After transferring to another school, I was at the same table as the school girl who had a crush on

Shangxi is located in the urban-rural fringe of fourth-tier cities, barren, backward, and ignorant. The exhaust gas pollution of small factories leads to an eternal brick-red sky, shirtless middle-aged men playing cards, and left-behind children everywhere. The out-of-school bastards at the head are the epitome of this small county.

Shangxi High School is the only pure land nearby that is slightly better.

It's only that much better.

The place where Yufei invited Shang Yang was a barbecue stall near the school.The owner of the food stall is enthusiastic and has a loud voice and good craftsmanship. The tables, chairs and benches are covered with a thick layer of oil.

At this time, Shang Yang has no intention of caring about these details

This is the first time Shang Yang saw such a haggard Yufei.

"... Yufei?!"

From the first time Shangyang saw Yufei, the boss of Shangxi always opened two buttons of his shirt, stood with his body half crooked, with the corners of his mouth slightly curled up, carelessly, not paying attention to everything, and drifting away from the crowd.

In front of him was a decadent young man with a denim jacket wrinkled into pickles, a cropped cut, and black and black stubble, which made Shang Yang doubt his own memory.

"……What's wrong with you?"

"Shang Yang, this glass of wine is my respect to you." Yu Fei poured a glass of wine for Shang Yang, and poured another glass of wine for himself: "I'm done, you can do whatever you want."

He rolled his Adam's apple twice, and the glass of wine was drained.

Shang Yang didn't understand what was going on, so he gritted his teeth and raised his glass, ready to blow it.

"No need." Li Qing pressed his hand and said softly, "Just let Brother Yu drink alone..."

"His grandma passed away yesterday."

On the iron shelf behind the two, the charcoal was burning red and crackling, and the barbecue was sizzling with oil. The female worker laughed and looked at the three of them. In the voice——

After the light and light seven words, it is a silent farewell to a life.

"This cup, I respect Teacher Shang."

The bottom of the cup hit the greasy wooden table, Yu Fei poured himself another glass of wine, raised his head and drank it, then looked up at Shang Yang.

Shang Yang also drank half a cup abruptly, coughing a few times due to choking.

Yufei filled himself up, but didn't pour any more for Shang Yang: "The last cup, you and Teacher Shang will respect together."

Shang Yang followed suit and raised his glass.

Yu Fei drank a glass of wine in one breath, his voice hoarse.

"A week ago, the old girl fell on the road. Although she was sent to the hospital, she couldn't be rescued. But among the passing cars, only Teacher Shang stopped. I am a small person, and I have nothing to repay."

"I will remember this love forever.

Shang Yang's expression was blank for a moment.

"Teacher Shang is a good person. Our family is sorry for you."

Yu Fei nodded towards Shang Yang, wiped his lips, turned and left.

A week ago, Shang Yang was too fond of this moment.

After Yu Fei left, he turned to look at Li Qing for help, and asked weakly, "A week ago?"

Li Qing sighed softly: "It was the day you went to the cemetery."

In the haze of his head, a string clicked lightly, and Shang Houde's faces appeared in front of him, in a gesture of sorrow and pleading.

"Yangyang, listen to my explanation?"

"Yangyang, I'm sorry."

"Yangyang, I didn't mean to..."

"Yangyang, I'm sorry for you."

……

Countless voices were tangled together like tangled threads, circling around his head until they merged into one voice far away.

"Yangyang, I'm sorry."

Dazed, Shang Yang's eyes were also red, he grabbed the wine on the table and threw his head into it.

Bitter in the throat.

There was a burning pain in my stomach.

Li Qing whispered beside him: "Yu Fei is an orphan. Back then, his grandma picked him up from the hospital trash can. The small place is loosely managed, and the orphanage has no money and is unwilling to have children. After so many years, Yu Fei Fei has always been raised by his grandma."

"That day his grandma had a cerebral hemorrhage on the side of the road and fell. Many people passed by, only Teacher Shang got out of the car to save her."

"Although……"

In the end, it still couldn't be saved.

Walking and looking at the moon above his head, Shang Yang's eyes were red: "Is parting always in life? Or is it only when you are young?"

Li Qing looked at him quietly: "It has always been."

After going home, Li Qing suddenly called out to Shang Yang when they were parting at the intersection, "Shang Yang, if one day we also..."

Shang Yang turned to look at him.

Li Qing stared at him, his lips moved, and finally lowered his eyes slightly.

"It's nothing, you have a good rest."

The wind blew for a while on the road, and it was almost twelve o'clock when Shang Yang returned home.

The light in the living room was dark, and it was a deep water-like inclusive and seamless silence. Shang Yang changed his shoes in the hallway, carried his schoolbag, walked through the living room, turned around and prepared to go into the room.

As he passed the master bedroom, he glanced at it.

The door of Shang Houde's room was open.

The headlights were not turned on in the room, only a desk lamp at the corner of the desk poured out a snow-white halo, and the light illuminated the square inch of the corner of the desk.In the small circle, time and temperature are completely two space-times with the surroundings.

In the middle of the snow-white halo, a physics lesson plan was spread out on the table. Shang Houde was sitting at the table, holding a pen and writing, but the man tilted his head, with half of his face resting on his arm, and fell asleep motionless. .

Across a door, that scene seemed to be an oil painting-like photo of old times, frozen in the vast expanse of time, river, space and universe.

We are far, far away from him, within reach but never within reach.

Feeling a palpitation for no reason, Shang Yang was shrouded in a cloud of panic, and his heart beat faster.Unexpectedly, he pushed the door open and walked in lightly.

Standing in front of Shang Houde for a long time, staring at the tired sleeping face, he stretched out a finger nervously and put it under Shang Houde's nose.

is warm.

At that moment, Shang Yang seemed to return to the world from the ice cellar, his stiff hands and feet were thawed out, and he let out a silent sigh of relief as if he had let go of the invisible shackles all over his body.

He couldn't tell where this panic came from, but at that moment he was healed by the sound of breathing.

Carefully covering Shang Houde with a blanket, Shang Yang quietly exited the room, leaning his back against the white wall and looking up.

He remembered what his grandfather said: "A person like your father lives too tiredly."

"This question is the same question type as yesterday's sample question, so I changed the format and used yesterday's formula. I made the auxiliary line, Brother Yu, try again."

In the empty classroom of the administration building, the night sky outside the window was like a waterfall of dark blue stars. Li Qing and Yu Fei sat side by side, put their heads on Yu Fei's desk, and whispered a math problem.

Yu Fei rubbed his pen against the center of his chin, thought for a moment and was about to tilt his head to ask Li Qing a few words.

Shang Yang put a cup of hot water in front of him, and sat next to Yu Fei: "Come on, you must be tired from writing. Drink some hot water before asking. I know all the questions in this exercise book, and I will teach you."

Yu Fei immediately looked at Li Qing teasingly: "Li Qing, what do you say?"

This matter started a week ago. After Yu Fei finished dealing with his grandma's funeral, he found Li Qing and asked him to do something.

"Before she died, the old girl said that she wanted to see me go to college. Tsk, I don't even look at how many people I am at the bottom of the school. But after all, she is her own girl, and she has only one wish for me for so many years, so I can only go along with it." .”

"Brother, do me a favor."

There was absolutely no way to refuse this.

Li Qing immediately agreed to make up lessons for him every night by self-study.Shang Yang suddenly felt a sense of crisis.Li Qing has to support his family and take care of Li's mother, and he is serious in class and doesn't like to mess around.The two of them spend very little time together, so it's okay that they don't see Li Qing every night during self-study.He immediately asked to join the tutoring team as well.

The reason is also very simple.

I am the second in the whole school!

So the above-mentioned scene often appeared, once Yu Fei asked Li Qing too many questions, Shang Yang interrupted him, patted his chest and said: "My grades are good, ask me, I know everything."

Li Qing's head hurts, so Hulu gave Shang Yang's head a hand, and said in a low voice, "Don't mess around."

Shang Yang tilted his head and groaned twice: "Treat me like a child again."

Li Qing bowed his head and did not refute.Shang Yang secretly said in the volume that Li Qing could hear alone: ​​"I am half a year older than you, so you should call me Brother Sheng. Come on, call me Brother Shang?"

Li Qing pretended not to hear this.He stepped on Shang Yang under the table.

Shang Yang gritted his teeth in pain, and was sour in dissatisfaction: "You call Yu Fei a brother Yu, and I won't call you. Ban Hua, you are being treated differently!"

Li Qing stepped on Shang Yang again, and smiled apologetically at Yufei: "Brother Yu, let me tell you again."

Yufei glanced at Shangyang with a half-smile and said, "Forget it, didn't you recommend yourself? Let me ask him, so that I don't know how many glasses of water to drink this night..."

Shang Yang's thick skin pretended he didn't hear it, rolled up his sleeves and said, "Okay, Brother Yu, listen up."

After getting along with Yufei for a few days, Shang Yang had a simple understanding of Yufei's character.

Yufei has a fatal shortcoming - he doesn't seek to make progress.

People are born selfish and self-motivated. The pursuit of a better life, better enjoyment, and higher status is almost an instinct engraved in human genes.

But Yu Fei never had these.

He is more like a bystander who sits outside the crowd and smokes, watching the ups and downs of all living beings, wandering outside.

He is extremely smart and knows everything when he studies.Even with a little effort, you can easily enter the experimental class.

But he never tried.

When Shang Yang asked him the reason, he once said with a light smile.

"You study to get into college, or to change your destiny to live a better life, or to honor your ancestors, to give an explanation to your family. What am I doing so hard, to bring my transcript to the grave of my parents who don't know where they died? ?”

"Besides, people only live for a few decades, and at the end of the day, no one will be left behind. After studying at Tsinghua University and going to Peking University to become a social elite, contribute to the country, and work hard to support the family, Qi Qimeimei is a lifetime. At the end of the year, I will dig a hole for myself and bury it, and it will be a lifetime if I don’t disturb others.”

"What's wrong?"

What's wrong?

This sentence stopped Shang Yang.

It took a long time before he realized the world-weariness in these words belatedly.

Yufei doesn't care about anything, doesn't care about anything, doesn't pay attention to anything, including himself.

I heard Li Qing said that when he first entered Shangxi, he was beaten to death by ten senior gangsters, and he couldn't even stand up. Very happy: "I really had a good time today." The crazy look scared the group of punks, so he was recognized as the boss of Shangxi High School by default.

If one day, Yu Fei lightly said to him: The weather is so nice today, I plan to die.

Shang Yang would never doubt its authenticity.

If it weren't for Yufei's grandma's exhortation before she died, Yufei would never take the initiative to study.

But there are all kinds of shortcomings that can't be compared with one point.

He is Li Qing's best brother.

none of them.

The year Li Qing was released from prison, he was very decadent for a while because of his family status, and his reputation for smoking and fighting came from that time.

It was Yu Fei who picked Li Qing out of the gangsters.

"Don't waste your time on this. I have prepared a set of high school entrance examination textbooks for you. I will cover you. You should study hard."

"You are different from us."

Li Qing was fifteen that year.

Yufei sixteen.

From the age of 15 to the present, Yu Fei has been covering Li Qing for three years.

Shang Yang is very grateful to him.

As for now, he is just a little sour.

Li Qing hasn't called his brother yet!

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Is parting all the time in life?Or only when I was young? ——Adapted from "This Killer Is Not So Cold"

And I forgot the chapters earlier, "Human joys and sorrows are not shared" - Eileen Chang.

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This is a bad habit that needs to be changed!