old age

At five o'clock in the morning, the fog on the mountain has not dissipated.Sitting in the taxi, Yi Chen felt as if he was dreaming.The roadside sign flashed through the car window, and they would soon arrive at the cemetery.

Ji Kaiyang leaned against the car door, his eyes were slightly red and swollen.Yi Chen recalled what he told him not long ago, and still found it incredible that Uncle Ji had passed away.

It is true that Ji Ziwen has been missing for five years, and he can be declared dead legally, and they also know in their hearts that the possibility of him being alive is very slim.But disappearance is an ambiguous word after all, as if it contains hope, as if this person will reappear at a certain moment and at a certain place.Even when Zhang Yun married Yi Bochuan, Yi Chen thought about what would happen if Uncle Ji came back one day?But now he knew that such an idea would never become a reality. His body had been discovered long ago, and it was buried in the cemetery in N City. The disappearance was just a lie used to comfort children.

"Here we are." The driver stopped the car, "35."

"Thank you." Yi Chen handed over the pre-prepared banknotes.

After Ji Kaiyang told Yi Chen everything, it was almost four o'clock.Holding the honey water that Yi Chen gave him, he sat by the bay window for a while, and suddenly proposed to visit the cemetery.Of course Yi Chen would not let him go alone, and Ji Kaiyang did not refuse his company after this night of calmness.

They stood at the entrance of the community and waited for a long time for a taxi.It was still dawn, and the driver was a lady. When they heard where they were going, they were very surprised. Thanks to their good looks, it is easy to make people trust and favor them.Yi Chen offered to add more money before agreeing to drive them there.

The driver gave Yi Chen the change, and kindly reminded, "The door doesn't open until 06:30, you guys are too early."

"It's okay, sorry to trouble you."

Ji Kaiyang stood in front of the closed iron gate of the cemetery with arms folded.Yi Chen walked to his side and estimated the height of the door.

He hesitated for a while, wiped his palms, "I'll flip over first, and then pull you over?"

"I didn't intend to turn over." Ji Kaiyang sighed, raised his hand and pinched the center of his eyebrows, walked to the side bench and sat down, "Wait a minute."

The sky was slowly turning white, and there was a morning star in the distance, hanging in the gray sky.Occasionally, there are birdsongs in the woods, and the condensed dew wets Yi Chen's T-shirt. He shudders, but it's not just because of the cold, but also because of fear. After all, not far from them is the destination of death. .

The iron door creaked and was pushed open, Ji Kaiyang took a deep breath and stood up.The person who opened the door was an old man with gray hair, who was looking at them in surprise.Ji Kaiyang took a few steps forward, then stopped, "Yi Chen." He whispered, "Go and ask for me."

Ji Kaiyang looked at Yi Chen's back, he was negotiating with the old man, and the grave guard went to the next hut to take out a thick booklet and rummaged through it page by page.

After waiting for about ten minutes, Yi Chen came back.For a moment, Ji Kaiyang wanted Yi Chen to tell him that he couldn't find it, that Ji Ziwen's name was not on the booklet, and that his father was not buried in this cemetery.But he knew that all of this was his unrealistic fantasy, Yi Chen scratched his head, "He said go to the left road, let's go there."

After a person dies, it turns into a number.They walked straight along the path, and Yi Chen would take a look at every fork, and after making sure there was nothing there, he pulled Ji Kaiyang forward.The one buried was Ji Kaiyang's close relative, and the person who entered the cemetery and was looking for it was Yi Chen, but none of them thought it was weird, it seemed to be a matter of course.

It would be fine if he could never find it, Ji Kaiyang thought, so that he could still deceive himself.He regretted coming here, why did he come?People seek advantages and avoid disadvantages, so why did he come here early in the morning to break the hope he had carried for five years.Stop looking, we went back, Ji Kaiyang almost opened his mouth, but he couldn't speak, he couldn't even move a step.Yi Chen had already stopped in front of a tombstone, and waved to him gently.

Ji Kaiyang looked at the tombstone carefully, Yi Chen thought he would cry, so he specially prepared a pack of tissues in his pocket, but there was no.Standing in front of the tomb, Ji Kaiyang calmed down strangely.

"Like it?" Ji Kaiyang said after a long time.

Yi Chen reacted for a few seconds before he understood what he was talking about.

"Why do I think it doesn't look like it?" Before he could answer, Ji Kaiyang went on, his voice a bit puzzled, "It doesn't seem to be the same as the photos at home."

"Ji Kaiyang..."

Ji Kaiyang smiled at him reassuringly, "Yi Chen, can you wait for me next to me? I want to be alone with my dad for a while."

He used questions, but the tone was non-negotiable, and it was indeed not a request that could be refused.

"Yeah." Yi Chen nodded, "Call me if you need anything."

Ji Kaiyang turned his head and took a look. Yi Chen had already stood behind two rows of tombstones, and his back was turned to him very much.

Ji Kaiyang sat on the ground leaning against the tombstone, his fingers lightly brushing over the black and white photo.He didn't lie to Yi Chen, he really didn't feel like it.

Ji Ziwen is at sea all year round, and only goes home when he is on vacation.Ji Kaiyang’s impression of his father is that he is tall, his voice is loud, and his skin color is darker than ordinary people. This is because of the sun all year round. Every time he goes home, he will bring a lot of candy to him, so Ji Kaiyang still likes to eat it. sweets.

Otherwise, he really has no impression.

Ji Ziwen was just ten years old when he disappeared. That afternoon, Zhang Yun did not wait for him at the school gate, and he was taken to Yi's house by Chu Jing.A week later, Zhang Yun came back and told him that the freighter his father was on had encountered a storm at sea and he was missing.

The disappearance that Zhang Yun said at the time should be true. Whenever the phone rang, she would answer it eagerly, and then hang up in disappointment.When did this state change? Ji Kaiyang stuck to the tombstone to catch the clues in his memory.About a month later, Zhang Yun said that he wanted to participate in the school's training, and left for a few days. Now he knows that there is no so-called training at all. It was because Ji Kaiyang's body was found, and his family members needed to bury him for safety. .Only this time, Zhang Yun didn't tell him the truth again. His mother told him to stay in a lie and wait for someone who couldn't come back.

If it wasn't for this time that the cemetery management fee increased and the family members had to be informed, and it happened that Zhang Yun was in the mountains and the mobile phone could not be reached, the administrator dialed the landline number left before, and the young couple contacted Ji Kaiyang, then he would still I will not believe that my father is already a pile of bones.All these are coincidences, but they point to a doomed ending. No lie is eternal, and time will always find its flaws.

Ji Kaiyang didn't know how long he had been sitting here, the number of grave-sweepers gradually increased, they passed by the tomb, looked at the young man sitting on the ground, and left without any surprise.Their expressions were indifferent, and they didn't come to mourn. A few children were playing around in the cemetery, and the adults scolded them, but their tone was not necessarily harsh.Ji Kaiyang recalled the poems he had memorized when he was a child, the fox sleeps on the tomb at sunset, and the sons and daughters smile at night before the lamp.

Is it a good thing that Zhang Yun didn't tell him?Because of hope, he can still miss his father in such a long time, even though he doesn't remember his appearance very much.

"Ji Kaiyang." Yi Chen came over, holding a bouquet of white wild flowers in his hand.

"Where did you get it?"

"I just went outside to pick them." The small bouquet was tied together by Yi Chen with a wristband. He put the flowers in front of the grave, and stretched out his hand to give him a hand. "I forgot to buy them when I came here."

They stood side by side in front of the tomb, the sun shone on the black marble tombstone, and the words could not be read clearly.Ji Kaiyang pursed his lips, "Let's go."

Yi Chen followed behind him, and only after walking out of the cemetery did he take out a piece of chocolate from his pocket and give it to him.

Ji Kaiyang broke off half of it, and handed the rest back.

"I'm not hungry, you..." Before he finished speaking, Ji Kaiyang glanced at him, and Yi Chen honestly put it in his mouth again.

"Shall we go home directly? The morning classes are over."

"Go back and get your ID card." Ji Kaiyang looked back at the cemetery, and his father's tombstone was no longer visible, "I want to go to the beach once."

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