Master Zhili is too difficult to understand

They separated at the intersection, waiting for the traffic lights alone, and followed the crowd through the sidewalk. The mechanical life makes people easily numb, but not completely numb. Occasionally, in the middle of the night when they cannot sleep, there will be pain coming out. This pain has no name, no pain. Reason is pain, no reason is pain.

Shanju has had many girlfriends, but she has never really loved. She doesn't know what love is, and she gets bored too easily. When she met Wei Ye, she was only attracted by his appearance. When talking to him, his tone , his expression made Shan Ju cry out in his heart: I found it.Her lonely heart and body wanted to be touched by him, and she couldn't care about gender or other things.

The school bell rang, and the quiet school gate became lively, with hands in their pockets, youthful and sunny students, their expressions on their faces were always different from those of adults who entered the society, and they were more or less remnant. With some innocence and plans for the future, I imagine that after graduation, I can find a job I like, get along well with my colleagues, and fulfill one wish after another.As a student, Wei Ye gave Shan Ju a hazy impression of him as a top student, a good boy in the eyes of his parents and teachers, but Shan Ju thought that Wei was also hiding something.

Wei Ye walked down the steps, and Shan Ju stood out from the shadows: "Hi~" She and Wei Ye walked side by side in the city lights.

"Why am I also your sister's friend, or you treat me as an ordinary nympho."

"Do you know what you're doing?"

"If I don't know, I won't stand here. Can't you accept that a girl likes you? Then I have to die." Shan Ju's tone was pitiful, and Wei didn't even slow down: "Since you like me, it means Will you listen to me?"

"of course."

"Then you choose another time to die. I still have to go to class. I don't want to be summoned by the police as the last witness who saw the dead."

Shan Ju smiled: "That won't work, death will also drag you down. Before you die, can you kiss me? Have you ever kissed a girl? Do you want to use me as an experiment to see the difference between me and a boy?" Shan Ju pursed her mouth , the book slapped on her mouth.They were silent for a while, and they were about to go downstairs to Shan Ju's house, Shan Ju stopped, and Wei also continued to move forward.

She stared at the mosquito on the ground and said quietly: "Wei Ye, what are you hiding? I clearly smell a dangerous smell on you. This is not the smell that a good boy would have. If I find it, I will probably use it." Come to threaten you to like me." Wei also stopped, he turned his head sideways, his single orange smile was very clear under the streetlight.

"So you're not just a nympho." He walked forward again, waving his hand holding the book: "Then take your time and look for it."

I don't know if this sentence counts or not. Wei also agrees that Shan Ju can stay by his side, but Wei didn't make it clear, so Shan Ju had to understand without authorization.One or two times a week, Danju would wait for Wei Yewan after his self-study get out of class. Sometimes she would have a short chat, and sometimes she would talk a lot. With this distance, Danju would not get too close, nor would she too far.Liking is really an amazing thing. Forget about identity and gender, loneliness and pain. After liking, the four words 'can't like' become powerless.

They did this for a while, and then, a boy appeared beside Wei Ye, who was Wei Ye's correct person.The boy goes to the same school as Wei Ye, has a crush on Wei Ye, and finally musters up the courage to confess to Wei Ye, but in the end he lacks the courage to follow him secretly.

"You know there is a boy following behind us." Shan Ju didn't pretend not to know.

"kindness."

Shan Ju turned her head and saw the boy's face under the street lamp clearly: "He's a nice boy." She stared at the hands of the couple in front of her who were holding each other. If she touched Wei Ye's hand, her eyes would follow her. And Wei can only be friends, they cannot get married, have children, or even hold hands on the street.

"Wei Ye, we can't be together."

"It has nothing to do with you being a woman. You asked me what I was hiding. I hate feelings." He told himself what he was hiding, did it mean that he didn't have to waste time looking for it.

"I know, I know, but can you not say it, don't tell me, who can guarantee that you will never like the things you used to hate, and the things I hated before now I like to eat, I used to ..." Shan Ju listed countless reasons, telling Wei Ye and herself, she didn't want to cry, but the tears kept streaming down, so she covered her eyes with one hand, and waved the other hand: "I didn't Cry, I'm not crying, girls are just troublesome, sentimental, and have to come to the aunt once a month, girls are really troublesome, if I were a boy, it would be fine, I can kiss you on the street, my mother I can justifiably tell everyone I love you, and I can fucking pee standing up."

Wei Ye took her hand away, her fingers were warm and moist, which were traces of pain, Wei Ye wiped away Shan Ju's tears with the back of his hand: "I know you didn't cry."

"You rejected me just now, so what is the meaning of your actions now?"

"I don't know. I just want to do this. Is this a reason?" His words were not ambiguous. His 18-year-old face is unbelievably mixed with immaturity and maturity, good-looking and indifferent, but Shan Ju loves this indifference crazily , she and Wei are the same, both are dark people, the sun is too dazzling, the white is too pure, living alone in an ugly world is very ugly.

"There are only two options, Wei Ye, my love has only two options, love or not, don't pity me, don't be friends." Shan Ju walked forward alone, leaving Wei Ye between boys and girls distance.

Back at the residence, Shanju washed off her tears with cold water. She nestled into the sofa and turned on the TV. There was an advertisement for men's lubricants on the TV. Two beautiful male models were kissing each other, and they were about to proceed to the next step. Suddenly, an exaggerated male voice appeared and said: "What if you can't find lubricant in an emergency!!! We will help you solve it. X brand carries a small bottle with you. It doesn't take up space. It can be easily put in your pocket to get your lubricant. Emergency situations!!"

Shan Ju rested her head on the sofa pillow, reached into her clothes and grabbed her chest, and said to herself, "Why am I not a man?"