The right way to rescue someone who has been out of the closet

That night, Ye Lan had a dream.

As people grow older, people become more and more realistic, and even dreaming becomes a luxury.

He dreamed about the past, the memories he thought he had buried deep in his heart, like yellowed pages on a wooden bookshelf, exuding a musty old smell.

When Ye Ying brought him to the capital, she worried about eating and sleeping every day.They have lived in many places, stations, police stations, overpasses... Sometimes kind people give some food, sometimes they are hungry.

Going on like this is not an option, Ye Ying began to think about finding a job to make money, but she herself is a minor with a baby, who would want it?Ye Ying searched for many places and kept the requirements to a minimum. Finally, the owner of a small restaurant agreed to hire her as a temporary worker, with food and lodging included without wages.

No one helped to take care of Ye Lan, Ye Ying could only take him by her side, it was fine when she was young, Ye Lan couldn't eat enough milk, she was sick all day and had no energy to cry, she just found a place in the store for a day.When he grows up, he can eat the leftovers from the guests, and he will run around all over the place. The boss finds it annoying, so Ye Ying has no choice but to lock him in the utility room.

Ye Lan refused at first, the child was afraid of the dark and cried heart-rendingly, and after being beaten several times by Ye Ying, she learned to be good.Before opening the store in the morning, Ye Ying opened the door. Ye Lan took a steamed bun and a urinal, and walked into the utility room to stay there. When work was over at night, Ye Ying let him out for dinner.

Ye Lan's claustrophobia started at that time. The four or five-year-old child only felt very anxious, irritable, and panicky. All kinds of negative emotions piled up and ran rampant in his body.But he didn't dare to cry, and endured silently, forcing himself to get used to being alone with him bit by bit.

People are really amazing animals. After a long time, Ye Lan not only adapted to such an environment, but even felt very at ease.He was still afraid, but he was able to stay quietly in the dark and listen to his own heartbeat.He couldn't express his feelings, and Ye Ying was so worried about her livelihood that she didn't have time to pay attention to her son's changes.

Darkness is scary, and it also has a power that is unspeakable.After growing up, Ye Lan was afraid of socializing, and only being alone in a small room made him feel at ease.

After she stabilized, Ye Ying immediately changed jobs, so she didn't have to lock Ye Lan up.Later, Ye Ying changed countless jobs, and they didn't last long. Ye Lan occasionally helped out, and most of the time, she wandered around the nearby shopping malls, waiting for Ye Ying to take him back at night.He watched other children hold the hands of their parents to go shopping and buy clothes, and he also raised his hands high, imagining that there were two pairs of warm big hands holding him.

"Mom, what is that little boy doing?"

"The little beggar is going crazy, let's stay away from him."

At the age of primary school, compulsory education is free of tuition and miscellaneous fees, so Ye Lan can go to school.He was very happy, and Ye Ying was also very happy.And at this time, Ye Ying finally found a stable job as a network administrator in an Internet cafe.

The 90s computer was still a novelty, far less popular than it is now. If you want to experience it, you must go to the computer room.A boss saw this and opened an Internet cafe. The business was booming and the salary was high.

Ye Ying rented a small single room next to the primary school, and the mother and son finally had a home.

Elementary school students are relatively simple, and Ye Lan has a very happy life in school.He plays with the children every day, which makes him feel that he is no different from others, and wakes up with a smile in his dreams at night.Ye Ying never came to the parents' meeting. Fortunately, Ye Lan's grades have always been good, and the teachers like him very much.

At the beginning of Xiaosheng, Ye Lan successfully passed the entrance examination of the city, and the teachers praised him one after another, Ye Lan was proud and proud.He tried to share this sweet feeling with Ye Ying, and specially picked a weekend, and when Ye Ying came back from the night shift, he solemnly told her the good news.

But Ye Ying only said "very good" indifferently, pushed him away and collapsed on the sofa, and after a while, heavy breathing sounded.

Ye Lan covered her with a quilt lightly and looked at her mother carefully.

The current Ye Ying would never sleep like this, she was lying on the sofa unkempt, and she didn't even have time to change her clothes.There are deep wrinkles between her brows, not the wrinkles of old people's skin that loses moisture, but a kind of extremely tired vicissitudes.

She is only in her 20s, but she looks like a middle-aged woman in her forties.

Ye Lan retreated quietly to the corner, took out a book and read it.The key points of the listing test may not be a big deal, and it's not worth waking up Ye Ying's rare sleep.

After entering junior high school, Ye Lan was still very happy.Although the classmates began to compare, compared to their new stationery, compared to their girlfriends.Some people also started to laugh at Ye Lan after learning about Ye Lan's life experience, saying that he is a bastard that no one wants.

Comparison and ridicule are both novel feelings for Ye Lan.When he was young, because of his background, he was like a speck of dust in the ground, no one cared about his life or death.When he grew up, and because of his background, his classmates all began to pay attention to his every move.

He quietly enjoys the attention, it makes him feel different, that he finally has something all to himself that other kids don't have.

Finding that words were not enough to humiliate, the perpetrator took a more direct approach.When she was beaten for the first time, Ye Lan was at a loss for the whole time and was completely bewildered.

He went home covered in bruises. When Ye Ying came back from get off work and saw him, she gave a troublesome "tsk" and asked him to sit down and change his medicine.Ye Lan sat quietly, enduring the burning pain in her back.It didn't take long for the burning pain to go away.He turned his head to see that Ye Ying fell asleep sitting up.

Ye Lan carefully took out the ointment from her hand, endured the pain and applied it all over her body.Standing in front of the mirror and looking at his scarred self, he suddenly had the desire to tell.

He has been very quiet since he was a child, and he rarely talks.Ye Ying likes his quietness. She said that going to work is already very annoying, and she just wants to sleep peacefully when she comes back.

At this moment, Ye Lan wanted to tell her what she was going through every day in school.He wanted to hide in her arms, saying that the wound was very painful.He also wanted to ask who his father was.

But he didn't.In the end, he dragged Ye Ying to the bed, took off her coat, wiped her face and hands, and sat aside to watch her quietly.

The child will cry because he knows that he will be comforted immediately, but this is a two-way behavior. Ye Ying unilaterally refuses to respond, and Ye Lan loses this instinct.

For Ye Lan, crying is too extravagant.When he is in a bad mood, he is in a daze.

He knew from a young age that crying and yelling were useless.No one would listen, no one would care, it would only waste his energy, he would not do such stupid things.

In the second semester of the third year of junior high school, Ye Lan got into a fight.

It's not like being beaten like before, but fighting back.He was born with poor physique and weak strength, and when he got too hard, he only scratched the skin of a few boys.The boys' parents were not forgiving, and insisted on asking the school for an explanation.

The teacher in charge had no choice but to detain Ye Lan after school and asked her parents to pick it up.Ye Ying talked all kinds of good things on the phone, but the head teacher just refused to let her go.

When Ye Ying came, her complexion was not very good.The homeroom teacher probably didn't expect her to be so young, and looked around several times before confirming repeatedly: "Isn't this your sister?"

Ye Ying's complexion became even worse: "Teacher, can you talk about something? I'm still in a hurry to go back to work!"

The class teacher glanced at his watch, 07:30, which unit is not off work at this time?What an irresponsible parent.He pushed his glasses, and earnestly persuaded Ye Lan that the bad consequences of fighting, now it is the stage of sprinting for the high school entrance examination, delaying himself is a small matter, and affecting others is a big matter.

After listening impatiently, Ye Ying turned her head and asked Ye Lan, "Why did you fight?"

Ye Lan gritted her teeth and didn't answer.

He couldn't say it, when the boy said with a smile on his face, "My son is a bastard, your mother must be a whore", his mind went blank, the blood flowed backwards all over his body, and he rushed forward without thinking.

He didn't know the meaning of bitch, but his intuition was not a good word, and he didn't want Ye Ying to hear it.

Ye Ying asked twice, Ye Lan was as silent as a stone to the end.

Ye Ying had nothing to do with him, so she spoke soft words to the teacher and took him back.

On the way home, Ye Ying took his hand and walked along the bustling street, among the crowds.The crowd in the imperial capital is always in a hurry, and all kinds of faces pass by them. In such a huge city, there is not a single relative or friend.

—they have only each other.

Passing by the sesame seed stall, Ye Ying bought him a roujiamo.

Ye Lan ate quietly, the juicy minced meat was particularly fragrant, the magnificent sunset glow in the sky was particularly beautiful, and Ye Ying's calloused fingers were particularly warm.

Ye Ying led him all the way into the door, moved a small stool for him to sit on, squatted down in front of him, and said to him: "Xiao Lan, don't be afraid, tell me, what wronged you?"

Ye Lan couldn't hold back, and told everything about the fight, except for Ye Ying's sentence.

After Ye Ying finished listening, she didn't speak for a while.She stood up and let out a long sigh.

Ye Lan looked up and saw her wipe her eyes, as if something flowed from between her fingers.

Ever since she could remember, Ye Lan had never seen Ye Ying shed a single tear.No matter how difficult life is, she is as tired as a dead dog working several jobs at the same time, or she is so angry that she yells at the unscrupulous boss who owes wages, she will always be high-spirited, like a female leopard who refuses to stop.

It was only then that Ye Lan realized dully that Ye Ying also had tears.

He panicked and didn't know how to comfort him.He thought for a while, and handed her the half-eaten Roujiamo: "You eat."

Ye Ying patted his head and smiled forcedly: "I'm going to work, you can eat slowly at home."

Ye Lan sent her to the door, before leaving, Ye Ying patted his head again, and said to him: "Don't worry, I'll find a solution."

Ye Lan nodded obediently, believing it.It was as if he drank a cup of honey water in his heart, his internal organs were well moisturised, and even the wounds on his body didn't hurt anymore.

He didn't know how to get close to Ye Ying, but he believed her unconditionally.No matter what difficulties she encountered, Ye Ying always had a solution.

Ye Lan had a very peaceful sleep, and had a sweet dream about taking the entrance exam to Shendu No. [-] Middle School.

But he never thought that the way Ye Ying came up with was to show up at the school the next day and complete the withdrawal procedures for him.