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Chapter 34 In order to forget

Lin Rong turned around and looked in my direction.

When he found out that it was me, he had a strange expression on his face, and his eyes were complicated.

"An Zhizong, so it's you."

He smiled, with a hint of sadness on his face.His face was pale, and he was comparable to Miao Xiu's mother.

I always felt that Lin Rong looked a little strange at the moment, but I stood by the door and looked at him from a distance, and I couldn't say it was strange for a while.

It wasn't until I approached slowly and walked to the sofa that I realized it.

My eyes were fixed on Lin Rongchu's legs lying on the sofa.The leg was well wrapped with gauze.

No wonder Lin Rong just sat on the sofa without moving, and kept watching me approaching him.It's not that he doesn't move, but that he can't move his feet.

"Young Master Rong, your leg...how did you get it?"

I suddenly remembered that when I was in N City, during the video call with Lin Rong, he seemed to be sick too, coughing non-stop within a few minutes of talking.Is that cough related to this leg injury?

Lin Rong's expression was much worse when I asked this question, and his face was dark.He fell silent.

I didn't speak because of embarrassment.

The biggest advantage of the single room ward is the quietness, but this quietness becomes a disadvantage when everyone lives in silence, making the already awkward atmosphere even more awkward.

In the ward, there was only a little noise from the fan of the air conditioner standing upright.

After a while, I heard Lin Rong cough a few times, and then I heard him speak.

"I fell down the stairs the day before yesterday and broke my leg. I'll be fine after surgery, and I should be able to leave the hospital in a few days."

"Why didn't you tell me and Qixiu? I felt strange, why haven't I seen you these days, and no one listened to your calls."

I said hastily.

Lin Rong laughed when he heard my answer.

"The phone was also broken. I originally wanted my assistant to help me buy a new phone, but after thinking about it, I'd better forget about it. Why don't you take this opportunity and take a good rest for a few days."

Lin Rong clasped his hands, leaned his head back, and rested his head on his arms.His expression was relaxed and relaxed, as if the dark-faced person just now was not him.

I didn't know how to pick up the topic, so I was stunned for a while.But he heard Lin Rong say again.

"An Zhizong, I have been thinking about it for a long time. You are not An Zhizong. Hehe, you may think I am funny, but your behavior seems to be different from the An Zhizong I knew before. .”

Lin Rong didn't turn his head to look at me, he had a smile on his face, as if he was talking about something very casual.I, who was standing beside him, became stiff after hearing his words, and I didn't seem to know where to place my arms.

"is it?"

I was stunned for a while before replying hesitantly.

Lin Rong didn't seem to notice my strangeness, he continued.

"Well, it's really different. At first I thought it was my own delusion. You know what? I've been watching you for a month before you left the hospital. You know my relationship with you is what?"

When Lin Rong said this, he finally turned his head and looked at me.

The smile at the corner of his mouth was still there, but the smile didn't go straight to the depths of his eyes, and his eyes were clearly probing.

Because of his words, I suddenly thought of one thing.

Because he was scared by a dog when he climbed the wall and fell unconscious, he was admitted to the hospital. In the first two months, Lin Rong's appearance was completely different from what he is now, completely insane.He would visit me in the hospital from time to time.But the next month, he didn't show up again.

So, during the month when he didn't show up, he has actually been secretly observing me in the dark, watching my every move. Is it understood in this way?

I'm not afraid of being suspected by Lin Rong that I'm not An Zhizong. I didn't intend to appear in front of everyone as An Zhizong.At the beginning, it was just because I was not familiar with the surrounding situation, and I was afraid that Lin Rong would have something to do with An Zhizong. Rong.

I also don't think my clumsy excuse can fool Lin Rong.Lin Rong is a smart man, he has been in business for a long time, and he is cunning and cunning. Even if he can be deceived for a lifetime, he cannot be deceived for a lifetime.

He can doubt me so quickly. In the final analysis, it is not so much that he is superior, but that I have no intention of pretending to be someone else.

I can't answer Lin Rong's question.

Therefore, I kept silent, stood where I was, raised my eyes to meet his gaze, and let him look at me gracefully.

Lin Rong didn't seem to expect me to be able to answer his question, he smiled, pointed to his head, and said.

"You said that you have forgotten many things, but you don't seem to have forgotten Jun Qixiu and Miao Xiu. After you learned my name from Miao Xiu, you were not surprised. On the contrary, you I'm very confused. Obviously, you seem to know me. And you said earlier that you don't know who I am, isn't this statement quite contradictory?"

I smiled, sat down on the single sofa next to him, and re-examined Lin Rong.

During the period of working with him, Lin Rong let me know in his own way that he is not a waste at the mercy of others.

I thought about it and asked again.

"Well, based on this alone, what do you want to explain?"

Lin Rong changed another posture, supported his chin with one hand, glanced at me with half a smile, and moved away again.

"The An Zhizong I know is lazy, short-sighted, and stupid. He was deceived by his father for so many years, and he was so poor that he could hardly survive. He didn't even think of starting from his father. What about you? , but you used me to investigate your father, and even stole a sum of money from your parents. It seems that your mind has cleared up a lot in an instant. And what is the strangest thing about you, do you know?"

I shook my head, signaling him to continue.

Lin Rong suddenly leaned his upper body forward, shortening the distance between him and me.His hand was suddenly placed on my thigh, and when I wanted to dodge, he had already pinched the base of my thigh forcefully, and the other hand grabbed my arm, forcing me to be temporarily unable to move.

I had a puzzled look on my face, I couldn't figure out what he was going to do, so I could only stare at him.

Lin Rong smiled happily.

"An Zhizong is gay, he is the same as me, we all like men. But you are not, you are very repulsive, you even want to beat me up, you even think I am disgusting to you, so disgusting that you spit on me directly. This is something that An Zhizong never dared to do and would never do."

When I left Lin Rong's ward, he said a word.

"I, and An Zhizong are bed partners. However, I don't like him. I like you better, because you look like a person."

There seem to be many layers of meaning in this sentence.

I couldn't help but look at him a few more times, but Lin Rong smiled and waved goodbye to me.

I hail a taxi at the gate of the hospital.

When I got in the car, I was still thinking about what Lin Rong said just now.

Sometimes it seems that bystanders can see better than those in the game.Jun Qixiu in this life has been with me for two years, but his emotional foundation must be stronger than Lin Rong, an outsider, but he can't tell the biggest difference between me and An Zhizong, but what about Lin Rong?On the contrary, he pointed out the biggest contradiction between the two of us.

I don't like men, so Miao Xiu will become the biggest tragic figure.

An Zhizong likes men, if he were me, Miao Xiu might not be what he is now.

But Lin Rong's final conclusion to me made me dumbfounded.

Although he didn't think I was An Zhizong, he actually thought that An Zhizong and I might be twins. An Zhizong probably went somewhere, so I temporarily impersonated him.

There are many contradictions in his theory, so that in the end, he got himself involved and didn't know how to solve it.

When I got back to the apartment I was renting, the phone in my pocket rang.

I took out my phone, looked at the caller ID on it, and then pressed the connect button.

The caller was Miao Xiu.

"Fei, can you come and stay with me?"

Miao Xiu's voice was hoarse and low, obviously too tired to speak.

This was the first call that Miao Xiu took the initiative to call me after a week.

I froze for a moment before responding.

"Well. Are you home?"

"kindness."

Another simple word.

When I went to find Miao Xiu, he half-closed his eyes and opened the door.

When I saw his appearance, I stood still for a while.

His hair was disheveled, and the suit he had ironed upright was crumpled at the moment, and the jacket was half off, leaving one sleeve for the jacket.The bow tie was loosened a little, but still not completely undone.

This is the second time I have seen Miao Xiu who is so slovenly.The first time I saw him like this was in my previous life, after his father passed away, when he was drunk.

"Fei, you are finally here."

I haven't seen each other for many days, Miao Xiu's attitude towards me is a little more intimate than before, and even the address is changed to the previous name.

The word Afei, uttered from Miao Xiu's deep voice, has an indescribable sexy, soft, like coquettish and casual calling.This ambiguous name is even more to my taste.

My hands trembled, and after a long time, I stretched out my hand, took off his half-taken coat, and untied his tie.

Miao Xiu lay on top of me, allowing me to serve him.

By the time I completely undressed him, he was already hugging my waist, lying on my shoulders, and fell asleep.

I stared at his sleeping side face for a long time, and in a strange way, I placed a light kiss on his smooth and plump forehead, and then kissed his bright red lips. When I realized it, Miao Xiu has already opened her eyes, and put her arms around my neck, deepening the kiss.

A few days later-

I went to the hospital again.

When An Zhizong hadn't fully given a plan to save Miaoxiu's mother, I had to make a plan for myself in advance, and it would be better to investigate the situation myself first.

I took some gifts and went to visit Xia Miaoxiu's mother.

Wang Xianghua's spirit is a lot more fatigued than the previous few days. When talking to her, sometimes she is often out of state, her eyes wander, and she seems to be looking at other places.

I tentatively asked Wang Xianghua a few questions, but her attitude was very negative and she didn't want to talk much.

Although Miao Xiu's mother would be hit harder because of Miao Xiu's father's death, but Wang Xianghua's appearance is indeed a bit strange.

I have to know what is going on with Wang Xianghua now.

With this question in mind, I went to see Wang Xianghua's attending doctor.

Because the elevator was under maintenance and there were too many people in the other elevator, I simply chose to take the stairs.

As soon as he reached the floor he wanted to go to and pushed open the door of the safe passage, he heard a familiar voice.

The door to this safe passage is in a very dark corner, at the end of this floor.And if I want to get out of this safe door to the doctor's office, I have to go through a small room in the middle separated by a door panel.

I put my hand on the doorknob, and hesitated for a moment.

This voice is Lin Rong's voice.

I hesitated, but leaned against the door and looked out of the small room through the glass window.

But, when I looked, I saw an embarrassing picture.

Lin Rong was kissing a man. This man was wearing a white coat. He was obviously a doctor from this hospital.

In less than a while, Lin Rong had let go of the man.

"In this way, you know how I feel? I love you very much, don't you always know?"

The doctor turned his back to me, and I couldn't see his face clearly, but his words came to my ears clearly.

"But you and I are both men, don't you think this is disgusting?"

These words sound a bit familiar, as if I have heard them somewhere.

Lin Rong pinched the man's chin and smiled.

"So what? Just because you like women doesn't mean you don't like men. The proportion of homosexuals in the world is very small, but bisexuality exceeds 30.00%. You don't want to admit that you like men, but you obviously treat me I have feelings. When I kiss you, I can feel that you are happy, and you don't reject me. Isn't that enough?"

"I have liked you for ten years and one month. You don't accept me, so I used to hang all kinds of men in front of you. Aren't you very angry? You hate my contact with other people, but Don't allow me to like you, so, do you think it's fair?"

You say you don't like men, but you hate my contact with other men, do you think that's fair?

I clenched my hand tightly on the doorknob.

This was what Miao Xiu said back then.

After he got drunk, he confessed to me.

It turned out that this doctor was the one Lin Rong had mentioned, the man I resembled him.

"How long do you want to stand here?"

I don't know how long it took, my knees became sore from standing, and my scattered consciousness suddenly gathered back into the cage when Lin Rong's words came.

"you……"

I suddenly ran out of words.

Lin Rong was still holding his cane, and I followed behind him, walked out of the safe passage, and came to the door of the small room.

The doctor who was standing here just now has left.

Lin Rong lit a cigarette but didn't smoke it. He just held it between his fingers and let the smoke disperse in the air.

"You heard it all."

"kindness."

Lin Rong said again.

"Am I disgusting? Obviously others don't like it, but I insist on leaning in."

I was silent, took the cigarette that Lin Rong gave me, but didn't have any intention to smoke.

Lin Rong glanced at me and smiled again, more helpless in the smile.

"Do you think he looks like you? I kissed other men, and he saw him throw up. He kept pointing at my mouth and saying disgusting. He also asked me why I always pester me .Just find a second man to like. If I can like someone else, why would I abuse myself?"

I was stunned, looking at Lin Rong in front of me with a dazed expression, I always felt that his appearance and Miao Xiu's appearance gradually overlapped.

He smiled brightly at me, but his expression looked like he was about to cry. "Even if he doesn't like it, I will force him to like me. I just know that if I don't fight for it, I will never be able to forget him in this life."

All of a sudden, some things that are not expected in normal times are suddenly connected together and smoothly strung together into a line.

So, Miao Xiu, did you take the initiative to force yourself to get close to me again in order to forget me?

The hand holding the cigarette was clenched tightly, and the veins on the back of the hand were bulging.

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