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When Cheng Xingjian received Yu Su's text message, he was buying beer in the supermarket.

Ever since he knew that Yu Su was a little alcoholic, Cheng Xingjian always kept some drinks at home, including beer, red wine, and fruit wine. As for the liquor that was too strong, Cheng Xingjian didn't have it at home.

Even though Yu Su never drank in his house.

Cheng Xingjian lives alone, cooks occasionally, and sometimes invites A Yu and Yu Su to the house, but most of the time, he buys vegetables, cooks, and eats by himself.

[Ah Jian, my wedding with Wan Shu is scheduled for the fifteenth of next month.You are invited to be a guest, please come!We don't invite many people. You are the closest person on my side. I hope to meet you very much.The invitation has been sent, and it will probably be received in a few days, so you must come! 】

Cheng Xingjian turned off the phone, put it in his trouser pocket, pushed the cart for a few steps, and then took out the phone to look at it.

[Okay, I will definitely be there, congratulations, and a big red envelope for you. 】

Cheng Xingjian typed a string of text, deleted it several times, and then sent it out.

[No, we still have to give it to you. 】Yu Su's message was sent back quickly. Cheng Xingjian read this sentence many times, but didn't notice that the tomatoes in his bag rolled all over the floor.

Someone nearby helped to pick it up, Cheng Xingjian thanked him, squatted on the ground and slowly picked up the softened tomato.

When Cheng Xingjian came out of the supermarket, Ayu called him and excitedly talked about Yu Su's wedding—it turned out that Ayu was invited to be Yu Su's bridesmaid.A Yu talked a lot, and Cheng Xingjian wanted to cheer up and respond, but he was really not interested. Fortunately, A Yu himself was very excited and didn't care about his response.

After a long time, A Yu gradually calmed down, only to realize his abnormal silence.

"Are you okay?" Ayu asked him cautiously, "Brother Cheng?"

Cheng Xingjian laughed, this girl only called him Brother Cheng when she asked him for something, and she never called him by her first name.Thinking of this, Cheng Xingjian suddenly remembered that Yu Su always liked to call him "A Jian" when chatting online, but they always called him by his full name when they met.

Cheng Xingjian.

Yu Su yelled like this, sometimes with a little anger, sometimes with joy, and more flatly.

"I'm fine," Cheng Xingjian said. He wanted to find some words to amuse him, but his mind was empty. "I want to open the door, so I'll hang up first."

Cheng Xingjian turned on the light, and the whole room instantly changed from pitch black to spacious and bright, empty.

A little thirsty, Cheng Xingjian thought, he took the cup on the table to drink water.

The cup was used when drinking with Yu Su on Beicheng West Street. He bought it after Yu Su got drunk and kept it as a souvenir.

There are many memories between him and Yu Su, even more than some couples. They have known each other for 19 years. From elementary school to now, how many people can know each other for 19 years?

By the end of the year, it will be a full 20 years.

Cheng Xingjian understands that this cannot be calculated by time, but sometimes he would ask himself, if he missed the opportunity, he would never have the possibility to do it again?

Obviously he did it first, whether it was meeting Yu Su or falling in love with Yu Su, it was him who did it first.

When he was a child, Cheng Xingjian had long hair, because the family asked a fortune teller, saying that he had to be raised as a girl when he was a child so that he could grow well, so he grew long hair for him.The family worried that he lacked masculinity, so although he was dressed as a girl, he was taught as a boy.

At that time, Yu Su had a good time with him. His mother was a very open-minded lady. She was afraid that he would hurt the girl if he was not serious, so she always told him to take care of Yu Su.

But Cheng Xingjian was very rebellious when he was a child. His mother said so, but he didn't do it. He always liked to bully Yu Su a little.

Of course, this kind of bullying is not very serious, but Yu Su was given less when sharing snacks with the children, and later when the two of them returned home, they made up for Yu Su.

At that time, he didn't know why, he liked and disliked Yu Su, and when he saw Yu Su crying, he panicked and didn't know how to comfort her.

In the third grade, he cut off his long hair and shaved his head bald. He was the first to show Yu Su excitedly. Unexpectedly, Yu Su didn't recognize him and even cried in fright.

Cheng Xingjian was very angry, and decided not to talk to Yu Su in the future, but to hate her, although he completely forgot about it after a few days.

In the next few years, Yu Su and him grew up slowly, boys and girls did not play together, and Cheng Xingjian had no chance to be with Yu Su, otherwise rumors would be spread by others, Cheng Xingjian didn't want to do this.He had no choice but to secretly pay attention to Yu Su, and found that she was always sitting quietly in the corner, no one provoked her, so he was relieved.

Cheng Xingjian later thought that it was the pen incident that made Yu Su dislike him a little. He really wanted to go to Yu Su to explain it, but he couldn't hold back his face, so the two became more and more distant.

After entering junior high school, Cheng Xingjian realized that Yu Su had completely forgotten about this matter. Yu Su treated him just like all other boys.

Cheng Xingjian was not angry, the two of them were so destined and had known each other since childhood, why is Yu Su acting like a normal person?

So Cheng Xingjian was deliberately cold, and he didn't know who he was angry with.

In the class, Cheng Xingjian sat behind Yu Suzuo, and when he went to play basketball between classes, he would make the stool very loud—but Yu Su still sat on the seat unmoved.

snort!Go play!

Yu Su is a person who loves to sleep very much. In the third grade of junior high school, she was under a lot of pressure. She slept on the table between classes.Yu Su was very thin when she was in junior high school. She lay on the table with two thin shoulders, revealing a small part of her neck.

Cheng Xingjian stopped playing ball during the whole break in the third grade of junior high school. He was sitting in the classroom doing problems. Someone called him and shouted loudly: "Cheng Xingjian—come out!"

Cheng Xingjian stared: "No! What are you doing - keep your voice down!"

The man left, Cheng Xingjian glanced forward, but Yu Su didn't wake up.

They occasionally bumped into each other after school, riding in the same car, Cheng Xingjian carried his schoolbag on his shoulder and put it in his pocket, and pretended to say casually, "What a coincidence."

Yu Su looked very sleepy, nodded while holding the book, and began to doze off after sitting on the chair—this chair was emptied by Cheng Xingjian just stood up.

Cheng Xingjian gritted her teeth secretly, and would never give her an empty seat next time!

But next time he will do it again.

After graduating from the third year of junior high school, he wanted to ask Yu Su which high school he enrolled in, but he was embarrassed, so when he got home, he was told that they were moving.

Cheng Xingjian was depressed all day long.

He also missed the time to say goodbye to Yu Su.

Later, when Cheng Xingjian came back from high school, he didn't see Yu Su several times.He didn't know why he wanted to see Yu Su so much. In high school, he didn't have any entertainment, only playing ball and doing problems.Every time someone asks him to play, he will subconsciously make people quiet down, and someone in the class is catching up on sleep.

Someone asked him to confess, he looked at the short-haired girl in front of him suspiciously, and asked, "What do you like about me?"

"You are very gentle, very gentleman, and never make nasty jokes," the girls counted, their eyes lit up, "Also! When those boys come to you, you will tell them to keep their voices down."

Cheng Xingjian smiled, and then said to the girl, "I'm sorry, I like someone again."

"Who is it? In this school?"

"I don't want to say it because I might not see her anymore."

Life in high school is very boring. Apart from doing quizzes and attending classes, I don't even play basketball very often.In the college entrance examination, Cheng Xingjian performed exceptionally well and applied for a school in Nancheng.

After the exam, Cheng Xingjian went to look for Yu Su again, but he still didn't see her. Yu Su went on a trip.

Well, Cheng Xingjian thought, this is fate, if he sees Yu Su again, he must confess his love to her.

I didn't expect that moment to come so quickly.

Cheng Xingjian saw Yu Su again, she was feeding the cat.

He stood looking at it from a distance for a long time, but he didn't dare to step forward to confirm it. After hesitating again and again, he prepared to take a photo.

Unexpectedly, Yu Su discovered it all at once.

He panicked inside, but he was very calm on the outside, and even made a joke with Yu Su.

Cheng Xingjian secretly made up his mind that he would never let himself regret it again.

On the way back to the dormitory, Cheng Xingjian recalled Yu Su's appearance just now. Her hair grew longer and taller. She looked prettier than in junior high school. She was a little cold when she was expressionless, but she was very gentle when feeding the cat.

Yu Su, Cheng Xingjian thought, this is God's arrangement.

Later, Cheng Xingjian laughed at himself many times. It was indeed God's arrangement to let him watch her crush come true and live a happy life.

This is enough.

Cheng Xingjian traveled more than half of the city, but couldn't find a style of red envelope that suited her, so she finally ordered one online.

He remembered that when Yu Su was looking for brother Zheng with him, a long time ago, he asked him: "Why can't people who love each other be together?"

Cheng Xingjian answered her: "I don't know, Susu."

Cheng Xingjian vaguely guessed something at that time, he didn't want to understand, he would rather not know anything.

He found a pen that he hadn't used for a long time, and wrote his blessings to Yu Su and Bai Wanshu on the white paper, telling about his fate with them, one was his classmate and the other was his neighbor.

A happy knot is a godsend.

We will always be friends and stay together forever.

At the end of the writing, he didn't know what he was writing, the whole paper was covered with his densely packed handwriting, he looked carefully under the desk lamp, the remaining half of the paper, between the lines was the past of him and Yu Su bit by bit—— Yu Su has forgotten the past.

He simply tore up the rewrite.

When leaving Beicheng, he asked Yu Su if you want to come with me.

Yu Su said, you know.

Of course he knew, he knew before he asked, he just wanted to ask, hear the answer, and leave.

God's mockery.

Cheng Xingjian actually knew a long time ago that there would be such a day when he watched Yu Su resign and leave Nancheng with his own eyes, desperate.He watched Yu Su feel sad and painful for another person, and heard Yu Su's suppressed crying on the phone.

He didn't want to see Yu Su's tears anymore, every time Yu Su's tears fell, it would burn a big hole in his heart.

Now, Yu Su won't cry anymore, even if there is, the person who will accompany her should not be Cheng Xingjian.

He is not a returnee, but a passer-by.