Dear Mr. Zhou

After returning from Zhou Cen's house that night, Lin Xuan had a dream.

He dreamed that one night many years ago, 17-year-old Zhou Cen and himself skipped their evening self-study class and lay on the playground watching the stars.At that time, the playground was not artificial turf, but really soft grass.

There will be a faint fragrance of grass between breaths.

Without so many worries and thoughts, the topic naturally turned to the future.Listening to Zhou Cen telling himself his truest thoughts bit by bit, how could this seemingly distant future be without him.

Lin Xuan was full of confidence in his heart. He believed in Zhou Cen, maybe only Zhou Cen.

She turned her head and looked into his eyes, as if there were twinkling stars, sincere and firm.

When Lin Xuan woke up, it was just dawn.A ray of light quietly passed through the untightened curtains, quietly existing.

Feeling empty and sad.

It seemed that the kind of heart-wrenching pain when he and Zhou Cen had just separated before had never been there before, leaving only boundless emptiness and regret.

Maybe confrontation is the only solution, Lin Xuan thought.

So in the days that followed, Lin Xuan naturally accepted Zhou Cen's invitation.

It was raining that day, Lin Xuan wanted to refuse, but suddenly remembered that Zhou Cen said a long time ago that he likes this kind of weather the most, the words of rejection turned a corner in his mind, and it became consent.

The atmosphere when the two got along was pretty good, after all, they had been in contact before, and now both of them have the idea of ​​wanting to start over.And if Lin Xuan could appear in front of Zhou Cen today, Zhou Cen already understood his attitude.

When we returned home, the rain had stopped, the air was still humid, and there was some faint fragrance in the breeze. Seeing the existence of the person beside him, Lin Xuan was in a particularly good mood.

Osamu Dazai said: The so-called world, isn't it you?Thinking of this made me a little dazed.

Zhou Cen seemed to have noticed it too, and said with a light smile, "What are you thinking, so serious."

Lin Xuan didn't have the nerve to tell Zhou Cen what he was thinking, so he dealt with it vaguely.

"It's fine if you don't say anything." Zhou Cen leaned over to help Lin Xuan unbuckle his seat belt, and the warm breath in his words hit Lin Xuan's cheek, "Let's go, I'll send you up."

"En." Lin Xuan rolled his eyes and responded in a low voice.

But when I walked downstairs, I saw that there was no light on in the building where Lin Xuan's house was located.There was a power outage, probably a circuit failure.

"It's really troublesome..." Lin Xuan complained a little dissatisfied.

"Let's go." Zhou Cen said soothingly, taking his hand along the way.

The corridor is very dark, but the atmosphere is just right.

"Be careful, you can't see clearly." The hand holding Lin Xuan tightened again.

"It's so weak, but it's really inconvenient." Lin Xuan said, "Well, someone should come to fix it soon."

After finishing speaking, I heard footsteps coming from upstairs, accompanied by some eager voices talking on the phone. The content was probably why no one came to repair the circuit yet.

Lin Xuan hastily pulled away the hand tightly held by Zhou Cen.

The man hurried past and gradually disappeared into the darkness, everything seemed to have become extremely quiet.Only the footsteps of the two remained, one in front and one behind.

Lin Xuan knew that his actions just now seemed to have agitated Zhou Cen.But he really didn't know what to say or do now to ease the somewhat unpleasant atmosphere.

Speechless all the way.

Taking out his mobile phone to illuminate, Lin Xuan opened the door silently, turned around and said to Zhou Cen: "You..."

Before he could say anything, he felt himself being pushed into the door, and then the door was closed behind him with a "bang".Lin Xuan was trapped between the door and Zhou Cen.

He could feel Zhou Cen's displeasure.

Then a ray of light came in from the window, Lin Xuan stared blankly at Zhou Cen's face, and suddenly remembered the first time he saw him.What is different from the past is that the men nowadays are no longer young, and what is seen in their eyes is no longer the spirit of youth, but instead, it is maturity and perseverance.

Lin Xuan turned his face away, not looking at Zhou Cen in embarrassment.

"You just... care so much about other people's opinions?" Zhou Cen's voice echoed in his ears, and he couldn't tell if there was some helplessness.

"No...I..." Lin Xuan hurriedly explained, "I just..."

Without the following, he didn't know how to go on, he didn't know how to go on so that Zhou Cen could clearly understand his intentions.

Zhou Cen sighed softly, looked into his eyes, and kissed him without warning.The familiar but unfamiliar touch immediately invaded Lin Xuan's brain.

Half soothing, half gentle.

Zhou Cen gently took Lin Xuan onto his shoulders and patted him on the back.

"I'm afraid..." Lin Xuan's voice was muffled, "It's hard to be together again, I'm afraid that because of other people's strange eyes...again..."

"I separated from you at that time, I really didn't expect to have today, so I can't let this happen again...I don't want to choose, especially with your choice...Really, I would rather never disclose our relationship relationship, and I don’t want to lose you again…”

Zhou Cen didn't know what it was like in his heart, loss, happiness, self-blame, maybe everything.He didn't know that Lin Xuan had always thought this way, but he also got a definite answer for what he said today.

"Don't be afraid, Lin Xuan." Zhou Cen kissed his forehead, "From today on, if you look into my eyes, I won't leave you because of other people's eyes, and you can't deny our love because of other people's eyes." relationship, okay?"

It's like an umbrella someone handed you when it's raining, or a good night message from someone you miss when you're insomnia.

Lin Xuan seemed to have some different feelings in his heart.For this person, for this feeling, at this moment, I have a new experience.

He wanted to tell Zhou Cen that he would, and he believed in him.

But the words suddenly changed.

Lin Xuan's voice was still muffled.

"Zhou Cen, I like you."