look back and see him

Even if Lu Xiaoman looked in the mirror, it was hard to notice that he had gained a little weight recently—of course, it would be more accurate to say that he was not that thin.Unknowingly, he became a little closer to Ding Yu. When the MV first came out, some voices said that he looked like Ding Yu.Given that Ding Yu had just been "rehabilitated" about half a year ago, it just so happened that recently he was paying attention to the issue of cyber violence, and Ding Yu's case became very popular.If Lu Xiaoman didn't attract too many people's attention originally, then because of Ding Yu's relationship, many people paid attention to the connection between Xiang Lu Xiaoman and Ding Yu.A plastic surgery expert analyzed the facial structures of Ding Yu and Lu Xiaoman, and claimed that Lu Xiaoman's face was the result of scientific deduction after Ding Yu lost weight.After that, more and more people began to suspect that Lu Xiaoman was Ding Yu.

I don't know if it was because Jinling helped Lu Xiaoman block it or what. No media found Lu Xiaoman himself, but Yan Yan who attended the event was still caught.After all, Lu Xiaoman directed and starred in Yan Yan's MV.The reporter mentioned to Yan Yan the current hot speculation on the Internet, and asked Yan Yan whether Lu Xiaoman was Ding Yu.

Yan Yan is not particularly good at acting in TV dramas, let alone in real life.Of course he knew that Lu Xiaoman had no intention of associating himself with the former Ding Yu, but he still couldn't hold back the most honest reaction when asked by the reporter. "Back then I blindly accused Ding Yu without knowing the truth. I don't think I am qualified to talk about Ding Yu now."

Although he didn't answer directly, his attitude seemed to be the default.

Yan Yan felt guilty when he returned home that day, but Lu Xiaoman let him wash the clothes by hand for three days in a row, which made him feel better soon.

On the day Yan Yan's interview was released, Lu Xiaoman, a person in charge of Jinling, did not know him, and the other party contacted him.The content of the conversation is roughly that although Jinling can ensure that the major media will not dig into Lu Xiaoman's life, but now that the paparazzi of the entire Internet, Lu Xiaoman never mentions his identity, the curiosity of netizens will rebound, and it may actually make Lu Xiaoman All of her private life was exposed.He suggested that Lu Xiaoman simply give a positive answer.

In fact, the only relationship between Lu Xiaoman and Jin Ling is the MV director's work contract, and anything that happens to Lu Xiaoman after work has nothing to do with Jin Ling.So, why did the person in charge who Lu Xiaoman didn't know remind him specifically, it was clear at a glance who was behind the scenes.But then again, Lu Xiaoman had to agree with the other party.Moreover, he used the name Guo Lu Xiaoman when he was a child, and he was the illegitimate son of the Ding family, so it was inconvenient to find out these facts - he was not afraid of losing face to the Ding family, but he didn't want to lose face to his mother.Most importantly, his state of mind has also changed.Although he still doesn't trust the reality of the entertainment industry, including the audience, he is no longer so worried.It made him feel that whoever he was, what had happened was over and over.

With Yan Yan's celebration banquet open to the media, Lu Xiaoman, who attended the event, faced the media who had the opportunity to talk to him for the first time.

"Some people like to change their hairstyle to change their mood, and some people like to change their name to change their life. My name is Lu Xiaoman now, and I hope everyone will pay more attention to my works, not me."

Lu Xiaoman's attitude was a bit forceful and blunt, but since he was Ding Yu, everyone liked the fact that this video of his answer was posted on the Internet.

After Lu Xiaoman's identity was determined, Jinling was placed in a particularly awkward position.When Ding Yu left Jinling, he was framed immediately. Almost everyone knew that it was Jinling who secretly blackmailed Ding Yu. Now, Jinling invited Lu Xiaoman to be the director.As far as Lu Xiaoman's behavior is concerned, out of a compensation mentality, netizens unanimously praised him for his generosity.But as far as Jinling's behavior is concerned, the online comments are not so good.Lu Xiaoman, who was at the forefront of the storm, didn't pay attention to those comments on the Internet at all. To him, this was not worth mentioning.However, he still received a video on WeChat from a colleague who had made friends with each other in his previous work.That colleague didn't know the real relationship between Jin Cen and Lu Xiaoman at all, so he sent Lu Xiaoman a passage that Jin Cen answered in an interview program.

In the video, the show host mentioned Lu Xiaoman, and she asked Jin Cen why he asked Lu Xiaoman to direct the MV for Yan Yan.

Jin Cen's answer to this question is particularly official. "Of course it's because of Lu Xiaoman's ability. His talent as a director can be seen at a glance from his debut film "Split"." An understatement avoids the incident of framing two years ago.

As a result, the hostess couldn't help but insinuated and chased after him: "It seems that Mr. Jin is really optimistic about Director Lu Xiaoman. Will Jin Ling cooperate with Director Lu in the future? If Director Lu Xiaoman is watching our show, I don't know Mr. Jin. What do you want to tell him?"

Facing this question, Jin Cen didn't hesitate at all, he turned to the TV camera. "I'm sorry, Ding Yu."

Looking at Jin Cen in the video, Lu Xiaoman finally understood the reason why his colleagues sent this video and said that the Internet is now full of anti-Yingtian.To be honest, he never thought that Jin Cen would say that.In fact, considering Jin Cen's power in the entertainment industry, even if he made a slip of the tongue or was impulsive, if he disagreed, this video would never have been made public, but he allowed it to not only affect his own reputation, but also affect Speeches to the reputation of the entire Jinling Group were broadcast on the program.Even if everyone doubts what Jinling has done, this unspoken admission is still deadly.Lu Xiaoman, a victim, couldn't help feeling that Jin Cen shouldn't have done this.

That night, when Yan Yan returned home from work, the two of them tacitly agreed that neither of them mentioned Jin Cen's interview video.Yan Yan traveled more than half of the city to buy Ding Yu's favorite shrimp dumpling.This should be what Yan Yan recently saw Ding Yu mentioning in a sideshow of a movie, because Lu Xiaoman himself forgot which shop he likes the Shrimp Emperor Dumplings.People who have suffered from anorexia for two years have long forgotten what it is like to be delicious.

However, this night, Lu Xiaoman actually ate a lot of Shrimp Emperor Dumplings.Yan Yan also packed some other Cantonese dim sum by the way, and Lu Xiaoman ate a little of each. He didn't have any nausea, at best he felt full without eating too much.

It was the first time that Yan Yan saw that Lu Xiaoman could eat so much food—compared to himself—and held various small snacks with chopsticks to feed them in surprise. "Come on, be good, eat another one." "If you ask me to be good again, I can immediately show you a 'not good' one." Lu Xiaoman warned the other party, but he really obediently ate another .

From this day on, Lu Xiaoman's eating problem suddenly improved by leaps and bounds in a slow progress.If it wasn't for the fact that the stomach could no longer bear too much food in the past two years, Lu Xiaoman's appetite should be considered to have fully recovered.

Lu Xiaoman didn't talk to Yan Yan about how his anorexia got better without medicine, but he went to see a psychiatrist again.

"It might be Jinling's actions that made you feel disgusted and nauseated. Now that Jinling apologizes publicly, the thorn in your stomach will disappear." Yang En speculated with an understatement.

Lu Xiaoman was reluctant to believe: "Isn't anorexia a symptom of never eating and then being habitually unable to eat again? How can the habit suddenly disappear?"

Yang En said quietly without any subjective color: "You don't have to resist this possibility. Even if you really recover because of Jin Cen's apology, it doesn't mean that Jin Cen has a great influence on you. When he induced your symptoms What cures you is the combination of various factors, similarly, what cures you is the superposition of all conditions.”

"...To sum it up, it means that you have to pay for something. Does this mean that I am too fussy?" Lu Xiaoman couldn't help asking after thinking about it.

Yang En nodded without hesitation: "That's right, your character is indeed like that."

Lu Xiaoman looked at the other party miraculously: "You really are suitable to be a doctor, not a friend."

"Look, if you suffer a loss, you must try to get it back."

Lu Xiaoman disagreed: "I'm never at a disadvantage."

"Actually, it's not that you really don't want to suffer. It's just that you have a cleanliness freak, and you have too high demands on yourself and everyone, including things. You must be spotless. The world is not so clean, you have to Learn not to be afraid of being dirty. When the water is clear, there will be no fish."

The psychiatrist who opened a software company as the boss had never given Guo Lu Xiaoman any serious advice before. This is the first time that a patient realized that this doctor, whom he hadn’t met a few times, really knew him well. he.

Whether it's Ding Yu or Lu Xiaoman who is trying to cultivate his body and mind, their essence is the same, and that cannot be changed.Lu Xiaoman just couldn't stand the little bit of "injustice" in his harsh dictionary.

"...Doctor Yang, do you think it would be better for me to continue treating the illness?"

"You are not sick."

Lu Xiaoman was very satisfied with this conclusion: "You are indeed a doctor with professional judgment."

When he left Yang En's company, Lu Xiaoman really felt that everything was over.

For the first time in a long time, I found peace.

Two years ago, he decided to drop everything and start anew, and even changed his name for this reason, but that was just deceiving himself and others. The things at that time, the actual entanglement until today, finally came to an end.Maybe it also includes his mixed feelings about Jin Cen.Whether it's love or resentment, those unspeakable ties, all of these finally came to an end after hearing the other party's public apology.