Insincere

Liang Rui didn't know how he got out of there. He returned home in a daze, as if he had a dream.

In this dream, his parents, whom he hadn't thought of for a long time, finally appeared. However, the loving eyes turned into hatred and disgust. They accused him with harsh words, and even called an ungrateful villain and called him father for more than 20 years. Falling in love with someone who shouldn't be loved, and getting himself covered in bruises, such a him is not worthy of being their child at all.

Liang Rui tugged on his collar, obviously loosened, but still felt unable to breathe.

Is it because of his stupidity that his parents are unwilling to appear in his dream, the sealed memory is opened, and all that is left is pain.

He felt parched and wanted to pour himself a glass of water, but accidentally broke the glass.

Xiao Yuan, who was surfing the Internet in the room, rushed out when he heard the voice, and looked at him worriedly: "Dad, what's wrong with you?"

Liang Rui looked at the child, his little face looked at him nervously, his soft voice... seemed to be some kind of antidote, allowing him to breathe finally...

He took the child in his arms.

Liang Xiaoyuan was at a loss, he always felt that something was wrong with his father, but he couldn't tell what was wrong, so he just let Liang Rui hold him obediently.

After a long time, Liang Rui let go of his hand, touched the child's head, and said, "Go and play, Dad is fine, just a little tired."

"Really?" Liang Xiaoyuan didn't quite believe it.

"Really, go in." Liang Rui sent Liang Xiaoyuan back to the room, closed the door, suddenly felt weak, and leaned his back against the wall.He took a deep breath, walked back to his room step by step, and lay down on the bed.

He has no strength to move, he just wants to rest now.

..............................

Liang Rui opened his eyes in a daze. He fell asleep just like that last night, without even changing his clothes or taking off his shoes.In fact, he didn't expect to be able to fall asleep, probably because he was too tired, and his instincts overwhelmed everything.

He turned his head stiffly, opened his eyes blankly, and his eyes came in from outside the curtains, it was already the second day.

But... I don't want to wake up, I don't want to face it.

For the first time in his more than 30 years of life, he had such confusion.No matter how many difficulties he encounters, he can find ways to face them, but this time he doesn't even have the courage to face them.

Just want to escape.

"I'm sorry...Mom and Dad... Am I very useless..." Liang Rui murmured to himself, because he couldn't even take revenge. The pain of losing everything seized his heart and made him even angry. I'm almost running out of strength...

In fact, he really has nothing.

There was a sound of opening the door outside, and then Liang Xiaoyuan's crisp voice faintly came in, "Uncle Jiang, you are here, go and see Dad, something seems wrong with Dad."

Then came the sound of hurried footsteps.

The door was knocked gently a few times.

Liang Rui didn't answer.

He knew that Jiang Ming was standing outside, but now, he didn't want to face him.

Just the day before yesterday, he was still thinking, is it possible for them to get a different result this time?But the reality quickly sent him to hell, and he was not allowed to stand up.

After a while, Jiang Ming's anxious voice sounded: "Are you inside? Are you okay?"

Liang Rui still didn't answer.

The next moment, the door was pushed open.

Jiang Ming walked in in a hurry, with undisguised worry in his eyes. His eyes fell on Liang Rui's bed, and he rushed over to hold his hand, "What's wrong with you? Are you sick? I'll take you to the hospital!"

Liang Rui stared at him blankly, as if he wanted to engrave this face deeply in his heart.

"Your face is so ugly, could it be that you have a fever?" Jiang Ming frowned, and put his hand on Liang Rui's forehead.

Liang Rui felt the warmth of Jiang Ming's palm, and a gentle smile appeared in his eyes. He likes this person so, so much... But he can't like this person in the future, not only can't like him anymore, but also hurt him.The tenderness in his eyes was like melted snow, which faded away little by little, and finally there was only coldness left, and a trace of madness emerged from the coldness.

This is Jiang Qinghai's weakness, isn't it?Such a selfish and cold person actually has someone who cares.

The person he cared about was Jiang Ming, the person he kept in his heart even though he didn't talk about it, his only son.In order to protect him from harm, he can do anything without a bottom line. He can be extremely cruel to others, but he is a qualified father.

Liang Rui finally understood why he couldn't, yes, only he couldn't.

Only he is not allowed.

"Take it away." Liang Rui said hoarsely, with a slight chill in his voice.

Jiang Ming was stunned for a moment, and finally withdrew his hand obediently. He looked at Liang Rui with aggrieved and apologetic eyes, "Are you still angry with me? I'm sorry, I thought about it all day, I shouldn't treat you like this, today In fact, I came here to say that I will help you untie it."

He carefully held Liang Rui's wrist, and a few seconds later, with a click, the watch was turned on.Jiang Ming showed a flattering smile: "You are right, true love should be respected and equal, I shouldn't force you, although I am really afraid that you will leave... But this time, I will definitely not make mistakes again, So, you won't leave, will you?"

He gently kissed Liang Rui's finger, with undisguised love in his eyes, "I can't lose you."

Liang Rui suddenly smiled, this smile was a bit cold, and a sudden thought appeared in his mind.He won't be with Jiang Ming anymore, but he can still hurt him, can't he?What Jiang Qinghai is most afraid of is that one day he will hurt Jiang Ming?He thought he...wouldn't be able to bear it?

No, he could bear it.

He can do it.

"Do you know? I really hate you." Liang Rui said. For the first time, he used words like hate to express his emotions towards Jiang Ming, and stared at the face he once loved so much with disgust. .

Jiang Ming's expression changed, and he looked at Liang Rui in disbelief. At this moment, he seemed to have lost consciousness.I was cold all over.

"I'm already tired of your ignorance and all kinds of coercion in the name of love. You make me feel sick." Liang Rui smiled, "If you really love me, you should let me go."

"I loved you, how much I loved you, how much I hate you now."

"Of course you can keep me from going, like you did before, or lock me up altogether, but you can't stop a person who wants to die."

"Do you want to force me to death again?" Liang Rui smiled slightly, "This time, maybe it's true."

His demeanor was calm, but every word he uttered was like the coldest sharp arrow, piercing Jiang Ming's heart.

There was no trace of blood on Jiang Ming's face, his hands were trembling slightly, "I, I don't understand..."

I don't understand why it suddenly became like this, wasn't it fine before?He could feel Liang Rui's soft heart, showing his love for him in every detail, and he thought that as long as he worked hard, they could go back.

So it shouldn't, it shouldn't be like this...

Could this be what Liang Rui really thought of him?There is only disgust, contempt, and the look in his eyes, as if looking at something disgusting.Such eyes made him feel that he was about to be pierced alive.

Then, all that remained was despair as if the blood was running out.

You don't have to love me, but...don't hate me...

"Don't say it, don't say it..." Jiang Ming let out a depressive moan, and there was only death-like despair in his eyes, "Please don't say it."

"Yes." Liang Rui said, "As long as you get out of my sight and never appear in front of my eyes again, I don't need to say anything."

"I..." Jiang Ming opened his mouth, unable to make a sound. He could not agree to such a request, nor did he want to agree.

"I told you to get lost, didn't you hear?" Liang Rui said sharply!

After a long time, Jiang Ming stood up slowly. He stared at Liang Rui with deep sorrowful eyes, "I'm going to get out, you have a good rest, and I'll come to see you when you feel better, okay?"

"Don't be too angry, too angry is bad for your health." Jiang Ming seemed to want to reach out to touch Liang Rui, but he was afraid that Liang Rui would be unhappy, so he begged in a low voice, "Don't get angry, okay?"

Liang Rui looked at him coldly without speaking.

Finally, Jiang Ming turned around and walked out. The tall and straight figure was instantly drained of anger, full of despondency, and walked into the shadows, as if he was about to be drowned in the river of despair...

After a long while, Liang Ruihu hit the bed with his fist. He gritted his teeth and creaked, so as not to let himself yell.

Not happy, not happy at all, not happy at all hurting Jiang Ming!

It's very painful, I don't want to hurt him, why would he want to hurt an innocent person to satisfy his desire for revenge?Jiang Ming didn't know anything!He is trying to make up for his past mistakes, and he will only be hurt if he loves him.

But he took advantage of this kind of love. How is this kind of him different from Jiang Qinghai's despicableness?

Liang Rui fell heavily on his back on the bed, curled up in pain, and the strength he had managed to raise just now disappeared with Jiang Ming's departure again.

He really... didn't want to hurt him.