don't marry, don't love

After something like this happened, how could I have the mood to continue playing.Go straight down the mountain and go to the hospital for an examination first.

Up and down, the whole morning passed.

Duan Kaize thought it was better to have lunch first, and then go to the hospital for a physical examination.It's okay for the two adults to be hungry, but Mao Mao is still a child, so he can't be hungry, "Let's go eat first?"

"No!" Qian Yu always spoke calmly, but this time she was extremely firm and stern, "Go to the hospital first."

"We're fine if we're hungry, Mao Mao won't be hungry, how long has it been..."

"I said go to the hospital first!" Interrupting Duan Kaiser, he hugged Maomao even tighter, "Don't you understand what I said? Go to the hospital first!"

"Brother..." Seeing Qianyu's appearance, Maomao was also a little scared, "I'm hungry..."

Hearing Mao Mao's voice, Qian Yu forced a smile, "Good boy, Mao Mao, let's go to the hospital first, see the doctor before eating."

Seeing Qianyu like this, Duan Kaize didn't know why he was crazy.I had no choice but to get off the car halfway, and packed some simple food for Mao Mao and Qian Yu, "Eat first, and I will take you to a big meal after checking out."

Maomao hungrily ate the chicken rolls, she was really hungry.Qian Yu was absent-minded, didn't even move a mouthful, and within 2 minutes had to urge Duan Kaiser, "Why haven't you arrived yet? Can't you drive faster?"

"Why so slow... Did you go wrong?"

……

Duan Kaize finally couldn't take it anymore, "It takes an hour to enter the city, and it's less than half an hour. Is it useful for you to urge me?"

"Then can't you drive quickly?" Qian Yu was also very anxious, biting her lower lip fiercely.

"Should I drive faster? I have to be able to drive too. Do you want me to run through traffic lights?"

"Then break in!"

"Qianyu, what are you crazy about? What if you bump into someone? Your life is your life, but the lives of others are not? I shouldn't go out, and I shouldn't go out this year! Nothing good will happen if I go out!" Duan Kaize Take a deep breath, "I don't want to argue with you, please be quiet."

Pursing her lips, Qian Yu's eyes were red, and she stopped talking.

When he finally arrived at the hospital to register, Duan Kaize directly asked someone to do a check-up on his family, one big and one small.After making sure it was all right, he took the two of them to dinner.

During this period, Qian Yu has been very silent, and Duan Kaize has also been very silent, so that Xiao Maomao dare not even pant loudly.

After eating, he hurriedly sent Maomao home, explained the situation to Qian's father and mother, and then apologized deeply.After rejecting Qian's father and mother's persuasion, the two drove home.

Around four o'clock is the time to get off work. Duan Kaiser was blocked just as he drove onto the highway. There were cars all over the front, back, left, and right sides, and he couldn't even change the road.

After being stuck in traffic for about ten minutes, Duan Kaize looked at Qianyu in the car mirror and said, "I shouldn't lose my temper with you."

"En." Qian Yu's voice was stiff and indifferent.

Seeing Qian Yu's ignorance, Duan Kaize bit the bullet and said, "You are so kind to Maomao."

Hearing the word 'Maomao', Qian Yu's expression became much gentler, and he even talked more, "He has been very attached to me since he was a child. I went to dance practice until midnight, and he also followed his parents to pick me up. At that time, he Two years old, so young, he is very smart." Qian Yu said and compared, "When he was just born, he was very, very small, and his hand couldn't even hold a single finger of mine. Now, he is so big, They are taller than my legs." Qian Yu said with a more gentle smile, "In a few years, he will go to school, then awaken gender, and then become an adult. It seems a long time to say, but in fact, it will not be too long to live. how long."

"When my little Mao Mao grows up, he probably won't be as clingy to me as he is now. So I thought, hug him more, kiss him, and I guess he won't let me hug him, let me kiss him .”

"Like raising a son..." Seeing that Qianyu finally laughed, Duan Kaize also smiled, took out a wad of chewing gum from the storage beside him, and handed Qianyu a piece.

"It seems to be indeed..." Qian Yu put the chewing gum aside, he doesn't like to eat snacks very much, "I have fed him, put him to sleep, changed his diapers and bathed him." said At this point, Qian Yu smiled with two deep dimples, the kind of smile filled with cotton candy, "I still have a lot of dimples from him since he was a child in my mobile phone, and when he grows up, they will all be his. Black History..."

"You are so excited today." Duan Kaize tried to communicate with Qian Yu about what happened today.If there is a problem, it must be solved.If it's just to get around that problem, put it there.The estrangement it caused will only get deeper and deeper, and in the end it will be irreversible. "I have already taken CT scans in the clinic under the mountain. You don't need to be so nervous, you are scared of Mao Mao."

"You don't understand at all! You don't know how fragile children are!" Speaking of this, Qian Yu became excited again, "You don't understand anything at all!"

Duan Kaize also became angry, "I don't understand, yes, I don't understand! You understand! You understand better than a doctor, right? You understand better than a machine!"

"Go back to the city hospital for a good check-up, I have no objection, and I mean the same thing. But you can't starve your child just for the check-up, right? Do you know that you just follow your own temper just to make yourself feel at ease, this is very selfish ?”

"You say I'm selfish?"

"What you did today is selfish!"

Hearing these words, Qian Yu calmed down, tilted her head against the car window, and quietly looked at a certain point outside.My mind is also empty, I don't want to think about anything.

Duan Kaize clearly felt an overwhelming sadness coming from his Omega. After a long silence, he finally said, "I'm sorry, I'm so excited. You're a good brother, I can understand that you're just too nervous , I just hope you..."

After hearing this, Qian Yu showed a shallow smile, closed his eyes and replied, "I'm not a good brother."

"You're right, I'm selfish..."

Duan Kaize wanted to say something more, but Qian Yu stopped him, "I'm really selfish... I'm sorry..."

This was the first time that Qianyu interrupted Duan Kaize, and it was also the first time that Duan Kaize saw Qianyu who was no longer calm.

Taking a deep breath, Duan Kaize looked outside, the traffic jam was still serious.

He opened the door and got out of the car, Duan Kaize got into the back seat.

"What's wrong with you?" Duan Kaize pulled Qianyu into his arms, and let the other person's head rest on the part of his neck where the pheromone was the most intense.

Already aware that he lost his composure again, Qian Yu obediently grabbed Duan Kaize's arm, buried his face in the other's neck, and breathed a sense of security.

"I'm sorry..." Qian Yu's voice was a little nasal.

"It's okay, I'm here..." Realizing Qianyu's rejection of his question, Duan Kaize hugged him even tighter, "I'm here..."

Hearing this, Qian Yu suddenly felt like crying, really wanted to cry...

It would be great if Duan Kaize was always by his side, and it would be great if he never left alone.

Sniffing hard, Qian Yu moved her red eyes to Duan Kaize's lap.Buried his face on Duan Kaize, the distance was even closer.

It’s not that if you don’t talk about it, you will forget it, if it doesn’t hurt, you’ll be fine; if you don’t talk about it, it’s just that you can forget it, and if it doesn’t hurt, it’s just a temporary scab.Once there is a little bit, a little touch, the original sadness will be revealed, and then it will explode more violently.

"Duan Kaize, I actually hate you very much... I told myself I shouldn't do this, and I also know that it's not your fault that you don't like me. I'm not so miserable or innocent, and I don't love you at all... But, I Still can't do it..."

"We all made mistakes, but I just blame you more..."

Qian Yu's voice was choked with sobs, but with his eyes closed, only a little bit of tears leaked out, and more of them were held back.It's stuck in my throat, it's uncomfortable, like a big piece of steamed bun, I can't get up or down.It was as if a handful of glass had been broken in my heart, and a big hand kneaded it back and forth, but the blood couldn't flow out, and it poured into my heart.Painful and blocked, want to vent, but hold back not to vent.

Duan Kaize is not a fool, he can realize that something must have happened to Qian Yu that he doesn't know about.I also understand that today's events should have caused Qian Yu bad memories, and he lost control so much.

But if Qian Yu didn't say anything, he couldn't ask anything even if he asked.Besides, if Qian Yu was really forced to say something that could make Qian Yu so sad, it would be another layer of harm.

"It's all my fault. You should hit me and scold me. I also want to beat myself and scold myself. Cry if you want to cry. There are only two of us here. If you don't want to cry, hug me and keep hugging me." Look at me..." Duan Kaize rubbed Qianyu's hair, lowered his head and kissed Qianyu's forehead.

I didn't want to cry at first, but I still cried.It wasn't the kind of unbearable sadness, but weeping loudly, sobbing and almost unable to breathe.

No matter how much Qian Yu comforted himself, he still couldn't pass his test.It was a life, and I failed to protect it, and indirectly killed it.

Happiness will gradually fade away with the passage of time, while pain will only accumulate more and more, and the longer the time, the more painful it will be.

One life, Qian Yu thought he could afford it, but he couldn't afford it.He tried his best, but a small rape easily made him explode.

"Duan Kaize...our child...our child is gone..." When Qian Yu said this, she cried even harder, grabbing Duan Kaize's front.All the snot and tears from crying flowed down, and it was not the same as before. "I...I thought...he was in my body for such a short time...I won't be too sad...um...but...but...the longer ...the more I think about it...the sadder I become..."

"I won't tell you... because if you hadn't gone to find Wang Yuan... it might still be there... I think... you don't deserve to know it..." Qian Yu couldn't even speak clearly "... I clearly...know that I'm selfish...I also know...I shouldn't do this...wrong...it's not all you...how could I be like this..."

Immersed in the shock of being a father, Duan Kaize couldn't extricate himself for a while.Just habitually, stroking Qianyu's back up and down, to appease him, "It's okay...it's okay...it's okay..."

"I'm sorry... Duan Kaize... I'm sorry..."

"It's okay, really, it's okay..." Finally, Duan Kaize recovered from the shock.His eyes were red, Duan Kaize held Qianyu's face and kissed him: "It's all my fault, don't be sad, it's all my fault. I hurt the baby and hurt you, I'm sorry. I'm not a good father, you have already You have worked hard to protect it, right? You have tried your best, Qian Yu, don't blame yourself, blame me."

A sound of comfort finally calmed down Qian Yu's emotions.

Emotionally broken and exhausted too much energy, Qian Yuwo fell asleep in Duan Kaize's arms.

Gently carried Qian Yu to the co-pilot, and fastened the seat belt.Duan Kaize was sitting in the driver's seat, his hands tightly gripping the steering wheel.Due to emotional instability, the strength in his hands squeezed the steering wheel to the point of cracks.

Duan Kaize's mood is very complicated.

Shock, sadness, heartache, self-blame... mixed together, a sour taste choked hard into the nose.My stomach hurts from falling to the ground, and my throat is panicked.

Looking at the road that was no longer congested, Duan Kaiser started the car instinctively.