It's not that I want to bend

The first time I saw Han Qing was when I was six years old.At that time, I had already learned to work hard to be a child that my father would be proud of.I like to play with Jiang Li, although she always gets into trouble, but she lives freely and freely, that is a life that is beyond my reach, plus there are many great heroes in their family, and I worship heroes very much, so the two of us People play very well under the incredible eyes of many people.And Han Qing always looks like a little overlord with his nostrils upturned, and he has been doing nothing at a young age. This day, he finally made a mistake on Jiang Li's head. Without saying a word, Jiang Li decisively cleaned up Han Qing Now, she won't care about the prince or not, as long as she doesn't like it, she will take care of it.

Although he didn't agree with Jiang Li's behavior, but seeing the little bully crying on the ground with snot and tears, he felt very relieved.If he could be half as good as the bamboo-like person next to him who comforted him, he would not be like this.O man!At that time, I never imagined that a small onlooker would determine the beginning of a long period of suffering for me in the future.Fate is sometimes so wonderful. After experiencing many things, if you ask me, if I go back to that time, would I still choose to watch?I thought, I don't know the answer either.Not watching, it means that we will not meet, there will be no beginning of that period of suffering, maybe we will have a more beautiful encounter; not watching, it may also mean that we will miss it, there will be no intersection in life, each Have a good life.Anyway, it is at this moment that fate gives us a possibility to start, doesn't it?

The second time I saw Han Qing was on the wedding night in the bridal chamber.Although I seemed to agree to this marriage strongly, it was just because I didn't want to embarrass my father.It's not that she doesn't know the sorrow of being a woman. No matter how good she is, she can't escape the end of getting married, and finally becomes a boudoir and dies at home.I was still very lost in my heart. I have worshiped heroes since I was a child, and like many girls in the boudoir, I have imagined that my husband must be an indomitable hero, or a gentleman who is knowledgeable and talented.But none of these seemed to have anything to do with Han Qing in front of him.What's ridiculous is that Jiang Li also told me to run away from marriage, and even went to warn Han Qing.She didn't know, how could I do such a thing as fleeing marriage, I would never live as unscrupulously as she did.She has her style, and I have my pride.She also didn't know that her warning would not only restrain the demon in front of her, but would instead make him show his fangs even more ferociously.

Han Qing took off my hijab, his eyes were red, and he looked at me with a distorted face and growled. It turned out that this marriage was just the beginning of revenge.Oh, that's fine, at least I won't have any expectations anymore, I can grow old quietly, without having to deal with others, and I can keep the clarity in my heart until I die.Although I don’t have any expectations for this marriage anymore, but watching him and some messy people misbehaving in front of me, my pride doesn’t allow me to keep silent, so we quarreled, and he slapped me in exchange The result of walking away.Heh, I, who is as precious as a pearl in front of my parents, is actually regarded as dust by others. The title of the most beautiful woman in Kyoto is really ironic. In the eyes of my so-called husband, I am not as good as a whore in the brothel and Chuguan.So, in the eyes of that youthful person like Lanzhi, what kind of person am I?I was left in a new house to fend for myself, and no one paid any attention to me. When I thought life was the worst and could not get worse, reality slapped me hard and told me that I was too naive Yes, there is no worst, only worse.I was sent back to my natal family in such a shameful way, and I felt the cruelty of the world that I had never experienced before. Those who flattered me, praised me, envied me, and envied me all put on the same face. Vicious words attacked me, and my pride shattered to pieces. That time was also my darkest time, and I couldn't see the light.Fortunately, I have a group of family members who love me very much, and a father who is willing to hold up a piece of sky for me. They gave me the courage to overcome all the gloom, otherwise, I might really not be able to survive.

The third time I saw Han Qing was at the gate of my courtyard.I heard that he was poisoned some time ago and almost died. After waking up, his temperament changed drastically, and he couldn't remember many things. This time he came to pick me up.Heh, what does this have to do with me? Although he is my husband, I don't care about him, and I don't hate him at the same time. Everyone has their own fate. I have seen through many things during this period, and my heart has become calm. Or I can find a temple to become a monk and forget it.He came to pick me up?That's okay, I really can't bear to see the worried eyes of my parents. Although they hide well, they are still discovered by me keenly. I don't want to trouble the two elders anymore. White hair, I feel very sad, I am already unfilial, and I don't want to let their ardent expectations fail.

Han Qing tiptoed around outside the courtyard, which really didn't look like him.I heard the sound and looked back - the visitor had a pair of pure and clear eyes like a baby. I have never seen such clear eyes in anyone's eyes. I couldn't help being a little dazed. , the two of us just looked at each other quietly for a moment and forgot to speak.Is this person really Han Qing?Is it that ferocious demon?If it was really him, it would have changed too much.Can one poisoning really cause such an earth-shaking change?I always thought that poetry in the brothel and stippling in Chongwen were just other people's compliments to the royal family, and it was not true, but looking at these eyes, I actually believed inexplicably that he did them.

This person asked me if I was okay?Oh, is this mocking me?Still, really forgot.I politely responded to his words, thinking about what excuse he would use to take me back.Who knew, this person actually asked me to go back with him directly, without excuses, explanations, or false pretenses, he just stated his purpose straightforwardly.I looked deeply into his eyes, trying to see his real thoughts, whether it was a conspiracy or something else.However, I failed, and the inside was clear except clear.He said he would treat me well in the future, but I was bewitched by those clear eyes, and somehow wanted to believe it.Forget it, since I have decided not to bother my parents anymore, then I will go back with him. Even if there will be hardships in the future, I can take it lightly and stop bothering my parents. go.

After returning to the palace, he didn't face the hardships he imagined. He seemed to be a different person. He treated me very well and paid close attention to the things in my yard. He was so careful that he didn't look like a man.But I am really grateful to him for transplanting an osmanthus tree in my yard, which made me feel at home, as if I was still with my father and mother, and still in my small courtyard in Taifu Mansion , I am still the proud me, never fall, never change.He would come to eat every day, and he changed his original hideous appearance with a gentle voice, but he never stayed overnight.I was surprised at first, but gradually I got used to it, and I would leave meals for him, like a friend.That's fine, I suddenly felt that it's not bad to live a quiet life like this all the time, he is him, I am me, we don't interfere with each other.But Liuying worriedly told me every day that men are fickle, so I must ask him to stay overnight and grasp his heart, otherwise he may change back to his original state one day.I can't deny it, will it not change after staying overnight?I have already foreseen the worst, what else should I be afraid of.So, when Liuying was talking about Han Qing and that cold-faced guard in front of me every day, my heart was like still water, without any waves, and I still lived my life indifferently, while Liuying always hated iron and steel. with me.

I never thought that after Jiang Li beat him like that that day, he could actually feel the gaze I was looking forward to. The big thing turned into a small thing, and he didn't make things difficult for Jiang Li. Be restrained.Such a kind and generous person, is he still?Afterwards, he was still as good to me as before, and he didn't show any grudges. When I thought of his grinning and aggrieved appearance at that time, I actually wanted to laugh inexplicably.Is this still me with a calm heart?It seems that something has changed unconsciously.That's right, people's hearts are fleshy. In the process of getting along day and night, there will inevitably be changes. I still live indifferently.Liu Ying paid close attention to his injury with trepidation, carrying supplements and condolences to him in my name every day, fearing that if he was unhappy, he would bear a grudge against me again.Regarding the rumors that "Princess Anle is the only favorite" and "Princess Anle is a strict wife", I can only lament that the rumors are really unbelievable.However, some people with a guilty conscience took the initiative to please me after hearing the news. Why should I pay attention to those hypocritical people.

After his injury healed, he couldn't sit still, so he took me to burn incense in the Hanyin Temple in Luofeng Mountain.The scenery of Luofeng Mountain is really beautiful. I haven't been here for a long time, so I can't help but feel a little excited.But after all, the injury on my foot was not completely healed, and after walking for a while, I couldn't take it any longer. I gritted my teeth and resisted, and didn't say a word. I didn't want to spoil everyone's interest, and I didn't want people to think that I was so useless.I didn't expect him to find out, and squatted down in front of the public, so gently calling me up, is this to-carry me? !You idiot, when did you ever see a man who carried his wife on his back among the dignitaries!Didn't the master teach him etiquette?Don't you know how to ask the servants to raise a sliding pole to lift me up?Alas, that's right, he never listened carefully to his master's teachings, otherwise, how did he get the reputation of "the first evil in Kyoto".Originally, I definitely wouldn't go up, but that day when I looked at the red maple trees on the mountain, his warm smile reflected on him seemed to be bewitched by something, and he accidentally fell on his back.It turned out that his shoulders were so wide and warm.

It turned out that he was so afraid of Jiang Li, even though I saw his refusal gaze, I still agreed to go with Jiang Li, just to see his awkward appearance.I don't know when I started to have such childish thoughts.I didn't expect the present report to come so quickly, and this idiot actually squatted down in front of everyone again. There are so many familiar people here, how could I behave in such a disrespectful manner!Alas, that's all, now that I am one with him, he also has good intentions.I slowly lay on his back.Although I was mentally prepared to be teased, I couldn't help but blush in the face of Aunt Jiang's ambiguous gaze.Seeing him sweating profusely, I couldn't bear it in my heart, and silently wiped away the sweat for him.Looking at the envious eyes of some women around me, I thought, such a fool with clear eyes, a warm smile and a pure heart like a child should be considered a good match for women!I don't know when, I have started to be greedy for this warmth, and I don't want to share it with others.It was also on this day that I met the woman who made him spend so much time for the first time—this woman is full of elegance, charming but not bewitching, she really is a stunner, much better than his previous ones, no wonder would fascinate him so much.This woman is surrounded by other men, maybe he also has a kind of pain that he can't get what he wants.Thinking of this, I suddenly tightened my hands on his shoulders, and my heart was no longer as peaceful as before.

He is really stupid sometimes, and what he does makes people laugh and cry.Other people's poems in the brothel are rumors of romantic affairs of talented scholars and beautiful women, but he... is so annoying and funny, so that the strange feeling in my heart has disappeared before it can arise. I couldn't help but want to tease him.Seeing his expectant expression turned depressed instantly, I suddenly felt a little regretful, and really wanted to turn the melon seeds I gave him into a real gift, so that he could really be that happy.This fool won't get angry when he is teased, he will just call your name plaintively, and then put on a pitiful look.How stupid!But it's just such a clumsy guy who makes me care about him inexplicably and want to care about him.For the first time, I made clothes and snacks for a man other than my father. Seeing him holding the cloak in love with him, and devouring the snacks, I felt inexplicably satisfied.

In fact, there is a deceptive power in his smile. On the day of the Mid-Autumn Festival banquet, at the gate of the palace, this handsome man smiled and held out his hand to me. I was stunned and almost lost in his eyes. Inside the smile.Facing the sudden irony, I was already prepared, and if I ignored it, I would not care. I never thought that he, who has always been gentle recently, would stand up for me, show his fangs to others, and use such sharp words , hit back at the person who satirized me, and smiled innocently afterwards.This is the real him, right?Could it be that the way he behaved in front of me has always been false?I can't help feeling a little nervous, what am I afraid of?Looking at his pure smile, I couldn't believe it, and I didn't want to believe that everything that happened during this period was false.I don't know when I started to be so greedy for his smile.

I could never have imagined that such a carefree person would be so sad.When I came back from the Mid-Autumn Festival banquet that day, he seemed very lonely, and he dragged me to drink non-stop. In fact, I didn't drink much, and he drank all the wine.I just looked at him quietly - watching him cry, watching him laugh.Listening to him singing those unknown ditties, although the language is vulgar, but also with strong emotions, he just sang like that, looking so sad, like a heartbroken man who has lost his beloved.As I listened, I was also infected by his emotions and became inexplicably sad.I want to comfort him, but I don't know what to do, so I can only follow him in everything.The way he looked drunk really made people feel distressed. Maybe that oiran hurt him again. Thinking of this, my heart tightened inexplicably.No matter who it is, since you have hurt him once, I will not give you a second chance to hurt him.I was suddenly taken aback by the thoughts in my heart, I actually... It was time to go to bed, but he was still drunk and stupid, hugging me and unwilling to let go.Did you take me for her?I slept with you in my arms, and your arms were as warm and intoxicating as I imagined, making me reluctant to leave.

The next day, looking at your peaceful sleeping face under the morning sun, I felt very at ease and at ease.You slowly opened your eyes, and at that moment, the sun gave all its light into your eyes, which made my eyes fascinated at that moment, and I felt an inexplicable throbbing in my heart.You looked very shocked, with a dull face, and I just looked at you quietly to see what you would do.Who knows you!Pooh!You actually came up with such a lame reason—sleepwalking!Fortunately, you can figure it out, how can anyone sleepwalk during the day!But seeing you running away in a hurry, my heart is empty, and I feel a little bit sad.If it was her, you wouldn't be like this.

You kept watching my expression secretly during the meal, alas, if you keep looking down, I will worry about your eyes for you.You always thought that I was as drunk as you last night, but in fact I was not, not to mention that I didn't drink much, even if I drank a lot, I wouldn't be drunk.Drunken flower?Heh, I don't know how much Jiang Li and I drank from her wine cellar, how could we get drunk so easily?However, since you want me to be drunk, then I am drunk.I just hope we can go back to the past, so calm and natural.

I want you to go shopping with me, in fact, I want to relieve you of this embarrassment, and I also want us to live a simple life like an ordinary couple.After all, you are my husband and I am your wife. In this life, you and I have long been entangled.You promised so far-fetchedly, which made me very disappointed.Oh, what a fool you are!World's biggest fool!Actually helping others to give your wife a gift, don't I really have no place in your heart?So what is the purpose of everything you have done to me these days?The joy I felt when I first left the mansion has long since disappeared without a trace.

You then said that you would take me to walk around this bustling street. I am very happy, not because I have never visited this street, but because I am very happy to be with you.Obviously, you are as curious about this street as I am, but you still have to put on an experienced look. You are really hypocritical.However, it is so hypocritical - cute.You dragged me to a roadside stall, is such a humble place really a place where a prince like you would come?You obviously looked at the bowl of tofu flowers and your mouth was about to flow out, but you still pushed it to me, which made my heart warm.I wiped the spoon slowly on purpose, just to see your greedy face for a while, I couldn't bear to tease you anymore, I pushed the tofu flower to you, and you ate three bowls in one go without caring about your image , I can't help but wonder what kind of taste this bean curd flower is, which makes you so greedy.I silently took a sip, and I don't know why, but looking at your earnest eyes, I felt that it was very delicious, and there was a sweetness in it, and the sweetness entered my heart.I gently wiped off the remnants at the corners of your mouth for you, and you blushed so much, it really made me wonder whether you are still the king of comfort who eats all men and women in the rumors.Are you fake?Hehe, even if it's fake, I'm happy with it.The one who can touch my heartstrings has always been the fool who took me home.

You took me to eat the candied haws I dreamed of again. If it was someone else, they would definitely scoff at my dream and laugh at me for being worthless.But you, actually looked at me full of doting, and told me to eat it very gently, anyway, I can't eat you poorly.I was so moved that I was almost moved to tears when you said this kind of ruffian words so warmly and heartwarmingly.I found that I was becoming less and less able to be as calm as water, and I could no longer return to the indifferent appearance before. My heart was moved, and I was moved by this fool who didn't know when.In front of this fool, I can live a real life without any pressure or shackles, and I can even live as freely and unrestrainedly as Jiang Li.No one knows how happy I am when he tells me that he is my husband and I am his wife, not a concubine, and that we only talk about "you and me".It turned out that in his heart, he always thought so, and I couldn't help being sweet to my heart.

Later we went to Huangzhuang to pick fruit together.This fool, like a monkey, wants to go up the tree to pick it by himself, and even pretends that he picks it better, and encourages Jiang Li to go with him.There is really no way to take the two of them.He actually left me and Han Shuo there, doesn't he know... Seeing him come back in a mess, I just wanted to take a look at him, but when I met his earnest gaze and the fruit offered, I My heart was so soft that I suddenly didn't want others to see him in such a mess, so I raised my hand to clean up for him. He obeyed like a child, which made me very happy.A thought "he belongs to me alone" suddenly popped up in my heart, I quickly stabilized my heart, am I too greedy?

Seeing him busy preparing for my birthday every day, I am looking forward to this birthday very much in my heart. This is the first birthday I spent with him.When the day really came, he came to pick me up to welcome the guests at the gate of the mansion. I was so amazed when he saw me, which made me very happy.I like the way he looked at me blankly at that time, he only had me in his eyes and nothing else.We stood in front of the mansion like a pair of golden boys and girls, and attracted countless envious eyes. This idiot actually asked me why I didn't bring the white magnolia flower hairpin that Han Shuo gave me, but this worthless one from him. ebony hairpin.Why do you say? !I almost abandoned my upbringing for more than ten years, and I asked him by his ear, why do you say? !How could he be so stupid!I rolled my eyes and threw the word "secret" to him, so I didn't bother to talk to him.

A sudden bad news interrupted the joyful atmosphere. I felt like the sky was falling. My father and elder brother were assassinated when they came to my birthday party. My father was lying on the bed, dying.Sure enough, God will not make it easy for me. I have just passed through a period of suffering, and immediately ushered in a new suffering.Looking at my father's pale face on the bed, I felt that something was collapsing in my heart and I couldn't find a support point.I was lost in a vast white scene, I couldn't find an exit, and I couldn't feel everything outside, I only knew to murmur about the past.When I was so confused, suddenly a voice came into my mind, he said: "Su Yue, no matter what happens in the future, as long as you are willing, I will support your future. Besides your father, you also have family members, and Me!" His tone was so firm, his embrace was so warm, who is he?Apart from my father, I have family members, and him?I followed the sound and looked over.It turned out that he was that fool.My mind went blank, can I trust him?I thought so, so I asked.He was so sad that he shed tears with me, and those clear eyes were no longer clear, which contained too many emotions that I couldn't understand, as if he wanted to grieve for me and bear it for me. I knew that he wanted to I believe in him.

I couldn't bear to see him continue to cry, I suddenly missed his warm smile very much, maybe I can really trust him, he can give me the warmth I want.I was suddenly so cold, it seemed that only by being close to him could I feel a trace of warmth.Yes, I still have him!Han Qing, since you want to disturb my heart and make me unable to keep the clarity in my heart, then you must do what you say!Since you provoked me, I won't allow you to give up halfway. In this life, even if we die, we will be entangled together!I will not give you another chance to fall in love with someone else, you are mine!Just mine!No one can take it away!I was also shocked by the hotness in my heart. It turned out that I was not as calm as water on the surface, but I could also be so fiery.I dare not show my hotness, I am afraid of scaring this fool away, I am so greedy for this warmth, I have become cautious ever since.

When everything was settled, I fell asleep comfortably in his arms.Just when I thought this birthday would be let down, I was awakened gently by him. I opened my eyes, and there was a piece of starlight in my eyes. Such a warm color, just like his gaze, made me feel like I was in a dream. , intoxicated and unwilling to wake up.But I know that these are all true, this fool, do you think he bought these things secretly, and I don’t know, the middle gift in the mansion was handed over to me by himself.This fool, he told me, this is in his dream, his dream, just me and him.That's great, just me and him!Looking at his bright smile, I suddenly became frightened, afraid that it was really just a dream, so I pinched him.Hehe, it turns out that these are really facts, and I don't have to worry about gains and losses anymore.

He asked me to write down my wish, and I wrote down the most important person in my heart. This fool seemed to be moved and clamored for me to write about myself.What a fool, as long as you are well, I will be well too.I suddenly remembered that he sang for others so sadly that night, and my heart was inexplicably sour. I also wanted him to sing for me once, just for me. If I found out that it was not for me, I must screw it up he.I waited for a long time, thinking that I was finally asking too much, but he said it was a birthday song.Hehe, it was really sung for me alone, I was extremely happy and satisfied.

This fool knows how to look at the stars, but he just looks at the stars stupidly, not knowing what a pity it is to let down such a beautiful day.I pretended to be asleep and leaned on his shoulder.He also knew that it was getting late, so he carried me into the room and put me on the bed.He even scrubbed me briefly himself, never thought that a man could be so gentle, his gentleness warmed my heart very much.When I was full of anticipation and nervousness, who knew that he would sleep beside me like that, so far away from me.Am I a scourge?I sighed, forget it, take your time.Gradually, I also fell asleep. The scene in the dream was so terrifying. I didn’t sleep well. In the dimness, I felt a warm embrace, embracing me, and a gentle palm gently patted my chest. Back, comforting my restless heart, I know, it's that fool.I curled up the corners of my lips silently, smelling the delicious fragrance of that fool, and then I slept very peacefully.

The next morning, I woke up early, seeing this fool's pure childlike sleeping face, it was so deceptive, I couldn't help but kissed his forehead.Then continue to nest in his arms, just looking at him quietly, in fact, he is also very handsome, this fool has resolute eyebrows, star-like eyes, high nose bridge, thin lips , these combination together, unexpectedly handsome, unusually gentle, he, also can make many women blush and heartbeat.When the first ray of sunlight came into the room, he seemed to be waking up. I slowly closed my eyes and secretly observed his movements. A smile could not be restrained from the corner of my mouth.This idiot, just looking at me and smiling, doesn't know what to do.Gradually the fool understood that this was a good opportunity to steal fragrance, and he slowly approached my lips.Hehe, it turns out that he also likes me, but how good it is for him to be so dull all the time!I suddenly wanted to know what would happen if he was caught stealing incense at this time, and would he continue.I slowly opened my eyes, who knew that this guy pretended to be asleep so quickly!But this stiff look is really too fake.

I stared at him quietly to see how long he could pretend.Who knows, he is a tortoise, once his head is retracted, he will not come out for a long time, and it can make people collapse.I looked at his beautiful lips, and suddenly wanted to taste what it was like. Anyway, it's not like I haven't kissed him secretly just now, but this time it's a clear kiss.Alas, that's all, since he doesn't dare to take the initiative, then let me do it!I slowly put it on, and suddenly there was an indescribable numb feeling all over my body. It turned out that kissing actually felt like this, and I couldn't help but blush.Seeing his flushed face, still pretending to be asleep, I couldn't help laughing.Forget it, let's let him go today, don't really hold back any good or bad, when the time comes, it will be me who will feel distressed.

I set up breakfast in the outside room, and found that Xiao Zhong was looking inside with something sneaky. I frightened him, and he honestly handed the thing to me, saying it was a letter from Qingluan.Looking at the red letter in my hand, I felt it was very dazzling, but I couldn't summon up the courage to look through it——I was afraid.The fool and I finished our breakfast and went back to Mingyue Pavilion together.I thought about it, I can't care, I can't care.But I still couldn't hold back the strange feeling that kept coming out of my heart. Seeing the fool smiling happily, I felt extremely depressed, so I ordered Xiao Zhong to move all his daily utensils into my yard. Now that I understand my own intentions, and he is such a tortoise, then I have to take the initiative so that no one else can take advantage of it!

Seeing his flashing eyes vaguely messing with my letter, I could no longer control this strange feeling in my heart. I kept reading the poem he wrote to that woman. The more I read, the more I felt. acid.It turned out that in his mind, that woman was so perfect.Then what about me in his heart?I was immersed in my emotions as if in a daze, until he hugged me domineeringly, and before I recovered, I was kissed by him.This kiss seemed to contain all his passion and wanted to melt me.Those strange emotions and those unnecessary guesses are no longer important. At this moment, I know that he loves me, just like I love him.At this moment, I seem to be in the sea of ​​stars last night, surrounded by a gorgeous mess...