gentle night

He took the bowl to the water dispenser to pick up hot water, and when he was done, he found the lid and put it on, and sat down at the table.At some point, a distorted expression passed between his lips and nose, and his eyes struggled to maintain composure.A few minutes later, the instant noodles were ready. He lifted the lid and flicked it with chopsticks, and a strong smell of MSG came over his face.He picked up a piece of noodles with chopsticks and mechanically stuffed them into his mouth. His stomach felt disgusted, but he pressed his throat hard to swallow the noodles.His eyes were fixed on the ground, and he didn't feel what he was eating.

Cheng Xian held the chopsticks in his hand and tried to hold them firmly; he chewed the noodles slowly and tried his best to eat them in one bite.His face still contorted from time to time, and the composure in his eyes became weaker and weaker until it began to shatter.Soon, his eyes were also attacked by that distortion, his composure disappeared, and a kind of beastly madness gradually rose.

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Finally, Cheng Xian spat out the noodles in one gulp, threw the chopsticks away, and got up to search in the package.He found the key, closed the door and left without wearing a down jacket.

He came out into the street, and the station was empty.The two buses had just left, and the billboard not far away was wet with raindrops, and the female star on the billboard was smiling at Cheng Xian charmingly.

Cheng Xian was only stunned for a second, then he stretched his legs and started running.At first, he didn't run fast, but gradually, he rolled up the muddy water like the wind.There was fire in his belly, flames in his eyes, and the slightest bit of rain blew on his face, and it seemed to be evaporated dry all at once.Water droplets splashed from the soles of his feet, and the wind was blowing in his ears, and the scenery along the street receded behind him row by row, from small to large, and then from large to disappearing.He overtook a girl holding an umbrella, and he passed an old man who was slowly pedaling his bicycle.A car scrambled to turn the corner, but Cheng Xian, who suddenly jumped up, slammed on the brakes. Horns and curses rang out behind him.Soon, he began to breathe heavily, his throat was on fire, his steps became chaotic, and he faintly felt that he would fall to the ground the next moment.But there was a ruthless force supporting him, Yue Junsheng's innocent face helped him hold his breath, making him run wildly excitedly as if rushing to the execution ground.

Finally, after bumping into several people one after another, Cheng Xian turned a corner and saw the high-rise apartment where Yue Junsheng lived in the distance.Blind faith burst into his last passion, and his heart burst into flames.He slammed into the gate of the community in one go, without even seeing if there was a guard at the gate.He fixed his eyes on the doors, the door on the first floor of the apartment, the door of the elevator, and the door of Yue Junsheng's apartment on the ninth floor.

The moment he stood in front of the door, Cheng Xian's legs could barely support him, and he almost fell to his knees.But he didn't care about anything, he just fumbled for the key to open the door.

As soon as I tried hard, the key didn't go in.No matter how hard I tried, the head of the key hit the lock, but I couldn't get in.

Cheng Xian puffed heavily, looked at the key, and tried again, but it still didn't work.Turn left and turn right, all are stuck.

Cheng Xian was startled, and immediately thought that the lock had been changed.Why change the lock?Either moving or anti-theft, which one is it now?

Cheng Xian's hand holding the key suddenly trembled violently. He stared at the door in disbelief. He couldn't imagine that this door, which was successfully opened to him half a month ago, was now so coldly blocked in front of him. He refuses.

He pressed the key against the door lock again, and began to poke the key in violently. The veins on his arm were exposed, but the lock and the door still remained motionless.He kicked and kicked and kicked the door recklessly, and the key head smashed against the paint leather on the door, "Junjun!" He shouted under his throat, "Junjun!"

Cheng Xian twisted the doorknob, turned his arms away, almost deformed the doorknob, and the shiny floor tiles in the corridor reflected his appearance on the verge of losing control.He suddenly kicked over with a big foot, "Junjun!" The door was kicked with a loud "boom".He himself was knocked against the wall, shoulder and back of the head slammed.One couldn't stand steadily, and Cheng Xian sat down under the wall.

With a sound of "Yiya", the neighbor who was separated by a door opened the door by a palm width, and the door was hooked with an anti-theft chain.Behind the anti-theft chain, an old lady who looked shrewd and pampered was staring at Cheng Xian with fear.She was dialing the phone in her hand, only to hear her say to the phone: "Comrade police, there is a thief breaking into the neighbor's door here, my address is..."

As if a wild animal saw the hunter's muzzle, Cheng Xian jumped up and ran towards the other side of the aisle.He heard the sound of the door closing loudly behind him, but he didn't have time to think about anything, he slammed into the stairwell used as a safe passage, took three steps, jumped every five steps, and flew down as if fleeing.

When I arrived at the lobby on the first floor, I didn't dare to go out when I saw the bright front door. I looked at the dark side door used for garbage collection, and slipped out holding my breath.Turning around the large dustbin, Cheng Xian remembered that there should be a back door or a side door in this neighborhood, so he ran to the place where there were many flower beds and trees.Based on the location of the main entrance of the community, he speculated on the possible location of the side door or the back door.He guessed right, there is an iron gate leading to a back street and alley behind several apartment buildings.Seeing those alleys, a light flashed in Cheng Xian's eyes.In a few seconds, he pulled out the iron gate, and disappeared into those back streets and alleys like a beast returning to the forest.

He didn't know how long he ran, and he didn't know where he was going, he only knew that his heart was beating in his chest, which was different from the way he was running to Yue Junsheng's apartment.He still remembers the last time his heart beat like this, and he still remembers all the scenes at that time.At that time, he was like a beast that had stepped into a trap, terrified, and ran out of the Yue family's villa, fleeing in a panic.In the end, even knowing that there was no need to run anymore, he still couldn't control himself and jumped forward, just like now.

Dragging his two legs, Cheng Xian walked almost by inertia.In fact, he had no strength for a long time, and he felt that his lungs would be wiped out in the next moment.In the end, he ran into a section of Guthead Alley, and seeing that there was a wall in front of him, he still rushed over with straight eyes, as if the wall didn't exist.

Cheng Xian bumped into the wall head-on, making a muffled sound.He staggered, as if he had finally exhausted his strength, and slowly knelt down and fell down.

Wiping the rain on the ground, he turned his face, just in time to see a black bird flying across the sky...

During the Spring Festival of that year, Cheng Xian spent alcohol.He wished he could get really drunk once.He doesn't drink much, and the reason he doesn't is not because he gets drunk easily.On the contrary, he doesn't drink because he drinks like water, and it's extremely difficult to get drunk, and it's meaningless to buy him drunk.This time, Cheng Xian didn't believe in evil, he went to the supermarket to buy wine after he got up from the cut-off alley, and bought as much as he could drag back.He bought all the low-priced and bad wines, and asked the people in the supermarket for a cardboard box, put a bunch of wine in it, tied it with a rope, and carried it back to the hotel on his shoulder.

When they arrived at the hotel, Cheng Xian sent text messages to his uncle and Cheng Liang, saying that something happened to his friend and he rushed over to help them. He would not stay with them on New Year's Eve. If he had time, he would come back to see them on the sixth day of the new year and apologize to them.Then he turned off his cell phone, locked the door, closed the curtains, fell on the sofa and started a life of drunken dreams.

Of course, it's not easy to get drunk, even when he knows that he and Yue Junsheng are completely over.But on the other hand, getting drunk can also be achieved through hard work. As long as you persist in binge drinking, Iron Man can also rot into a pile of mud.Cheng Xian is not an iron man, he is just a beast that wants to get drunk, he is eager to get rid of the heart-piercing burning sensation in his heart, he is willing to exchange the burning of his stomach for the burning of his heart.In the first few bottles, he went to the toilet frequently, his head was not heavy, and his face was not red.Over the next few bottles, he slowly stopped running to the toilet.He couldn't hold himself back and slid on the ground, shaking his head, he saw Yue Junsheng drawing graffiti on the glass again.He couldn't get enough of the graffiti with a heart between their names.He giggled at the scribble and reached forward as if to touch.

Unexpectedly, with a wave of his arm, he knocked over the wine bottle, and with a bang, the bottle fell to the ground.There was simply not much wine left in the bottle, so he tore off the bed sheet indiscriminately, sucked up the wine on the floor, then opened another bottle of wine, and poured it into the big sea bowl.Alcohol flowed in his blood, and his five senses became illusory and dull.But in such illusory and dullness, he saw many things that made him happy, all of which were about Yue Junsheng without exception——

"Cheng Cheng, where did you go just now, why didn't you call me?"

"Cheng Cheng, I want to open a stationery store, I don't want you to work too hard."

"Cheng Cheng, I, I will take care of you! I will start saving money in the future, and you will start saving money too..."

Yue Junsheng's voice and Yue Junsheng's face swirled around him, he giggled while drinking, his neck tilted when he smiled, and he actually fell asleep.

I don't know how long I slept this time, when Cheng Xian propped his head up from the ground, he only saw the dim light outside the curtains, and couldn't tell whether it was going to be bright or dark.Although his brain hurts, after sitting on the ground for a while, he slowly recalled everything: the door that didn't move, and Dead End Alley in the drizzle.

There was a series of slight sounds in his stomach, and Cheng Xian found out the ham sausage in the bag - his favorite food when he was a child. He twisted his hands and twisted the intestines in half. some hot water to drink.He held the cup and looked around. At this moment, he was sober, and he felt nothing but brain pain.