Religious Faith

I left the house quietly, not allowing myself to make a sound.I stood at the door of the house, dumbfounded, and felt something was wrong when I recovered. I touched my eye sockets and found that they were wet.

The next second I ran downstairs quickly, crying loudly, crying heartbreakingly.

I saw with my own eyes that the person I like has sex with the person I don't like for my life and for me.I don't know how to describe the mood...it's overwhelming.

I stopped at the window at the turning point of the stairs on the second floor, and looked out of the window with my rabbit eyes open.The sun is shining outside, the sky is blue and cloudy, and everything is so bright and beautiful.I tried my best to stretch out my hand, thinking that the sun outside would shine on my arm, but after all, my hand was covered by the shadow of the building, and there was still a distance from the sun, whether it was long or short. distance.

I withdrew my hand and closed my eyes in despair... When I opened my eyes again, I made a decision that I would no longer learn the piano.

I don't want anything, I just want Li Jinze not to look like this again, really, I will never forget him like that...

At the beginning, I practiced so hard because he liked it, and I thought he was happy.And now this has become his burden, I don't want it, don't want it like this.

I also suddenly understood why he was depressed every day. It turned out that he was already exhausted by being busy with both work and private life. In addition, there was a boss in the company who would always harass him and force him to have sex with her, otherwise he would be punished. Expelled, but at home I often get angry with him and intentionally break his heart.Yes, it is too difficult for an unfamiliar person to find a formal company here, and it is difficult for him to find a company that pays wages on schedule and pays a lot of money.He had an idea that he would send me abroad for further studies in the future, and that amount of money was even more unimaginable to us now.But he dared to think, and he also believed that he could do it, so he didn't give up any chance to make money.Well, since it's all for me, if I don't study, can he resign...?

I don't want to be his burden, I want to support myself.

So, I'm going out to make money.I don't want him to be so tired, I don't want him to trade with his body anymore, I want him to know that if that sow harassed him again, he could turn around and leave.

I calmed down and went outside to buy some food.In fact, when I bought it, I thought about what he likes to eat, but he doesn't seem to like anything too much...

I scratched my hair in frustration, then bought two snacks and walked home.

When I got home I realized I didn't have the key, so I knocked on the door.He opened the door quite quickly. At this time, he had already changed his clothes, and his white T-shirt looked very clean.

He smiled at me, took what was in my hand, and said, "I'm back."

"Well..." I nodded.When I was taking the shoes, I suddenly saw my violin hanging on the wall, my heart tightened, and I scolded myself for being stupid!I didn't even take the violin, so I "learned" a woolen yarn! !

It may have been revealed at this time, or it may have been revealed long ago, no matter when, anyway, he must know that I know it.

I said: "I came back to see that there is a new shop selling hot and sour noodles downstairs. It feels good. You can see if you like it." I smelled a burning smell in the room, so I went back to When I checked the bedroom, the sheets had been changed.I guess that just set him on fire.

This kind of feeling that you know and I know, but everyone doesn't tell the truth, is very subtle.

"Well, it looks delicious." His voice was gentle, and he pretended to be innocent, but his sadness couldn't be concealed.

I went out of the room and saw his back in the kitchen picking up chopsticks, and found him really distressing.

I walked over and hugged him from behind, his back stiffened.

"Don't be afraid...it's me..." My nose suddenly became sore, I choked up and said, "I'm sorry, I was ignorant a while ago..."

He smiled slightly and said, "It's okay."

I hugged him all the time and didn't speak.He is also very quiet, just let me hold him.

After a long time, he said: "Stop crying, the food is getting cold." He laughed and said, "I'm really a little hungry."

"Yeah." I nodded hastily, then let go, and wiped away my tears with the back of my hand.

"Go wash your face, don't rub your eyes like that in the future, it will get infected."

I ate that meal carefully and thoughtfully; he ate quietly with a normal expression.

We lay in bed together during our nap, with some distance between us.He was lying on his side on the side of the bed with his legs slightly bent, his back facing me and his arms wrapped around him.I watched his back all afternoon, full of thoughts.

He didn't go to work in the afternoon, but asked me: "I'm going to Xiangshan Park, are you going?"

It's not "Let's go to Xiangshan Park", and it's not "You and I will go to Xiangshan Park".I was wondering if he was still obsessed with my stalking him and was going to speak out to provoke me, or he was really asking me what I meant, after all, he is in a bad mood now and his words are relatively fragile.But if it's the former, then it would be too ignorant for me to follow.

Seeing that I didn't speak, he said again: "If you don't want to go, forget it."

It turned out to be the second one!I said: "I want to go!"

"Yeah." He nodded, then packed up some things, and even buttoned a baseball cap for me before leaving.

We all wore white T-shirts and white sneakers that day, actually I think it looks like a couple outfit.

My brain was cramped and I asked him, "Can I hold your arm?"

He frowned, looking at me suspiciously.

I shook my head: "Forget it, I didn't say anything..."

Xiangshan Park, located in the western suburbs of Beijing, was once a royal garden with a mountain forest structure.It is famous for its main peak, Xianglu Peak. It is said that when the sun is setting and the setting sun is bright, the mountain seems to be full of cigarettes, cooking and cooking, and layers of sunlight, just like "the sun shines on the incense burner to produce purple smoke", which is a wonderful sight.Because of its height and strangeness, the incense burner peak has another name, which is called "Ghost Seeing Sorrow".

I have long heard that Xiangshan Park is famous for its red leaves, but when we went there, there were no red leaves all over the mountain, and the mountain was full of flags and flames. Instead, it was golden, but the color was very beautiful.

We climbed all the way and rarely communicated.After climbing, he will stop to take a few photos, and then continue to go.He bought that camera when he was in college. At that time, he was obsessed with photography. He was an enthusiast, so he bought this camera.When asked about the price, he simply said, "It's very expensive."

Going out for a walk when you're unhappy, to get some fresh air can help.He seems to be in a much better mood now.We sat on a piece of grass to rest, and he said, "Every time I use this camera, I feel like I'm still in college."

"Do you miss your college days?"

He nodded: "A little bit."

"Then tell me about it." After finally seeing him getting a little interested, I have to let him talk about his happy things.Also... Actually, I also really want to know what university is like...

He thought for a while and said: "Well... D Normal University is a very good school, 211, 985 are occupied, and the campus construction is also very good, so there will be foreign students. I am more impressed by Koreans. In winter, their boys still wear slippers, men and women wear their upper bodies for winter, and their lower bodies for summer. Their looks are still very ordinary, but Korean girls have very good skin, like milk."

"Although the grilled cold noodles at the gate of the school are famous, they are really unpalatable..."

"The French teacher is a very good teacher, but also very moral... It is a kind of enjoyment to listen to his class, so I am influenced by him and respect his ideas. We have a good relationship between teachers and students. Later He recommended me to go abroad for further study. If I can be admitted to the school, everyone will be happy. If I can’t pass the exam, he will also recommend me to go at my own expense, and will provide a letter of recommendation. He is still a very authoritative person in the French community.”

"Later, I passed the exam and became an exchange student. France is a romantic country with a unique temperament. I can learn French better there, especially its essence. When I was about to graduate, Teacher Jaqueline hoped that I could Going to graduate school here, but I didn't do it."

I asked: "Why?"

"Because I don't like studying either." He smiled and asked himself, "Who likes studying?"

I couldn't believe it: "I thought you liked studying..."

"Just because a person can do something well doesn't mean he likes it."

It suddenly occurred to me that he made her so comfortable, but he didn't like it either... I shook my head, why did I remember this thing again.

"What's the matter with you?" he asked.

"No, a little dizzy."

"Then do you want to go home?"

"No, I like listening to you here."

"At that time, the postgraduate entrance examination was not very popular, but I was sure that the postgraduate entrance examination craze would be popular in a few years... But I still didn't want to study, so I went home."

"You're just lazy," I said.

He couldn't deny it: "Study is hard work, and I know how to be lazy."

"Mr. Li, isn't your theory a bit misleading?"

"When I was a teacher, I naturally had to show you off. I don't want to be a teacher, so I don't have to say those things anymore."

"..."

……

However, the postgraduate entrance examination has indeed become popular now, and Li Jinze can be regarded as a prophecy emperor.

He happens to be at home as I write this.So I asked him while typing: "Seriously, how do you know that the postgraduate entrance examination will be popular?"

He was lazily leaning on the sofa with a book in his hand.He said comfortably: "Well... Objectively speaking, with the progress of society, the requirements for academic qualifications, that is, the level of knowledge, will become higher and higher. Undergraduates in 90, and now graduate students. Subjectively speaking, that is, my personal opinion, nothing will continue to be hot, and nothing will continue to be cold. Today is cold, it must be It will be hot in the future."

"Then Teacher Li will make another prophecy."

He chuckled: "Great writer, I think you can actually try to write lily essays. Don't think it's cold now, but in a few years you may become the Danmei you are today."

"Okay, when we both become women, I can write a real lily essay."

"Hey..." He frowned, "You are so cruel..."

"Then how about I be nicer to myself, if you change, I won't change. Then I can try to write romance novels."

He quietly said: "Then you will become the little heavenly king in the romance world~"

I stopped: "Are you kidding me?"

"No."

I put down the computer and went towards him, pretending to be angry and grabbed his neck: "I told you to laugh at me, I told you to laugh at me!"

He hurriedly begged for mercy: "I was wrong, I was wrong, ahem... murdered my husband..."

"Say! What do you mean!" I stared at him fiercely.

"I just think that the price you are willing to sacrifice me for writing a romance novel is too high. So Jiang Cheng is not popular, it's too much for God!"

"You're smart." I smiled.

He hugged me onto his lap, with a smile on his lips: "You see the weather is so good today, so don't stay at home, let's go see the peach blossoms."

"Okay!"

……

The author has something to say: I know you must have laughed when you saw the end, it was warm, right?