Falling in love with you through the clouds

"The person who can be loved by Sister Tao must be the luckiest."

She smiled, a tear rolled down from the corner of her eye, I stroked it away immediately, she closed her eyes, and approached me as if she was looking for warmth, "If she had said that to me back then, I don't know how good it would be?"

I wrapped my arms around Sister Tao's shoulders, just like she hugged me before, smelling the fragrance of her hair and body, I also closed my eyes as if relaxing.

Can Sister Tao say this in front of me, does it mean that she also takes me in her heart and truly treats me as a confidant?

If so, I would say, I'm really really happy.

Christmas weekend is coming soon.I declined Tao Yi'an's invitation, and Yi Ting asked me to watch a movie, and I didn't go either. Who wants to masochistically go outside to blind a bunch of couples!So I still nest in Sister Tao's room like a snail.

Mom asked me when I would be home, ho!I obviously went back after the exam at the end of November... Sure enough, my parents always think that my daughter should go home when she is on vacation.

New Year's Day also happens to be Sunday, and we have to prepare for the end of the term when we come again. If we want to choose the fastest day, it is probably the best choice.

Still being urged to go back, I sighed, in fact, I really didn't want to leave this room.

Perhaps it is more correct to say that I do not want to leave Sister Tao.

It is very comfortable to be with her.From the neighbors who started our normal friendship at the beginning, to the friends who met at nine o'clock every night, and then quickly experienced low tides and shocks such as broken relationships and abortions, she and I were instantly upgraded from friends to confidants.

It's a confidant... It should be said that Sister Tao understands me!I began to understand a little bit why girls would want to be with girls... especially if the object is sister Tao, she has the slenderness and sensitivity of girls, but at the same time has the tolerance and generosity of boys. For other girls with the same sexual orientation , Sister Tao is probably the perfect lover you dream of!

But such a perfect lover is worried about another woman.

I have also experienced a failed first love. Realizing this, the distance between me and Sister Tao seems to be closer; it seems that we are attracted to each other, and she is no longer the elegant, calm, and other-worldly intellectual. Beauty, like me, she will be trapped by love and hurt by love, she is a woman of flesh and blood.

Although the touch that day should have been an accident, she never let me see the fragility of her heart again.

Just as I was immersed in my thoughts, there was the sound of a key turning outside the door. "I'm back! Huh...there are couples outside! It's raining even though it's so cold..."

I went up to meet her, smelling the aroma of bread and fried food from the paper bag she was carrying. "I've been waiting for you for a long time!"

She blinked, "Are you waiting for me, or for the dinner in my hand?"

"Don't be so fussy!"

We were laughing and laughing freely, the TV was turned on but then turned off quickly; Sister Tao played music on the computer, and felt that the atmosphere in the whole room was "right" before we started to prepare for the meal.

"Tuesday...I've already planned to go out." Sister Tao suddenly said to me while chewing French fries.

"Are you going to talk about publishing a book?" By the way, I have always forgotten to ask when Sister Tao's book will be published.

She shook her head, "Go to Sri Lanka."

I broke the bread and almost dropped the horn on my lap when I heard "Sri Lanka". "Sri...Lanka?" Isn't that going abroad?She... wants to travel alone again?Just the day after tomorrow!

"Well, do you know where it is? It's in southeast India..."

"I know the geographical location!" I put down the bread excitedly, sister Tao seemed to be taken aback by me, "So suddenly? You didn't mention it before..."

"I'm usually not good at telling others about my plans to travel." She pursed her lips, her tone of voice was apologetic, but I felt like I was slapped!

other people?

Am I "someone else"?

I thought... I thought that in the past two weeks, we have been close enough to regard each other as confidants, even beyond confidants... I didn't expect that she was still as "cool"?

"Xiao Ning?"

"Then..." Realizing my gaffe, I bit my lip to restrain my emotions, grabbed the bread and took a bite. "When are you coming back?"

"It's about a week... What's the matter?" Her tone softened, as if she had noticed my strangeness. "Unhappy?"

"You suddenly said that you were going to travel far away, and you disappeared for a week in one breath. How can I be happy..." I seem to understand the doctor's mood a little bit.She just walked away like this, and telling me now can only be called informing, and it must be because I live in the same room with her that I have this "preferential treatment".

If it was just a "neighbor", she might fly away with her luggage without saying a word.

"Can you still live with me?"

"I..." Really!It is said that she is slender and sensitive, but sometimes she looks like a boy in thick lines!The problem is not where I live, but... "I know! Anyway, I have the keys to both rooms, so I can sleep wherever I want!"

She was even more puzzled. "But you're still not happy?"

"Because I don't have you!"

I stared at her sadly, and finally I couldn't help it. "What's the point of me sleeping here without you?"

Just because she was about to leave, I realized that my dependence on Sister Tao had completely exceeded my expectations.

I hate being alone.

I don't want to live alone...God knows if it wasn't for her, when I was alone, I still couldn't help thinking about the time when I was with Lu Hanjun, and that was the past I tried my best to get rid of.

She paused, with a trace of guilt on her beautiful face, I turned away and chewed the bread by myself; only the sound of music was left in the air, and after about half a minute of silence, I whispered, "I'm sorry... …I say this as if to reproach you for not traveling…”

"It's because I didn't tell you when I started planning, although my planning period is always very short!" She lifted her lips and laughed a little self-deprecatingly.

"One week... think about it, is it fast enough?" I tilted my head, trying to build up my mind. "I should also review it. I have been relying on you since I broke up with you."

"Don't talk about self-criticism or not. I also hate to see you sad." She glanced at me and handed me the French fries. "Come back after New Year's Day...do you have any plans for New Year's Day?"

"I'll go home; have you told Sister Tao? My hometown is Kaohsiung."

"I haven't mentioned... the south, the weather must be better than here."

"probably?"

Perhaps because we learned that she was about to go abroad, the invisible low pressure made us talk less, and the sumptuous Christmas dinner became a bit eclipsed. Although it can only be regarded as a light meal, everything is delicious.

"By the way, Xiaoning, what's your phone number?" Sister Tao asked me casually while picking up the trash.

I called back a string of phone numbers, and she immediately took notes in the palm of her hand. "What's wrong?" Forgot to say!Sister Tao doesn’t have a mobile phone, so I don’t know if she’s afraid of being found out by her family or something, so she loses contact as soon as she goes out; people like this are already on the verge of extinction, and it’s unexpected that this young and beautiful beauty is classified as I was surprised when I first heard this.

She glanced away slightly with pretty eyes, and finally just said "it's okay" lightly, "at least it's convenient to contact?"

"Is it convenient for you to contact me?" I pouted, and she shrugged with a smile.

On Christmas night, she started to prepare her luggage. After all, she had to go out for a week. In addition to her backpack, she also moved out a huge suitcase. She said that the weather in South Asia is very comfortable now, with little rain and cold, so she brought a lot of thin long sleeves.

On Tuesday, she called a taxi to take her to the airport as usual, and I sent her downstairs, "Shall I go?"

what can I say?

I could only nod, wave my hand, and watch the taxi drive her away. When I couldn't see the rear of the car, my tears fell down.Is the mental preparation two days before the trip still not enough?Why did I feel a pang of sadness just thinking about her being away for a week?Like a fish out of water feeling stuffy and sad and unable to breathe...

The originally warm and comfortable shell became terrifying, and it was terribly quiet.I took my pillow back and retreated from her room to myself; I slowly learned to stand under her hug and tenderness, and she left me when I felt that I was slowly healing …even if it’s only temporarily, it still makes me feel bad.

Can she not go anywhere?Or take me with you?

Is there a famous line from a movie several years ago expressing similar emotions?Because I can't bear to be separated, because I hate being alone...

Sister Tao's temporary departure seems to have hit me no less than when I learned of that person's betrayal.

Is it because I am more vulnerable now?Or... Unknowingly, I think sister Tao is too important, so important that even the word "important" is too weak.

I rubbed my eyes, felt the wetness on the pillow on my cheeks, and wondered how long I had been crying, how long I had been lying there.

The phone rang suddenly!I hurried over to pick it up, and it was Yiting, "Hey... eat? Yes, yes! Of course I want to make an offer..." I was like drowning, as long as it was someone who could get me out of loneliness, I would grab it without thinking .

"By the way, Yiting...you, are you free tonight?"

*

I forced Yiting to come to "□□" for two nights, and it was treated as a way to accompany me through this empty period without Sister Tao.

Under her questioning, I confessed the ins and outs of my breakup with Lu Hanjun, and told me that I was pregnant.

She gasped and stared at my stomach. "Then you now..."

"Take it off." The moment I said these three words, I was surprised by the calmness I showed.

It's not that I don't care, but I have silently accepted what Sister Tao said this week. I can't bear the arrival of the newborn with him, and it's impossible to irresponsibly push the burden of raising the child to the parents.Not to mention that I have a pair of younger brothers and sisters under me. The impact of these is too great, and I don't think I can bear such risks.

"Didn't you ask a secret doctor to deal with it?" I shook my head, and Yiting heaved a sigh of relief. "It's hard work, you must be suffering...then why don't you tell me! Even if I can't help, I will be responsible for accompanying you to the end!"

I smiled wryly, should I tell her that I have found a more reliable and mature roommate than her?

"That Lu Hanjun, I really didn't expect him to be such a beast! He knows people, knows his face, but doesn't know his heart! I don't want to listen to his songs in the future! And I also want to connect with my friends to refuse to listen!"

Seeing her so angry that the flesh on her chin was shaking, I thought it was funny!However, thanks to her unscrupulous scolding, my mood brightened accordingly.

I am really happy to have friends who care about me.