old age

"It's not hot anymore." Ji Kaiyang dragged a chair and sat by the bed, tested the temperature with the palm of his hand and poured the Pudilan into it, "It's a good thing it didn't burn too much, otherwise I have to hang the water, come on, use the granule Swallow the medicine."

"Can I not take this?" Yi Chen said, "I fell asleep after taking cold medicine......"

"Do you think I'm making terms with you?"

Ji Kaiyang's tone was not kind, presumably he was shocked by Yi Chen's staggering living environment.Yi Chen pursed his mouth and had no choice but to swallow it obediently.After thinking about it, he explained, "I haven't lived here for a long time, and it wasn't like that in school..."

"No such thing? Aren't there a few quilts stacked on top of each other?"

Ji Kaiyang took the glass in his hand and put it on the desk, then bent down to pick up the scattered books on the ground and put them in his schoolbag.

Yi Chen was blocked in the middle of what he had said, his feverish mind couldn't find any words to smooth things out, and he clutched the quilt helplessly.

"I haven't asked you yet, why did you ask for leave and come back? I haven't finished my lessons yet."

"I'll come back if I want to." Yi Chen said vaguely.

"Oh?" Ji Kaiyang stood up, turned his back to the desk and looked at him, "I thought you were in a bad mood because you failed the exam and didn't want to stay at school."

Yi Chen's face froze, and he complained in a low voice, "Zou Ziheng told you? Why does he say everything."

The room became quiet again, and Yi Chen changed his posture several times, as if he was uncomfortable all over.Ji Kaiyang felt a little uncomfortable. He thought he was sick and didn't plan to ask so soon...

He walked over and put a cushion behind Yi Chen's back, and pressed the corner of his back for him again, "Don't move around, the air will leak again after a while. When will the results come out?"

"Yesterday afternoon." The quilt covered the lower half of his face, and Yi Chen's voice was muffled.

"Then you asked for leave and came back?" Ji Kaiyang was annoyed and funny, and after thinking for a while, he said, "There are still half a year left in the third year of high school, and there are so many exams, and I almost lost my temper after a little exam. What's the matter? Just make up for it when you miss the exam. Well, it’s good to find the problem usually, you have to save it until the last time..."

These words are usually used by the head teacher to educate the students in the class. Ji Kaiyang has no actual experience, so the words are not very convincing.He said a few dry words, and finally said, "Your psychological quality was much better than this before."

"Because I didn't know what I wanted before." Yi Chen gently interrupted him, "And what I want now, I'm afraid I won't be able to grasp it."

Yi Chen didn't care about the grades themselves, he was only worried that he didn't have the right to choose.During this period of time, he was troubled by various things, but he still didn't dare to relax too much in his studies.As a result, as soon as the results came out yesterday, not to mention the miserable ranking, it was only [-] points higher than the main line drawn by the school.

Yi Chen corrected the grades of each subject several times. There were many and noisy classmates who were reading the grades, but he couldn’t hear anything. I'm afraid it will be troublesome to go to the same city when the time comes...

Yi Chen leaned against the head of the bed and didn't say anything, but even though he was speechless, the young man's love story was still ready to come out. Besides, he had confessed his feelings to him so many times.

"Don't trap yourself." Ji Kaiyang pursed his lips lightly, "You will meet many people in the future, what's the point of you just staring at me?"

"No matter how many people I meet, it will be later, so the 18 years before me don't count?" Yi Chen said in a restrained and persistent tone, "And it is impossible for me to meet someone better than you."

"Why do you have to think so..." Ji Kaiyang sighed almost imperceptibly, but couldn't hear the words behind.

Just like that, it became quiet, and it started to rain outside at some point, and the sound of Qi Qi Li Li's rain came in faintly through the window.Yi Chen rubbed his eyes, the effect of the medicine came up.

"Sleep for a while when you are sleepy, and rest more when you are sick. When did you ask for leave?"

"tomorrow."

"That's right, go to sleep." Ji Kaiyang turned off the overhead light.

"I'm not sleepy." Yi Chen said, "I slept for a long time today, I'm really not sleepy."

Ji Kaiyang didn't make a sound for a while, and finally went to the desk drawer to find Yi Chen's mobile phone, and called the head teacher to ask for leave.

"I am a little uncomfortable..."

".....It's not that serious, I'll definitely come tomorrow morning..."

"...Well, okay, sorry to trouble you."

Yi Chen listened to him with his ears open, forced to pretend to be calm and composed, but couldn't hide the curvature of the corner of his mouth.

"You can sleep now." Ji Kaiyang found a book on the bookshelf and sat back on the chair.

"I still don't want to sleep." Yi Chen said, but yawned again.

"Don't get too far."

Yi Chen thought for a while, then moved inside, "Then can you sit on the bed, don't sit so far away."

Ji Kaiyang was only [-] centimeters away from his bedside, Yi Chen looked at him and called again, "Ji Kaiyang..."

"Okay, go to sleep." Ji Kaiyang shook his head lightly, and sat sideways on the edge of the bed, "Stop making trouble, go to sleep."

He opened the book and started to read, ignoring Yi Chen,

Yi Chen was wrapped in the quilt, his eyes opened a slit, peeking at Ji Kaiyang.But the tiredness couldn't be stopped, and Yi Chen began to droop his eyelids, "If I don't wake up before you leave, you must call me." Before falling asleep, he said in a daze.

The book in his hand is "The Collection of Legends of Tang and Song Dynasties", probably used by Yi Chen to practice classical Chinese, with some sporadic annotations on it.Although Ji Kaiyang is a science student, his knowledge of ancient prose is not bad, and he can understand each story after reading it.

Just like this, I read two or three volumes slowly, and the sound of the rain outside had stopped again.Ji Kaiyang rubbed his sore neck and raised his head, Yi Chen was still sleeping.

It's raining again in winter, and the sky looks particularly dark, like it's late at night.Just now there was only one lamp on the bedside in the bedroom, and the dim light cast Yi Chen's silhouette on the wall.

Ji Kaiyang quietly looked at the young man under the light, he was still fair and thin, but gradually began to look like an adult.The eyelashes fluttered slightly while breathing, leaving a little shadow on the side of the bridge of the nose, making Yamane look thinner and taller.The tip of the nose is slightly drooping, and there is an inconspicuous bead on the lips...

Beauty under the moon and jade under the lamp, but Yichen is afraid to be like jade no matter where he is.

Ji Kaiyang was fascinated for a moment, and the book fell to the ground.He quickly leaned over to pick it up, Yi Chen moved at this moment, and muttered softly, "Brother Kaiyang..."

He was still asleep, and his words were slurred, but it just sounded sad.From childhood to adulthood, he has called Kaiyang brother so many times, from his childhood habit to later showing weakness and pleading.Then what is he begging for now, he can't let it go even in his sleep.Ji Kaiyang was fixed in place by this familiar address, maintaining a bent posture, and turned his head to look at Yi Chen after a while.

Yi Chen frowned slightly, sleeping soundly, but restlessly.

Am I making him sad?Ji Kaiyang thought, why should I make him sad?This is obviously the person I have always wanted to protect.

He raised his hand slowly, trying to caress Yi Chen's forehead, but suddenly a tear fell down, Ji Kaiyang withdrew his hand hastily, and wiped his face.The tear slowly slid down Yi Chen's face, as if Yi Chen was crying.Ji Kaiyang lowered his eyes, and heard a low sigh in his heart.

The clock had pointed to eight o'clock, Ji Kaiyang stood up, he deliberately relaxed his movements, but Yi Chen suddenly opened his eyes as if he had sensed something.

He looked at the ceiling and turned his head after two seconds, "Are you leaving?"

Yi Chen sat up with his arms propped up, and Ji Kaiyang took the thermometer beside him, "Put on your coat and take another test."

"Are you leaving?" Yi Chen asked again.

"No, you put on your coat first." Ji Kaiyang said helplessly, "I'll go and see if there is any rice in the kitchen, and make you a bowl of porridge."

"Oh." Yi Chen put on his clothes, "Don't go, there shouldn't be any. Just order takeaway."

Yi Chen's body temperature had dropped, but Ji Kaiyang didn't dare to feed him something too greasy, so he only ordered two bowls of vegetable porridge.

"I left the medicine for you. I'll take it again tomorrow morning. I'm leaving." After dinner, Ji Kaiyang packed the lunch box.

"When will I see you again?"

He threw the plastic box into the trash can, and before he could come up with an answer, he heard Yi Chen say, "It's a holiday next week, I can't even go to the school gate to wait for you."

"What are you waiting for? It's not like you don't have other things to do. You memorize more and do more questions. If you fail the exam next time, you will secretly hide back and feel uncomfortable?"

"Chasing you is the most important thing..." Yi Chen said with a smile, pretending to be relaxed, but his tone was lonely.

"Don't do this." Ji Kaiyang stood beside the bed, with his back to him.

"Honestly..."

"It's easy to be together, so what about the future?" Ji Kaiyang said, "I asked you this question from the beginning, do you have the answer now?"

Ji Kaiyang was silent for two seconds, and suddenly a force hugged his waist from behind, his head pressed against his back, "I don't know what to do, but what can I do? I just I want your present and your future, but I'm also afraid that I won't be able to grasp anything. What should I do? Tell me what to do?"

Yi Chen's hands tightly wrapped around Ji Kaiyang's waist, as if they were going to be embedded in his body.They were originally so close, Ji Kaiyang never doubted that he would be the most important and most inseparable part of his life.

Yi Chen's voice is still hoarse, with a strongly suppressed crying voice, far from the briskness of the past, but maybe it's not just because he is sick, but because there are too many emotions hidden in it, so it has become heavy.

Ji Kaiyang felt that his eyes were also sore and swollen. He raised his face, pressed his hand on the bedside table, and touched the book on it.Ji Kaiyang was in a trance for a while, remembering the story in the volume called "Leaving the Soul", he just casually flipped through it, the story can only be remembered roughly, but a sentence emerged clearly at this moment.

Knowing your affection is not easy.

Not easy, what is it?

Is it easy and won't change?Is it to thank him for his obsession and hard work, or to believe that he will never change his mind?Which one of these is more worth running for?

The shirt seemed to be wet and cold, but the hands holding him were so hot, as if they wanted to condense all the enthusiasm in life into this hug.

Is Yi Chen the same at this moment?In the cold and hot, always suffering.So uncomfortable, why do you still love him?Why still love him?

Forget it, it doesn't matter.Ji Kaiyang's tense nerves slowly relaxed in this hug, I don't want him to be sad, I want him to be well.Whatever he wants, I will give him. I will bear the hardships in the future that he has not considered. I will become stronger and I can protect him.I want him to be happy and everything else to be fine.

He broke Yi Chen's hand, turned around, and wiped Yi Chen's reddened eyes with his thumb.Yi Chen stared at him, motionless, "I love you." Yi Chen said, even his eyes were devout, like a sacrifice, this was the beginning spell.

Ji Kaiyang smiled, leaned over, put his hand on the back of Yi Chen's hand, and put it next to his ear, "I know."

He kissed Yi Chen's earlobe, the skin here was very thin, and it turned red quickly because of this unexpected kiss.Yi Chen's whole body was stiff, "Ji Kaiyang..."

"Yeah." Ji Kaiyang sat up straight, hooked Yi Chen's neck again, pulled him closer, smiled a little embarrassedly, his eyes were full of connivance and relief, "I think I should be more honest, although You probably already know it, but to reassure you, I'll say it again."

"What..." Yi Chen even forgot to breathe.

"I love you too."

He pressed his lips against his, and there were tears sliding down there, as if there was still a touch of bitterness, but what did it matter?At least they can feel each other's temperature at this moment.