Hey, fate

Lin Zezhi had a relationship when he was still a kid.

He didn't mention it to others very much, but if others explored it, he didn't hide it, and he teased himself and that person openly.

That person is Chang Zhong.

Chang Zhong happened when he was in middle school. At that time, he was not rebellious, and he was even a little coddled, and he was not a so-called "social person". He thought about why he fell into the eyes of this old man. It has been fruitless for a long time.

It was only later that I realized that what this master was looking for was probably his inexperienced but unknowingly stupid appearance, who was still flailing his teeth and claws to try to prove himself.

Maybe it's cute in his eyes?Who knows.

They met for the first time at a gathering of their parents. Lin Zezhi had heard of Chang Zhong very early on. Words such as young and promising and fearsome were used to describe him.

But when they met for the first time, he wasn’t so godly. He just calmly pushed a glass of wine among the crowd. Wearing a formal suit, his shoulders were wide and his legs were long, and his face was well-defined, which was particularly eye-catching; but something, probably an ethereal thing like temperament, caught his heart all of a sudden.

He thought there were too many people and panicked, so he ran to the terrace to drink alone.

He couldn't remember what the wine tasted like that day. He only remembered that when Chang Zhong walked in front of him, he had a strange feeling: the taste of the wine in his mouth faded, the figure in front of him became clearer, and the crowd around him seemed to be All have been silenced, and the whole world has been silenced for him.

Only Chang Zhong's sentence: "Children don't drink alcohol." It fell clearly in the ears and echoed for a long time.

Lin Zezhi felt that he was already drunk after taking a sip, so he stuffed the cup into Chang Zhong's hand, "Don't you drink it too, and drink it in circles."

Chang Zhong took his wine glass, raised his head and drank it down, when he lowered his head to look at him with a playful look in his eyes, "I'm not a child."

Lin Zezhi raised his eyes to look at him, and seeing Chang Zhong staring at him unblinkingly, he immediately smiled.

It was a cool night, and the smell of tuberose on the terrace seemed cloyingly sweet, but the fragrance of this flower is usually clear and dull.

Chang Zhong didn't know why, maybe the terrace was bewitched by some kind of magic.

Love may be a fucking thing, a glass of wine, a look, a smile, and an intoxicating night are all the factors that constitute love at first sight.

They started dating like this. Lin Zezhi's grades were neither bad nor bad, he was lazy all day long and didn't cause trouble, An An was his high school student, and Chang Zhong couldn't see the beginning and end of the day, and he didn't know what he was busy with. Relying on mobile phones to communicate is primitive and innocent enough.

If you casually tell anyone now, that Lin Zezhi, who else has he talked to in a text message relationship?You must laugh your ass off, and you must add one more sentence: What kind of dream are you doing?

However, this dream still existed.

Chang Zhong was busy in bursts, and after a while, he would be free for a long time. Lin Zezhi never asked him what he was busy with, and Chang Zhong was also happy to be at leisure, never explaining.

When he was free, he drove that Jaguar to pick him up from school all day long, and even bought a house near their school. The two of them got tired of being together all day long. please him.

Friends who are familiar with him know that the two of them are dating, and every time a few of them walk out of the school together, they see Chang Zhong's car and laugh and joke with him.

Neither angry nor ashamed, he lowered his head into the co-pilot, and kissed Chang Zhong briefly in front of them. It was very high-profile. At first, they were surprised for a long time without closing their mouths. No wonder.

Chang Zhong loves it so badly that this little thing looks open, undisguised, and frank in front of outsiders. After the kiss, he still stares at him intently, and those eyes look straight into his eyes with explicit love.

Chang Zhong hardly dared to look at him, and sometimes his head got so hot that he wanted to hit a home run in the car.

And he knew that this little thing didn't learn well, so he puffed out smoke from time to time with a cigarette in his mouth.

But he has a bit of a quirk, that is, he doesn't like the smell of smoke in his mouth when kissing. He said it once, and he never saw this little thing smoke again. It's also amazingly sexy.

Who is he?The master who has lived among thousands of flowers without a single leaf touching her body, never imagined that she would be so teased by a brat that she couldn't control herself, and her blood was so hot that she just wanted to kiss Fangze.

One day, two people were watching a movie at home. The huge screen of the home theater can give people the best experience. Lin Zezhi doesn’t like to sit on the sofa in a proper manner, but insists on sitting on the carpet. Chang Zhong piled up a lot of cushions and pillows on it. On the ground, the carpet was already very thick, so it was as soft as a bed.

In this soft ball, Chang Zhong hugged the softer boy in his arms, who was still in a small ball. He just took a bath and was still steaming. His skin is delicate and looks easy to touch. .

Chang Zhong is a hands-on person, he touches as he says, occasionally squeezes his face, rubs his chin, and he leans back to change to a more comfortable position. The small space between the coffee table and the sofa is filled with warmth. .

The fresh fragrance of the shower gel on the boy's body tickled his heart with warmth. After getting along for so long, they still only stopped at the point of holding hands and kissing. Counting the time, it's time to move on to the next step. Thinking of this, he is even more... □ Burning body, the little thing in his arms was still restless, moving around, making him almost hard as iron on the spot.

He didn't know what was on the screen at all, but Lin Zezhi was watching it attentively, Chang Zhong was not happy watching it, good guy, I have endured hard work here, this kid can still sit still? !Don't you regard Lao Tzu's charm as a hormone?

He lowered his head as if venting his anger and rubbed the side of Lin Zezhi's neck with his hard stubble. Lin Zezhi avoided him while cursing, "What's wrong with you, old man!"

Being scolded by this, Chang Zhong felt as if he had been slapped with chicken blood. He kissed his head and face, and said with a low laugh, "I'm just sick with the old thing." Where there was iron, he smiled obscenely, "Can you help me fix this?"

Lin Zezhi had obviously never experienced this kind of thing before, his eyes were a little dazed for a moment, and then he reacted with embarrassment, he pushed Chang Zhong, "I don't want it, you go to the bathroom by yourself." Then he got up and left.

Chang Zhong grabbed him, "Okay baby, if you don't want it, you don't want it, just give me a hug for a while?"

Lin Zezhi was staggered by him, and fell heavily into his arms. Seeing this, Chang Zhong hugged him even tighter, gnawing and biting like a big dog, "Oh, you are so sweet baby."

There are two things that men say that you can't believe the most. One is: I'll just hug you and do nothing.The other sentence is that the two of us will just sleep, and I promise not to do anything else.

Man's mouth deceitful ghost.

The fiery and lingering kiss made both of them a little fascinated. When he came back to his senses, Chang Zhong had already pressed Lin Zezhi under him, and he became afraid, "I don't want it! Let me go!"

Chang Zhong watched countless people on the bed, and he didn't put the boy's trembling voice in his ears at all, he just regarded it as the sex between the bed, he was so hard that it hurt, he just wanted to have a good time, so he coaxed a few words patiently, "Good boy, I Gently, it will definitely not hurt."

Lin Zezhi desperately pressed Chang Zhong's chest to prevent him from bending over. He knew in his heart that the two had been talking tepidly for so long, and it was time to reach this point even if it was going through the process.

But psychologically, he really can't accept lying under a man's body and being penetrated repeatedly like a beast, and he gets pleasure from it. What he yearns for is to conquer everything like a high-ranking ruler.

It can be said that he was spoiled by Chang Zhong. Chang Zhong always responded to his requests. surrendered.

He is still too young and has so much to learn.

Chang Zhong looked at the undisguised rejection in the young man's eyes and the hand on his chest. It was true that he could hardly hold back, but it was also true that he was disappointed.

After all, what is needed in this matter is mutual gratification, and no one owes anyone else. What's the matter with making it look like his wishful thinking?

So he endured in silence for a while, and when he spoke again, his tone had returned to normal. He got up and went to the bathroom without saying anything.

In fact, if he thought about it, it was not without precedent for him to be strong with his temperament, but when facing Lin Zezhi, he felt like a fucking beast as soon as he thought about it.

The young man's mirror-like eyes seemed to be able to see through all his dirty thoughts, and then he felt ashamed of himself, wishing to silently write the 24-character core values ​​of eight honors and eight shame on the spot to show his innocence.

So he didn't say anything in the end, and went to the bathroom in despair to solve himself.

Lin Zezhi sat on the ground for a while and put on his clothes. At that moment, he felt that he seemed to have lost something.

He originally wanted to find a time to come out with his family these days, and he even had a bit of a demonic disorder. He couldn't sleep all night, and repeatedly deduced various possible situations in his mind. What makes people sad is that every result is Tragic and painful, he stared at Chang Zhong's sleeping face many times in the middle of the night, tracing his blurred outline over and over again in the dark.

If no one wants me anymore, will you come and pick me up home?

But Chang Zhong didn't know this, in his opinion, this relationship with Lin Zezhi was just a small page in his love history as thick as his dictionary.

At first it was just a matter of a look and a few words, he didn't know that Lin Zezhi silently regarded it as love at first sight, and he had tossed and turned about how to talk to his family.

Lin Zezhi didn't say anything to Chang Zhong, and Chang Zhong didn't ask.

He is already thinking about when to break up. He is an egoist, has no sexual love, and is purely Plato. He cannot accept it.

If life does not have a little stimulation to fuel the fire, it will always be lukewarm.

That kind of life without passion is what he fears the most, day after day, it's almost the same as death.He is almost thirty, and his disposition is still like a young man with full of vigor, which probably has something to do with his attitude towards life.

He originally thought to find someone younger, preferably just an adult, who didn't have the sense of self-deception and immorality of being a minor, and he could have a good time. The young man is full of passion, he is confident in his charm, People must be extremely enthusiastic every day.

In case there is any discomfort in getting along, simply break it off, pat his ass and leave, so as not to delay the little boy, he can find another new love, think about it, it is a business that is sure to make money.

Lin Zezhi is simply his ideal type. A young man needs to have good looks and character, and he has never played with such a person with background and status, so it is a novel experience.

Not to mention that this little thing still kisses him from time to time in full view, he never thought it would be so exciting to play with, he thought it was a kid, he must be ashamed, he didn't expect...

So he naturally thought that he can let go on the bed, the kind who can break his legs, who would have thought that this little thing is still a master of abstinence, then there is nothing to play, and leaving early will be harmful to everyone. good.

It never occurred to him that anyone would really fall in love with him.

Lin Zezhi calmly mentioned this matter to his parents at the dinner table that day, and the air suddenly froze.

The next second, the bad-tempered father threw the bowl and slapped him on the spot. The mother cried and stopped the father, scolded him, and made a mess.

Lin Zezhi's face was in hot pain, accompanied by bouts of tinnitus, which made him a little hard to hear what his mother was scolding, the pain forced tears, and he couldn't really see how angry his father was.

When he grew up, he had never been beaten so hard. When he was a child, he was disobedient and made too much noise. He also slapped his arms twice symbolically, and his mother stopped him. It was like scratching an itch. There was always thunder and rain Small.

After a long time, he always felt that no matter how out of line he was, his parents would tolerate him unconditionally, and his father's hands would never fall on him.

But today is so different, he thought silently in his mind, my parents are gone, Chang Zhong, if you dare to forgive me, you will be finished.

He stood there looking at the porcelain rice grains all over the floor. The sharp edges seemed unreasonable. He heard his father yelling at him, "Get lost! I don't have a son like you!"

So he just rolled away, this time his father's fury didn't even stop his mother, so he became flustered after realizing it, let's go?Where are you going?This is his home, where is he going?

He sat blankly at the intersection for a long time, watching the cars speeding past, so lonely that no one saw him.

After an unknown amount of time, a call came suddenly, he frantically rummaged through his pockets to take it out, and saw the caller ID: Chang Zhong.

Yes, and Chang Zhong.

His eyes lit up, and he only had time to say "Hello" joyfully, Chang Zhong's words behind him made his "come and find me" never have the chance to say it.

"Hey, Xiao Zhi, I don't think the two of us are quite suitable, hey, it's all my fault, it has nothing to do with you..."

"...Just tell me what you want, Brother Zhong will not treat you badly, but you probably don't like Brother Zhong's twenty cents..."

Lin Zezhi didn't hear what Chang Zhong said later, and he didn't want to hear it. He hung up the phone and threw it in the middle of the road. A car passed by, and the phone was crushed into pieces, just like the broken porcelain bowl. .

It was as if the last anger had been drawn away from him. He wondered if his heart had stopped beating for a while, and he even thought about it.

Chang Zhong, are you sorry for me?

He didn't sit on the street for a long time before he was found back. His mother stood at the gate and cast a look of pain and distress at him that didn't soften his heart, and his father didn't show up.

He deeply felt that he was an unworthy son, so he knelt straight on the ground, and a nanny next to him saw and hurried to help him, but he refused forcefully, seeing his mother's expression unchanged, he said in a hoarse voice, "I'm not filial, I'll change It's gone."

The mother closed her eyes in pain and turned away.

In the end, he was left kneeling on the ground alone, with the icy bluestone slabs under his knees. It was autumn, and the chill was biting. In fact, he was agitated by the cold as soon as he knelt down, which almost made him stand up reflexively, but he insisted. He held back his life and knelt down straight like that.

The mother in the house looked out the window worriedly, "Old Lin, can Zezhi do this? It's not worth it to fall into the root cause of the disease in the future."

The father was silent, and the mother didn't get a response for a long time. Knowing that her husband was angry, she didn't want to rush to make a punching bag. She just wanted to let the child into the house after a while, and talk about other things later.

The air in the room was almost stagnant, and the father said slowly after a long time, "No one is allowed to let him in, I don't have this son."

There were only two people in the room, and the words were obviously addressed to the mother, who couldn't believe it: "That's your child!"

"I'd rather not have a son!"

"You are the only child!"

"Even if I die, I don't want to have such a scandal that humiliates my family!"

……

Lin Zezhi was kneeling outside the gate, his knees were already so stiff that he couldn't feel it, and even a slight movement was painful. He didn't eat dinner, and he knelt for three or four hours in a row. When Ye Lu came up, his pants were slightly wet at the knees. This allowed the cold air to invade the body more unscrupulously, and it was almost at the end of its strength.

If someone passes by and sees him, he will see him with his head down. The lines of his head, neck and back form a smooth, beautiful but desperate arc, reminiscent of a dying swan.

If he tried the temperature on his forehead, he would find that he had already developed a high fever, but he didn't even have the strength to raise his hand at this moment.

It was very dangerous to go on like this, but the servants at home didn't dare to help him without his father's order. He knelt on the spot in a daze, and vaguely heard the quarrel from his parents' room on the second floor, which was especially clear in the quiet night.

What are you arguing about, he thought in a trance, can I die, please stop arguing.

No one wanted me anyway.

It was his last thought before he lost consciousness.

After Chang Zhong and Lin Zezhi broke up on the phone, they got busy again. His father was getting old. He took over from his father to run the family's underground business. not enough.

However, when he is busy, he still thinks of Lin Zezhi occasionally, but it is just thinking about it. After all, he is the most compatible among all the ex-boyfriends. Although he can't have sex, he added in his heart.

At the time of the breakup, he didn't think too much about it, but he really thought about his words, worrying that if he didn't say something well, it would hurt Xiaobai'er's heart.

When did he, Chang Zhong, care so much about the person who said goodbye too quickly?

Who would have thought that someone would hang up the phone before they finished speaking, Chang Zhong felt a little slapped in the face for a moment, and hung up the phone resentfully, but slaps belong to slaps, a little loss of face is a trivial matter, and life is still alive , as long as he feels happy in his heart, he still has a bit of freedom and ease.

Talking about it with friends also distorted the facts by the way: "That little thing is so flirty under the bed, and he actually wants to fuck me on the bed, so can I give it to me? Break it up."

He never knew that what he said casually was really the truth. He had been so hypnotized for a long time that he almost forgot the wall he touched when he hung up the phone, and he believed it.

After that, business came and he needed to be interviewed. As soon as he got busy, he forgot all the love and love. A group of fox and dog friends are talking together after drinking.

During that time, he had been busy with business and flying around. When he knew that the young master of the Lin family had come out with his family and caused a disturbance all over the city, it was already the time when the dust settled.

He was in the bar at the time, and he laughed it off after hearing it. He was narcissistic, but he didn't think that his charm was so great that the pampered young master would come out to him. He still had self-knowledge.

He swirled the whiskey in his glass, "What's the matter, do you think my old-fashioned appearance can make people fall out with my family because of me?"

The friend slapped him, "Why can't you? Isn't there a popular uncle type now? You don't look like this, but your age is similar-haha, let alone, it's just a coincidence, I just thought about it." It's because of you."

"What a coincidence?"

"Didn't you go to the south just a few days after you were separated? During that time, yo, you don't know how big the trouble is. It's not easy for Mr. Lin to come here. You want to sever ties with your son in a fit of anger. You say never." ?”

"……and then?"

"Of course it didn't work out. There's only such a son in the family, and it's too late. What about homosexuality? Just accept it. It's said that he knelt all night, tsk tsk."

He said it vividly, as if he had seen it with his own eyes.

Chang Zhong drank the wine in silence, the liquid entered his throat, and he swallowed a desolation.

A young man once held a sincere heart, embraced enthusiasm and clumsily and cautiously wanted to spend his life with him, but he didn't know it.

He turned and walked away without taking a cloud.

When he was drunk, for the first time in his life, he felt that he really didn't deserve someone who could be so brave for him regardless of rewards.

After that, he found a shop and opened a pet shop. The shop was small, and he managed it all by himself.

He has been living here in his spare time, teasing the cats and dogs, fascinated by the soft touch like his gadgets.

After that, he met Lin Zezhi several times, but most of them were at family gatherings. Presumably Lin Zezhi never mentioned him in front of his parents, let alone that he came out because of him.

Otherwise, he wouldn't be able to attend the party attended by the Lin family without any pressure.

Chang Zhong held the wine glass and turned around to toast and be toasted. He holds a good amount of alcohol and his mind is clear at the moment, so he inadvertently turned around and clearly saw a familiar figure standing sideways on the balcony facing him superior.

It turned out that he was still the same as before, the party was too noisy and he ran away to clean up.

In the end, Chang Zhong didn't come forward to talk to him, and Lin Zezhi didn't call him either.

In fact, the imaginary "you will be safe" is just a fantasy given by movie novels.

There will be no separation between them, there will only be an unspeakable serious illness between them, and it is impossible to talk about ending without a disease, let alone another.

But he will still pet cats and dogs when he is free, so as to relive the touch of gadgets. He thinks, this pet shop will probably continue to operate.

Since then, Lin Zezhi has never changed his habit of smoking and smoking. He is very good and healthy.

What kind of love is bullshit.

The author has something to say:

Sudden update in the middle of the night!

I made a mistake... I originally wanted to include Shen Duo in this chapter, but then I found that this chapter already has enough words, so I put it in the next chapter 8. I don’t think I can finish it. one time.

In fact, to put it bluntly, Lin Zezhi is one of Chang Zhong's predecessors, and he has a place in his heart, but that's all. His real official partner is Shen Duo. I'm crying. I didn't plan well. It's my fault. woo woo woo