Embrace the fragrance

"what is this?"

This question was like a thunderbolt from the blue sky, which struck Qin Ming's eardrums with pain. He never thought that when he returned home, he would be greeted by a raging storm.

Shen Ru was sitting on a small bench. Her sitting posture was unnatural. Any grown-up sitting on a narrow bench would look a bit funny. Qin Ming had no time to appreciate this kind of witty humor. Seriously pointing at the puzzle pieces on the floor—

He and Fang Wenrui didn't clean up after fighting.

It's too careless, but who knows that Qin Xiaowei and Shen Ru came back early without eating vegetarian food in the temple.

Qin Ming lowered his head as if he was exhausted, and his hands naturally fell to the sides of the trouser seams. He didn't care that he was wearing new long johns, so he rubbed his palms against the fabric.After wiping off the cold sweat that had oozed out at some point, it seemed that he was not so nervous even at the very moment.He took a long breath, avoiding the important and paying light, "Dad, Mom, why did you come back so early? Alas, the instant noodles at noon are ruined!"

From the very beginning, Shen Ru's gaze has been fixed on the small characters next to the Q version of the villain on the puzzle.As soon as she saw the three Chinese characters in small round fonts, she remembered the conversation she had taken as a joke——

"Mom, do you like Wen Xiaorui very much?"

"He is sensible and polite, well-behaved and studious, of course he is likable."

"Yes, I like him too."

Her hands on her knees trembled uncontrollably, like an old man suffering from Parkinson's, hesitant and helpless, but this glib, half-jokey, real brat is now "starting anew" and trying Wanting to get away with it, Shen Ru was so angry that she slowly shifted her heavy gaze to her son, her red eyes were not smiling, "Do you like Fang Wenrui?" Her voice was difficult and her tone was almost certain.

Qin Ming thought that if he didn't recruit this time, it might really be a bad idea. It was a blessing or a disaster, and it was a disaster that could not be avoided. Anyway, he would have to face it sooner or later.He twitched the corner of his mouth pretending to be relaxed, admitted it, and changed the title to "you", showing a more respectful tone, and did not really contradict Shen Ru, "Yes, didn't I tell you a long time ago? You Remember now?"

"Remember, you want to settle accounts with me?" Qin Ming cleverly shirked responsibility, "You have a lot of people, so I understand if you forget. If you found out the problem in time and cut the mess quickly, maybe we would have broken up, and it would be over. But now, it's too late, our roots have grown together, and we can only cut them together."

Even when it comes to solving big math problems, Qin Ming has never been so organized as he is now. He knows what he is talking about and what he is doing. He uses his calm appearance as a disguise, but in fact he is humbly asking for approval and support.

The more he pretended to "struggle with reason", the more angry Shen Ru was.She raised her right hand high, "Bastard!"

Qin Ming knelt down on the jigsaw puzzle with a "boom", wearing thick long johns, but the sound of his knees hitting the ground was so loud that it hurt to hear it.

After all, he was still his own son, Shen Ru's heart felt like being pressed down by a solid boulder, and in the end it was overwhelmed, just like the complete jigsaw puzzle, it was shattered into pieces under the sudden blow.

The raised hand finally did not land on Qin Ming's rebellious face.

Although Qin Ming was kneeling, his back was stretched straight, like pines and cypresses standing proudly on a cliff.He raised his head stubbornly, watching the hand that had tucked up the quilt for him last night slowly slid down and waved towards him, but after a pause in the middle, it deviated from the original track and hung down like a slow motion.

Time is as described in Einstein's general theory of relativity. When the mass, density and gravity of matter reach a certain threshold, the passage of time slows down.

Qin Ming seemed to be able to see that hand draw a spotless arc in the dusty air. From one end of the line to the other, within a distance of less than one meter, he could clearly feel that his mother had instantly A lot older.

He bit his lower lip hard, using the still insignificant pain to suppress the strong guilt and anxiety in his heart.He had come to this point, and he had to finish speaking.He heard his voice tense and astringent from mourning mechanically rub against the nearly frozen air, "Mom, I can't refute how many times you called me 'asshole' in the past, but now, can I be a fool? I have a plan in my heart!"

"Just because your son fell in love with a boy, do you think he is deviant?" Qin Ming changed his name, separated himself from the whole matter, and commented coldly like an objective judge, without waiting Shen Ru reacted, and then changed her tone after the words fell to the ground: "I just fell in love with someone, and it's no different from the way mom fell in love with dad when you caught a glimpse in your prime of life."

He continued to analyze, "Dad has such a rotten body. Mom, you think you are upright, so you still like him for no reason. I also like Fang Wenrui. There is no reason to like Fang Wenrui, and it's not because he is a boy. I don't like him anymore."

"Let me just tell you, I can't tell you what I like about him." It's not that he's being silly. Love is a very mysterious thing. Even if you're poor all your life, how many people in the world can understand it? "Anyway, I just like him. To what extent does this liking go? Well, I probably can't say that I like all his advantages and disadvantages, because in my eyes, he has no disadvantages."

At first, Shen Ru moved her lips in an attempt to interrupt, but now her lips have been tightly pursed into a line, her face sinking like water, as if she was petrified into an ancient sculpture while sitting.

"I can't say exactly when I fell in love with him. In short, when I realized it, I already liked him very much."

"You also said before that in the past six months, I have become more sensible, and I am willing to endure hardships and know how to make progress."

Qin Ming paused, and then changed his perspective: "It's not that your son is sick and his head is burnt out as you teased before, nor is it that your son became enlightened overnight like Zhuang Gong's dream butterfly, he is just lucky. I met a person unexpectedly, that person made him look forward to every tomorrow."

Qin Ming himself did not expect that he could say so much, as if he had been opened up, and he didn't need to draft at all, and the sentences would flow out like flowing water.

He switched freely between the two pronouns, and the words that followed hit Qin Xiaowei and Shen Ru's hearts hard.

"You and Dad went to the United States when I was in junior high school. In the five years since then, my daily life seems to have become the same. I feel that everything is extremely boring. Sometimes I even get bored of playing games, let alone doing I am neither an archaeologist nor a diplomat, so I don’t understand. What do I study classical Chinese and English? People, or to put it more broadly and bluntly, I just don’t know what I want to do in life, and then I met Fang Wenrui... I began to know what I want and what I want to do.”

Qin Ming closed his eyes, "I memorize vocabulary for the college entrance examination every day, and write an argumentative essay every week, not for anything else, just to go to Y University with him, to prove us," he opened his eyes abruptly, his voice no longer So dry, but the chest heaved violently, and the heart beat loudly in the flat chest cavity, "There is a future."

"There are many, many tomorrows to look forward to and spend together."

At this moment, the tense and precarious string in Shen Ru's mind finally broke with a "snap", she stood up abruptly, and the sudden standing up caused her brain to be temporarily ischemic, her eyes turned black, and her figure froze.

Qin Xiaowei, who had been silent at the side, quickly helped her up.

Shen Ru regained her strength, she didn't speak any more, and she didn't look at Qin Ming again. She walked out of the room that had just been swept by the storm with her numb legs as if she had no regrets.

Except for Qin Xiaowei's obvious and weird face change when he heard the "speaking badly" and "Dad has such a stinking problem", Qin Ming hardly reacted during the whole half an hour of "long talk", probably because his nerves have been overwhelmed. Shocked to numbness, it may also be that she simply feels that she is not qualified to judge Qin Ming's choice——

In his son's youth, there was almost no shadow of his participation.

Sorry, no doubt about it.

Remedy, is there still time?This is hard to say.

After Shen Ru left, he finally said a word: "Son, get up!"

Qin Ming shook his head stubbornly.

"You didn't do anything wrong, why are you kneeling?" A man in his 40s, who has never experienced any kind of storm, said this with a choked voice.

He didn't know what he missed in those years, his son's growth.

It's like a little boy who was a babbler and toddler yesterday, and then he was broken, and today he has become a big boy who is full of youth and swearing at Fang Qiu.

Qin Ming still refused to get up.

Qin Xiaowei sighed long and walked to the living room.

Shen Ru leaned tiredly on the gray-blue sofa, lowered her head, and pressed her temples with both hands.

Qin Xiaowei sat down next to her, put his arms around her slender and trembling shoulders, and let her head gently rest on him.

Shen Ru seemed to have found support, and buried her face deeply in his thick chest.

Qin Xiaowei immediately felt a tide coming from his chest.

After a slight shock, he didn't say anything, but patted her on the back from time to time.

Everything is in spring, but the season has not yet passed the vernal equinox, and the days are still short and the nights are long.

When Shen Ru raised her head from Qin Xiaowei's embrace, the living room under the afterglow was eerie and dim.

Qin Xiaowei looked at his wife's wet tears with distress, and was about to say something, but Shen Ru spoke first——

"Are you still kneeling?" She tried her best to suppress her strong nasal voice.

Qin Xiaowei nodded.

"Are you a Yumu head! Just let him kneel like this for an afternoon?" Shen Ru stood up excitedly and walked towards Qin Ming's room.

"..." Qin Xiaowei, who was reprimanded, touched his nose and felt that "father is a little wronged".

Qin Ming did kneel all afternoon, even his young body couldn't stand such torture.The hard, cold floor and the pieces of the jigsaw puzzle on which it hurts and cold to kneel on.Shen Ru looked at her son's pale face and chapped lips, her eyes were red again after finally holding back her tears, her heart ached like a large piece of flesh had been gouged out alive, "Silly boy, you can't get along with me, and you can't You should torture yourself like this, if you hurt, we... will hurt too."

She tried to pull him up, but Qin Ming's knees seemed to be glued to the ground, firmly stuck to the ground, comparable to the bamboo that "holds on to the green hills and does not let go".

"Mom, I'm not having trouble with you, nor myself or anyone else."

"I know I'm sorry for you and Dad. In fact, no one yearns for a life of marrying a wife, having children, and having a happy family. But what can I do? I just want to live a normal life with him and support each other throughout my life, just like you and him. Like Dad."

Shen Ru suddenly remembered Qin Xiaowei's warm and firm chest and the strength of the man that made her feel at ease.

After all, she didn't want to see her son die alone, alone, and helpless.

Shen Ru sighed, and suddenly said: "Get up and talk!"

Qin Ming acted stubbornly, "Mom, if you don't agree, I'll just keep kneeling!"

"You little bear..." Shen Ru closed her eyes, and said slowly, "I never said I objected."

She opened her eyes and looked at her son, "It's just that this road is not easy to walk. I have a hunch that you can't last long, but now it seems that I may be wrong."

"Regret in the future, remember your own choice and... determination today."

"I will never regret it," Qin Ming said firmly, "I won't regret it. I only know that if I don't make this choice, I will regret it forever and regret it for the rest of my life."

"……it is good."

The wind blows open the curtains, and the brightest setting sun shines into the room from the window and into the living room.

The sandalwood amulets on the coffee table are dyed with sunset clouds——

This was the amulet she had asked for her son from the master early in the morning.

On the ochre-brown wooden stick, the peaceful nasturtium blooms quietly, the sunken notch lines are smooth and smooth, full of afterglow, traced by gold edges, the whole flower shines brightly, glowing with a warm and holy Buddha light——

May he be happy all his life, and protect him for a lifetime of peace.

The author has something to say: Do you think my title is really random... I didn't get the point at all!Haha, it's almost over, so add more!In fact, there is no plot in this chapter. If it is sensational, I can actually continue to fight for hundreds of words, but I feel that it is quite boring to write. I guess you are tired of reading it. I planned to continue writing in the next chapter, but I think it is better The rhythm is good, so the next chapter is estimated to be the end of this difficult year, okay!

PS: I also think it’s good to come out during Chinese New Year... that’s what, but I’m stupid and I’ve already written it like this, please ignore the logic?