[Comprehensive] It's just time travel

What is he looking forward to?

Or to put it another way—what exactly is he longing for in Zhongyuan Zhongye?

"It's really..." The low and inaudible voice was accompanied by a slight mockery, "It's too weak..."

It is true that A Shao had "redeemed" him with his fists, but the little mafia in front of him, the young man named Zhong Yuan Zhong Ye, was not Gu Rong Shao.

So even if Zhong Yuanzhong punched him, it would be meaningless.

"Thank you for listening to me talking so much nonsense." Yu Ling seemed to have suddenly realized something, and spoke very fast, as if eager to get rid of Zhongyuan Zhongye, "Then, that's it, goodbye—— "

It seemed that he could not bear it at last, and then fled in despair.

Seeing the back of Fitzgerald leaving in a hurry, Zhong Yuan Zhong also inexplicably had an idea of ​​wanting to comfort him.

However, he quickly dismissed this weird idea. He scratched at the strand of orange hair that hung on his shoulders, and cursed "Damn" in a low voice, a little irritated.

Compared with the man who seemed inexplicable from the first time we met, it is more important to go back to the warm bed and continue to sleep, right?

Thinking like this, Zhongyuan Zhong also left quickly, and the street returned to calm, and the street lamps stretched out the shadows, but for some reason, they seemed more lonely and alone.

Yu Ling returned to the apartment where she temporarily lived in Yokohama, opened the door and slammed it hard, and tore off the tie around her neck. Her rough movements conveyed the bad mood of the owner of the body very well.

Some people say that after talking about the unhappy things, no matter whether the troubles are resolved in the end, you will feel better.

But this sentence does not apply to Yu Ling at all.

After talking so much to Zhong Yuanzhong, not only did Yu Ling not feel better, but it made him realize his current situation more clearly.

Long time travelling, possessing and detaching again and again made his spirit exhausted.

Acting as another person, pretending to be another character, continuously appearing and entering the play...

He's tired of it.

When Mo was here before, no matter whether it was the company at the beginning or the vigilance later, Yu Ling always lifted his spirits.And without this World Mo by his side, Yu Ling suddenly relaxed like a patient who struggled to survive and passed away quickly after fulfilling his last wish.

Then, he felt the great exhaustion that he had been ignoring all this time.There lived in his heart a giant beast that seemed to be able to devour him, leaving him empty.

The reason why he pays so much attention to Zhongye Zhongyuan is that he wants to find the shadow of Gu Rongshao in Zhongye Zhongyuan.

However, the more I searched, the more I realized that Zhong Yuan Zhong was not Gu Rongshao at all.

He is different from Gu Rongshao.

It's very different.

This realization made him feel an indescribable sadness.

For a few moments, Yu Ling felt in a trance that he had returned to the days when he was fighting for the inheritance of the Yu family a few years ago.

The double betrayal of the father and the mother, the malicious intentions of the so-called "brothers"... All relatives who are related by blood are full of malice towards themselves.

Before Yu Ling could feel sad and angry at the sudden discovery of the truth, she had to forcibly cheer up and grab back everything that should belong to her.

Mentally exhausted to the extreme, the soul clamored to want to sleep from now on, on the verge of the limit——

However, reason is still awake, spurring the body, driving "he" to use all his strength to hold what he wants in his hands.

In the end, he got the Yu family.

He took revenge on all those who hurt the once naive and stupid "Yu Ling".

He got the Yu family, held great power, and became a leader of the younger generation in the aristocratic circle in Kyoto.

However, the emotional world is barren, and even those hypocritical and indifferent relatives in the past have disappeared completely, and the real people are betrayed.

At that time, Yu Ling only got a little warmth from Gu Rongshao.They grew up together, and the childhood friendship has been precipitated for many years, and finally became an existence brighter than diamonds.

Yu Ling has always known that he has a lot of dependence on Gu Rongshao.

He didn't mind being dependent on Gu Rongshao, but when Gu Rongshao was not by his side and he couldn't make him rely on him, such weakness seemed meaningless.It's like a child without parents' love, no matter how pitifully he cries, it's useless, because no one will care about their tears.

So Yu Ling had to solve the problem he was facing now by himself.

In fact, at this time, Yu Ling no longer had any desire for so-called "super powers", and he even thought about committing suicide and leaving this world.But soon he realized how stupid this approach is. After suicide, it is not really the end, but the beginning of the next world.

What is the next world like?Will things be more and more troublesome?

So let it be like this, solve the psychological problems and then leave.

Yu Ling could feel that he was a little lost now.

This is probably because of those "powers" that are suddenly acquired that exceed previous cognition.Powerful power brings self-expansion, but the sad thing is that he never thought about the use of those "powers" at all.

He just instinctively pursued these things, and instinctively wanted to make himself stronger——

But is it so-called powerful to become a creature of desire with lost sanity?

No, of course not.

If it really becomes like that, Yu Ling will want to bury himself completely, it is really stupid.

But before...

He didn't realize this at all.

Yu Ling never had enough time to calm down and think about it.

His emotions have become a little bit wrong, he has a sense of this, but Yu Ling didn't realize that it was so serious that if he was not careful, he would get lost in these supernatural forces.

He worked hard, tried his best to get those powers, he was like a nouveau riche who was blinded by wealth, such a posture is ridiculous to think about.Mo is like hanging a donkey with a carrot, hanging him with those magical powers.

If he never found out—

If he hadn't been aware of—

What will he become in the end?

Just thinking about it is scary, Yu Ling is completely unwilling to accept such an ending.

Fortunately, the sudden loss of control this time brought these problems to the fore.How should I put it, compared to stepping into the abyss in arrogance and arrogance, it is very fortunate to be able to wake up halfway like now.

At least there is still time for everything, he still has enough time to adjust his mentality, and enough time to remove those self-inflated ones one by one.

Thinking of this, Yu Ling couldn't help showing a wry smile on his face.

If it was A Shao, he probably wouldn't lose himself because of these things!

Although it is said that both Yu Ling and Gu Rongshao inherited a huge family and created a huge industry at a young age, compared to Yu Ling, Gu Rongshao is truly the proud son of heaven.

Yu Ling took the Yu family by any means, but Gu Rongshao owned the entire Gu family from birth.

But what Yu Ling has done is what he can't have, the so-called "family affection", but Gu Rongshao was born with it.

Loving parents, kind grandparents... Gu Rongshao was a child who grew up in a honey pot.

Sometimes, Yu Ling occasionally envies Gu Rongshao, envying that he can live so wanton and flamboyant.He can't do it himself, Gu Rongshao can be willful, but Yu Ling, maybe it's because of his nature, or maybe it's the result of his acquired growth environment, he can only bury everything deeply in his heart.

Only you know.

Only let yourself know.

So he only admires Gu Rongshao occasionally, he doesn't really want to vent out when he encounters unhappy things like Gu Rongshao did.

Yu Ling stood quietly at the window, Yokohama under the night was like a silent movie, only the lights flickering, but the silence was terrifying.He stood there blankly for a while before finally making the next move.

He reached out his hand to take out a cigarette and a lighter from his trousers pocket—Since the last time he wanted to smoke but only got a check and a credit card, Yu Ling remembered to keep a pack of cigarettes and a lighter by his side—maybe the remaining emotions still remained A little unstable, his fingers trembled a little, and he tried several times before finally lighting the cigarette.

The moment the sparks lit up, Yu Ling immediately held the cigarette to his mouth, and took a deep breath.Fitzgerald's body, which had never smoked, immediately showed its rejection of nicotine, and Yu Ling was choked so uncomfortable that he coughed violently.

The midnight wind carried a bone-chilling chill, and at this time, I was more sentimental than usual.Yu Ling curled up slightly, pressed against his throbbing chest and lungs, and coughed uncontrollably, a feeling of desolation suddenly arose in his heart.

This body is not your own.

This world is not his world.

The melancholy of a stranger also enveloped Yu Ling's heart, but he didn't leave his hometown to go to another city, but in another strange world.

It was as if the heart had been completely cut open, digging out the deepest things in the bottom of the heart, and placing them under the light with incomparable clarity, and seeing them clearly.

What he misses... probably not the original world, but the original self; including Gu Rongshao, ah, Gu Rongshao——

Gu Rongshao is a friend, a lifelong best friend, but not as good as himself.

If he hadn't run into this "little trouble", if he'd been having a good time—

Yu Ling believed that he would not think of Gu Rongshao so often.Just like at the beginning of time travel, it was rare for him to think of this only friend.

Too much selfishness makes feelings seem insignificant.

Suddenly, Yu Ling seemed to see that red-gold boy with different pupils again, talking with his lips open and closed, and his voice with a smile echoed gently in his ears.

With his nice voice, he yelled over and over again—Dun, Dun, Dun...

At that moment, Yu Ling felt a little relieved and a little disappointed.

He felt that this time he really let Akashi Seijuro go.