immortal

The insomnia is back and tends to get worse, and the jade is still around my neck, but it seems to have lost any effect.As soon as I close my eyes, I can hear the whistling wind in my ears, the sky is spinning, and the anxiety in my heart is so burning that I can't sit or lie down-although I don't want to admit it, but it is undeniable that all of this has something to do with Zhang Qiling's departure again Inseparable relationship.

Xiaohua also seems to have evaporated from the world, and she can't find anyone anywhere.I fell asleep the day before after getting myself drunk, and then I had a headache for a day, and my stomach was full of water and I was about to vomit. Wang Meng looked worried. I thought he cared about me, but he turned out to be holding a book Asked if I wanted to explain the funeral, I said casually: "Don't worry, I want to explain and explain to my mother, it's not your turn."

As a result, my mother came early the next morning.When she was standing at my gate with a travel bag, I was just lying on the bed and just closed my eyes when I was woken up by the knock on the door.I went to open the door with a livid face, never expecting it to be him, and I was really shocked.She looked at my half-dead cowardice, and she was probably quite shocked.

My mother's complexion was not much better either. She entered the room silently and sat on the sofa without moving for a long time. I was numb for a long time because of lack of energy, and it took me a long time to remember to pour water for her.

After looking for a cup, I found that the water dispenser was empty, and there was no drop of water in the cold cup on the table. I hurried into the kitchen and turned on the gas. My mother also came in after me, and took it from me. Kettle.

She took more than half of the pot of water steadily, pretending not to see the messy cups I threw in the sink, turned around and sat the pot on the stove, lit the fire before asking me: "Are you sick?"

I rubbed my eyes and pretended to be energetic and said, "How can it be... well..."

She nodded, but she didn't intend to go out, staring at the blue flame licking the bottom of the pot in a daze, and I didn't know what to say for a while, so I had to stand beside her silently.

After a while she seemed to sigh, and said softly: "Wu Xie..." I looked at her, she shook her head and said, "Don't blame me..."

Where did this start?I was in a hurry and didn't know how to explain it. I talked in a nonsensical manner. I tried my best to explain that I was just worried. I went home and took a look at what to do for the confinement... The main reason was that they would be too tired... My mother interrupted me and said: "I should have told you about that earlier."

She went back to the sofa and sat down, her face suddenly stiffened, as if she didn't know how to speak, I sat down next to her, hesitated for a moment and then spoke: "Is it Xiaoyu's business?"

She raised her hand to wipe the corners of her eyes, and said, "Xiao Yu is your younger brother. His last name is mine, and his first name is Qi Yu."

This was 20 years ago.

"Your father and I have known each other since we were young. I heard from my grandma that in the old days, your grandfather's family was a landlord, and my family was a long-term laborer. They have always been in your house. After the land reform, the house and land were divided before moving out. Another way. But the two families have always been close. Your grandfather gave me the money for my education since I was a child. In fact, I know in my heart that when the time comes, I will definitely marry your father..."

When she said this, her face became more relaxed, and she glanced at me before continuing: "When you got married, your father had already worked in the county, joined the government, and was regarded as a national employee. I returned from health school I became a doctor in the village, and we lived apart for a few years. Your grandfather also said that it was not a problem, and entrusted many people to find connections, and transferred me to the county hospital.

"Later, you were born again, and you were a boy again. Your grandfather was so happy. When you were full moon, he almost invited all the towns and villages. He ate at the water table for three days. Therefore, everyone said that this grandson of the old Wu family It's really expensive..."

I have never heard my family say these things, and even my impression of my grandpa is very vague. I didn’t expect such a past to happen, so I couldn’t help feeling a little bit sad, but my mother went on to say: "But when you were almost three years old, I was pregnant again. .”

"I myself worked in a hospital. The family planning work was very strict in those years. I also saw too much. In addition, your father works in the government. It is impossible to have a second child. At that time, I only had one idea, that is, to have a second child." Get rid of this child."

I looked over in shock. My mother lowered her head and looked at her hands repeatedly.

"I took the medicine, and the intention was not to be noticed by others, but I didn't expect that child to be so tenacious and survived. I was soft-hearted. Those days... really... every day was suffering, and your father couldn't bear it." Stop, secretly told your grandpa...

"Your grandfather came from the country overnight and said that he must have this child. In fact, I also want this child, but no one made up his mind. Your grandfather has confidence in me, and we discussed countermeasures at that time. Fortunately, no one Knowing that I was pregnant, I took a long vacation and hid in my old house in the country. I dare not even leave the house every day, for fear of meeting the inspection team. Fortunately, your grandfather has prestige in the village, and he kept it a secret until the child was born. good."

"And then?" I asked softly.Suddenly there was a whistle in the kitchen, and I jumped up to turn off the fire, and came out to listen to her before pouring water.

"The child was taken away overnight, and he was fostered at a cousin's house of mine. They live in a more remote place, but it is safer. Your father, your grandfather and I will visit him when we are free. When he is older, hurry up Going to the census, my cousin’s family gave him a household registration, so it’s considered a concealment of the past.”

I nodded and said, "Then why didn't you tell me earlier?"

My mother closed her eyes, and when she opened them again, there was no difference.She said: "Before, it was because you were young, and you were afraid of going out and revealing your mouth. Later, Qi Yu grew up. He didn't grow up by my side since he was a child. There was always a layer of separation in the family relationship, and he probably felt that it was me and your father. I deliberately didn't want him, and I couldn't say a few words every time we met, and gradually I also faded away, and I don't want to mention it again."

I sat down and put my arms around her shoulders, and said tightly, "You still have a son."

She smiled, looked into my face and said, "So I'm just waiting for you to have a grandson for me too."

As soon as she mentioned the baby, her face immediately brightened. She took out her mobile phone and showed me the photos. The screen was full of white and tender babies, wrapped in floral bags, or just wearing a bellyband, showing Arms and legs like lotus root.I glanced over one by one, and the eyebrows and eyes really looked a bit like my parents.

I picked a few and sent them to my mobile phone, and said to my mother: "You should have told me earlier, it's all now... I went back the other day and saw no one in the house, and you didn't answer the phone, but it made me anxious." broken."

My mother took her mobile phone and swiped it for me to read, "Didn't the child just happen to be hospitalized? It's killing me... Let me see..."

I looked at those photos, and they were all crying, with a net bag with indwelling needles wrapped around their heads.

"I've cried so much, you still do it..." I smiled and said, "It can really torment your eldest grandson."

My mother shook her head and said, "Leave a souvenir..."

I could see her expression reminded me of the past, so I quickly changed the subject and said, "Is the child okay now? You..." I suddenly realized that my mother came back to see me!

My mother replied lightly: "I should be discharged from the hospital today, your father is watching."

I felt uncomfortable, and I scolded myself as a jerk in my heart, and said, "I'm such a big person...you should hurry back and take care of the child...how about I send you back? I just happened to meet..."

My mother got up and interrupted me and said, "No need..." She looked around the room before saying, "I'm staying for two days, and I'll clean up your place too."