reborn lover

In winter, the days are short and the nights are long, and the sky is still gray at seven or eight o'clock in the morning. It has been foggy and rainy for a long time in Zhongjing, and the sky is still very dark, as if the sky and the earth have melted into gray and white, which is depressing. I can't breathe.

People who get up early have already started a busy day and walk in a hurry.

This city is huge, and there are many people coming and going, no one pays attention to the lives of people around them, just living their own lives in a hurry, most people think about solving the problem of food and clothing, maybe earn a little money, go out to travel, Those who are filial will give some money to their parents, or find a lover to live their whole life.

In a rental house in the south of the city, the door of the room has not been opened for three or four days, and no one has noticed. In this indifferent society, no one will care about a stranger.

The light in the room was very dim, and it was difficult to see clearly. He vaguely saw a slender boy lying on the sofa. He seemed to have been sleeping here for several days and never woke up.

After a long time, the hand hanging on the sofa moved, but it still hung down feebly.

A line of tears slipped from the corner of the boy's eyes, dripping down, one drop or two...

His face was ugly, pale with blue gray, half of his face was covered by too long bangs on his forehead, revealing a thin chin, his nose was small and straight, his thin lips had no blood, and his lips were too dry There was a stream of dead ashes.

"Ah Qing, I love you, I really love you, don't leave me, Ah Qing, I will never do it again, please forgive me, I was wrong, I was really wrong..." The one hugging him Such a man, after doing something wrong, hugs him and tells him over and over again that he loves him and cannot live without him.

Then, the next time the cycle continues.

Those things during his lifetime flashed through his mind, scene by scene, from the very beginning to the end.

Life is just a short silhouette, there is no too strong life, dark and dim, but the end of life.

He thought they were in love at first, he loved that man, and that man loved him too.Even in the end, he still loved him, but he was also desperate.Until the moment he died, he couldn't figure out when that man stopped loving him so much.

He seemed to have been unable to see clearly.

During those days, it was so sad, my heart was in severe pain every day, so that my body gradually got used to the pain of heart convulsions.

Once there is no hope, how can people live?

It's better to die.

He wants to wait for him to walk across the Naihe Bridge and drink Mengpo soup to forget everything in his life. He doesn't want to remember those things in his life. He can forget, forget that man's kindness to him, and forget that man's treatment of him It's bad, don't live those days so painfully in the future.

He doesn't want to have a next life, one life is enough, he thinks he can vanish into ashes, disappear in the world, and never have to accept reincarnation.

He wanted to forget him, never to see him again, and let him never find him for life or death.

A lifetime is enough.

The sadness at that moment covered everything in him, his eyes were burning hot, and the tears flowed out uncontrollably.