Star Trek

After Frank's arrival at the age of [-] put an end to his already pathetic birthday, he never celebrated it again, not even with the excuse that Sam took him out to play.Mom didn't remember his birthday, in fact he thought she'd never forget it, she just didn't want to bring it up again; he could understand that.Dad's former colleagues may bring some small gifts, but the Star Alliance usually compensates enough, and he doesn't want this kind of handout.He never mentioned these things in school, even though little Riverside couldn't hide anything, everyone knew that he was the orphan of the brave captain; grateful.

So, this gift must have come from Vulcan.He is really full of affection for this red planet—in James Kirk's short and small life, it symbolizes all the warmth and beauty.

Jim still believed in the speed and quality of interstellar mail, and the cake decorated with Waneti was still intact when he opened it, not even the cream on the edge of the package.A beautiful Vulcan word "Happy Birthday" was written on the cake with whipped cream, and a light purple Waneti flower was adorned at the beginning of the pen, and a blank line was connected at the end. Jim understood it and ran to the room to put the glass flower pot Pluck the biggest and most beautiful flower from the flowers he planted here (he still felt sorry for it), and stick it carefully on the cake.

Then he turned on the PADD, today was not a day for video calls, he had to obey the rules and not talk to Spock.But Spock sends a video.

The Vulcan boy was taller again, and Jim figured he'd have to eat more veggies and meat and milk to catch up to him.He looks up at the camera—it must be Amanda—hesitantly, then clears his throat and sings happy birthday to Jim in his voice-changing voice.

A happy birthday song sung by a Vulcan.Jim didn't even know that Vulcans had such a thing as music until then - their leisure was just reading and playing chess or something.Apparently Amanda taught the song to her son, and Spock sang sternly, although the rhyme was precise and not out of tune, it wasn't beautiful at all, but Jim decided not to dislike him, and he laughed as he listened.

He held another gift he had sent—a nearly life-sized I-Chaya doll (except that it was much softer and more harmless than Vulcan's), and watched as Spock finished singing as if his torture was complete, and then Amanda put The camera was stable and joined the picture. She also waved and called her husband, and the family of three wished him a happy birthday together.

Children over the age of 12 hug the dolls tightly in the big empty house, and feel that all this beauty is like a dream. Jim imagines how Spock usually holds I-Chaya—he'll be able to hold it that way later when he misses Spock.

14.【Spirk】White Lie

WARNING: Minor character death/child emotional disregard/domestic violence (mentioned)

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The best thing about Jim Kirk at the age of 13 was that he went to junior high school and could leave Riverside to go to a boarding school in a bigger place.He no longer has to go back to the big empty house every day, only to be woken up in the middle of the night by his drunken stepfather knocking on the door.

Spock was 16 years old, and just as he had expected, he successfully entered the VSA elementary class. They no longer had the time to chat as much as they did in the previous two years, and the once-a-week video conference was changed to two weeks.

Fortunately, Jim has friends in the new school, and his roommate Gary is especially good with him. He even found the shadow of his brother in Gary-by the way, Sam hasn't contacted him for a year.The same goes for the mother, and Frank doesn't even care about him.

The position of family members is gradually replaced by friends, but he is still alone after all.Fortunately, he has gradually gotten used to the environment in which such a person grows, like a weed, because no one cares about it, it can grow wantonly and wildly - the vigorous vitality that belongs to Jim Kirk, which has been laid since childhood.

In the young boy's imagination, he would stay in school until he was 18 years old, and then go to Starfleet Academy or VSA (they agreed), to meet Spock again in deep space or hot In the desert; he began to look forward to such a step-by-step life.

But the trajectory of life can never glide according to the expected blueprint, and the fate of the Kirk family is destined to be uneven.

Jim was videoing with Spock in the dormitory when the bad news came, it was an unremarkable Saturday, he had been in bed watching a movie since breakfast in the morning and waiting for the video time to approach, while Gary went to join a bunch of cronies in the club Activity.

He was laughing with Spock about a stupid mistake their math teacher made last week when Gary burst in.

The boy with curly hair held the doorknob and stammered his name while gasping for breath.

"What's up?" Jim sat up in bed, turning padd around with a smile, "Come say hello to Spock."

The Vulcan boy in the other part of the video nodded slightly as a compliment.

Gary's face was full of anxiety and panic: "Jim...Jim!"

Those named felt a tinge of panic.Something is wrong.

Gary patted his chest to catch his breath, calmed down and spoke again: "—your mother, Jim, something happened to her."

The shuttle from school back to Riverside would take an hour. During these six 10 minutes and more than 3000 seconds, Jim leaned his head on the seat and numbly counted his heartbeats.He felt no joy or pain now, no shock and pathos at the tragedy that had come—once again—on him.

It was as if all this happened as he expected.It's as if he has always stored such coping methods in a corner of his heart, waiting for the day when his loved ones leave his side again.

When his father left, he didn't even have the power of memory. After 13 years, he already understood everything and knew everything.He stared at his fingers, feeling nothing but lukewarm bewilderment.

dad.

Sam.

mom.

Who is next?

Jim, no one loves you, no one will stay for you.You'll just screw everything up.everything.

He closed his eyes, and Frank's words rang in his ears.

Broom star JamesKirk, what a beautiful name.

Has Frank heard the news?Is he home yet?Will they meet up there?And what would Frank tell him?

The boy's head was dizzy, mixed with too many peripheral thoughts, and the most necessary pain was buried deep by these small things.That's fine, adrenaline is little Kirk's only protection - always has been.Adrenaline protected him.Otherwise who else?

Who cares about his pain?

No one, no one.

The voices in his head were arguing, and Jim was dying of them.He had a headache, and his consciousness was gradually withdrawn.

He passed out.

He stayed at home for a long time, and people kept coming and going. They were colleagues of his father's life and friends of his mother's life.Everyone brought condolences to see the poor child, with sympathy written all over their faces.

That's not true, James.He told himself in his heart, you are dreaming.hush.Do not talk.You know none of this is true, don't you?

Jim received all the people who came to visit in this way, half asleep, even himself surprised by the calmness-this should not belong to a 13-year-old child, it should not.

He didn't want to.But his emotions were paralyzed by the great dazedness, and he couldn't feel anything.

Until Frank comes back.

Frank came home on the afternoon of the third day, and Jim slept upstairs in the dark. He hadn't eaten for two days, only drank a little water, and found a nutritional needle from Sam's previous room.He just doesn't want to eat, but he doesn't want to die, he has to live, he's the last Kirk in Iowa.

He lay on his own bed, tears soaked the pillow cover, biting the corner of the quilt and curling up into a ball, desperately blocking the dazzling sunlight from outside, as if they would burn him.

Maybe they will.

The sun is too hot for him.

He needs quiet, he needs darkness.

He slowly began to understand it all, the accident, the death, the departure.forever.Gone forever, abandoned forever. After 13 years, my mother finally got her wish and went to find the man she loved most in her life.And Jim, Jim was just an unwanted by-product.

He's always the one who gets left behind.

The sound of Frank opening the door and the shattering of the wine bottle on the ground woke him up from the suffocating dream of the deep sea. Jim fumbles to get dressed and get out of bed, maybe he should really face his stepfather now - in a sense, Frank is the only relative he can see right now.

He supported the wall and slowly moved down the stairs, feeling that all the strength in his body had been drained. It might not be his legs that supported him now, but two chopsticks or something like that.

The last step he was not small