It's not that I want to bend

My name is Su Yue, and I am the only jewel in the palm of Su Zhe, the Tai Fu of Chen Kingdom. I have two elder brothers on top of me. Our family has always been very happy.

Since I was a child, I grew up under the care of my parents and elder brothers like pearls and treasures, and I don't know what suffering is.But I am not arrogant because of this. I have been working hard to be a child that my parents and elder brothers are proud of. In fact, I have also done it.

Although I don't care about the title of "the most beautiful and talented woman in Kyoto" given to me by the people of Kyoto, it at least represents the affirmation of others, doesn't it?Whenever someone mentions it, I can always see my most beloved father with a very proud smile on his face.Everything in exchange for this smile is enough.

I have a very good friend, her name is Jiang Li, although she always likes to cause trouble, and always likes to do some reckless and out-of-the-ordinary things, but she is an extremely simple and pure person.Her life is so casual, so free and easy, so real, which makes me envious.

She doesn't like the things that the ladies of the aristocratic families love, but especially likes to dance with knives and sticks like a man, which also makes her in the capital, no lady in the boudoir is willing to play with her.In fact, she is like this because of her environment since she was a child. Her family members are very generous. They are soldiers for generations, and they are also heroes in the hearts of everyone in Chen Kingdom. I am very excited.So under the traction of fate, the two of us became best friends despite the inconceivable gazes of others.

It is also because of her that I buried the beginning of my lifelong entanglement with the most important person in my life from now on.

In the eyes of the world, I am the representative of the young lady of the family, dignified and noble, elegant and calm, knowledgeable and wise, demure as water, and even surpass most men in talent and learning.Although it is a little exaggerated, but I think I will not be worse than them, I have my pride.

My father once said that if I was born as a man, I would definitely surpass his achievements, and shine in my Su family's family.But I think it's good to be their daughter.

There are many people who praise and envy me, but they only see the brilliance in front of me, but they don't know how much effort I put in behind.No one can get everything she wants effortlessly, and all success requires hard work.

Maybe it's because of my pride, except for Jiang Li, I don't have any particularly close friends, some are just casual acquaintances.Among my peers, I can rarely find someone I can really talk to, and I always feel that they are all too superficial and hypocritical.If you had to name someone you could chat with, it would be Han Shuo, king of Huainan, but it was only a few words.

He was a person who looked as elegant as a green bamboo and had a noble bearing. Although he was only a few years older than me, he had a pair of wise eyes that were different from our peers. The feeling that the real him must not be like this, he seems to be trying his best to hide something frightening.

Although I only met him a few times at banquets, he always found a reason to talk to me without being obtrusive.However, I have to say that his conversation is really good, completely different from the superficiality of other aristocratic children, but really talented and broad.Even on many topics, we can find a common language, and his rich experience can always surprise me, who lives in a boudoir. The outside world he describes is so novel, so to speak, We kind of had a good chat, and I admire him a lot, but that's all.

Then, every year on my birthday, he would try his best to send me some gadgets, and there are reasons why people have to accept them. Although I have never received any gifts from him, he still enjoys it.As time passed, I didn't bother to bother with him anymore, I just regarded him as a friend I could chat with.

Gradually, I reached the age of marriage, and there were many people who came to propose marriage, but none of them were my favorite. Fortunately, my father was not in a hurry, so I didn't have to worry about this matter too early.

One day, Han Shuo came to me and said that he would marry me as his wife after he finished his work.I was stunned for a moment, and then quickly regained my clarity.

marry me?But I just admire him.He is the beloved in the hearts of many boudoir ladies. He is always so gentle and elegant, knowledgeable and loved by others. In the eyes of outsiders, he is also such a talented man and woman when he is with me, a match made in heaven.Perhaps, being able to marry him is already the best choice in my life.

However, there is always a voice in my heart telling me, no, he is not the one I want, and I cannot promise him.yes!What I have always wanted to marry is a hero who is full of pride, not a careerist who is cautious and polite like him.Yes, I can see his ambition, he will definitely not be content with peace in the future, he will be a hero at most, not a hero.

He didn't care about my rejection, he only regarded it as a woman's reserve and shyness, and he still looked confident and determined to win.I don't bother to worry about it, I don't want to spend too much time on those insignificant people.

No one would have thought that I would suddenly be pointed at Han Qing, who was still the "Kyoto No. [-] evil" back then.Hehe, "Kyoto's most beautiful and talented woman" paired with "Kyoto's first evil" is really unexpected, and I fell into unspeakable pain instantly.I also regretted it, why I didn't promise Han Shuo at that time, at least it would be better than now.However, I am very glad that I only regretted it for a while, otherwise, I would miss you from now on, and life would be meaningless.

Han Shuo, who got the news, came to see me secretly again. He was so hysterical, he completely took off the elegant mask before others, and showed a ferociousness that he had never seen before.The hope that suddenly rose in my heart disappeared when I heard him tell me to be patient, and he would take me away one day.

Oh, patience?leave?What does he think of me?Is it your own ban?If that time really comes, it will be too late.Is he going to rob his sister-in-law?Even if he did it in the end, I would not be willing. I have been educated for so many years, my family, and my pride will not allow me to do this.As long as he has the slightest respect for me in his heart, he will not say that.It turned out that he didn't love me as much as he said, and the only one he loved was himself.So what's the difference between marrying him or Han Qing?It's not what I want anyway.

In that case, why should father worry?After all, I want to marry someone. Since none of them are what I want, let's marry someone who makes everyone happy!

I always thought that love would have nothing to do with me from now on, and I would live a lonely and lonely life, but I didn't want to, after all, I was disturbed in a pool of spring water, and fell in love with someone I never thought of.I thought that the one I fell in love with in the end would be a great hero admired by all people, but I didn't expect that I would fall in love with a fool, but I was so happy with it that I couldn't extricate myself from it.

I love him so madly that I've become a strange fool myself.From then on, that Su Yue, who was as calm as water, elegant and magnanimous, and calm in every way, could no longer be found. What was left behind was only a little girl who was easy to anger, irrational, jealous, vexatious, and worrying about gains and losses. A jealous woman who doesn't want to share with others, but wants to keep her husband to herself.

However, with his pampering and pampering, what does it matter even if he is a fool or a jealous wife?My heart has found a harbor, and my love has also been fulfilled.For the first time, I feel so lucky. Fortunately, I met you, which saved my heart from wandering for half a lifetime.It turns out that God has not abandoned me.

With his company, every day becomes colorful.I also gradually began to like this kind of ordinary life, and learned to savor the different tastes every day and every moment.I thought that after experiencing so many things, we would grow old happily in this peaceful and comfortable life.In fact, it doesn’t matter if you fall in love with a hero who is not admired by all people, at least, you are already a hero in my heart alone, and you are still unique.

However, life is always full of many imperatives.You are forced to go south, and I follow you everywhere.In fact, as long as I'm with you, whether it's turbulent or peaceful, I'm happy with it.Before we had time to taste the sweetness of going south, we experienced the danger of escaping from death, and then we had to face separation again.

Regarding your going to save Dai Lou'er, I'm actually still apprehensive. Even if I know your feelings for me, I still can't suppress that faint panic and lack of self-confidence that can't help but arise in my heart.She is so excellent, I can see that her love for you is no less than mine.But she has never bothered to use conspiracies and tricks to snatch my love. What she has always loved is so magnanimous, but it is because of her magnanimity that I panic inexplicably.My pride is useless in front of her.

She lives so vividly and brightly, she is a person who has a fatal attraction to people, and only she can become my strong enemy, and I will feel uneasy and worried.At the same time, she is also a rival that I admire and appreciate very much.I have an inexplicable sympathy with her. If possible, I actually want to be friends with her. We must have a lot of common topics, and you must be included among them.

I know that although you look like a dandy, you are a good person who values ​​love and righteousness in your heart. No one can compare to you.Dai Lou'er is so for you, how can you ignore her when she is in danger?I support you, not that I am willing to push you to others, but that I understand you, believe in you, love you, and I don't want to see you embarrassed and unhappy.

But this move separated us for several months, and made me almost lose you, watching you lose your life.Every time I think about it, I regret it, I can't bear it, you have suffered a little bit of harm, I would rather, all these injuries come to me.

In the past few months when you lost the news, I realized more deeply that I love you so much, even more deeply than I imagined. It is more than just life, and I can't live without you.

At the beginning, I could still listen to your words and wait for you to come back quietly at home.I made delicious food over and over again, afraid that you just came back, hungry and couldn't wait, and then watched them go bad over and over again, but you couldn't wait for a long time.

I will go to the porch where we used to sit in a daze, imagining what we saw together at that time; I will light up the lotus lantern at night, reminiscing about the gorgeous night you and I had on my birthday; I will hug you Sleeping in clothes, smelling your breath, pretending that you are still by my side, and I am still in your arms.

However, until the snacks broke again and again, the seasons in the porch changed, and your smell gradually disappeared on the clothes, you never came back, only a letter with a few words.Where are you, have you ever missed you as much as I do?

I almost went crazy thinking about you. I was immersed in the nightmare of not having enough to eat, not wearing warm clothes, and being bullied every day. I couldn't extricate myself until later, I couldn't fall asleep at all.I wait every day without food and sleepless nights. Only when I go to comfort my mother for a short period of time can I convince myself to pretend that you are all right and not in danger.

Later, when war broke out in the south, I was finally defeated by the panic in my heart, and came to look for you without hesitation.I can't bear it any longer without you by my side.I always thought that without love, I could still return to Su Yue, who was as indifferent as water. However, the facts tell me that it is absolutely impossible. Su Yue without Han Qing is just a body without a soul. It doesn't even count as lingering.

I went to you like crazy and forced myself to learn how to ride a horse that I had never touched before. In fact, this is not something a princess from a noble family should do, but what does it matter?I just want to find you earlier, so that you will be less dangerous.Everything else is irrelevant, I just want you to be well.

I searched for it on the horse day and night, completely forgetting that I was still a novice horse rider, and I didn't even care that my legs were already bloody and bloody.I don't seem to feel pain, my body has begun to lose my control.I am completely relying on an obsession, and I am persistently looking for you.Where are you?Have you ever been well?

When I got the news from you, I was extremely happy. Finally, I can see you again!Han Qing, you have to wait for me!

I took the royal cavalry and rushed towards you like crazy.God knows, when I saw the place that has become the Asura battlefield, you beside her closed your eyes resolutely and sadly, how much my heart hurts, how cold my body is, I can't restrain myself trembling.Can't!You must not die!Even... even if that day does come, I still hope that the person who will be by your side is me.

Fortunately, I arrived in time, and I almost lost you.I can't help but thank God again for allowing me to arrive in time and stop this matter.Seeing that stunning woman again, all I have left in my heart is gratitude.If there is no her, perhaps, I have already lost you, if there is no her, we will not be separated, no matter how complicated the feelings for her are, it cannot be worth the gratitude at this moment.I want to thank her for loving you so sincerely that she is even willing to give up her life to protect you.What a lucky fool you are!How can it disturb the hearts of so many outstanding women?

If I knew from the beginning that Han Shuo would cause you such a danger, then I would definitely not have too much contact with him. At the beginning of exposing his fangs, he was pulled out at all costs.

God knows how anxious I was when I saw that dagger pierced your heart before everyone had time to react.I didn't even think about it, so I blocked it in front of you. How lucky I am that my body reacted one step ahead of my reason.I just want to go faster, faster, I must not let it hurt you.

When I fell into your arms with Xiangming, I was both happy and disappointed, completely confused about myself.I'm happy that you looked at me so worriedly for the first time, but I'm disappointed that I was one step too late and didn't block the dagger.How I wish that the person who can save you from danger is me!Even if it hurts, I am willing!That wound will be the mark of our love.pity……

What a kind fool you are!Always so warm and distressing.You keep blaming yourself, and even feel that your appearance is a mistake.How could this be!Your appearance has always been a gift from God to me!Everything we all do for you is willing!What a fool you are to not even know that!

You are not a broom star, but the brightest star in my life.In the dark night, give me light and shine on me.From the moment you went to Taifu's mansion to pick me up, I was lost in those clear eyes. Although I didn't realize it at the time, I am sure that everything started from that time.Thank God for restoring the real you and making me love so much that I can't help myself.

I am also very happy that you recognize Xiangming as your younger sister.I am grateful to all those who really care about you, thank them for being able to guard you with me.

Waiting can really drive me crazy, the feeling of letting others control my fate is really bad!I'm really afraid that I won't be in time, I won't be able to resolve your danger in time.You are always so worrying!I have never learned to protect myself, and with a pure heart, I will move forward without fear in this world.But what I love is your innocent heart.Forget it, let's go and see you yourself!

The matter of going out with you is actually what I privately begged His Majesty the Emperor, I love you so much, how could I let you go alone in danger again.

I have already thought about it, no matter how dangerous it is in the future, I will not leave your side.This time, I will never let go.

I don't want to see your sad and desperate eyes anymore, and I don't want to hold your clothes in those lonely nights to reminisce.I can't bear your leaving.This time, I want to join hands with you, no matter how tortuous and difficult the future is, I will stand with you through thick and thin.

I didn't expect you, a fool, to be so surprised. I don't know where I heard something about women not being allowed to enter the military camp. It's really silly and cute.But it's just you who are still angry because of this.In fact, I know that you are worried about me.But, do you know that if I just let you leave alone like this, I will be even more worried?I am worried that if I am so careless, I will lose you forever.

During the days of the expedition, I worked extremely hard, humbly learned from experienced generals, and tried my best to make up for my lack of practical combat, just for you to relax a bit and for us to have more chances to survive. I really want to To help you.

However, it is still not enough!I really wish I was born into a family of warlords, then, there must be more ways than now.I watched the soldiers fall one by one, Jiang Lai and Han Hui both died, and Jiang Li was unconscious, but there was nothing I could do to stop this from happening.

Am I really stupid, am I? Sure enough, the so-called "No. [-] Talented Woman in Kyoto" is a waste of name, and I have no ability to save those lives at all!I'm just a humble, pompous idiot.No matter how hard I try, can I really not change the situation of the battle?The more I look at you who looks worried and cherished, the fear in my heart becomes deeper.

I spent day and night discussing the military situation, and I only hoped that there was another way, which I had neglected before.I really don't want to just watch our country, our people, and our land being trampled by the enemy's iron cavalry, and there is nothing we can do.It would be great if a hero could be sent down from the sky!

Maybe God heard my prayer, and turned this fool I have always loved into a great hero admired by thousands of people!

He is fearless, with great willpower and determination, guided by the soul, sacrificed himself, broke the seal to summon the sword spirit, and saved thousands of people with divine power. He is a great hero in the hearts of all Chen people!

Shouldn't I be happy, should I be proud?Didn't I always want that the one I fell in love with was a great hero admired by all people?This fool realized all my fantasies step by step, why am I unhappy?

Yes, I am not happy.Why should I have that unrealistic fantasy?I obviously can't help but fall in love with this fool!Wouldn't it be nice for us to live a normal life together?Why should I expect heroes to come and save us!

that fool!Did he know that what he did was at the price of annihilation of his soul!In this way, we will never be together again!He doesn't even have a soul left, how can I find him?In this life, the next life, and even the next life after life, I will lose him forever.Didn't we agree that if we never leave, we will never be apart?Didn't he promise never to abandon me?Did he forget?Why...why didn't he wait for me!Even a chance to say goodbye was never given to me.I really hate myself, why should I faint!otherwise……

After I woke up, I went back to the Liuli Palace with Dai Lou'er, because only there is a magical ice coffin that can keep the human body incorruptible.Looking at Han Qing's fresh face in the ice coffin, it was as if he had just fallen asleep.Fortunately, fortunately, the "Sword of God of War" did not engulf his body, and it can still leave us with a thought.Han Qing, do you know?You are now the biggest hero of Kingdom Chen!The common people even spontaneously saw a temple for you and began to enshrine your statue!We are all proud of you!

I caressed his face tenderly, looked at his eyes, nose, mouth with great nostalgia... Those places are still so familiar to me, but without their warmth, I can no longer feel the warmth .My heart is like falling into an ice cellar.

My cold body began to tremble non-stop, and I lay gently in your arms, wanting to feel the warmth it once had.However, there is no longer the warmth that I am familiar with.That's all, let me lie quietly in your arms, and bid farewell to this world with a smile. □□I have accepted it, this time, you will never leave me behind!

Who knows, I will have another chance to open my eyes.Is this hell?Oh, it doesn't matter, anyway, it's a place without Han Qing, so what else can I expect?

But I didn't want me to meet Dai Lou'er's eyes, which were burning with crazy anger.She told me that I have Han Qing's flesh and blood, if I want Han Qing to have no heirs, just take the poison again, anyway, she has no holy medicine to save me, this time, I will definitely succeed.

Han Qing's...flesh and blood?I stretched out my hand in a daze, and gently stroked my stomach. There was actually a miracle there, and a life that Han Qing left for me?

In an instant, my mind went blank. How could... I almost killed my flesh and blood with Han Qing with my own hands?This is his only bloodline.However, in this world without Han Qing, how can I live strong.

Every day after that, besides being with you quietly, I was also forced by Dai Louer to take care of myself and the life in my stomach.

Suddenly one day, I looked at the wound on your chest, and suddenly thought of another thing recorded on the "Luofang" cloth scroll.Han family blood?The blood of the Han family!Does that mean that now I can also...

I instantly ignited hope, and begged Dai Louer to take me back to the capital, and borrowed the dragon and phoenix Ye Mingzhu from His Majesty the Emperor.Originally, His Majesty the Emperor didn't agree. He said that Han Qing didn't even have a soul, so the Dragon and Phoenix Ye Mingzhu was useless. He didn't want me to take risks. After all, there are two dead bodies now.He hoped that I would protect Han Qing's flesh and blood and lead him to live in peace.

With a resolute and warm smile on my face, I asked him gently: "Do you believe in miracles?"

Yes, do you believe in miracles?Since you, a fool, were able to bring us such a miracle in the end, and now leave it to me, a miracle of such a beautiful life, why can't you bring us more miracles?

What people are most afraid of is hope, and those who have hope will be fearless.Finally, His Majesty the Emperor couldn't stand my pleading and lent me the Dragon and Phoenix Ye Mingzhu.I think he also hopes to have the next miracle.

With excitement and apprehension, I activated the divine power of Longfeng Yemingzhu, but I didn't expect it to be possible, and my mood became more and more joyful.I involuntarily curled the corners of my lips, and my eyes shone with hope.

Children, let us work together to bring home the most important person in our life!Han Qing, here we come...