I only like the world, not you

The author has something to say: _(:3」∠)_I came back from playing at Fa Xiaojia for two days, my glasses haven’t been equipped with new ones yet, I can’t see the computer screen clearly now TAT then don’t think Su Xiao is too narrow-minded. In fact, alas... _(:3」∠)_ I feel sorry for Su Xiao too... Another chapter that is not very pleasant, or a transitional chapter, just read it, you know Su Meizi just hates Lu Ningqi, because this article tells me that I only like this world, not you _(:3」∠)_ So there must be a transition, don’t worry, this article is not bloody, just stick to it live. . .In addition, these chapters were basically written a while ago, and I have been very busy recently, so I didn't check them much when I wrote them. I guess there are many typos and the like. Let's change them after the whole code is finished. . . . qwq Thank you for insisting on seeing the current friends!

At that time, Su Xiao suddenly hated why Mrs. Lu was with Mr. Lu. If they weren't together, maybe they wouldn't have to move away. If they didn't, maybe she could live with her grandmother for a few more years, and she Spend more time with her.She had never felt that Lu Ningqi and Mr. Lu were such an eyesore for a moment.

Not long after that, Su Xiao entered the second semester of the third year of junior high school. He was very busy with his studies. In fact, he was not very busy. He just used the excuse that he was busy and didn't want to contact Lu Ningqi. long hair.

Mrs. Lu has always thought that girls still look good with long hair, so she has always let Su Xiao wear long hair. When she was in elementary school, she lived with her grandmother, and her grandmother often combed her hair. The old man's strength is always moderate. , Sometimes it hurts to comb her, she complained a little unhappy, grandma always laughed and said she was too delicate.

It's all right now, anyway, no one will comb her hair anymore, so I just cut off her long hair.

But many things always backfired. Su Xiao hid from Lu Ningqi, but he couldn't hide from the school and arranged for the two schools to go on a spring outing together, and she came to cling to her logically. Looking at the other party's smiling face, Su Xiao felt that it was particularly annoying. She envied her She can laugh so happily, because Su Xiao really doesn't know what is worth her happiness in this world.

It's too annoying, why don't you disappear, it's just as good as you and your dad never showed up.

Thinking so, taking advantage of the lunch time when climbing up the mountain, she simply took her far away into the woods under the pretext that two people should act alone, and pretended to forget her bag and said that she would go back to get it. Lu Ningqi didn't doubt it either. She turned around and left.

Just leave Lu Ningqi alone and let her fend for herself, Su Xiao thought so, but in the end, the gods were not good, she forgot that she was a road idiot, and she couldn't walk back to the place where the class gathered after walking for a long time, and then she Hearing her cry, followed her cry to find her. Although she really wanted to leave her here, if she didn't find her, she probably wouldn't be able to find her way back.

Seeing that Lu Ning couldn't stop crying seven times, Su Xiaocai realized what a terrible thing he almost did.

After that, Su Xiao probably woke up, or because of other reasons, she didn't do similar things again, and let Lu Ningqi pester herself as usual. Anyway, she went to high school, and Lu Ningqi went to junior high school. Personally, I am very busy with classes. Su Xiao thought that anyway, after the college entrance examination, it would be better to not see each other again, but unexpectedly, something happened in the third year of high school.

Originally, Su Xiao didn't want to go when she heard that her biological father was sick and hospitalized. After these years, she gradually understood what happened that year, and after so long, she felt sorry for this father who couldn't even remember his own birthday. With some dissatisfaction, she refused Mrs. Lu's call as soon as it came.

Mrs. Lu didn't seem to expect Su Xiaoneng to reject her so resolutely. She naturally didn't know how sad Su Xiao was when she overheard her father call one year and asked Mrs. Lu when Su Xiao's birthday was. For many years, this matter is still a lump in Su Xiao's heart.

But Su Xiao did not expect that Mrs. Lu, who has been busy outside, would go home directly because of her refusal. When Su Xiao returned home and saw Mrs. Lu in the bedroom, she was not without shock, but the shock was fleeting. Knowing why she came to look for her, she immediately put on a posture of avoiding talking.

Unexpectedly, Mrs. Lu didn't try to persuade her, and she did indeed burst into tears.

Su Xiao was frightened by the other party. Su Xiao's personality has always followed his mother's. Both of them are equally stubborn, so they also don't like to cry in front of others. In his memory, only Su Xiao saw Mrs. Lu crying when his grandmother passed away. She had never cried even when she and her father had quarreled and divorced, but Su Xiao felt something was wrong when she cried.

"He was hospitalized with stomach cancer, you go and see him."

Hearing this news, Su Xiao almost couldn't stand up, but felt that it was too ridiculous. Stomach cancer is not a TV drama, how could she meet it? After stabilizing his emotions, Su Xiao's expression was still a little cold: "I don't know Go, the college entrance examination is coming soon, there is no time."

"He told me not to tell you, but I still think you should know."

After hearing this, Su Xiao bit her lower lip and managed to control herself from crying, but she still sat at the desk with her back to Mrs. Lu, took out a book and put it on the table, and said coldly: "I see. ,I will think about it."

Mrs. Lu still wanted to say something, but seeing the other party reading the book seriously, she thought about it and walked out with a sigh. As soon as she walked out, Su Xiao couldn't bear it anymore, and tears dripped on the textbook .

She went to see him anyway.

The journey is quite far away, Su Xiao can't remember how he felt when he went there, but he saw his handsome father who looks so similar to himself, at that time the sick body was so thin that he could see the shape of the bones , I haven't seen him for a long time, and she couldn't recognize her. When he saw her coming, he was a little surprised, and the first thing he said was: "Who told you to come?"

He really didn't want her to know about his illness.

The third year of senior high school is still very busy, Su Xiao insisted on staying for a few days and had to go back. He didn't talk much to his father in those few days, but he could hear that he himself felt that the chance of being cured was too low, and she criticized him His mentality was too pessimistic, so he gave him the example of the terminally ill patient in the next ward who was also living happily every day. If you have a serious illness, if you have a good attitude, there is nothing you can't overcome. He laughed that she knew a lot when she grew up.

In fact, she still has a lot to say, but she is a person who has never been able to express herself. The night before she left, she took out a pocket notebook while Mrs. Lu was going out at the hotel, thought about it, and wrote She put a lot of things up there, and secretly stuffed them to her father before leaving.

Su Xiao thought that the little book could comfort her father, but she probably didn't expect that after she left, her father couldn't control his emotions when he saw what was written in the book, and tears fell drop by drop.

There is a lot of content in it, including the nickname she gave him when he was a child. On the last page, he was scratched and scratched. It can be seen that the other party hesitated for a long time and did not know how to express it. The last line reads.

"If she is really nice to you, you can have a baby with her and live a good life." It was said that when she came, she saw a woman she had never seen before beside his hospital bed, and she saw her take care of him after a few days. After he was busy, he also observed that she really liked him. Su Xiao who could say such a thing had indeed forgiven her father, but her father probably couldn't forgive herself.

Maybe it's retribution.With this in mind, he put the notebook away and put it next to his pillow. He was also optimistic at the beginning. When he was first admitted to the ward, he got along well with the person in the next bed, who was also an optimistic person. Until later he entered the operating room and never came out again.

Su Xiao was in a low mood when she went back. She always thought that her grandmother's death was the worst thing that happened to her, but she never expected to encounter something worse. When she got home, she opened the door and wanted to take a good rest Su Xiao looked at the mess all over the floor, and realized that life was far worse than imagined.

Among the burned negatives were the only photos of her biological father, her mother and her family of three, as well as the few remaining photos of her father that she managed to find from Mrs. Lu.

Su Xiao was really angry that time, but she calmed down that time. Firstly, it was because of Lu Ningqi’s hard work in various aspects, and secondly, because fortunately, she had developed a set of photos and stored them in the album. Although the negatives were gone, they were good Just save the photo.

After the college entrance examination, regardless of Mrs. Lu's dissuasion, Su Xiao resolutely went to a place far away from them to go to school, and the chance to go home was rare. She always excused that there were too many things in school or that she was too busy to study. Therefore, Lu Ningqi seemed to cherish the time with her every time she came home, and would ask her high school questions with a textbook from time to time.

Su Xiao didn't understand why Lu Ning Qiming was very poor in science, why she still wanted to learn theory, because she always listened to the exercises she explained to her several times but couldn't understand. Fortunately, she usually didn't stay at home for long. So she made excuses and went back to school. She thought that she would be able to get rid of that family after she graduated, found a job and settled down. She didn't expect Lu Ningqi to pass the exam, so she was not surprised when she found out that her new roommate was her.

But he will graduate and work in half a year, thinking that he has survived for such a long time in the past, and it is not a few months away, but he did not expect this incident of Lin Lan to happen.

Su Xiao closed the door forcefully, and isolated herself in a separate space. She didn't need to talk to Lu Ningqi. She seemed to calm down a little, ignoring the fragments of the broken hair dryer on the ground. Su Xiao squatted down and picked up the ones on the ground carefully. Photo album, flipping the photo album to her father's page, gently caressing her father's smiling face that was cut into pieces with his fingers.

Su Xiao's eyes are exactly the same as his father's, both are very beautiful European-style eyes. Mrs. Lu once joked when she was a child that she should not marry someone like her father in the future, because she has no other advantages except good looks. She smiled and said it was not impossible, at least she gave birth to a beautiful daughter.

Su Xiao looked at those eyes that were printed in the same mold as her own, and remembered that during the holiday after the college entrance examination, she unexpectedly received a call from her father at home. Her grandmother didn't like her, and her family knew it, so from her father and Her mother hadn't contacted her when she got divorced, and she was surprised when she received the call. When she heard the other party's voice choked up, she said, "Xiaoxiao... Uncle wants to tell you something, you... your father is here before you leave." Finally decided to have an operation, but unfortunately, he...he couldn't hold on, I'm sorry, Xiaoxiao, I just told you today, because I was afraid of delaying your college entrance examination, so my uncle never dared to call you..."

Su Xiao couldn't remember what she said after the phone call. She just remembered that the other party told her not to be sad. There was nothing she could do about it. She tried her best but there was really nothing she could do. She was silent for a long time and only answered "Got it" and hung up the phone.

Mrs. Lu just came home from a holiday that day, saw Su Xiao looking a little lost and asked her what was wrong, Su Xiao raised her head and opened her mouth and replied:

"Probably... I made a wrong call."

When Su Xiao returned to the room, he locked himself in the room like now, crying all by himself.

Su Xiao buried her head in her arms, crying out of breath, not noticing that the clenched hands squeezed the broken photos into a ball.

She really, really hates Lu Ningqi.