old age

Yi Chen stood in front of the bulletin board and stared at the honor roll for 5 minutes, his eyes serious as if he wanted to see a hole in it.

"Are you silly?" Zou Ziheng shook his shoulder from behind, "You were standing here when I came down from the third floor."

Yi Chen ignored him, put one hand on his waist, and didn't look back.

"Ji Kaiyang will definitely not be at my table now." Zou Ziheng looked around, "Hey, what about others?"

"Going to the office." Yi Chen shook his hands off his shoulders, squeezed out the people who were watching the grades behind him, and walked back tiredly.The bright red 43 on the list made his brain hurt.

He was not as happy as he imagined, but more flustered. This result was like a key to open Pandora's box, and after so many days of confusion, he also began to realize that Ji Kaiyang was holding this box people.

"What happened to Chenchen recently?" Zhang Yun looked at Yi Chen's back, and said to Ji Kaiyang with some concern, "Why doesn't it look right?"

Yi Bochuan also put down the newspaper, "I also think he is wrong, he is so old, he is awkward. Kaiyang, did he say anything to you?"

Ji Kaiyang shook his head, not only did Yi Chen not talk to him about his thoughts, recently, Yi Chen didn't even talk to him much, but secretly looked at him from time to time, Ji Kaiyang tilted his head, He pretended nothing had happened.It made Ji Kaiyang think when he offended him, and asked, but Yi Chen repeatedly denied it.

"Is it because the experimental class is under too much pressure?" Zhang Yun guessed.

"He can't, why don't you take him to the hospital sometime?"

The two adults were discussing in the living room, and they didn't even know when the protagonist of the topic would come back.

"I won't come back for dinner tomorrow night." Yi Chen coughed, drawing their attention, "Maybe I will come back later."

"What's the matter?" Zhang Yun walked over and pulled him to sit beside him, wanting to take this opportunity to chat with him, "What's the matter tomorrow?"

"A classmate celebrates his birthday." Yi Chen memorized the prepared lines in a daze.

Ji Kaiyang glanced at him when he heard the words, Yi Chen's back was stiff, and the sofa smelled like a tiger stool.He didn't speak, and calmly picked up the tooth of apple that had just fallen off the fork and ate it.

"Student's birthday?" Yi Bochuan was not so easy to fool, "Which classmate? Won't Kai Yang go?"

"He doesn't know him!" Yi Chen forgot to prepare this question, and hurriedly changed his words after answering, "No, they didn't call him."

He made up this lie so badly that he almost hung a sign on his chest saying I'm lying.

"I won't go." Before being exposed, Yi Chen suddenly stood up angrily and said.

"Why are you losing your temper?" Yi Bochuan scolded.

"Oh, it's all right. Why can't the child go to play on weekends?" Zhang Yun tried to smooth things over, "Can I come back before ten o'clock?"

"Hmm." Yi Chen uttered a single syllable from his nasal cavity.

"Then go." Zhang Yun pushed him, "Do more homework tomorrow during the day."

Yi Chen squatted on the curb, with the brim of his hat pulled down, looking furtively at the closed door opposite.Yi Chen wasn't worried about meeting acquaintances, he left at two o'clock, and they were all taking a nap.He specifically asked the taxi driver to spare him two laps before driving over. There was absolutely no possibility of being followed. It was purely because he had a ghost in his heart, so it didn't look right to anyone.

When I walked into the living room yesterday, I heard Yi Bochuan say to take him to the hospital, Yi Chen wanted to rush over and say, why don't you take me there, he must be crazy.

Yi Chen secretly took out the "Gay Subculture" that he carried with him and flipped through it. These days, he read all the few books about homosexuality in the school library.Every time I go to borrow a book, my heart is pounding, and I feel that the administrator will point his nose and scold him in the next second, you pervert.Fortunately, such a situation has never happened. The aunt in her 50s often doesn't even look at the cover, just scan it and give it to him.

Yi Chen has grown up to such an age, and it is the first time he has read so many extracurricular books, and finally found that the textbooks are actually very easy to understand, at least after reading it, he will have a clear answer, unlike now.He felt that what was said in the book seemed to match his own, but it seemed to be completely different.Flat things came too far away, after struggling for almost a month, Yi Chen felt that he had to find another way out.He has to see what being gay is like before he can know if he is.

It was the first time Yi Chen came to this kind of place, and he didn't even pay attention to the opening time.After waiting for several hours, the door of the opposite bar finally opened. This is the result of two days of searching on the Internet.

Not many people entered at first, and Yi Chen didn't dare to go.After nine o'clock, more and more people went in, Yi Chen thought about his ten o'clock access control, gritted his teeth and crossed the road.

There are many people in the bar, most of them are men, and there are also women.It was noisy, the lights were dim, and there were many people standing on both sides of the corridor, drinking, playing with mobile phones, chatting... and hugging and kissing...

Yi Chen compelled to walk in calmly, and from time to time someone would look at him and smile ambiguously.When he walked to the end, his back was already covered with sweat, and he was so nervous that he almost turned around.

At the end of the corridor is the dance floor, Yi Chen really didn't have the courage to go in, he really wanted to leave now, but when he thought about the task he came tonight, he hadn't finished yet.Bite the bullet and plan to stay for a while.Through the dim light, he saw a row of sofas on the far right, and decided to sit there first.

Yi Chen made up his mind, walked down the steps, and squeezed to the right from the crowd.After walking two steps, he felt a hand touch his back, not by chance, he even pinched it.Yi Chen turned around and saw a man in his 20s. Seeing Yi Chen's vigilant face, he was not angry at all, raised his glass to him with a smile, and walked away.

Yi Chen took a deep breath, tried his best to calm down and continued walking towards the sofa.But soon, another hand touched his waist.The weather is not too cold today, Yi Chen only wears a thin sweater under his coat.This hand was bolder than the one just now, and it opened his sweater along his waist, poked inside, and there was a downward trend.

Yi Chen's scalp was numb, and he grabbed the hand, "What are you doing?!"

The person in front of him was wearing heavy makeup, with long golden curly hair and a red face. He was obviously a little drunk, and he was restless when his hands were grabbed, and he still wanted to climb on him.

What's going on, Yi Chen's head is getting bigger, isn't this a gay bar?That woman should also go to a woman, why bother him?

"What on earth are you trying to do? You've got the wrong person!" Yi Chen didn't want to get entangled with the drunk.

"No." The woman was unexpectedly strong, and Yi Chen couldn't break free for a while, and the long golden hair swept across his face, "I don't do anything, but you can..." , said, and nudged him suggestively.

Yi Chen's mind was like fireworks exploding. He turned his neck stiffly and looked at the hand that was already on his shoulder. The joints were clearly defined. A faint Adam's apple can be seen below.

This is clearly a man!

She, no, it's him now.He raised his head and took a sip of the wine, threw the glass on the ground, and pressed it to kiss Yi Chen's lips.

Yi Chen pushed him away abruptly, and ran out in a panic. The book in his hand had been lost for a long time.

Yi Chen wandered aimlessly on the street for a long time, and everything he saw tonight was completely different from what he imagined.Is this what homosexuality looks like?In such a chaotic place, flirting with strangers, even kissing and touching?He didn't know what to do next, and this trip only made him more confused.After hesitating for a while, he gritted his teeth and returned to the bar street.

This time Yi Chen didn't dare to go in, just stood outside the bar, what exactly did he want to see?He has no idea himself.

It was already past the access control time, and Yi Chen still didn't go home.Slowly, someone came out of it, and several people got into the car together, shoulder to shoulder, drunk.But more, it is a person, the face that was playing and wanton in the bar just now, after leaving the feasting and feasting, he seems to be no different from ordinary people, in the dark night, he looks lonely and lonely.There was a sense of sadness in them, which inexplicably infected Yi Chen. He sighed and was about to leave when a man came out of the bar and bumped into him.

"I'm sorry, he drank too much." The man who supported him was also a man, who nodded at Yi Chen apologetically, took out his mobile phone and didn't know who to call.

"I don't want to get married. I don't want to marry women!" The drunk man leaned against his arms and yelled at his clothes, "You don't want to get married either, what's wrong with homosexuality? Who am I in the way of? "

As he spoke, he burst into tears, and after a while, he covered his mouth and ran to the trash can to vomit, and knelt down on the ground along the trash can.The man on the phone followed and unscrewed a bottle of water, frowning.

Yi Chen stopped in his tracks, stood back to the side, pretending to be thinking about something, keeping his eyes on the two people secretly.

Not long after, a taxi stopped in front of the bar. A woman got out of the car and went straight to help the man next to the trash can. She was not very angry, "Didn't it be agreed that you will not see each other for a while? Everyone, behave yourself Is it alright, we agreed to help each other, my parents are still here these days, how can I explain when I find out?"

What's this?Yi Chen was terrified, the words he searched on the Internet appeared in his mind, is it marriage?

He didn't have the heart to read any more, jumped into a taxi, and left this place of right and wrong in a hurry.