisi is really important to him, he owes that little girl too much, and he feels that even if he dies, he can't pay it back.

Chen Ran shook off all the negative thoughts and decided to go out and look for a house to live in, and also to start looking for a job.

In the evening, he was eating fast food in the small shabby house he just rented, and went to Shen Yixiu’s Weibo again by accident. At about 7:20, Shen Yixiu’s last Weibo was updated 6 minutes ago. It was a street view. At night, the city lights are blurry, and there are row upon row of shops on the bar street. In the middle of the photo is the wooden door of a small bar, with three words on the lintel signboard: "Old friends return".

Shen Yixiu wrote on Weibo: "Meeting Jun for the first time is like returning from an old friend. This must be a bar with a story."

Chen Ran silently put down her phone, it was also a coincidence that she couldn't lie to herself anymore. "Old Friends Return" is the bar where he used to sing, and the boss there, Old Wei, used to care and take care of him like a big brother, and he was the best of his few friends in this city.After he got into an accident with Shen Yixiu, he paid Lao Wei a new car, and met him a few times, but he didn't say anything. What can Chen Ran tell him?What do you have the face to say to him?

Chen Ran hesitated whether to call Shen Yixiu, Shen Yixiu's Weibo was clearly sent to him, but what did he want? !

In the end, Chen Ran didn't make a call, and Chen Ran persisted until the fifth day. Early in the evening, he started to refresh Weibo over and over again with his mobile phone, as if he was waiting for the final judgment.

"Although the place is small and the scenery is nice, let's shoot the next film here." Just at 7:14, Shen Yixiu's Weibo was updated. When Chen Ran saw the picture, he stood up abruptly. It was his hometown, a Jiangnan A small town with beautiful scenery, the small river in the picture is right in front of his house.

Although Chen Ran's parents divorced when he was a child, and he had no contact with them after he fled to Beijing, they were his biological parents after all, and they still live in that small county.

Shen Yixiu!Chen Ran was so angry that he grabbed his hair violently. He understood that he had overestimated his weight in Shen Yixiu's heart, but he also underestimated Shen Yixiu's high self-esteem and desire to control everything that must be under his control.He, Chen Ran, is Shen Yixiu's private property, how could he just leave without permission?

Chen Ran's will almost collapsed, and what Shen Yixiu showed him were all things he cared about. He thought he had nothing in this world, but in the end he still had something to worry about. As long as he still has something to worry about, Shen Yixiu will definitely win.

He couldn't sleep, and couldn't eat, the only thing he thought was that Shen Yixiu must have not found him yet, if he didn't find him, just look for him, even if he died, he would definitely not take the initiative to go back.

At the same time on the sixth day, Shen Yixiu was too lazy to compose the far-fetched text, and directly posted an inexplicable photo on Weibo, the dark corridor, the mottled white wall, the dilapidated door... that was in front of him. Taken outside the door.

Chen Ran was frightened. He felt that he could even hear the vague breathing and footsteps of the person who took this photo.Fear is like an invisible giant hand, tightly grasping his overwhelmed heart, making his back feel chilly, his hands and feet are cold, and he is in excruciating pain.

With his last will, Chen Ran forced himself to pack his things. He put the two days' rent on the table, sent a text message to the landlord, and left the house immediately.

He wandered aimlessly on the winter streets like a lonely ghost.He felt a pair of eyes staring at him all the time, and he was like a clumsy child who only covered his face when playing hide-and-seek, thinking that the whole world could not see him, but in those omnipresent eyes, he was like a joke.

In the end, he was almost frozen unconscious, and he thought bitterly and self-deprecatingly, even if he died, don’t freeze to death. A healthy man was frozen to death late at night on the streets of Beijing. This news is so disharmonious. He can’t hold back the motherland’s capital.

Chen Ran laughed after thinking about it. He felt that his brain must be broken.

He just found a small hotel and slept