back to his time

monster like me

I stayed in An Zhizong's house for several days.

Not because of how comfortable this place is, on the contrary, this place can be described as a kennel.

There is no one to clean it all year round, and it is located in the darkest area with the weakest light. It is still on the first floor. The place is not humid, and the room smells musty. If you stay for a long time, you will get sick.

In this room, I am always immersed in one thing.

There is no familiar home, no parents who are always by my side, let alone a group of cronies, life is extraordinarily leisurely and lonely.Without what comes with Su Fei itself, I seem to be nothing.

I sighed and lay on my side on the bed bored.

This room is full of An Zhizong's obsession and his aura.

In the days to come, what should I do?

In just a few days, I have spent hundreds of dollars, and the thin layer of cash has been reduced faster than I expected.

Since I was born, I have never tried to cook with my hands.Three meals a day, no parents, no chef, so I got used to ordering takeaway.From 50 yuan per meal at the beginning, it gradually decreased to 13 yuan per meal, which is the cheapest meal in this area.

However, no matter how frugal I am, the money that should be less is still less and less.If this continues, I will starve to death when the money runs out.

Faced with the oppression of reality, I had to go out to find a job to support myself.

Even if I am an uneducated kid from a rich family, I can be regarded as returning from a foreign country with a layer of gold plating, and my academic qualifications are impeccable.So I thought to myself that finding a job to support myself in this place was a low-hanging fruit.

However, I was once again brutally hit by reality.

I submitted a few resumes on the Internet, spent a lot of time on the resume, and touted myself as an impeccable outstanding talent.This trick, when I was Su Fei in the past, was tried and tested, and I succeeded many times.

Soon, I didn't have to wait long, and companies called me one after another the next day.

I smiled and went to the interview with my resume.

However, the interviews with four companies in a row made my face more and more gloomy.From being smug at the beginning to being dejected at the end, I walked out of the gates of the companies I applied for in despair and despair.

In the eyes of the interviewers of each employer, there was no concealment of contempt and ridicule towards An Zhizong's body.When they saw my so-called resume, they praised me with hype.However, when they learned that I did not have any proof to support this resume, the contempt in their eyes deepened.

In the end, I was driven out of it like a dog.

I overestimated An Zhizong's body, and perfectly copied everything about Su Fei to An Zhizong's body.However, An Zhizong is not Su Fei after all, and now I will never have Su Fei's life.

I covered my face, leaned against the wall, and smiled wryly.

Without Sophie, I am nothing.

For the first time in my life, I have done something so seriously, and I have been busy all day for this so-called job, but it turned out to be nothing.No matter how I think about this result, I feel very unwilling.

After leaving the last company I interviewed for, I was walking on the street in a daze, with no destination at all.Regarding the future, I always feel that my eyes are darkened at present, and I can't see where the direction is at all.

I don't know how long I've been wandering on the street, but when I looked up, the street lights on the street were all on.

The street at night is busier than it looks during the day.

Colorful neon lights, three or five people in groups, shoulder to shoulder with each other, some go to the bar after get off work to drink a few glasses of wine, some seize the opportunity to date with their lovers, and some have family gatherings.Each seems indescribably busy and fulfilling.

and I?

Alone on the street, not knowing where to go.

The more lively the crowd is, the more pathetic and pathetic it is for me.Since childhood, I have been the favored child of heaven, and I have never tasted such a setback.This taste tastes extremely bitter.

When I faced my reflection in the floor-to-ceiling windows of the department store and lamented myself, my internal organs couldn't take it anymore, and at this moment I let out several screams.

I haven't eaten anything since I ate a box lunch before going out in the morning. It's normal to be hungry at this time.

With the little cash left in my pocket, I frowned.

I have been to this area several times when I was Sufi.The prices of restaurants here are generally not very expensive, but for me who is currently so poor that I only have a few hundred dollars, it is already too expensive to eat.

From the street to the end of the street, walking back and forth on this street several times, the waiters in all the western restaurants smiled at me very kindly, but I still couldn't find a fast food restaurant with a cheaper price.

After several twists and turns, I finally chose a pastry shop that I would never enter on weekdays.

Ten minutes later, I was sitting by the fountain in the middle of the square, drinking a bottle of cold mineral water, nibbling on a sandwich that cost a few dollars, and biting dryly.

Bread is a kind of food. As early as the few years abroad, I have slowly developed from initial curiosity to boredom.

No matter how much he looks like a foreign gentleman on the outside, he still can't get rid of the Chinese habits in his heart.I am used to eating three meals with rice.Things like bread, I thought they were delicious when I first ate them, but when I ate too much, they tasted like chewy wax. The taste is definitely not as delicious as those of fragrant rice and noodles.

Just as I was nibbling on the sandwich, the big screen in the square has entered the time of music on demand every night.

When the hoarse and deep voice that belonged to that person suddenly sounded around the square, my body, which was sitting in the middle of the square at that time, was already stiff.The hand holding the bread froze.

There are a lot of people in the square, and there are people sitting like me scattered around the fountain, and there are also people standing in the open square with hippie smiles and playing around without knowing the world.But at this moment, they are also like me, their eyes are fixed on the big screen.

I held my breath and looked at the person above the screen cautiously.

At the host's invitation, that person slowly appeared above the big screen.

With a smile that belongs to him, there is a hint of childishness under the gentle smile, and his feminine features are delicately displayed under the bright light.

Miao Xiu put her slender legs casually, propped her chin with one hand, leaned on the sofa, and looked lazily at the host.Regarding the host's question, he seemed to be casual but thought carefully before answering slowly.

"So, Miao Xiu, what is the meaning of your writing this song? It always feels like it was published for a specific person."

The host blinked at Miao Xiu with a smile.

Miao Xiu smiled, put her hand on her chin, and thought for a while.

"Well... yes, for a very special person. Thank you for all these years, he is still by my side."

When the host wanted to ask more questions, Miao Xiu vaguely dismissed them.

My hands were clasped with tension.

I've heard this song from a long time ago.

It wasn't when Miao Xiu became famous, but when he was an ordinary son a few years ago.

Sophie, let me sing a song for you.

Why are you singing to me?I don't like to hear it.

It's okay, just listen.

Some words, unknowingly, rushed into my ears suddenly.

Under what circumstances and when did Miao Xiu say those words?

I frowned, trying to remember.

Some things from a long time ago have been gradually forgotten since I returned to China. Now that I think about it, it seems that many years have passed.

In fact, as a proud child of heaven, my life is not as smooth as others see it on the surface.Just as my parents have strict requirements on me, they have been intervening in my life since I was a child.Growing up under such a repressive education, I don't know when, I developed a rebellious heart, and I was always preparing to rebel against my parents.

Finally, on the day of adulthood, on my birthday, I finally tore off the face of a good child.

I didn't go to the birthday party my parents prepared for me.Instead, I went to the underground races and raced like crazy.Then he got drunk in the bar, hugging left and right in his arms, and brought a woman he didn't know back home.

In front of my parents, I will respond to their questioning.

From that day on, I always habitually resisted my parents' decisions, stabbing others hard like a hedgehog all the time.

Until one day, my father couldn't stand me anymore and ordered me to go abroad for reform in a disheartened manner.

My father cut off any chance that I might have sex every night and kept a tight grip on my property.In the first few years abroad, I had a very difficult life.

Unfamiliar with the place, he was cut off from the funds by his father, forced to move out of the apartment, and rented a cheaper house, but met a thief.After the thief passed, the rats swept across my house rampantly, eating away everything that could be bitten inside.

In school, there will always be people who stir up trouble.And I always seem to be at the center of things.Every time I come out of school, I always have a bruised face.

This predicament lasted until the arrival of Miao Xiu.

Miao Xiu and my family are family friends, and their family background is rich and well-known in the local area.Unlike me, he grew up under the pampering of the whole family.

But even so, he still looks like a modest gentleman.There is nothing wrong with his behavior, he seems to be a born noble son.

"Sophie, I'm here."

At that time, he appeared in front of me like a god descending.With a consistent smile, he took me back to his apartment in a mess.

The arrival of Miao Xiu has greatly facilitated me.

Miao Xiu has an excellent cooking skill. With him, I don't need to bite those hard bread at all. I just open my eyes and eat every day, and eat when I'm hungry.

Those years abroad, accompanied by Miao Xiu, lived like a dream.

I touched my face, pulled my stiff face, and smiled wryly.

I was like an emotionless monster.

Those past experiences were simply forgotten by me.I even did those things to Miao Xiu like a pig or a dog.

Shouldn't I be moved to tears for Miao Xiu?