old age

Yi Chen started his awkward puppy love as he wished.It's not appropriate to call it puppy love, he and Wen Rongyu have never pierced that layer of window paper, the two of them just occasionally have a meal together, go to the library, and sometimes Wen Rongyu will wait for him downstairs after class, The two walked to the intersection together and then separated.For the rest, not to mention kissing, they have never even held hands, and they are so pure that they really want to make progress together.

"I'm leaving, see you tomorrow." Wen Rongyu smiled at him and said.

"Well, good." The girl said she wanted to leave but didn't move.Yi Chen thought awkwardly, should I give her a hug, or say something else?Today in the library, Wen Rongyu went to fetch a book, it was too high, so Yi Chen reached out to help her.As a result, when he turned around, Wen Rongyu ran right in front of him.At that height, Yi Chen could just touch her face if he lowered his head. They all realized this, and Wen Rongyu blushed.Tentatively trying to close her eyes, Yi Chen decisively stuffed the book into her hand, turned and walked away.

Yi Chen coaxed once in the afternoon, and it is the same now.He pretended not to understand the girl's hint, "I'm leaving too, be careful on the road, bye."

He stepped on his bicycle neatly and turned to the alley on the left.

Yi Chen held the handlebar with one hand, and rubbed his face with the other hand, thinking that falling in love seemed like a bad idea.He felt that he had given up a lot of energy recently, but he hadn't done a single thing right. It was all because of the damn hormones, dopamine, adrenaline, and...Ji Kaiyang.

Turning a corner, Yi Chen stopped the car in time, and he saw the root cause of his entanglement.

Ji Kaiyang was choosing pens in the stationery store opposite, and his bicycle was parked by the side of the road.

Since the beginning of this semester, the two of them haven't been home together for a long time. Yi Chen excused that the classes are different and the get out of class end time is different, saying that they can go separately.We only get together when we go to school in the morning, but we don't talk much on the way.Yi Chen didn't dare to say it, he felt that the current Ji Kaiyang was like a siren in Greek mythology to him, but if he said one more word, he would fall into the sea and die forever.

Ji Kaiyang didn't know what to say, he chatted with Yi Chen, but Yi Chen insisted that he was fine, so he couldn't ask any more questions.His state is like a clam, he has to wait for him to open himself, if you try to pry it hard, he will die.Ji Kaiyang can only comfort himself, maybe he will be fine after a while.

It's just that I don't know how long this period of time will be. It is more likely that the cause of the disease was wrongly diagnosed at the beginning, and it will be indefinitely.

Ji Kaiyang chose a pen, and took two boxes of refills.After checking out and pushing the door, I saw Yi Chen riding on the bike with one foot on the ground.Before Yi Chen was going to pretend he didn't see anything, he said in time before he rode away, "Are you waiting for me?"

Yi Chen stepped on the pedal, and immediately pressed the brake, leaning forward to stabilize, "Ah, yes, waiting for you."

Yi Chen was going to ride away just now, but he didn't want to.

The two are not in the same class, and he doesn't have many chances to see Ji Kaiyang in school, and since he and Wen Rongyu started to avoid him, he eats in the canteen farthest from the teaching building, and dare not go near the science department when he goes upstairs The corridor over the experimental class.In fact, he didn't spend much time with Wen Rongyu, but even when he was alone, he still did it. Was it because he was afraid that Ji Kaiyang would find out that he was in a relationship?Yi Chen asked himself, it seems that it is not.

He avoided Ji Kaiyang, but every day after school, he hoped to go home before Ji Kaiyang, so he quickly finished his supper and went back to the bedroom, leaving the door ajar.In this way, when Ji Kaiyang gets home, he can sneak a look at his profile through this slit.Once Ji Kaiyang turned his head slightly, he hurried to close the door as if he had done something wrong.

Just now Ji Kaiyang was in the stationery store and didn't know he was outside, so Yi Chen could look at him boldly.If he could ride away a little more firmly before Ji Kaiyang came out, this peek might be more perfect.

They went home together again after such a long interval, Zhang Yun packed things in Ji Kaiyang's room, and ordered them to serve the egg custard in the kitchen.

"It happened to me today, Kai Yang, is your teacher always procrastinating? Chen Chen always comes back before you." Zhang Yun smiled and put a box in the corner of the living room.

Of course, it is impossible for Yi Chen to say that every time he and Wen Rongyu separated at the intersection, he immediately rode the bike like a ghost chasing after him with a bayonet. He only wanted to come back in front of Ji Kaiyang. Said, "Our classroom is one floor lower."

Ji Kaiyang also hummed, which was regarded as his approval of his answer.

Zhang Yun took the phone to check the time, and made a call to Yi Bochuan. He always comes back very late recently.It took a long time to pick up the ring, but Yi Bochuan said that he was still working overtime, and told her not to worry about it and go to bed early.

After Zhang Yun took stomach medicine, she covered her mouth and yawned, "I put away the box for you. You can see if you have anything else to bring. What time will I leave tomorrow morning? I'll get up early and make breakfast for you." good."

"No, Mom." Ji Kaiyang said, "Tomorrow morning at 06:30, we will gather at the gate of the school to go to the train station. I will just eat something by myself at the gate..."

They talked for a long time, but Yi Chen didn't understand a word, "Assemble? Where are you going?"

"Chemistry competition." Ji Kaiyang replied.

Yi Chen wanted to say why I didn't know, why didn't you tell me, and there was a villain in my heart who said sinisterly, why should you know, why should he tell you, except that you two have known each other for a longer time, the same house You live in the house, what else does it matter, just because of your shady thoughts, you want to control everything else, how shameless are you?

Fortunately, Ji Kaiyang continued, "I said it at breakfast the day before yesterday, did you forget?"

How could Yi Chen have forgotten, he never heard it at all.Every morning at breakfast, he was hesitant to watch or not to watch, and he couldn't care less about other things.

"Oh, oh, how many days are you going?"

"One week." Ji Kaiyang said concisely.

"Why so long?" Yi Chen blurted out.

Ji Kaiyang tapped the corner of his lips, indicating that Yi Chen had chopped green onion stuck there, but Yi Chen didn't understand.Ji Kaiyang reached out and took a piece of paper to wipe it off for him, "After the competition, I have to wait two days to attend a lecture organized by a nearby university. The two activities are linked together, so the time will be longer."

Yi Chen nodded, as if he knew it, but he didn't.When Ji Kaiyang's finger touched the corner of his lips, he wished he could squeeze all the brain cells onto that little bit of skin, what did Ji Kaiyang say, what did he eat afterwards, how did he go back to the bedroom to finish his homework and go to bed Yes, he felt vague.

It's really worthless, Yi Chen scolded himself, the two of them have cuddled, hugged, bathed and slept together before.According to the current level of flammable and explosive sensitivity, it should not be exploded into firecrackers and covered with bright red corpses? !Those thoughts about Ji Kaiyang from heart to body, from nothingness to reality, corrupted his whole being.

The alarm clock next to the bed said six o'clock.Yi Chen listened to the movement outside with his ears up, closed his eyes and guessed what Ji Kaiyang was doing based on the subtle sounds.

He came out of the bedroom, washed, dragged the suitcase, changed shoes...

After the anti-theft door closed softly, Yi counted ten seconds in his heart, opened the door and ran to the balcony to look down.

Ji Kaiyang dragged the suitcase out of the unit building, the morning sun shone on his back, warm and bright, Yi Chen greedily looked at his back, and watched him greet the aunt who got up early to exercise with a sword.When Ji Kaiyang walked to the corner of the garden path, he suddenly turned his head. Yi Chen was shocked, and immediately turned his back and squatted down against the balcony

After a long time, he turned his head to look through the railing again, and Ji Kaiyang had disappeared.

Yi Chen walked slowly towards the bedroom, passed by the living room and saw a box of refills on the coffee table, with a sticky note, "Your".

Yi Chen replaced the pens with refills one by one. He was indeed running out of refills, and he always forgot to buy them. I don't know how Ji Kaiyang found out.

Yi Chen slowly wrote the word "Ji" in the palm of his hand, his heart was sour and sweet, full of melancholy that shouldn't belong to his age.

Love is a sad thing, and love without hope is even more so.

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The last sentence was adapted from the lyrics of Liu Jialiang's 2005 single "So What", "Love makes people sad."