I'm not

Later, Wanshu talked a lot about this new project. I was as serious as I was listening to the head teacher in class, and stared at her with special focus. She occasionally met my eyes, and seemed to have a tendency to laugh, and then worked hard. Keep your face shut and stop looking at me.

Ah Ying touched me lightly, and she seemed to notice my unusual seriousness, and asked, "What's wrong with you?"

"Study hard," I said to her, "after all, the opportunity is rare."

"We don't need us in this session, and you don't need to work so hard." Ah Ying murmured in a low voice. I knew what she meant, but I didn't pay much attention to it—anyway, I'm a drunkard who doesn't care about drinking.

After the meeting was over, Young Master Dong left, and the large group of people naturally followed behind.I saw her walking and talking with a person beside her, striding forward, with a confident and elegant temperament, which is very natural in the elite group, and even more eye-catching.

I was a little far away from her and didn't speak, but what does it matter?Tonight we will cook together under the same roof. She will lie on the sofa in her pajamas and watch TV. I peel apples and she quietly takes them away.

This is her invisible to others.

"Dong Shao, this is the report from today's meeting." Wan Shu put the report on Dong Shao's desk.

"You were distracted today." Dong Shao's voice could not hear any emotion, his sharp eyes were still staring at the computer screen instead of Wan Shu.

"I'm sorry, Young Master Dong, I..."

"Don't involve your personal emotions in your work," Young Master Dong picked up the report, leaned back in his chair, his whole momentum suddenly relaxed, a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, but his tone was still flat, "You told me this, you It’s a bit of a double standard today, isn’t it Wanshu.”

"It won't happen in the future, Young Master Dong." Wan Shu met Young Master Dong's gaze directly, her tone was a little blunt, "Also please ask Young Master Dong to address me by my full name or position."

"Okay." Dong Shao focused on the report, "Go out if you have nothing to do."

Wan Shu nodded slightly, turned and walked out of the office.

Young Master Dong looked at the door that was closed softly by Wanshu, and smiled with his lips pursed. Now he wondered who made this subordinate, who was always business-like, lose his sense of proportion.He flipped through the information given to him by the head of the department today, and called the HR department. With a subtle competitive spirit, he wanted to find this person.

"A few days ago? Director Bai did recommend a few people to me..."

Wanshu let out a breath outside the door, her delicate eyebrows furrowed—she seemed to have done something to offend her boss.

I waited until Wan Shu got off work, she looked quite tired today, her brows were slightly frowned, and her eyelashes cast a thick shadow under her eyelids.My heart clenched tightly, and I couldn't help but wonder if something happened today, could it be because I was reprimanded by my boss?

"Wanshu?" I asked her, she heard the concern in my words and showed a smile.

"I'm fine, but I'm a little tired after traveling a lot with Young Master Dong today." Wanshu tidied up her hair, gathered it to the back of her head, took off a rubber band from my wrist, and tied it up.In this way, she looked a lot younger all of a sudden, like a college student who just graduated, with a youthful atmosphere.

"Young Master Dong scolded you? I think he looks very strict." I asked, seeing how deftly she took the rubber band from my wrist, and smiled: "But how do you know I wear a rubber band, really, If you don’t bring it yourself, you’ll come and grab mine.”

"I don't know when you have this habit, and you still say that I, look at you, have been working for several years, and you are still like a child. I have never tied my wrists. I am afraid that others will laugh at me." Wan Shu Said indifferently.

"What? Who stipulates that you can't tie rubber bands on your hands when you go to work?" I curled my lips and laughed at her in my heart, "If I don't have one, it's up to you."

No, I realized, wasn't I talking about Young Master Dong just now?How did she complain about me.

"Don't interrupt, tell me quickly, and let me know about our immediate superior." I lowered the seat a little and nestled in it.

"Young Master Dong, you usually work very seriously and are quite capable. As for being strict, it's just to make everyone deal with it more seriously. It's not that scary. But—"

"But what?" Hearing her praise of Dong Shao, I felt a little sour, so I was eager to know some of Dong Shao's "buts".

Wan Shu seemed to be choosing her words carefully: "That's right, in fact, he also likes to play in private. After all, he's not an old man, he's still a very young man. He wears suits and leather shoes every day, so he probably got bored."

oh?Is that it? I thought about it. It seems that Wanshu has a good impression of this Young Master Dong. Maybe Wanshu can have an office romance with him.I was overwhelmed by my own brain acid, and immediately thought, what does this have to do with me?

Say good no more.

Wanshu saw that I stopped talking, and I stopped talking. The car music was flowing in this small space. It was a lingering love song. The deep voice of the female singer was singing a story about a secret love. I closed my eyes, thinking that the secret love is really The simplest love in the world, you don't have to worry about one party's change of heart, you don't need to maintain the relationship carefully, you don't need to spend money on gifts, and you don't have the risk of falling in love. It's just perfect.

It was very warm in the car, I was a little sleepy, and I was about to sink into the darkness, as if there was a piece of warmth covering my body, I knew it was her——I knew she loved me, not love.

Time passed like this, we, Wanshu and I, were no more than 200 meters apart every day, and life tied us together.In a trance, I think this is the imaginary future of us being together. We get up in the morning, prepare breakfast together, and drive to work after eating. I wipe the stains on her shoes in the porch, and she hands me a new pair scarf.

During the long working hours, we are all busy. We send each other a few WeChat messages during lunch, discuss what to eat for dinner, and complain about the amazing speeches and behaviors of colleagues. After work, we cross traffic and crowds to go home, sometimes together Going to the supermarket, I bought her a bottle of lychee-flavored yogurt, and she picked the size of grass carp in the aquatic area.

When I got home, there was a bright light, the sound of the range hood overshadowed the lines of the TV series, and the plates piled up in the sink after dinner, I put on rubber gloves, and she cut oranges less than two meters away from me, and then We nestled on the sofa, discussing the lipstick number of the heroine of the TV series.

In the end, we went back to our respective rooms to sleep, like a couple who are old enough to sleep in separate rooms.

We were a fake couple, and I acted as a companion for a while, doing things that I pretended to be companionship, and when the time came, I would retire and give her to the luckiest man in the world.

I knew that moment would come sooner or later, and I was ready for it, I just wanted one more moment of imaginary beauty before I left.

Wan Shu has been very busy recently, several times she was still working overtime, and sent me a message telling me to go back by myself first, she didn't know how long she would be busy.I was worried and asked her if she was okay.

"It's not the latest new cooperation. Young Master Dong attaches great importance to it. Our group of people follow him to work overtime every day," Wan Shu murmured in a low voice, "It's good to be busy for a while, you go back first. "

"Then if you're too late, just call me and I'll pick you up." I told her.

"It shouldn't be too late, don't run around, I'm hanging up." She quickly finished speaking and hung up the phone.

I had no choice but to go home alone, cursing Aike's overtime system, and by the way, scolding Dong Shao, a capitalist who squeezes labor and has no humanity.

I saw that Wanshu has lost a lot of weight recently, and even the dark circles under her eyes have become aggravated, so I thought about making some supplements for her, and went to the supermarket to buy some black-bone chicken. My cooking skills are not good, so I always Wanshu cooks, but now that she is busy, I should also learn to cook and take care of her.

With a little sweetness and distress, I selected the raw materials very carefully. On the way home, I thought that Wanshu’s birthday was coming soon. I went shopping in the mall and wanted to choose a birthday gift for Wanshu.

This is Wanshu's first birthday after we lived together, so I want to treat it seriously.

I remembered that when we were in high school, we often couldn't go home or leave the school for several weeks, and birthdays were passed casually, but I am a person who likes birthdays very much, whether it is someone else's or my own. , I think it’s better to be special.

At that time, I found out about Wan Shu's birthday, and I had been thinking about what to give her for a few days, but in that week, the school sent a notice saying that it was a mock exam, which happened to be on Wan Shu's birthday.

I was so angry that I hated the school so much, I was in a state of being about to explode for a few days, cursing the school every day in front of Wanshu, her reaction to me was very funny, and she comforted me: "What's the matter? This shows that my birthday is very special, not everyone is treated like this."

Of course I was not comforted, but what can I do?Regarding the school's decision, I had to endure it with tears in my eyes and take the exam honestly.

How could it be possible, of course I did something anyway, on the afternoon of the exam, I did probably two of the most daring things in my high school career.

Usually the school broadcasts are broadcast at six o’clock, but general exams are not released. That day I asked the classmate in charge of the broadcasting room to trick the key. Article, and then under the background music of "MOONRIVER", I read a poem - Baudelaire's "Flying Far".

"Fly you, keep away from the disease-causing air;

May you fly to a higher sky to wash away the muddy water you have been polluted by;

May you enjoy the splendid splendor of the clear universe;

It's like throwing yourself on the mellow and magical wine and drinking it. "

This is Wan Shu's favorite poem. I believe she can get a simple surprise and joy from my slightly trembling voice. I believe she understands that this is a gift I gave her.

I read it slowly, imagining Wanshu's expression when she heard this poem, her delicate eyebrows might be slightly raised, she would recognize my voice, and then she would smile, and the stars would fall in her eyes.

I understand that she wants to fly away, and now the whole school is listening to her dreams.

After I came out of the radio room, I saw Wan Shu standing outside, she must have heard it, so she came to wait for me outside the radio room.Wanshu stretched out her arms to give me a big hug, and she whispered in my ear, "Thank you."

I said softly, "Happy birthday."

There is one more thing, even more daring than this, I bet, it might not happen, even if it happened, Wan Shu might not know.

In the week after the exam, I was suffering every day, and finally saw it on the bulletin board-my Chinese answer sheet.

My Chinese score is the best in all subjects. Every time I finish the test, I will display excellent test papers. Sometimes my composition will be displayed, but this time, I have exhausted all the composition materials in my mind. Excessive rhetoric, just hope that this composition will be exhibited.

Now it is posted outside, my handwriting is very neat, I wrote it out with great care.

There are a total of eight natural paragraphs, and I use gorgeous rhetoric to write about my love for the motherland, my vision for the future, and my thoughts on life.I read it word by word, at the beginning of each paragraph, and spelled out a word in my heart that I dare not say——

"Happy birthday I love you"

Later, I thought, this may be the bravest moment in my life. Countless students have passed by and seen my silent confession. I don’t know if anyone can see that every cell of me is sweating.

However, on the second day, the names and photos of the top [-] students in the grade were posted on the display board. My brave moment lasted less than a day before disappearing in an unknown corner.

I don't even know if she saw it, I dare not ask her, it's just a humble gift.