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After Xiaocao left, the smile on Qin Xue's face became less and less, and then she stopped smiling altogether, and sometimes even lost her temper for no reason.

The people in the company worked desperately, for fear that if they did something wrong, they would anger Qin Xue and step on a landmine.

Even some bold employees asked Zhou Bei'an for help, but Zhou Bei'an could only smile and let them do their job well.

In fact, in front of Zhou Bei'an, Qin Xue's smile became less and less.Zhou Bei'an looked distressed, and wanted to make Xiaocao smile more, but seeing Xiaocao's insincere smile made him feel even more distressed.

He just wanted to give him a hug, so that Qin Xue could lie in his arms when she was tired, it didn't matter whether she smiled or not.

In the eyes of outsiders, the two are still a match made in heaven.However, after that time, Qin Xue was farther and farther away from him.

In fact, I have already vaguely felt it.Although I have never seen the one named Xiaocao before, when Qin Xue mentioned her, there always seemed to be an inexplicable feeling in it.It wasn't until Xiaoyu's birthday party, after seeing the grass, that there was an intuition.

That intuition did not come from Qin Xue, but from Xiaocao.The way Xuecao looked at Qin Xue, no matter whether it was formal or just sneaking glances, in Zhou Bei'an's eyes, it more or less revealed some secrets.

When Xiaocao accompanied Zhou Yu to change shoes, Qin Xue always unconsciously wanted to find Xiaocao, and fidgeted when he disappeared for a while. She had to be within her sight range.

This made Zhou Bei'an a little jealous. If she had disappeared, Qin Xue would definitely not look for her like this.

However, Zhou Bei'an chose to ignore all these.

He felt that as long as he stayed by Qin Xue's side, spent enough time and had enough patience, one day Qin Xue would accept him.

He is very confident in this aspect, besides, Qin Xue did not reject him either.

Until that night, he heard the name of the grass from Qin Xue's mouth.In such a scene, he thought he had heard it wrong.However, when he yelled for the second time, even Qin Xue woke up by himself, seeing Qin Xue's eyes, his heart suddenly sank.

Deep valley.

He sat in the car for a long time and struggled to get his eyes into focus, and drove to the bar.

Maybe it's because Qin Xue didn't say anything, maybe it's because even though he understood that he seemed to be leaving, he couldn't bear it, so he was still the same as before, exactly the same as before.

The two of them also tacitly kept silent about that matter.

It wasn't that Zhou Bei'an didn't want to ask, it was just that he was afraid that if he asked, it would bring trouble to Qin Xue, or that Qin Xue would naturally propose a breakup.

Then let yourself wait until you have to.

Qin Hao and Ye Yao, who came back from abroad, saw Qin Xue like this, as if Qin Xue from before the age of 8 had returned.The Qin Xue at home, the Qin Xue in front of them, was the quiet Qin Xue again.

Only very rarely can Qin Xue's sparse piano sound be heard, but that kind of piano sound is no longer the piano sound after the age of 8.Such music, with a kind of indescribable and unspeakable sadness.

Ye Yao even said, "Should I call Xiaocao back?"

Qin Xue became nervous as soon as she heard the name of the grass, and quickly said, "No."

Then he went upstairs by himself, but quietly entered Xiaocao's room.

At that time, he left to go abroad, but now, he sent her abroad with his own hands.

The empty room was filled with the smell of weeds everywhere.

She often woke up from her own bed in the middle of the night, unable to fall asleep, she got up and lay down on the bed of grass, covered her with the quilt, struggled to fall asleep, and woke up very early again.

Every time I wake up, it is almost four or five o'clock, which happens to be the time when Xiaocao gets up in Australia.

Sometimes she also dreams, the scene in the grass room overlaps with the scene in the hotel, the dislocation of characters and time, and the weird picture make her wake up from the dream every time, sweating profusely.

One afternoon three months after Xuecao left, Qin Xue specially asked Zhou Bei'an to pick him up, and then they had dinner together.

Zhou Bei'an had a bad feeling.

Sure enough, halfway through the meal, Qin Xue suddenly said, "Let's break up."

Zhou Bei'an didn't speak for a long time, just looked at the grass, neither saying yes nor no.

This was the only time that Zhou Bei'an didn't take the words of the grass, and it was also the only time that he didn't smile and face the person in front of him.Because of this sentence, he couldn't laugh no matter what.

"Thank you for this period of time." Qin Xue said to herself, as if she was going to finish in one breath, "At first, I didn't reject you. I thought I would gradually fall in love with you, but later I used you."

Qin Xue took a sip of wine and continued, "Because when I'm with you, I can temporarily forget that person, as if as long as I'm with you, I can prove that I'm normal."

"I'm sorry, I should have told you these words a long time ago, but during this time..."

"Stop talking!" Zhou Bei'an interrupted Qin Xue. This was the first time, and maybe the last time, he tried his best to control his emotions before saying, "I'll take you home."

"No need, I can take a taxi back by myself." Qin Xue said with her head down, not daring to look at him.

Zhou Bei'an had already stood up, and said word by word, "This is the last time I see you off, let's go."

This is the first time that Xiaocao has gone abroad, and it is also the first time that she has left the Qin family and the first time that she has left Xiaocao.

Even if Qin Xue went abroad, at that time, Xiaocao felt that Qin Xue was everywhere in her life. What things in the Qin family did not have the shadow of Qin Xue?The most important thing is that at that time, Qin Xue called Qin Xue 24 hours a day, day and night, which made Xuecao feel that Qin Xue had never left.

But now she is on the other side of the ocean, in Australia, where there is still a two-hour time difference between China and China in different seasons.There is no sign of Qin Xue here, no, not at all.

Some are just poor English, heavy work, and unaccustomed meals.

When she left, she didn't even take a photo of Qin Xue with her.If I had to say something, it would be the clothes Qin Xue bought for her.

When she left, although Qin Xue said that she should supervise something and report the situation, but Xiaocao knew that it was just a rhetoric.Just want her to leave, but also give her face.

Because I have been here for more than three months, the number on Xiaocao's cell phone has never rang again, and Qin Xue's so-called asking her to report to work has not been done once.

On the contrary, it was Zhou Yu who called twice a day, morning and evening, and sent some food over from time to time. If it wasn't for the fact that he had too many things to do, Zhou Yu would almost fly over with him.

In a foreign country, there is a person who cares about himself like this, which slightly reduces the feeling of wandering.

Xiaocao even thought that it would be great if she could love Zhou Yu.

Even if the grass is hard-hearted, it can't stand Zhou Yu's care and greetings.What's more, she is just an ordinary person, so ordinary and insignificant that as long as someone cares about her, she will be moved, because living alone in this world is really too lonely.

It's a pity that her heart is full of Qin Xue, and she can't hold anyone anymore.

No matter how heavy the work is, Xiaocao still needs to find something to do, and he can’t let himself be idle, because when he is idle, those secret memories and extravagant hopes will come out unbridled, and sometimes he can’t help crying, and the tears will be too hot. Burned myself.

So Xiaocao went to learn how to draw.It's just because there is a studio on the way from get off work, I went in by chance once, and found that it was opened by a Chinese, and I was pleasantly surprised.The boss is a woman named Ann, who is very kind to the grass.

"Actually, you still have a feeling for painting." An served a cup of coffee for Xiaocao, and saw the sketch drawn by Xiaocao.

Xiaocao smiled embarrassedly. In fact, in the past two months, except for some basic connections, Xiaocao has been painting the same person.

"You seem to be drawing the same person." An said with a smile, "Although you draw differently every time, it is the same person."

The secret was exposed, and Xiaocao blushed.

"You...do you like her?"

"what……"

Xiaocao didn't expect that An would ask such a question, and it was so direct.

"Actually, I wanted to ask you before. For a painter, the pen in his hand is like a human eye. Usually, it cannot be hidden from others, especially those who also learn to paint. Your brushstrokes , force, and lines are all revealing your thoughts. Every girl you draw is your favorite girl."

"Yes... I like it very much, I like it very much."

It was the first time that she admitted that she liked Xiaocao in front of others, and it was the first time someone talked to her about this topic, and Xiaocao suddenly had the urge to cry.

"It's not easy to meet someone you like. May you take good care of your own happiness."

Catch your own happiness?But, did Qin Xue ever belong to her?

"you do not mind?"

"True love is innocent, regardless of gender."

Ann took one more look at the painting and walked away.

Xiaocao returned to her residence, which was found by the person in charge here. Although the house was not big, it was not far away, and Xiaocao didn't have any special requirements. In this regard, she couldn't be more casual. .

Lying on the bed, the words Ann said echoed in his head.

True love is innocent, regardless of gender.

But, the person I love, does she also love me?

Xiaocao turned over, grabbed a piece of paper and a pen, and started to draw.

At home, at any time, Xiao Cao can only draw Qin Xue.Because there is nothing else in her head.

Even without a single photo, Xiaocao could know what Qin Xue looked like with her eyes closed.

She has drawn many pictures, and now she is going to start drawing again.The difference from the previous ones is that she painted Qin Xue's childhood.

The first one, this is when she saw Qin Xue in the crowd from a distance, that was the first time she saw her.

The second picture is the first time Qin Xue talked to her, under the tree.At that time she was looking at the sky.

In the third picture, she was sitting on the sofa, and Qin Xue walked towards her. This was the second official meeting between them.

The fourth picture is the first time she was hugged and slept by Qin Xue.

In the fifth picture, Qin Xue is playing the piano, she is sitting beside and watching quietly.

……

No.16, that is, they are sitting in the classroom together in class.

No.17 is Qin Xue asking her to queue up to buy ice cream.

……

No. 20 three, it was the love letter Qin Xue was throwing, and she was watching from the side.

……

Before I knew it, I painted for a whole night. At dawn, Xiaocao got up from the bed, didn't feel tired, took a shower, and went to work.

For half a month, Qin Xue returned home to draw after work.

I have never been so far away from that person, but it seems that I have never been so far away from that person.It was as if every drop of her blood contained her breath.

It turned out that it was all false to say that we should stay away.

It seems that longing and pain have finally found a little outlet to vent. Now as soon as she enters the room, Xiaocao feels that Qin Xue is waiting for her.

The walls in the room are covered with paintings, some of which contain weeds, and some of which do not.But in every picture, there is a Qin Xue.

☆、Chapter 20