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There was a big problem between us, and I found that I didn't know how to explain to him the issue of love or not.My heart seems to have been stuffed with a ball of foam, and now it is soaked in water, turning into soap bubbles that swim wantonly, and my heart is itchy, like the piercing sound of fingernails scratching the blackboard across my heart, I can’t tell Nowhere is it uncomfortable, or everywhere is uncomfortable, and there is nowhere to land.

I must be very loving. When I was [-] or [-] years old, I was in a daze for a long time in class. I was carried to the office by the bald head teacher all day long. After school, I ran home without touching my feet, quarreling, playing truant Everything has been done, I want him to love me as much as I love him.

Not to mention when I was eight or nine years old, when my parents were young, they traveled all over the world to work. My entire childhood, entire adolescence, entire adolescence, and more than ten years.

In the final analysis, there is only one Yuan Jin.

After that day, we still lived proficiently. We should eat and sleep. He made dinner and waited for me at home, and never mentioned anything about picking me up from school. , Cuddle up and sleep after milk and good night kiss before going to bed.

I received a call from Chen Yang while I was having dinner with my mother and An Xun. He probably had something in his mouth, and his speech was a little vague. He said, "What brand of bionics do you like? I just happen to be buying one too recently. I'll give you one by the way."

I remembered what An Xun said that day, and subconsciously looked up at her.She was chatting with my mother, talking and laughing, as if they were part of the family.An Xun quickly turned his head to look over, revealing a innocent and harmless smile.I shook my head and continued to call back. I smiled and said, "What's the matter with you, everyone wants to change for me. Is it obvious that I'm so bad now?"

Most people buy androids just to play the role of labor. I can't think of why they are so unanimous, except that they were too busy with their papers last week to match their pants.

Chen Yang said: "No, isn't yours about to be scrapped? Don't you still have some cleanliness and only use one robot for the rest of your life?"

For a moment I thought he was joking, making a good excuse to flatter me, a fool, but it was already dark in front of my eyes.I shivered and supported the table to barely stand up, and walked out with messy hands and feet.My mother called me from behind, but I couldn't hear what I was shouting clearly.I heard my own voice as if it had just come out of the eighteenth floor of hell, and I asked him, "What is scrapping? Who did you listen to?"

Chen Yang snorted and said, "No way, do you really have such a strange cleanliness?The last time I saw him at the school gate, I felt that his actions were a bit unnatural. How should I put it, alas, as a future scientist, I am sensitive. Today I went to Professor Lin’s laboratory to get a report, and then I met your bionic man.I don't know the details, and I was kicked out before I read the inspection results.Professor Lin is so eccentric... I have already used the vital sign restoration instrument, so it is not far from being scrapped, right?Damn, you don't know anything?Really, I just checked online, the latest model is on sale now, only for sale..."

I hung up his phone and wanted to go out, but everywhere I went was pitch black, so dark, the world was spinning, I couldn't see my fingers, I couldn't find the way out, so I could only follow the memory and click on the phone in the communication. The word "a" in the first line, while leaning on the wall to grope outside, his legs were weak and he couldn't move half a step.

The original "beep" sounded several times, and it was only when I dialed the fifth or sixth time that the connection was made. He answered the phone, but the person seemed to be far away from the receiver, and the voice was a bit ethereal. I pressed the phone tightly to my ear, I was afraid that I would not be able to catch his voice.He asked from a distance: "Have you finished your meal? Do you want me to pick you up?"

I gritted my teeth, and he said "hey" several times over there, and I managed to stop my teeth from shaking, and then I was about to ask, "Where are you now?" I tried, but couldn't say No sound, so I coughed hard twice, cleared my throat desperately, and finally had a hoarse voice, I asked him: "Where are you now?"

He was a little anxious: "What's wrong with your voice?"

I still asked, "Where are you?"

He said: "At home, what's the matter? Miss me? Tell me what's wrong with your voice first?"

I bit my lower lip, probably biting it, because the smell of blood poured into my throat, sweet and fishy, ​​I said: "I'm home, I didn't see you."

I still had some hopes, expecting him to expose me with a smile: "Little liar, which family are you in? Do you know that children who lie will be punished?"

He didn't, he was silent for a long time, I waited for him for a long time, such a big hotel, such a quiet corridor, he finally said: "Baby, why did you come back so early? Are you drunk? There is lemonade in the kitchen, you first Have a drink, and I'll be back later."

I waited for him to finish, and said word by word: "Where are you?"

He is not very good at lying. Programming only taught him how to be an honest person. He paused for a while before saying, "Yes, I am doing research with the teacher."

I said "hmm" and cleared my throat: "Okay, I just lied to you, I didn't go back, I was drunk, can you come and pick me up?"

The other end was silent again. He seemed to have discussed with the dean a few words. It must have been unsuccessful, so he smiled awkwardly: "Why are you still lying to me now?"

An Xun came out to look for me, she put her hand on my wrist, tilted her head to look at me, and seemed to want to put her other hand on my forehead.I turned away, shook him off, and gave her a warning look.As far as I could see, I finally had something clear, I ran out quickly, and insisted to the person on the other end of the phone: "Come pick me up."

I stopped a taxi and sat in it. Yuan Jin faltered a few words: "I promised the teacher to accompany him for a day, it's not good to leave early..."

It was only when the sun was out that I realized that it was still early, and my broken throat would not heal for a while. I took the phone away and cleared my throat hard on the other side.

The driver was not bad. He looked at me in the mirror and said concerned: "Young man has a cold? Do you want to turn off the air conditioner?"

I waved my hand to thank him for his kindness.

I really want to talk to Yuan Jin now, but I don't know where to start. When I went to answer the phone again, the other end had already hung up.

He hung up on me the first time.

I was a little angry, not for him, but for myself.

Yuan Jin doesn't understand love, I dragged him into the flames, but I became a traitor first.

I deserved my crime, and I deserved my death.

When I went home that day, it was pitch black, which was normal, but today I felt weird, and there was a great loneliness, overwhelming, and the old cat was still locked in the cage.I also don’t want to turn on the lights, because after turning on the lights, I can be sure that there is no one in the house, and it’s fine if I don’t turn on the lights, because I can’t see anything, and everything is still possible.

I waited for a long time, all the subtle emotions in the darkness were magnified, I was afraid, and I thought of Yuan Jin, he was also waiting here, waiting for so long, so I was even more afraid.

When Yuan Jin pushed the door and came in, I was paralyzed on the floor in front of the sofa, like the mud in front of Wang Xietang after the rain in the old days, unable to stand up.

I was wet when my hand brushed my cheeks, my eyes seemed to be filled with thick water vapor, through the haze behind the mist, I saw Yuan Jin's eyes again.

I thought of the famous sex/love temple that we went to at the end of the college entrance examination, Bangkrajuho.

Love without desire, love with emotion.

The most erotic and cleanest things have achieved a wonderful unity there.

Yuan Jin's eyes.

He came over and helped me onto the couch.He had a completely different aura from the past.He tapped the top of my hair lightly with his chin, and said with some regret: "I'm sorry, Xiao Yuan, I'm afraid I can't make you dinner today."