don't marry, don't love

In life, there will always be such two situations.

The first type: After quarreling with others, I always think about the process of the quarrel.Then I started to blame myself, I should have quarreled with him like this at that time!Hey, why didn't I think of it at the time!I should have been arguing better!Why are you crying out of anger!It was too restless, too restless.

The second type: Before talking to others, there is always a belly full of drafts.Taking everything the other party said and what I said into account, I feel satisfied and can finally go to bed.As a result, when we talked the next day, I forgot everything, or I suddenly felt that what I wanted to say was meaningless.In the end, the conversation was straightforwardly completed in the simplest and rudest way.In short, it is a sudden and indescribable sense of burnout, which makes you feel like you can’t say anything, and you can’t say anything, and you can digest all the drafts in a second.

As for Duan Kaize at this moment, it was the second situation.

He and Qian Yu had been sitting face to face for a full 15 minutes. Duan Kaize straightened up in a rare way, with his hands on his knees, his whole body exuded my serious aura.

"Are you tired from sitting here? Why don't we sit on the sofa?" This was Duan Kaiser's first sentence after the conversation.

Feeling a little helpless, she pursed her lips and smiled, Qian Yu got up and walked to a corner seat on the sofa.Duan Kaize also quickly stood up, and followed Qian Yu to sit next to him.

Then, there was silence again.

"Are you tired from sitting like this? How about lying on my lap?" Duan Kaize said, moving away so that Qian Yu could lie on his lap.

Qian Yu stared at Duan Kaize for about a minute, Duan Kaize felt a little embarrassed, finally kicked off his slippers, and lay down on Duan Kaize's lap.

I stroked Qian Yu's hair for a while.

"you are so……"

"Duan Kaize, if you really can't say it, you can submit a report." Qian Yu, who was being rubbed comfortably by Duan Kaize, squinted her eyes and said.

"I just don't know how to say..." It seemed too wordy to say.

After hearing what Duan Kaize said, Qian Yu stretched out his hand and stroked Duan Kaize's hair, "You can say whatever you want, don't worry so much."

"I'm not a good Alpha." Duan Kaize took a deep breath and continued, "But I want to be a good Alpha, and I want to take good care of you. I hope you will give me a chance."

"The relationship between us, during this period of time, I have thought a lot, and I have been thinking about it. But yesterday, I suddenly discovered that none of the methods I thought of was acceptable to me, so..." After thinking for a long time, Duan Kaiser looked down at Chiba: "I don't know what I'm talking about."

"Do you want to take good care of me?" Qian Yu asked Kai Ze's eyes in the upper section.

"Yeah." Nodding without hesitation.

"Hmm..." Qian Yu said, holding Duan Kaize's face in his hands, raised his upper body, and gently kissed Duan Kaize's forehead. "Then please take care of me." After finishing speaking, Qian Yu got up and walked to the bedroom, "You turned over all night last night, and I didn't sleep well."

Looking at Qian Yu's closed bedroom door, Duan Kaize was still a little dazed.

He was in a daze from yesterday to today, and the most sober time was actually last night when he was writing his stomach.

When Qian Yu told Duan Kaize that the child was gone, Duan Kaize was in a state of shock and no emotion for a while.After Duan Kaize recovered from the shock, he saw Qianyu crying emotionally, and Qianyu was sad and blamed himself.Duan Kaize felt distressed, and he was so distressed that he didn't think about the little life that had disappeared.

He didn't think about that child until Qianyu fell asleep with exhaustion.

To speculate when the child was born and when he left.In the end, after much deliberation, in fact, there was only one time when he and Qianyu were not together, and the only possible time for the child to disappear was that time, that time in Japan.

But even if the result has been obtained, I still think about it over and over again.Think about it even if it doesn’t make sense, it seems that if you think about it a little more, you will feel less guilty.

Compared to Qian Yu, Duan Kaize's feelings for this child are nothing more than guilt.It may be a bit cold-blooded to say this, but the fact is that Duan Kaize only contributed a sperm at the beginning, and did not participate in the child's growth at all, and the child was gone.It was too late for him, and it was impossible for him to establish a deeper bond with the child besides blood.

It would be an exaggeration to say that there are other emotions.

Therefore, Duan Kaize's gaffe at that time was mostly due to Qian Yu.

He has always been unable to imagine Qianyu's feelings when he was besieged by Alpha, or rather, he has been avoiding thinking about that scene.But this time, he couldn't help himself to think.

Thinking about how hard it was for Chiba back then, when she faced Alpha alone, when she was alone in the ward, when she was told alone that the child was gone...

Thinking about it, my heart became sore, like being sprinkled with sulfuric acid, it was astringent and painful.

It wasn't until the car rear-ended that he was finally pulled out of this suffocating quagmire of emotions.The moment he felt the collision, his heart seemed to be knocked out.The first reaction was to go to see Qian Yu, and seeing that Qian Yu was fine, a beating heart was calmed down.

Suddenly he realized that if Qian Yu was hurt in any way, it would be something he would never accept.

When Qianyu rolled down the stairs, when he was hit, he only thought about Qianyu, and only had Qianyu in his eyes.

When he gently comforted Qianyu, or Qianyu comforted himself gently, he could actually feel his heart that had almost stopped beating again.

Messy emotions filled the mind, and when the brain was not enough, it got into the chest, and the whole body was uncomfortable.Panic, a kind of powerless, unchangeable depression.

He never wanted to hurt Qian Yu. From the beginning to the end, except for the first drunk gaffe, Duan Kaize has been doing his best to be nice to Qian Yu.

But the trip to Japan told him that if he really tried his best as he thought, Qian Yu would not be injured at all.The facts tell him that he has been ignoring Qian Yu intentionally or unintentionally.Otherwise, according to Duan Kaize's meticulousness, he would not have made so many mistakes.

Duan Kaize didn't know why he couldn't simply treat Qianyu well, that kind of pure love without emotional foundation, Duan Kaize couldn't do it.Duan Kaiser has always been good at this kind of thing, all the beautiful words of 'gentleman, careful, perfect' are the labels of Duan Kaiser, but all these things are completely impossible for Qian Yu.

That's why Duan Kaize came up with the idea of ​​letting Qianyu go. Since he can't even give him superficial warmth, it's better to let him find another happiness.

After telling himself, 'be a good Alpha who loves him before the divorce', Duan Kaize found that he seemed to be able to do well.

He will pay attention to Qianyu's preferences completely subconsciously, remembering what he likes to eat more and what he doesn't like to eat so much; even in a deep sleep, he can still feel Qianyu kicking off the quilt and wrapping people into his arms in a daze ;The weather is hotter and warmer. Even if you are in a company meeting, you have to go out and call Qianyu to tell him to add or remove clothes when you go out; Give him what he needs...

Duan Kaize didn't understand why he would put all the best in front of Qian Yu so easily and happily, as if he had suddenly let go of his burden.

He clearly told himself at the very beginning, 'to be a good Alpha who loves him'.

Why do things that I couldn't do with all my strength back then, but now I can do so well even with instinct?

Don't think about it if you don't understand it.

Duan Kaize told himself this, and at the same time he planned a divorce method that would not hurt Qian Yu's reputation.

But when Qian Yu told him 'they had a child', Duan Kaize felt that his whole world and all his thoughts had collapsed.

When he got home, his mother called him, and he burst out all the chaotic emotions with a few sobs.

After hanging up the phone, Duan Kaize completely calmed down, and the messy things in his mind seemed to evaporate all at once.

There are only four words left 'can't divorce! '

Duan Kaize didn't know why, but after he cleared his mind, he came up with such an idea.

Shouldn't the normal situation be that after learning that Qian Yu had suffered so much damage, should he let him go?

The current situation and thoughts are obviously not normal.

Duan Kaize knew that this was completely abnormal, but he decided to act according to this abnormal idea.

Duan Kaize's mother came here not long after, she burst into tears when she saw Duan Kaize, "How is Qian Yu..."

"Mom, Qianyu is asleep..." Duan Kaize handed his mother a tissue helplessly, and asked his father to help her to sit down.

Reluctantly suppressing the crying, Duan's mother began to ask what happened.

Telling everything I guessed and what I knew, Mama Duan burst into tears.If this was someone else's son, Mother Duan would have scolded him as a scum, but this 'scum' was his own son, and she could only cry aggrievedly.

Duan's father was still calm, and directly helped Duan Kaize contact the Japanese doctor in the hospital at that time through his relationship.After confirming how the child disappeared, Dad Duan hung up the phone.

'You really don't like Chiba? Duan's father asked, lowering his eyes and thinking for a while, and before Duan Kaize could answer, he said again, "If you really can't accept it, it's still too late to divorce, and I'll find a way for you. '

It was the first time for Duan Kaize to see his father so serious. There were no creases on his serious face, just a bare poker face.

Before Duan Kaize could react, Duan's mother stopped doing it first, "What are you doing, you don't want your son, don't you, Qian Yu is such a good child, where can you find him?"How did you say it when you got married, now that the child is gone, you don’t want someone else? !You Alpha, I have seen through it, you are all scumbags! '

Duan's father glanced at Duan's mother, then turned to Duan Kaize, and then said, "It's because Qian Yu is a good boy that I let them divorce." '

When Mother Duan heard this, she immediately understood what her husband meant, she stopped talking and looked at Duan Kaize.As far as Duan's mother was concerned, she definitely didn't want her son to divorce. She liked Qian Yu as much as she liked.But whether she likes Duan Kaiser or not, if her son keeps treating him like this, Qian Yu will be a tragedy.You can't be your own son as a son, and other people's children are not human beings.divorce?No divorce?Duan's mother was very conflicted.

However, no matter what Duan's mother and Duan's father think, there are two people who live together.

In the final analysis, it still depends on the attitudes of Duan Kaiser and Qian Yu.

And I don't know what Qian Yu said, but Duan Kaize replied quite firmly, 'I don't want a divorce. '