Disgusted

Saori has not been back to her residence for four days.

Qing Kong sat at the counter of the bookstore, the daylight gradually dimmed, and only half of the lights were turned on in the store, so it was a bit dark.She looked around the shop that had been in business for half a year, it was deserted, and there was no one among the neatly arranged bookshelves.The winter vacation is not over yet, and there are only three or two people who walk in on this day.

Opening the drawer, she groped in the depths and found the crumpled note. "Please don't look for me," it said. "Next time we meet, tell me if you're half-breed."

I kept thinking about taking it back to my residence and putting it in my books, but I forgot about it in a hurry.Qingkong stared at the zigzag handwriting between the folds.The note, written more than three months ago, has not yet been signed.It was also because she lost contact and couldn't see each other, but she was still at ease at that time. The so-called worry was only rational, and she didn't take it very seriously.

And now, it's only been four days, and the anxiety is getting old.

Qing Kong smoothed out the note, smiled wryly and shook his head.If I had known it earlier, it would be like this to hang on to someone in my heart, and if I pulled one end, it would hurt.She just thought that the damaged part should not hurt so completely, like a knife on a necrotic muscle.But no, there is no such thing as complete incompleteness of pain, and it has nothing to do with things like logic, rationality and physical conditions, it just clearly appears there.

What makes Qing Kong sad is not that she can’t see each other—as long as she wants, she can call or send a message to find Saori at any time; she also called the next day after returning home, and explained the situation a little: There is a problem, it is very difficult, and I am afraid that I will have to stay at home to deal with it.The tone was tired and cold, as if wrapped in a shell.

This calmness made Aozora feel sad.Just like the phrase "please don't look for me" on the note, from the past to the present, Saori has not left room for her to help or just accompany her.She is willing to bear her indifference, arrogance, carelessness and even incompleteness, but she is unwilling to confess her fragility and hand over that side.

Or Saori's thinking is right?Aozora thought so for a moment, trying to face his own powerlessness.Divorce problems before, financial difficulties now... She couldn't even drive Saori home that night.There was never a moment when Qingkong was so deeply annoyed that he couldn't drive and didn't have a driver's license.

Qingkong shook his head, put the note back in the drawer, took out the cigarette and lighter, went out of the study, stood in front of the door, and lit a cigarette in front of a book in the window.Now is not the time to bury your head in feelings of powerlessness.She squinted her eyes and began to carefully calculate the assets on hand.The working capital of the bookstore is not much. Although the residence is an official commercial house with complete documents, it is too old after all, and the head of the household is still in the mother’s name. The apartment in Macau is in her name, but... can’t go back——

Just as he was struggling, he suddenly saw a figure in the window glass, and he couldn't help frowning and turned around.

"Stewardess Qing." Xiao Yu stood behind her, wearing a plaid fedora, a camel-colored long coat underneath, and big-toed travel shoes. She put her hands behind her and smiled sweetly at her, as if she was in the shopping mall that day. It never happened.

"Why are you here? The school should not have started yet." Qingkong's brows were still frowning, but because of that sweet and flawless smile, he finally loosened up a little, and then lowered his head to smoke again.After all, I am still a child.she thought.As a result, Xiao Yu's next words made her gasp.

"I'll come and see you," Kohane said. "I know something happened to Saori-san."

"What?!" Qingkong raised his head in the smoke, and his body, which was a little bent due to the cold, stood upright.As far as she knew, there was no report in the newspaper that there was a problem with Saori's family company.The Spring Festival is on holiday, and the factory will not resume work until the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, so most of the employees are not aware of the development of the situation, so how did she know?

"Before I came, I thought of several reasons." Xiaoyu met Qingkong's somewhat cold eyes, but she didn't flinch too much. "I'm going to a remedial class, I miss you, well, it's true, or I ran away from home or something. But," she nodded vigorously as if making up her mind, "I've decided, stewardess Qing, to you I will try my best to be as honest as possible, whether it is my heart or my purpose, I will try my best to reveal it as undisguisedly as possible for you to see. I have made a lot of determination, and I put my palms together in front of my mother’s grave before returning from my hometown. "

"So?" Qingkong put out the unfinished cigarette in his hand, and threw it into the small tin can.Consistently unable to keep up with Xiaoyu's thinking.

"So... shall we go in and talk? You can ask me anything, and I'll answer it properly. It's too cold for you outside."

Qingkong just came out to smoke without putting on his jacket, he really felt cold, so he turned around and led the way into the bookstore.

"I saw it on the official website of Sister Saori's family business, about her family's problems." Xiaoyu took off the fedora hat, revealing the thin, short-cut hair underneath, which stood out against her round face. Kind of playful.It's just that this face is serious now, and there is no escape from the usual smile at all.

"I guess you're going to ask me how I know about Sister Saori's business website." Xiaoyu sighed as if she was holding back to explain a complex math problem, "Sister Saori may be more famous than you think, her family Although the scale of the company is not large, it has spared no effort in charity. In the early years, such activities were always represented by Sister Saori. There are many news about her in local newspapers and magazines, and she even appeared on local TV stations... If she Yes, actually there is a chance to develop into the film and television industry, depending on her conditions. To be honest, apart from the relationship between rivals, I would also have a trembling feeling of being disturbed by her. Although I only met her once.

"Well, no matter what, since I knew you were together, I have been following her a lot, Weibo, WeChat, @@space, the publicity of her new restaurant, and of course her company website by the way. So although soon It was deleted and dealt with, but I still saw the few employees’ messages about the disappearance of her general manager who was short of public funds. Because one of the employees still left a WeChat account, I joined the group to get a general understanding of the whole story. "

"The missing...general manager?" Aozora raised his eyebrows.

"Yeah." Kohane nodded emphatically. "It's Saori-san's older brother."

When we got back to the downstairs of the residence, it was already dark, so the lights seemed to be very bright.

Qingkong looked up at the bright light on the fifth floor, thought for a while, and turned off all the lights and electrical appliances before going out.So... She quickened her pace upstairs and took out her mobile phone.No.No missed calls or text messages.She picked up her pace again, and at last she was practically running.

When he ran to the door, he pressed down again, took a while, and then took out the key.

Pushing open the door, Sha Zhi sat at the dining table, as if she had just returned, she was still wearing the coat with a collar that she had gone out, with one hand resting on the table to slightly support her forehead, and the other hand was put in the coat pocket.Probably hearing the sound, when she raised her head, Yingying looked over.

For a moment, Qingkong seemed to return to that evening a month ago, in the bookstore, she walked in with her hands in the windbreaker pockets, and kissed her lips involuntarily.Qing Kong's hand holding the door tightened, and there was a kind of hopeless hope, hoping that she would be the same as last time, and asked her tiredly but happily: Long time no see.Have dinner together?