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Coincidence, or fate, I often think about what makes me entangled tightly by an inexplicable gravitational force. Whenever I try to escape, I will be pulled back to that vortex. I don’t understand. I would rather is forced.

After Wan Shu left, I came home from work at night, the house was cold and empty, I lay where she usually watched TV, and thought over and over again of our youthful high school days - at that time I didn't understand my humble and passionate love, I did a lot of stupid things just because the friendship was too strong.

Those secret confessions are wasted courage and romance.

I wanted to tell Wan Shu many times, desperately, with a lonely courage, every time I have such an impulse, I will be afraid afterwards.I am afraid that what I will destroy is the goodwill and those countless dreams that I cannot afford.

Sometimes I hate Wanshu, she is too gentle, if only she can be like those taciturn and cold seniors in many youth movies, quietly be a crush object that people look up to.

She just wanted to come to me. She took my hand and walked through countless fallen leaves and wind. She took the leaves from my hair and my heart together.

I hate her for being so nice that I don't want to let a little bit of filth be mixed between us.

The evening wind was blowing slowly, the windows were not closed, I listened to the voice on the TV, the hero said to the heroine: "You have no heart! I have done so much for you? Why don't you love me?"

If it was love, love longing to be reciprocated, I would never say it.I would rather admit that I am only a hypocrite, and I am not willing to love her like this.

I got up and closed the window, and went back to my room. My dream was the waves of Nancheng. I was floating on a wooden boat. The sea was like a mother's womb, and I fell asleep in it.

"Are you arriving this afternoon?" I asked Wan Shu, she called me at the airport, her voice could not hide the exhaustion.

"Yes, I just want to come back and have a good sleep now, I'm so tired!" There was a chaotic voice around her, "Don't forget my gift! I didn't expect such a coincidence, it just happened to be today."

"I can't do without you, I have already prepared it for you." I touched the carefully packaged poetry collection, thinking that I would give it to her today, and then clean up for her at home. She sounds really tired, and I don't want to do it again. Talking to her made her bother, so she hung up the phone.

After knowing the news that Wanshu is coming back, I was very excited, and even my work efficiency has improved a lot. Looking at the English letters in the document, I have become more amiable, and the keyboard is also neat and tidy As if it had been carefully organized, my subordinates flew like flying, and everything went smoothly without any mistakes.

After get off work, I went to the supermarket to buy Wanshu's favorite corn with pine nuts and prepared it when I got home.Seeing that the floor was a bit dirty, I dampened it with a rag and wiped it carefully. I felt that my hair was messed up again, so I went back to the room and combed it again.I don't know what to do at home, and I look at my phone every ten minutes-doesn't it mean that it will be in the afternoon?Not home yet?

I looked at the screen of my mobile phone, thought for a while and called Wan Shu, but I didn’t expect to get connected soon. I didn’t hear Wan Shu’s voice, it was a strange voice, as if speaking from a distance She said something before she said, "Okay, I see, eh—Susu?"

"Huh?" I quickly replied.

"Well, I just wanted to call you, can you come to the First Hospital?" Wanshu paused, "Can you buy two meals on the way here?"

"What's wrong with you? Why are you in the hospital?" I panicked when I heard Wan Shu say the No. [-] Hospital, "Are you okay?"

"It's not about me, it's Young Master Dong." Wan Shu's voice was soft, "Some accident happened, we can't leave now."

As soon as my heart tightened, I knew it was not good to be with Dong Shao.Then I heard Wan Shu seem to let out a low sob over there, she said——

"Come here quickly?"

A soreness surged up my nose, and I wanted to run to her immediately. Today was her birthday, but she was alone in the hospital, and said to me, can you come quickly?

I put on my coat indiscriminately, and said to the phone, "I'll be there soon!" I packed the dinner I just made in a lunch box, which was supposed to be a dinner for Wanshu, grabbed the key, opened the door and ran outside.

I have to hurry, someone is waiting for me in the hospital.

When I arrived at the hospital, I was covered in cold sweat. I saw Wan Shu send me the floor and room number, and the elevator happened to arrive, so I squeezed into the elevator.The surrounding area of ​​the elevator is icy, and I feel like I am a fish soaked in cold water. The rapid ascent of the square grid makes me dizzy for a while.

When the elevator arrived, I hurried out and found the ward. Just as I was about to go in, suddenly a person pressed my shoulder vigorously. I felt the pain, so I let out a low cry, turned my head to look at the person holding me, and said angrily: "what are you doing?"

He didn't show any expression, but said in a deep voice, "You can't go in."

"Why? I have a friend inside!" I wanted to shake off his hand, but he didn't let go, and my anger grew stronger: "Let go!"

Just when I was about to say something, the door of the ward opened, and Wanshu came out and said, "It's okay, he's my friend." Then the man let me go, and I frowned and moved my shoulders .

I saw Wan Shu's pale face at a glance, and her lips were almost bloodless. I was very worried, and I held her hands, and those thin hands were like ice.

"Have you eaten yet?" A sentence came out of my mind without thinking, maybe because I saw that Wanshu was not hurt, so I was worried about her stomach first.She shook her head, I took out the lunch box, it was still warm when I touched it, and handed it to Wan Shu, telling her to eat quickly.

Wan Shu obediently sat down to eat.

This is the time for me to look at the whole room. There is only one hospital bed in the room, and Dong Shao is lying on the bed.There is a chair beside the bed, Wan Shu should have been sitting by the bed just now.Now I figured out why someone stopped me just now, probably Dong Shao's bodyguard.

Wan Shu sipped the soup while slowly telling me the matter.

"Originally I was going home after I got off the plane. The company sent someone to pick me up. I got in the car and found out that it was Mr. Dong sitting in front. He didn't know where he heard that today was my birthday and said he wanted to treat me to dinner." .

"As a result, while driving, a retrograde van came on the opposite side. Dong Shao took a turn, missed the car, and hit the railing on the side of the road, so fortunately, he saved his life.

"Just now the police came to make records, and there were various inspections, so I didn't have time to eat. Fortunately, I have you." Wan Shu ate very quickly, and she looked really hungry.

I was startled just hearing this passage, but fortunately nothing happened. Thinking of this, I glared at the man lying on the bed, not knowing whether he was in a coma or sleeping. What a disaster!

"Susu..." Wanshu gently took my hand.

"Huh?" I glanced at her who leaned against me slightly, she looked very tired, and my heart ached.

"This time we have to thank Young Master Dong very well," Wanshu leaned her head on me, her tone soft, "If Young Master Dong hadn't turned the steering wheel towards me, I would be lying on the bed now."

So...is that so?

"Then Young Master Dong now?" I asked.

"His left hand was injured, and he fell asleep just now." Wanshu went to the chair beside the bed and sat down, looking at Dong Shao with a look that I can't describe. I stared at her, but she didn't notice.

I don't know whether I feel lucky or shocked, should I thank him properly?But if he hadn't been driving Wanshu, this accident would not have happened at all. He was the one who was smart enough to play the tricks of rich money and little money——

But I didn't say it, but I heard my own voice: "Wanshu, you have to thank Young Master Dong well."

Wan Shu nodded, her back was like a bunch of flowers, soft and beautiful, growing on the edge of the snow-white hospital bed, I guessed what she was thinking, but I couldn't guess anything, so I had to start thinking wildly.

I still remember someone said before that when the driver is in danger, he will subconsciously turn the steering wheel, and the person will subconsciously protect himself-I don’t know what Dong Shao was thinking when the van rushed towards him, But it was he who got hurt in the end, not Wan Shu.

He must love Wanshu very much, I think, but his performance is not like that at all, maybe he doesn't know how to love someone at all.

I do not know either.

Or it's a coincidence, I think, he is actually a fool whose brain and body are not coordinated, by chance, he protects Wanshu, and then he becomes a saint, and Wanshu has become a bunch of rescued flowers since then, the saint is careful Pick it up.

I hate the word chance and coincidence, it is like this every time, the evil drama, all the stories can't escape the vulgar ending.I was dizzy for a while, and the terms I had seen filled my mind, the drawbridge effect, a man and a woman deeply in love, I bet all of this is a coincidence.

It is impossible for Wanshu to forget him. From now on, Wanshu's memory will carry this person's name. I know that I am wrong to think so, but I can't help but imagine, I can't help but start to guess the future, the future is in front of my eyes Condensed into drops of water, I turned into a vicious person at this moment, crying for a better future.This house seemed to be fermenting, and I couldn't stay any longer, so I said to Wanshu, "I'll go out and buy you a glass of water."

I talked upside down, but I actually wanted to talk about buying a bottle of water.

Wanshu gave a "hmm", she didn't turn her head, and slowly lay on the side of the bed, with a back that stood out like a butterfly.

She is going to fly away.

I opened the door, and the man outside the door was still standing there straight without looking at me. I felt like he was a black statue, a metaphor for fate.

So I didn't know what mood I was in, and when I passed him, I gave him a hard look, and then I hit his shoulder hard with my fist, which hurt my hand very much.Under his suspicious eyes, I slowly said: "You just pinched me very painful."

I want to beat fate and throw it from the hospital into the crater, damn it, what it did was laugh at me.

I thought of Wan Shu's pale face. In fact, I had been thinking about a word just now, but I didn't say it—"Happy Birthday."