don't marry, don't love

The author has something to say: This chapter is from the perspective of the subject, and it must be emphasized again that it is not a scumbag or a scumbag.

These two people don't want to be in love, they can't talk about scum, they know~ At most, they are hurting each other~ Need to work together~

"You have no right to make such a decision." The middle-aged female Doctor Beta frowned, trying to convince the stubborn Omega in front of her.

"I have." Qian Yu put the medical records aside, and looked into the doctor's eyes calmly, "I have the right to protect my Alpha from harm."

The doctor sighed, "This is not a trivial matter. Your miscarriage within ten days means that you have suffered serious external injuries. According to the law, we are obliged to tell your Alpha about the situation of you and your child." He hesitated , the doctor added, "Besides, in your situation, the possibility of miscarriage will increase in the future. These are all things your Alpha has the right to know."

"If I help you hide it, it will be against the law."

"That's right, if I had an abortion, if you didn't tell my Alpha, it would be illegal." Having said that, Qianyu showed a faint smile, "But as far as the law is concerned, the definition of abortion is for people. The formed fetus, the ten-day-old fertilized egg is still a cell mass. Even..." Taking a deep breath, Qian Yu continued, "Even, I can't see it..."

"I've already lost my child, and I don't want my Alpha to blame myself for not taking good care of me..." After a pause, Qianyu continued, "My Alpha doesn't even know it exists, and if you don't tell him, he will never I don’t even know. I believe you can understand my feelings, and the feelings of not wanting to hurt close people, you also have lovers.”

Pursing his lower lip, the doctor didn't make a sound for a long time, but just looked at Qian Yu quietly.

After a few minutes, the doctor relented, "If he doesn't ask about it, I won't."

The doctor naturally wouldn't believe Qian Yu's words, but she understood one thing clearly.If an Omega came to the hospital by himself even for a miscarriage, then his life must not be much better, and his Alpha couldn't possibly love him much.Not only do some domineering Alphas not care about the Omega who just had a miscarriage, they may even complain or even beat the Omega because the Omega failed to keep the child.

Doctors have seen this kind of thing too much.For these Omega, she pity and feel distressed.Like Qian Yu, most Omega are mostly grown-up children.Doctors are also mothers, and their children are about the same age, so they always put themselves in their shoes and think how much they would feel distressed if this was their own child.So once these Omegas make some demands on her, she will try her best to satisfy them within her ability.

"Thank you..." Qian Yu naturally understood that the doctor had acquiesced to his request.Whether the doctor believes his words or not, or whether the doctor has other ideas.This didn't mean much to Qian Yu, the important thing was that the doctor chose to help him in the end.

Shaking his head, the doctor turned and left.

Tear that medical record into pieces, never put it together again, and silently throw it into the trash can.Scraps of confetti cling to your palms, rub them off with your hands and watch them fall like withered snowflakes.

He didn't want Duan Kaize to know that it was true that there was once a small life, and he didn't want Duan Kaize to feel guilty about him.It can be said that he loves Duan Kaize and cares about Duan Kaize, so that may be a little watery.

Qian Yu is not the Holy Mother, he has flesh and blood, he can be happy, sad, and revengeful.

He could understand Duan Kaize's anxiety in going after Wang Yuan, and he could also understand the importance of Wang Yuan to Duan Kaize.

Sensitive and delicate as a thousand feathers, how could he fail to see what Wang Yuan meant to Duan Kaize.

Duan Kaize's performance was too obvious, and only an Alpha like Wang Yuan, who can pass through the earth, would not be able to detect it.

If Qian Yu had to choose between his "true love" and "Duan Kaize", he would choose "true love".After all, it is 'true love', so it should be different everywhere.

He respects and understands Duan Kaize's decision, but he cannot forgive him.

It was only after the miscarriage that Qian Yu learned that the chance of pregnancy in Omega during estrus is as high as 90%, and the taste of pheromones will change after three months of pregnancy, giving off the unique smell of Omega during pregnancy.

It may be because Qianyu has done everything so well since he was a child, so excellent, and his family members are too reassured about him. No one has explained to Qianyu carefully how different Omega's physique is.

Although Qian Yu was concerned about the Omega physique, she mostly focused on how to use inhibitors and Beta perfume scientifically, and didn't know much about the sex relationship.

As a result, Qian Yu's understanding of the sex relationship was blank.

On Duan Kaize's side, because he liked an Alpha since he was a child, he didn't know anything about Omega. He didn't even know that it would be a cruel thing to leave an Omega alone to survive the estrus period.

The tragedies happened in this way under the inadvertent superposition of one by one, but suddenly it seemed so taken for granted.

Even though the little fertilized egg stayed in Qianyu's body for only about ten days, Qianyu didn't even have time to feel or even know its existence.But when it really left the body, Qian Yu still felt sad and wanted to cry.

If all goes well, it should slowly develop into an embryo, either a boy or a girl.Then be born in this world, mature into an Omega, Beta or Alpha at the right time, and have a complete life.

But now, it lost its life prematurely.Qian Yu didn't even know whether it was appropriate to use the word 'life', after all, it could not even use the word 'person' in the legal sense.

Qian Yu blamed himself, blamed himself for not taking good care of him; he blamed Duan Kaize, if Duan Kaize cared about him a little bit, just a little bit, maybe he wouldn't lose it.

In a sense, they are all murderers.

Bring it to life, but kill it at the beginning.So cruel, if it had never been given.

Resent Duan Kaize, but can't say hate.If it was just as an Alpha roommate, the other party seemed to have fulfilled its obligations; but as an Alpha who marked him, the other party was too irresponsible.

After much deliberation, I finally came to the conclusion that it was just because there was no love.

From this point of view, it seems that this child was not born is another kind of luck.

Qian Yu can hardly describe such a life as happiness without sex.But if it was unfortunate, it would be pitiful for the child to be born in such a family.

Qian Yu lay on the bed, tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep.Stomach hurts, head hurts even more.The small, hard-to-see cell mass floated around in his mind as if enlarged, and occasionally Duan Kaiser's face would pop out to add to the confusion.

I can barely figure out how I feel right now.

Thinking and thinking, thinking and thinking.

It should be guilt, right?Should be guilty of not feeling it.It doesn't even have a chance to choose, to choose to be born or to leave.

Everyone, or life, after all, it is not yet a person.Every life should have the right to choose, but its right was deprived by him and Duan Kaize's irresponsibility.After staying in his stomach for less than ten days, no one knew about it, and then disappeared, without even having the chance to inhale the air of this world through his nostrils.

The time we spent together was too short before I learned that it existed, and it left.It is unrealistic to say how deeply the father and son love each other and how heartbroken they are.Emotions, even if they are connected by flesh and blood, need time to pave the way.

Therefore, Qian Yu decided to attribute the complex and chaotic feelings in her heart to guilt.

What about Duan Kaiser?blame……

Hate and understanding tear each other apart, and finally only resentment remains.

Qian Yu thought, he thought he could accept such a simple roommate relationship, and thought that the comfort of life was enough.

But now he understands that from the moment Duan Kaize tagged him, a pure roommate relationship cannot exist.

Because whether they want to or not, they need to have a baby.

Neither Duan Kaize's parents nor his own parents would allow them to have no children.

Just two people, without love and affection, can live a very good life.But it's different if there are more children. What kind of child will the two without feelings raise together?Chiba couldn't imagine.

He seemed to be in a dead end.

The problem that I thought had been solved, but now I found that it was still unsolvable.

Therefore, there is only a temporary escape.

Keeping Duan Kaize from knowing the existence of this child does not require his guilt and self-blame, it is more of a punishment.

I punish myself for bearing the guilt of it alone; I punish you for never knowing it's there.

However, let's take one step at a time, until the day when we can't go on...

There is always a way, there is always a way...

When Duan Kaize and Wang Yuan found Qian Yu, Qian Yu was curled up in the quilt and fast asleep.

Gently twisting the doorknob, Duan Kaize entered the ward alone, leaving Wang Yuan outside.When the doctor saw Wang Yuan, he specially told him not to let the unfamiliar Alpha approach Qian Yu.

Almost as soon as Duan Kaize stepped in with one foot, Qian Yu woke up.He needs the comfort of Alpha pheromone now, so he is naturally very sensitive to Duan Kaize's smell.

"Where's Wang Yuan?" Qian Yu sat up directly.His trauma looked serious, but the actual injury was not serious.

Seeing Qianyu wake up, Duan Kaize subconsciously stopped and stood not far from the door, "It's at the door."

"Let him in, I'm fine." I wanted to smile, but I couldn't.

He has no malice towards Wang Yuan, and even quite likes Wang Yuan's character.But, I still can't help but think, if Wang Yuan didn't go with them, would it still be safe and secure in his body?

Knowing that this is wrong, he shouldn't blame Wang Yuan, but he still can't help but think about it.

"Sorry, I was..."

"Yeah." With her head down, Qian Yu couldn't say "forgive you".He could accept Duan Kaize's apology, but he didn't want to and was not qualified to forgive Duan Kaize.If he forgives Duan Kaize, who will forgive him? "Let Wang Yuan come in, it's a bit strange to stand outside."

Seeing Qian Yu's insistence, Duan Kaize called Wang Yuan in.

Seeing the bruise on Qian Yu's face, Wang Yuan was also taken aback.The problem is not that neither of the two Alphas protected an Omega, but that neither of the two Alphas tried to protect this Omega.Besides, Wang Yuan also knew that he was the one who dragged the two of them down this time, otherwise Duan Kaize could have protected Qian Yu well.

"That... I'm sorry, if it wasn't for me..."

"Apologize to me anyway." Qian Yu remained calm, "If you're really that sorry, go buy me something to eat, it's already night."

"Okay!" Wang Yuan had an almost animal intuition, inexplicably felt that something was wrong with Qian Yu, and he couldn't tell what was wrong.Finally, with this 'order', Wang Yuan hurried to buy food.

Duan Kaize was still standing there without speaking, because he didn't know what to say.

"Can you sleep with me for a while?" Qian Yu said, and moved to the side, leaving a place for Duan Kaize on the bed.

Sometimes, nature is really hard to resist, and now Qian Yu is completely unable to resist the heart that yearns for Duan Kaiser's breath.

Without further ado, Duan Kaize took off his shoes, lay down next to Qianyu, and hugged Qianyu in his arms.

After kissing Qian Yu's hair, Duan Kaize still didn't speak.