An Qiu

15

I was mean, selfish, and suddenly terrified of the future.

When An Qiu sang the last song and saw me in the alley home, I was drunk like a dead dog.

My body was as limp as mud, but I felt that I was sober. When I looked up, I smiled silly: "An Qiu, I miss you so much."

He held his cane, bent down and pulled my arm with some difficulty, and said, "What's wrong with you? It's cold on the ground, can you get up? Go home and sleep."

I supported the wall with one hand and grabbed his hand with the other, pulling him staggeringly.

He put my arms on his shoulders and supported me to move forward. I heard him grunt from time to time. I knew that my weight was pressing on his stump. He was walking on the tip of a knife, every step It was dripping with blood.

"Don't let go, it's almost here, we're holding on for a while." Next to my ear was his soft voice, his body trembling slightly because of the pain, but he firmly held my arm and didn't let me fall.

I vomited so much that day, I said: "I broke up with my girlfriend, I don't want to find a woman anymore, I don't want to pretend anymore, I don't want to lie to others... An Qiu, lying is so tiring, one lie will cost you Use more lies to cover up...why can't I grow anything? I like men! I didn't hurt anyone, why do I have to live such a suffocated life? Day and night, no light, I fucking What a day!"

That day I howled again, because I staggered and knocked An Qiu down twice.When he got home, he couldn't stand still. Sitting in a wheelchair, he dragged me to the bathroom, where he washed off the remnants of vomiting and the sour smell.

I regained some sanity, because I was a little excited because of the alcoholism, I pressed him on the bed, and the prosthetic limbs were still on.He looked whole and perfect, and I liked him with all his limbs, so I kissed him madly, entered him, and went on a rampage to declare my territory.

He gritted his teeth and endured, with sweat streaming down his forehead, he would wipe his eyes only when he was fascinated, then he stroked my back and comforted me: "If you can see the light, who would like to hide in the dark? Duan Yu, Since you haven't cheated, choose the way of getting married and having children from now on, don't be abandoned by your parents and wander around like me."

I buried my face in his arms, seeking comfort: "An Qiu, you are so kind, will we be together forever?"

"If you need me, we'll always be together," he said.

"Even if I get married and have children?"

"No, no, it's up to you to get married and have children. Although I don't force it, I can't tolerate extramarital affairs. It is a sin to destroy other people's marriages. I made a mistake once, and God gave me retribution. I don't want to do it again. "

That day, I found out that An Qiu once had an unforgettable love. They were classmates in college and they fell in love for seven years. Later, that person couldn't stand the social pressure and chose to get married.An Qiu couldn't let go of this relationship, and the quarrel was especially fierce, and the old people on both sides of the quarrel knew about it.

The marriage was ruined, and the relationship between the two reached an irretrievable point. In the last quarrel, they had a tug-of-war.In the middle of the night, he cried and begged the man not to leave, but the man pushed him away over and over again.