You are my proper foothold

"Where did you go wrong?" Jiang Xin sat down on the bed, looked at Hui Xiaoyou firmly and asked.

But Yan Xiaoyou was asked this question.

Where is it wrong?How does this make him answer...

What he said just now was just to coax Jiang Xin and tell him not to be angry again. Logically, Jiang Xin just needs to catch the step and go down. Who would have thought that not only did he not catch it, but he threw the ladder back to him.

Hui Xiaoyou was a little speechless, stared at Jiang Xin for a few seconds, then took his hand and said with a smile: "What are you doing, are you really going to be serious with me? I'm a patient right now—"

"You still know that you are a patient?" Jiang Xin cut off his words directly.This situation is rare in normal times.

Hui Xiaoyou couldn't help being startled, thinking that he had really worried Jiang Xin this time, and felt sorry, so he softened his tone again, "I know, I can't help it today... You see, I'm so worried now. Lying in the hospital is considered a lesson, so don't be so cold to me, okay?"

Jiang Xin glanced at him silently, then took a deep breath as if to forcibly suppress her temper, and said in a serious voice: "Brother, I don't want to be cold-faced to you, but I really can't be happy now .”

"..." Hui Xiaoyou couldn't help feeling a little congested when he heard him say this, and he couldn't help but said a little bit harder: "Then what do you want me to do to be happy? I have a stomachache and I'm hospitalized. Is it because I voluntarily ...I also want to be alive and kicking, but I already have this disease, you can't expect me to recover overnight, can you?"

"I don't expect you to get better overnight, but I hope you can at least try to get better!" Jiang Xin couldn't control the blame in her tone, and her voice couldn't help but grow louder, "You obviously Knowing that I have a bad stomach, the doctor has told you, and I have told you so many times, that you must eat on time and pay attention to rest, but why don't you always listen?!"

"I listened! But can I blame me for today's incident??" Hui Xiaoyou also became a little anxious, sat upright and stared at him, and said, "Tell me, my student ran out alone and disappeared, I shouldn't Should I look for him? I couldn’t find him, and I was anxious. I couldn’t eat anything. Is it normal? I know he’s on the top of Xishan Mountain, but the cable car is out of service. Shouldn’t I climb it? He’s been outside alone for so long, and I’m worried about the time The longer it takes, the more dangerous it is. I want to find him as soon as possible, so shouldn’t I run all over the mountains? I also want to pay attention to rest, but can I rest in that situation??”

"...I know you're worried about Xiao He, but that doesn't mean you can use this as a reason to ignore yourself."

Jiang Xin's tone was a little calmer, "Brother, I can understand what you said, but you have to remember that you are not a healthy person now. It's okay for a healthy person to skip a meal or two occasionally. It's nothing at all, but you can't do it... You have to be clear about your situation, no matter how anxious or worried you are, you have to take care of yourself first."

"You said it lightly, but it's not so easy to do it..." Hui Xiaoyou said with a sigh.

Jiang Xin frowned even tighter, "You haven't even tried to do it, of course it's not easy."

After hearing this, Hui Xiaoyou couldn't help feeling a little angry, and smiled wryly, "How do you know I didn't try? I also want to be like you, Manager Jiang, who can deal with everything calmly and calmly, and I also want to be able to do everything right. Collapsing in front of me without changing my face, I also want to eat and rest calmly when the student is missing, but I really don't have as high a realm as you."

"...Brother." Jiang Xin's expression suddenly became a little sad.

He turned his head and stopped looking at Hui Xiaoyou, and said in a low voice: "I can handle everything calmly, but I can't be calm only about your matter. As for you, you can care about anyone and anything, but you always Neglect your own business. Our two purposes are different in themselves."

"Jiang Xin..." Hui Xiaoyi's heart softened when he saw his expression, and he couldn't help leaning over to hug him, and said submissively, "I'm sorry, what I said just now was all angry, but I didn't mean it that way." .I know you are worried about me, I will pay attention to it in the future, and this will not happen again, okay?"

"not good."

Jiang Xin took his arm off her body, and no longer intentionally concealed the tiredness in her voice, she said bluntly: "Senior brother, you have promised me many times, but when have you really done it? I dare not now Don’t believe it anymore. I don’t want to believe it anymore.”

Hui Xiaoyou's heart sank for a moment, he stretched out his hand and paused in the air for a few seconds, then retracted hesitantly. "What do you mean by that?"

Jiang Xin shook her head lightly, "It's nothing interesting, I just want to keep myself quiet. Brother, maybe you never realize how important your health is to me. You've heard the doctor say it , if chronic atrophic gastritis develops further, it may turn into gastric cancer, cancer...Have you thought about it?"

Hui Xiaoyou's eyes froze, and he replied subconsciously: "Of course I thought about it..."

"Think about it, and then what? Have you ever thought about me?" Jiang Xin's eyes became extremely sad.

His voice was also very low, and he said slowly: "Brother, can you think about it for me too? Have you ever thought about it, in case something really happens to you... in case, I am the only one left...you let me What should I do? How can I live alone without you?"

Jiang Xin's words were like needles, piercing Yan Xiaoyou's internal organs full of holes and bleeding.

His hands were trembling slightly, and when he wanted to grab Jiang Xin, the other party had already stood up, took two steps back, and stood where he couldn't reach.

"Brother, you should rest first... let's not talk about it."

Although Jiang Xin lowered her head when she said this, Hui Xiaoyou still saw the corners of his eyes that were already red.

It seemed that every cell in the whole body burst out with sharp pain at this moment.

I didn't even feel this way when my stomach pain was the worst.

Hui Xiaoyou watched Jiang Xin turn around and walk out, trying to call him back but his throat was so painful that he couldn't make a sound at all.

This time it was really his mistake...

This is the second time he has seen Jiang Xin like that since he was a child.

The first time was when Uncle Jiang died.

How could he push him to this point...

Hui Yue curled up and closed his eyes tightly.

……

After an unknown amount of time, when Hui Xiaoyou opened his eyes again, he found that he was no longer in the hospital.

He seemed to be in some empty room, which was like his home but subtly different.

He is familiar with the style, arrangement and even the small decorations on the furniture, but for some reason, Hui Xiaoyou can't feel the trace of his living here.

So he started to wander around, and found that the room was bigger than he imagined. He walked through one after another, and each room was like a room at home, but he couldn't get to the end...

Finally, when he managed to break into a room similar to a living room, he was pleasantly surprised to find that there was a person sitting on the sofa, it was Jiang Xin!

Hui Xiaoyou was so happy that he ran over excitedly and called him: "Jiang Xin! Jiang Xin, have you found out? This doesn't seem to be our home! Where is this?!"

However, Jiang Xin didn't seem to hear it, and continued to look at something with her head down, without any reaction.

Hui Xiaoyou couldn't help being a little angry, thinking that this person dared to ignore him, how unreasonable it is!

So he stretched out his hand to pat Jiang Xin's shoulder hard, but found that his hand couldn't touch his body no matter what.

"Hey...that's weird..." Hui Xiaoyou exerted all his strength, but his fingertips seemed to be of the same sex as Jiang Xin. No matter where he wanted to touch, there was always a little distance between them, just like the distance between them. Like an invisible barrier.

Hui Yue suddenly realized that something was wrong.

He found that Jiang Xin didn't seem to see him at all, he didn't notice his existence at all!

Hui Xiaoyou felt a chill in his heart, he felt as if someone had poured a bucket of ice water over his head, which made his hairs stand on end.

Why... why can't he see me? ?

Are you dreaming...

Hui Xiaoyou thought of this, and suddenly subconsciously looked down at the thing Jiang Xin was wiping carefully in his hand, and a great fear suddenly surged in his heart.

That seems to be—— seems to be... a posthumous photo? !

And the person in that photo...is himself...

It turned out that he was dead.

He's dead... is he really dead?

Hui Xiaoyou stood there blankly, not knowing how to face this fact.

But at this moment, he heard Jiang Xin finally speak.

He heard Jiang Xin whispering over and over again in a hoarse and choked voice: "Senior brother, what will you do if you leave me alone...what will I do alone...it's only me, senior brother, what do you want me to do... ..."

Hui Xiaoyou looked at the tear stains on his face, and he didn't know when his face was already full of tears.

……

Then the scene suddenly changed.

Hui Xiaoyou saw that he should be in a cemetery, standing among a group of people dressed in black.

It was raining heavily, and everyone was holding an umbrella, except for one person kneeling in front of the tombstone without an umbrella.

The pouring rain had drenched his whole body, and as he knelt there, the water that fell from his body seemed to be more than the rain that fell from the sky.

He arched his back, buried his face in his knees, and his body was shaking violently.

He is crying.

Hui Yue felt that his heart was about to break.

He couldn't help walking up, stretching out his hand to pull him up, but he still couldn't touch him.

He bent down again to let his body cover him, trying to shield him from the rain, but the rain penetrated his body and continued to beat the person below him mercilessly.

"Get up..." Hui Xiaoyou said to him, but he couldn't hear him.

"Get up! Get up!!" Hui Xiaoyou yelled again, but it was a pity that no matter how loud he was, it would be futile.

He is dead.

So no matter what he said or did, Jiang Xin couldn't hear or see it.

The scene of the cemetery gradually faded away...

Hui Xiaoyou felt as if he was floating in the air, because his perspective changed to look down.

This time, he seemed to witness a complete timeline.

He saw Jiang Xin living alone after losing himself, he saw that he never smiled again, and his face was always sad...

He also saw familiar friends coming to his house to persuade him, including Chen Jiashu and Wei Zhiyu, who advised him to open up and live a good life, but he couldn't listen at all...

He saw Jiang Xin growing old by herself...

He watched him go through this life in such pain, but there was nothing he could do... he could only be a bystander who accompanied him in pain...

At the end, he saw that Jiang Xin seemed to be on his deathbed, but his face suddenly became younger, and he returned to the handsome young man when they were together.

However, his expression was still sad.His eyes are full of loneliness and desolation that cannot be dismissed.His voice is full of the vicissitudes and despair of not being able to wait for a good ending after all the hardships.

He saw him sitting by the window staring blankly into the distance, he heard him whispering to the lonely air...

He said, brother, I have been walking alone for a long time, and I am finally coming to an end...

Where are you, I miss you so much...

Hui Xiaoyou couldn't control himself anymore.

His heart ached as if it was about to burst, and he finally broke down and cried bitterly.

……

"...Senior Brother? Senior Brother?!"

Someone was calling him loudly and still pushing him hard.

Hui Xiaoyou opened his eyes suddenly, and it took him half a minute to react before he realized that what happened just now was just a dream he had.

But he was really crying, and a large piece of the pillow was already wet.

"Senior brother?" Jiang Xin's voice was close at hand, after Hui Yue recognized his anxious face from his hazy vision, he became confused between dreams and reality.

"Jiang Xin..."

He stared blankly at him for a few seconds, then suddenly rushed forward and hugged him tightly, as if he was so strong that he wanted to become one with him.

He tried his best to feel the real touch and temperature on his body, this time it was real...

He is real.He hasn't lost him yet.He's right there with him.

After Hui Xiaoyou finally confirmed this point, the sadness in his heart turned into deep regret and guilt.

He cried even harder, his whole body convulsed from crying, and he was out of breath. He cried as if he had never been so uncomfortable in his life.

And Jiang Xin has become at a loss.

He was hugged by Hui Xiaoyou almost out of breath, but instead of pushing him away, he hugged him even harder.

Jiang Xin's eyes were red from Hui Yue's crying.

He stroked his back and kept whispering: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, brother, I'm sorry... I shouldn't say that to you, I'm sorry... don't be sad, okay? It's my fault... I won't do it again Yes, I promise..."

Hui Xiaoyou shook his head desperately in his arms, wanted to speak but couldn't make a sound, the sentences became fragmented, "It's not you...it's me, it's my fault...I will, I will change...I promise You, I will take good care of my body in the future, and I will take care of myself...I'm sorry..."

"Brother, you didn't apologize to me..." Jiang Xin hugged his trembling body, feeling that her heart was trembling along with it, and her voice trembled when she spoke, "Brother... don't cry, okay? Don't cry." Crying... It's my fault, I shouldn't make you sad... I did something wrong, can you forgive me?"

But hearing his hoarse voice at this moment, Hui Xiaoyou suddenly remembered the words Jiang Xin said in his dream just now, and thought of him asking so sadly over and over again: Brother, what do you do if you leave me alone... …

"Jiang Xin..." Yan Xiaoyou suppressed the choking in his throat, and said loudly, "I'm sorry...I won't leave you alone! I can't leave you alone!! I'm sorry..."

"Brother..."

Jiang Xin couldn't bear it any longer, she lowered her head and pressed her lips tightly, Hui Xiaoyou closed her eyes, the violent collision of lips and teeth made both of their mouths smell of blood, but they kissed more and more. It's hard to tell.

Pain can make people remember.

But for Hui Xiaoyou and Jiang Xin, from this moment on, some things and some feelings were already unforgettable for a lifetime.