Shen Nian

In fact, many people know that I am a good boy. Before the turmoil of my sexual orientation came, I was still praised, whether on the surface or against my will.

In fact, I have always refused to meet Jiang Yufei again, because I know that once I see her, I will never recover.But God seems to have played a joke on me and then arranged her by my side. Those who can't escape can't escape after all.

I complained loudly to Li Yu why she could continue to be with his first love, but I couldn't fall in love with Jiang Yufei.Li Yu was very hurt, tears were in his eyes, and it seemed that they would burst out of his eyes in the next second.

It was only later that I found out that Chen Jiaqi was Li Yu's first love. At that age, they seemed to be in love with each other.Then my question was answered. After moving to Chen Jiaqi’s house, those wallpapers were pasted all over the room next to the kitchen, but except for themselves, Chen An and I never went in. It’s not that we’re not curious, but because it’s them. Time, we can not get involved.

In fact, Jiang Yufei suffered from a period of illness, a terrible illness, and then she stayed in the mental hospital all day long. I saw her every day, and changed her identity every day. She called me Taozi, Ji Yangchun, and even Chen An. No one called me hastily.It was the first time I saw Ji Yangchun cry, and the tears flowed from his eyes like broken beads, but he didn't speak, and he didn't accuse me.Then I got a text from him, and he said: If this is what you want to see, then you are awesome and successful.

Jiang Yufei's eyes were empty, out of focus, as if she had lost her soul.I would call her Xiaofei softly, and she would stare blankly at me, then smile silly.I asked her, do you remember me, I was careless, I am back, and I will never leave again.

Nonsense, you are Tao Zi, Caocao left with that man, they are going to get married, they will have a cute baby, then Aunt Li will be happy, and then her relatives will not despise Caocao so much.She always responds to me like this, no matter how hard I insist, I will never be me in her eyes.

How Jiang Yufei got sick is all my fault!But the conscience of heaven and earth, I really love her, but sometimes I can't do anything.There are so many people in the old house, I knelt in front of them, waiting for their judgment like a sinner.Li Yu cried like a tearful person, she still wanted to protect me, and when my grandfather's whip fell down regardless of whether it was me or Li Yu, I pushed her away.

It was really like a scene of torture to extract a confession, I was numb from the pain, and then Luo Yijie came to hug me, but I dodged it, my body was about to fall apart.Grandma was crying, with tears running down her face full of years, I couldn't see it like this, but I couldn't say a word, maybe my voice was hoarse, or maybe I had nothing to say.

There were really a lot of people, a lot of people watching that farce like a joke.Grandpa approached me, I thought he was going to hit me again, I dodged instinctively.He smiled wryly, and said he would not hit me anymore, he couldn't bear to hurt me so much, but he was angry, he was not worth it for my mother.

I am the only child of the Luo family, and Li Yu is also the only child like me.Grandpa slowly said what I knew, like a knife piercing my heart.Yes, Luo Yijie did not conceive a child with that woman again, when he said this, he seemed very excited.

Li Yu fainted, and when I pushed her away, she was helped away by my uncle.Not having any news about her, this may be the most difficult thing for me. Grandpa's eyes are full of tears, which others can't see, but I can see it for real. The grandpa who was an authentic tough guy when he was young will cry.

When I saw the man who came on a blind date, it seemed that my grandfather had chosen him.Everything went so smoothly, and he never saw Jiang Yufei, and then "developed a relationship" with that man every day.But the good thing is that he didn't do anything over the top to me, and he seemed to be looking forward to our marriage.That man was a divorced man with a two-year-old son. I think it was my grandfather who gave me a way out, and they still couldn’t see me suffer in the end.

I saw Jiang Yufei again, in the house we secretly rented.I said I was going to pack up, and the man was waiting at the entrance of the alley.In fact, I just want to see Jiang Yufei, see if she is doing well, and say goodbye to her.But when I packed my things, she didn't say a word, she stared at me tightly, I couldn't say anything, it seemed that I couldn't change anything once I opened my mouth, and I seemed to be leaving a way out for myself .

It wasn't until I was carrying the things to go out that she ran over and hugged me, and the things opened with a bang, I wanted to lean over to pick them up, but turned around and hugged her by mistake, and then she came close to kiss me, with the taste of tears between her lips and teeth, Don't know if it's hers or mine.

I wish you happiness.

After finishing speaking, her lips left, but I don't want to, I don't like that kind of warmth dissipating, I can't lose her, I don't want to leave her, some feelings, some reluctance only we know each other.I started kissing her on my own initiative, I thought she was going to push me away and chase me out loudly, but she didn't, she deepened that kiss.Long time no see, that kiss seemed to have a taste of missing, and then the plan in my heart collapsed, I thought how sad she would be if I married someone else!

Then I put her on the bed, she didn't look at me, the tears were still flowing.I went to the entrance of the alley, and said goodbye to that man, I know, it really hurt a lot, we are about to get married.But I can't stand Jiang Yufei like that, I know that sometimes I'm really a scumbag.

Li Yu approached Jiang Yufei, and after we got together again, Jiang Yufei lost her temper like crazy and chased me away.Then Li Yu saw my slumped look, she told me that she had approached Jiang Yufei, and I wanted to argue with her, she said that Jiang Yufei wanted me to be "normal", wouldn't that be enough for me to get married?I know she was forced, I know her reluctance, but I know, I love her, and I love Li Yu too!

The hasty wedding was over, and the man still didn't do anything to me. While I was grateful, I began to have doubts.I didn't beat around the bush, I asked him if he was gay and he stared at me before telling me that if I wanted to leave he would always agree but he would wait forever for me to come home and he already had a child and he wouldn't force it Me, he knows everything.I suddenly remembered Chen Jiaqi's sentence "I will make her fall in love with me."

I really miss Jiang Yufei, so I think, man understands.I haven't been to school for a long time, but more importantly, I am only a junior student.But Jiang Yufei was gone from that school, no one knew where she went or how she was.When I thought I was going to die, Ji Yangchun called, but he didn't tell me where Jiang Yufei was, and told me not to go to her, because she couldn't bear my concern.

I knew that something happened, and I was very disturbed. I knew I was a bad person, but I still wanted to know if she was doing well. Let me take a look, even just a glance.In the end, it was Jiang Yufei's mother who took me to see her in that terrible, gloomy mental hospital.She has been like that for a long time, and there is no sign of improvement at all. The doctor said that maybe you can try to let that heartless person take care of her.Yes, I'm that hateful heartbreaker, when I saw her, I felt like killing myself.

I went through the divorce procedures with the man almost non-stop, and my family didn't object, so they let me go.I almost ended up in the hospital, she didn't get better and she broke me down, but I know I can't fall, if I fall, I can't imagine.

After all, God still cares for me, Jiang Yufei is well, she called me hastily in a quiet and somewhat unreal morning.

We retook a junior year to make up our time, and then they said, we will be treated kindly by time.

The author has something to say:

It's over, it's really over, I'm quite excited, haha.The next one is called "Fleeing Years Make Poems, Running in the opposite direction", maybe the first four words will be used at that time, and everyone is welcome to come and watch!