harmless youth like me

Because I failed the general English test, I was forced to stay in school to make up lessons during the summer vacation. There were two other people besides me.The three of us moved into the same dormitory, there was no network cable, no TV, and we could only do nothing all day long. Finally, we found a pair of mahjong in the corner, and life had some meaning.

But as mentioned above, there are only three of us.

In the next few days, I played two roles by myself. I threw the card with my left hand, hit it with my right hand, threw the card with my right hand, and raised the bar with my left hand.Then they wouldn't play with me anymore, saying I was always bluffing and I could see two cards - isn't that nonsense?

One day I was sent to fetch water, and when I came back, I saw my classmate Xu Zhongchi standing proudly at the door of the dormitory building with his hands behind his back, surrounded by silence.Xu Zhongchi glanced at me sternly, with the same dignified expression of narcissism, self-confidence, high-mindedness, walking at the forefront of the times, and resolutely carrying the cross of history on his face.

I said hello, "Yo!"

Xu Zhongchi glanced at me, paused, and said straight into the sky: "Look."

I followed his fingers and looked: "What?"

"Meteor," he said.

I looked again for a while, and saw the words "Whoever urinates and defecates indiscriminately dies to the whole family" was written on the corner of the outer wall of the dormitory building next door.

I went upstairs and went back to the dormitory, and said to Ma Youheer, "Xu Zhenzhen is back from the brain hospital."

Hee'er said, "I've seen that his practice seems to have improved a bit."

Another mahjong friend, Ah Zhu, asked: "Does Master Xu know how to play mahjong?"

Hei'er nodded and said that this is a topic, and said to me, "Tao'er, go and invite Master Xu."

Taoer is my nickname because my surname is Tao.

Xu Zhenren is indeed a master of the middle class, but his condition is not stable. When he is good, he can fight with us several times in a row. When it is bad, he holds my hand and calls "Sister Zijuan" silently and tears.I sympathize with him very much. After all, there are not many people who can reach this level after falling in love once. Besides, he still remembers to go back to school to make up lessons after three months of treatment. The mentally disabled spirit is worth learning, and we need to care and help in the organization.

Later, Zhenren Xu also abandoned us. He said that he was going to write a great book about the ultimate mystery of the universe. The opening chapter should be at least [-] words, so a quarter of an hour should not be wasted.We hugged Xu Zhenren's legs and cried loudly. Xu Zhenren was very sad, but in the end he resolutely went back to the dormitory and refused to open the door no matter how hard he knocked.

How difficult it is to find another person with nothing to do in an empty dormitory building! Just as we were about to invent a three-player mahjong, Heer came back and said that a person had just moved into the room at the top of the corridor, and he was a scientist.

"He's a real scientist. He works in some research institute in Europe. He just returned to China. I heard that a flood in his hometown flooded his house and he can only live in our school." Heier has been "immersed" in the gossip world for many years, and the news will not Wrong.

They sent me to find the scientist again, because I have a fair figure, a good temperament, and a not so hideous face.I knocked on the door of the scientist, and there was no movement for a long time. When I was lying on the crack of the door to watch, a voice inside suddenly asked, "What's the matter?"

I said: "Student, is this mop yours?"

He opened the door.In all fairness, the scientist is not bad looking, but I still run away because I know him! He is Yan Xiaoer, my next-door neighbor who has been used by my mother to humiliate me since I was a child!

I called home crying and asked, "Mom, is there a flood in our house?"

My mother hung up the phone with a "snap".

Yan Xiaoer came to look for me, I hid in the toilet cubicle, the door of the toilet cubicle was broken, Yan Xiaoer blocked me and said kindly: "Tao San, so you are so old, we haven't seen each other for seven or eight years. see you?"

I said, "Student, I don't know you."

Yan Xiaoer said that I hurt his heart too much, and then he began to recall, why did he help me with my homework, why did he prepare a cheat sheet for me for the exam, why did he take me to Dongshan to play...the movement was so loud that even Master Xu Stick your head out and look around.

A'Zhu and He'er pulled Zhenren Xu and said: "Tao'er is good to meet an old friend, don't get meddled." Xu Zhenren put on an affectionate look.In the end it was Ah Zhu who saved me. He held the mahjong in front of Yan Xiaoer and asked, "Touch twice?"

Yan Xiaoer probably wanted to refuse, but he nodded anyway.A'Zhu joyfully dragged him back to the dormitory, and He'er shouted before leaving, "Tao'er! Come out to play cards! Do you really think you're shit?"

I really had no other choice. Before serving the table, I begged Yan Xiaoer not to tell my mother. He studied physics at Niu X University in the United Kingdom, and then went to Harbin X University in the United States to study physics. He was not satisfied after coming out of Hux University, and continued to study physics at Niu X University—are you tired?

I don't want to see Yan Xiaoer for two reasons:

First, as mentioned above, he is my mother's weapon to attack me;

The second is because I have a very close relationship with Ah Zhu, and I admire Ah Zhu's bodybuilding very much.Yan Xiaoer has amazing insight since he was a child, I was afraid that he would see it.

Yan Xiaoer really noticed something, he asked me: "Why do you keep touching Ah Zhu?"

I was terrified, oh shit, did I go back to my old ways, that is, once I didn't use two hands to count cards, I would free up my hands to pinch A'Zhu?

A'Zhu smiled boldly: "Because I have hairy legs, he said it's fun to touch." The animal even pulled down the hurdle vest and asked: "I still have chest hair, do you want to touch it?"

Yan Xiaoer shook his head and said, "No, thank you."

He motioned for He'er to change seats with him, saying that he couldn't stand Shang Jia who was always putting his hands on other people's laps.But Heer still said righteously: "Do as the Romans do, Dr. Yan, why don't you go touch your family too?"

Yan Xiaoer looked at me suspiciously, I hurriedly hid my thighs, A Zhu was still acting silly, showing him his abs.Ami said, "I'm from the Department of Physical Education, and I practice basketball."

Yan Xiaoer turned to me and asked, "Are you also from the Department of Physical Education?"

You always care what I do!

"No." Heer said, "Both of us studied fine arts, he studied oil painting, I studied Chinese painting, and the one who was talking about it just now, he studied art theory."

"Then how did you get together?" Yan Xiaoer asked.

"It's making up lessons, I failed foreign language." Heer said.

"Still going to class every day?" Yan Xiaoer asked.

"Almost." Kernel said.

"That……"

I suddenly threw the dice and shouted: "Are you still drawing cards?"

Hei'er looked at me in surprise, and said, "Taoer, what's wrong with you? Why are you losing your temper with Dr. Yan? Don't you usually have a good temper?"

I don't know, I'm just pissed off, just pissed off, I've suddenly lost faith in life, and here's a guy with eighty times my IQ, and he knows what I've been turned into!

Yan Xiaoer smiled, pushed the cards in front of him and said, "I won't play anymore, let me treat you to a meal."

As soon as these words came out, A'Zhu and He'er fell in love with him wholeheartedly on the spot.Ah Zhu suggested to eat spicy hot pot, Yan Xiaoer shook his head, reported a very famous high-end hotel, and said: "Let's have a buffet, it's convenient." Before we left, we brought Xu Zhenren with him. He was tortured like a boner, and others looked at him and thought he was pitiful.

As soon as we entered the restaurant, we went straight to seafood and sashimi. Xu Zhenren was not crazy at this time. The four of us ate more than 20 lobsters in one go, as if we had a blood feud with lobsters in our previous life, and there were also mussels. Snails, crabs, fish, scallops, clams, after eating, I saw Yan Xiaoer still picking cold dishes slowly.Later, each of us made a steak, a piece of foie gras, poured some foreign wine, grilled squid, got some bacon, made some sushi, drank some black chicken soup with Chinese caterpillar fungus, and pigeon eggs with bamboo fungus Soup, some cakes, some shark's fin, Yangzhou fried rice with Cantonese cabbage, scallion fried prawns and spicy chicken wings... Finally, I ate a few cups of Hashdas.It was the first time I ate hashidas when I was 20 years old. What's even more hateful is that it tastes like the cone I ate when I was a child.

The meal was so satisfying that I had diarrhea that evening.

I had diarrhea from everything I ate and water, and the sound of my slippers echoed in the hallway all night. In the end, I was literally left with a piece of skin.Ma friends took me to the hospital, the hospital said I had acute gastroenteritis, and they needed to hang up the water. gone back.

I lay on Ah Zhu's back, the muscles felt really good, thick, firm and elastic.The first time I saw Ah Zhu, he was a model for us for a hundred or so dollars, and I was shocked at that moment.

I thought to myself what is that?

It's not rococo affectation, it's not postmodern turmoil, it's a pure, bulging, writhing, beast-like, robust human body full of vitality.

My fragile eyes are witnessing a miracle!

I thought of the cheetah running on the vast African grasslands in the dry season, the stag volleying over the unfathomable mountain stream, and the Siberian giant bear standing upright and staring at its territory... At that moment, I wondered what I had done in the previous 20 years. What is the reason for living in this shallow and pale world?

A flower blooms, and another flower withers, only joy and light are immortal, as well as this god-given strength and lines.

Now the strength and lines are wandering around the injection room behind my back. Once my consciousness rises from the bottom of the psychedelic vortex, I will not let them go. I want to remember the beauty, deeply, deeply !

A'Zhu said: "Taoer, what are you talking about? Speak up."

I struggled and said, "Wait a minute... remember to pour me a glass of water..."

A'Zhu said: "Understood." Then he went to look for water.He is so tall, standing up like a black tower.No, I'm so sick I'm confused and whimsical, and I wonder if I can take him home and say to my mom, "Mom, don't you think he's pretty? He's a bit bigger, but he's still pretty."

I don’t know how my mother will react, but I know that the headline on the social page the next day must be me: Gay man brings boyfriend face-to-face encounters opposition, unfortunately leads to family tragedy.

I can also foresee that those trainee reporters will gloat and describe every detail of my mother crushing me, exposing my house number, they will interview A Zhu exclusively, and they will write about what the neighbors and the whole family think, what the aunt on the street thinks, How the police looked at it, how the teacher saved me earnestly, and finally concluded how I was a heinous and unrepentant person. The attending doctors of the Brain Hospital shot cold eyes behind the dark bars... "Ouch! Nurse, please be gentle. Would you like a little? You can see that it's all green here."

The nurse patted the back of my hand vigorously, and said, "The blood vessels are so constricted that they can't be pierced. Why didn't you drink more water before?"

Drinking water? I will drink water too.

Yan Xiaoer sat down beside me, and asked with concern: "Tao San, why do I think you have something on your mind? Can I help you?"

You can't, in your eyes everyone is a biped made of carbon atoms, you can't understand me.

A'Zhu came back with a thermos bottle, and asked, "What's on your mind? Who? What's on your mind?"

Animals like you won't understand me.

I begged them to let me sleep, and they ran away to watch TV.The lights in the infusion room are blindingly white, there are suspicious stains on the walls, the air conditioner is very hot, the old man sitting next to me has been picking his feet, the smell of disinfectant, sweat and foot odor are in my nasal cavity. struggled.Even so, I still fell asleep. Before I fell asleep, I heard Yan Xiaoer saying: "Do you know why this ball didn't go in? It's a matter of angle...from point A to point B...the formula conversion is..."

After this illness, I woke up like a dream, and my spleen and stomach became weaker.

Heer said: "You cleared up a little more, if only I cleared up a little more."

I asked him, "Is Qingzhao beautiful?"

Heer said: "Beautiful, thin bamboo is beautiful, and so are Orchids."

I asked him again: "Do you think Ahjumi?"

"A'Zhu?" He'er yelled strangely, "A'Zhu completely violated my aesthetics! Would Little Qiao think Xu Chumei? Would Pan Jinlian think Lu Zhishen was beautiful?"

I realized that my admiration for Ah Zhu was entirely a matter of aesthetics. Cao Cao felt that Xu Chumei had taken care of me and called him a "tiger idiot". When Lin Chong saw Lu Zhishen, he praised him and said, "What a man!" Admire a powerful sculpture.

After figuring this out, I was really happy. A few days later, Yan Xiaoer had to leave. He came back only to apply for a new certificate.We didn't send him to the airport, but we said goodbye in front of the dormitory. Everyone except me was very sad, because since then we have lost one of three again.Xu Zhenren is also very sad. His [-]-character ultimate mystery of the universe is about to be written. He hopes that Dr. Yan can help him write an English version of the preface.

Yan Xiaoyi finally said: "Tao San, take a step to speak."

I leaned over, and Yan Xiaoer whispered, "Tao San, there is something... But it's probably my illusion, it's about Ah Zhu..."

"Stop talking!" I interrupted him confidently, "I've already figured it out, don't tell my mom."

Yan Xiaoer seemed confused again, but he still gave us a bright smile before leaving.After he left, Xu Zhenren was forced to go to the mahjong table again. He was still up and down, and I was also a little bit up and down.It occurred to me that if I admired a sculpture, would I want to take it in my arms and bite, knead, rub, and watch this plaster or marble object begging for mercy at the cost of my life?

Will not.

I'm getting more and more dangerous.

One morning I woke up at six o'clock, no matter what, I couldn't sleep again, it was still midnight for A'Zhu and Hei'er, so I had to go out for a walk.When I met Master Xu in the corridor, he must have just spent a night in comprehension.I wasn't sure if he was crazy or not today, so I stepped forward and said, "Brother Zhenren, I'm Zijuan."

"Shut up!" Master Xu scolded seriously, "Taoer, when will you mature?"

It seems he is fine today.

Good Master Xu lost his energy. I turned around and walked towards the water room, when I heard a sudden shout from behind: "Evil! Turn back and be right!"

At that moment, I felt as if I was suddenly hit by the eternal Dafa wheel, and the Buddha's light came down from the top of my head, and my face was reflected brightly with a "pop", and the Sanskrit sound was chanting in my ears, and I almost knelt down and shouted: "Master! Disciple realizes his mistake! Disciple will no longer be attached to the mortal body of ordinary people!"

Later, I found out that Xu Zhenren's drama that day was "turning back and doing the right thing", and it obviously had a plot.He yelled to He'er: "Fa Hai! Turn your head and be right!" He shouted to A'Zhu: "Xu Xian! Turn your head and be right!" He didn't know who I was in his eyes.

We decided to take him out to relax and have some fun.Usually Ah Zhu likes to hang out with me and He'er, but today he flatly rejected us.He said none of our fun was fun.Heer felt sorry for him, and then the three of us ran to the museum to see the free calligraphy and painting exhibition.Heer stared at a painting by Yun Nantian for two full hours, and when he was about to see the next one, the museum was closed. While Heer was standing, Zhenren Xu and I looked at the calligraphy and painting on the first floor. Go to the second floor to look at the utensils.We lingered in front of a pile of ancient ornaments for a long time. During this period, we exchanged programmatic issues such as when did Chinese arts and crafts begin to regress. The two sides discussed enthusiastically and reached a preliminary consensus, and reached an indescribable major conclusion.

Later we saw another white porcelain lotus statue of Avalokitesvara, which should be from the Ming Dynasty. Sister Avalokitesvara has a delicate face, elegant shape, and soft lines. It is really a beautiful statue that is difficult to replicate today.

Guanyin sitting on the lotus is a good posture...

Xu Zhenren muttered to himself: "Avalokitesvara sits on a lotus..."

What? Did I accidentally say that just now?

"Taoer." Master Xu turned his head and asked me, "Do you like Teacher Aoi?

you beast...

That day we wandered around until ten o'clock in the evening before remembering to go back to school.We sat side by side in the last row of the bus, with the windows wide open, passing through the grotesque city, and the rapidly receding streetlights made our faces and bodies always interlaced with light and darkness.

Heer pointed to the crowds of luxury cars at the entrance of the nightclub and said, "Selling all three of us is not enough for one wheel."

I asked: "What? You are lonely"

Heer sighed and said, "Yes, it is unavoidable. Nothing in this huge city belongs to you, only the dormitory and that bed belong to you.

Xu Zhenren said: "Wrong, the dormitory is not yours, the bed is not yours, sometimes even the body is not yours." The pile of neurons is yours. "You, get rid of the water and pinch it. It's only one or two catties. A small plastic bag from the supermarket is enough. What's the use of a luxury car?"

Zhenren Xu is a master. From then until we got off the car, Heer and I felt like we had a pool of snot.

Ah Zhu was waiting for us in the dormitory. He only wore a pair of underpants, exposing a large area of ​​his upper body and thighs.I took a deep breath I took a deep breath, Wang Shuo said that summer is a dangerous season, because the hot weather makes people much more naked than other seasons, so it is difficult to hide their eyes. I just got swept away by Yun Nantian The past mind is muddy and bottomless.

I think he threw me a particularly suggestive smile and asked, "Peach? Going for a swim?"

Swimming, even mentioning swimming! My fragile nerves that specialize in dealing with "crazy thoughts" were teased again, and then I felt deeply tired and distrustful of myself, so I could only shake my head.

"Why don't you go? Can you swim?" Arjuna asked.

I shook my head again and lay face down on the bed to sleep.

A'Zhu asked He'er: "What happened to him?"

"Here comes that one, ignore him." Hei'er said.

"Are you angry at me?" A'Zhu asked against the back of my head.

No, and you should stay away from me lest I reveal myself.I wonder.

Hei'er greeted him and said, "Let's go, go swimming! What are you waiting for?"

"I'm not going," said A'Zhu, "Tao'er will become Daoist Xu if this continues."

"Cut! He and Xu Zhenren are the same way!" Heer said.

I had no choice but to explain in a low voice: "Ah Zhu, I'm not angry at you, go to sleep and stop making trouble."

Unexpectedly, Ah Zhu actually came to break my shoulders, the heat from those five slender and powerful fingers penetrated through the thin clothes and imprinted on the skin, which almost made me tremble. At that moment, I really wanted to kill him.

I imagined inserting a sharp knife into his thick dark chest, beautiful blood flowing on the ground, he will be made into a fascinating specimen as it is, and placed in the basement where I will never see the light of day... I'm in danger again.

I jumped up and announced my big decision: "I'm going to sleep with Xu Zhen! From now on I will sleep with Xu Zhenren!" I went to knock on Xu Zhenren's door with my pillow in my arms, but he wouldn't open, so I had to come back with my pillow in my arms , still lying face inward.

A'Zhu was stunned for a while, and then said: "I'll go sleep with Master Xu."

I heard him kick open the door of Master Xu, and then Master Xu screamed as if he had seen a ghost.When everything quieted down, Hei'er leaned over to my bed and asked, "What's the matter? Are you and A'Zhu having a quarrel?"

What nonsense, isn't it just because you don't want to make trouble, so you are holding back the fire.

"In the future, don't put me in the quarrel of a young couple. Let me remind you that you are disgusting enough to pretend to be Zijuan's sister all day long. If Ah Zhubang also pretends to be like that, will I still have to live?"

After saying this, he slammed the door and left, and fell asleep with Xu Zhenren.Brothers are unreliable these days, and lunatics are worth money.

On the second day at the poker table, Xu Zhenren said with emotion: "I was almost bullied by Ah Zhu last night. Fortunately, I fought back. When I was about to fight back, Heer came by accident."

He'er sneered and said: "Brother Zhenren, I really admire your imagination. You don't need a butcher's knife to kill a chicken. You don't need Ah Zhu. Tao'er and I can solve you by ourselves."

I confessed, "No, I'm against seeing anything unaesthetic in bed."

Later, the three of us began to discuss what beauty is, and finally concluded that Xu Zhenren’s beauty is chaos or nothingness, He’er’s beauty is me (because I’m clear), and my beauty is Ah... no, it’s Michelangelo. Kiro.

Heer strongly criticized me, and I explained to him how beautiful the strong, rock-like bones and muscles are, and how moving the lines and contours of the mountains and mountains are, and I even lifted Ah Zhu up. He made various twisted shapes and asked him if he felt the strength of his muscles?

Have you ever felt the hustle and bustle of life? Have you ever felt the pulsation of life? Did it hurt your eyes?

Then we hit it off.

Master Xu and A'Zhu pulled us apart one by one, and we still acted like tigers pouncing in the air.

A Zhu said: "It's beautiful, it's beautiful! Is it alright? I don't understand what you guys are arguing about." He carried me outside, saying to go out to relax.

Then the animal took me to the gym.He forced me to lift everything that I could and couldn't lift in the gym of the physical education department.I run, I ride a bike, I do aerobics, my yoga ball, and at the end he asks me: "Does it feel good to exercise? Do you feel relaxed after sweating?"

I went back to the bedroom with a more gloomy expression.

He'er and Xu Zhenren gathered around gloatingly, saying it's cool? The room is full of writhing human bodies.I said to Hei'er: "I was wrong, let's have a good life in the future." Hei'er said that this is a good attitude to confess guilt.

"Don't act on your beauty!" He taught me.

They said they were going to buy food and drink and let me stay by myself. I was so tired that I collapsed on the bed.Then Ah Zhu came in, he had just finished taking a shower, he only had a bath towel around his waist and dangled around, I sighed secretly, and looked at him helplessly.

I was sleeping on the top bunk, but he insisted on squeezing onto the bed, saying he would help me loosen my muscles and bones.I am very entangled, and I am happy emotionally, but objective conditions do not allow it.I asked him, "How tall are you?"

He said: "1.9 meters two."

"The bed will collapse if you come up again." I said honestly.

He hovered unwillingly for a while, and then said, "Then why don't you come down here?"

I refused, because I wanted to save face, so I could only lie on my stomach motionless. I would rather spend eternity with this bed, and lie on it until I graduate, grow old, die, and rot...

I begged him to put on a pair of pants, and he said, "Put it on later, it's too hot."

I asked, "Aren't you embarrassed to be naked in front of other people?"

He asked cautiously: "Are you upset? Then I'll wear it right away. I mainly think that you are not someone else, maybe because you are a student of painting, and your eyes are very pure when looking at people."

……

Pure? Which eye of yours sees me pure? I have evil thoughts! My evil thoughts are like red lotus flames! To press."

To be honest, his skills are good, it seems that the Department of Physical Education has a special professor on how to massage to relieve minor sports injuries. In short, I fell asleep within 1 minute. When I woke up, I saw Xu Zhenren and A Zhu eating duck necks around the table. .Master Xu stepped forward and said, "You and Ah Zhu are very dangerous, and you are very dangerous."

I looked at A'Zhu, A'Zhu shook his head at me with a bewildered face, so I scolded Master Xu and said, "You are the one who is dangerous, you are the second in the Academy of Fine Arts and no one dares to be the first!"

Xu Zhenren said in Uncle Ge's deep tone: "I would like to turn my heart to the bright moon, but the bright moon shines on the ditch."

Hee'er came back with half a case of beer. We ate and chatted. At about ninety o'clock in the evening, the old dormitory suddenly tripped. Everything was aging. It must be some god who secretly used the electric stove again. We poked our heads out one by one and yelled loudly. Only then did we hear that the building next door was also yelling, so we realized that the whole school had a power outage.

A dormitory without electricity is like an oven.Ah Zhu became lively again, he kept saying, "Shall we go swimming?"

I reluctantly agreed, but I refused to expose my horribly slashed chicken-like body in front of anyone. Heer obviously didn't have this kind of self-consciousness. From this angle, he was like a rib that has been cut by a knife.Ah Zhu's strong and powerful body was floating and sinking in the water. Although I couldn't see it clearly, it was enough for me to imagine. I sighed while thinking about it.

Xu Zhenren can't swim, and like me, he was six or seven points drunk. He lay on the side tossing and turning, muttering to himself, his eyes gleaming sickly - which made me a little scared.

In fact, the school's swimming pool is not open at night during the summer vacation. Even if it is open, it is only open to the swimming team.Fortunately, there was a power outage today, and the moonlight was hazy. No one knew how many people were hiding in the dark corner.

I shook Zhenren Xu and said, "Really! What's wrong with you, Daren? Don't get sick at this time."

Xu Zhenren said: "I'm fine, my soul is wandering in the sky, have you seen it?"

I said, "I'll take you back to the dormitory, and you'll be fine after a night of sleep."

"Tao'er." Xu Zhenren got up suddenly, "What else can you do besides sighing?"

"What?" I asked.

"You have this time to sigh. I don't know how many things you can do. You are only in your 20s. Even if you make a mistake, you still have the opportunity to regret it. What are you afraid of?"

"The real man." I stared at him, my voice trembling, "I really don't know if you are crazy, or if you are really good."

"If you want to do it, do it!" Xu Zhenren stretched out his hand and waved it, as if he was not as sharp as him.

I gritted my teeth and jumped up and ran to the platform. Yes, I have been thinking about it for a long time. Look at the sky, the moon, and the dark campus! You must not miss the beauty of such a beautiful day, and you must create some accidents.

An ancient accident called "artificial respiration."

I also have to make sure that it must be Ah Zhu, if I am unlucky, it is inevitable that when I wake up, I will see the nuclei frantically swiping my mouth.

The ten-meter diving platform was very high, and the wind was very strong. I stood on it and trembled. The night sky was dark blue, with no stars, only a circle of faint white moonlight. I stood up tremblingly while leaning on the railing.The chaotic alcohol in my body and Master Xu's thunderous lion roar made me feel that I have merged with the night sky. I seem to be in control of the whole world, the whole air flow is in motion, and the deep black swimming pool is far away under my feet.

Ah Zhu's smooth back was looming in the water like a fish. When he jumped out of the water again, I closed my eyes and jumped down. That's right, I was going to smash him to the bottom of the pool. I don't know why I would To come up with this idea, but there is only this idea in sight!

How can you make that guy faint?!

I jumped!

Actually I can't dive.

I consciously drew a beautiful arc in the air, and then "slapped" flat on the water like a big cake, neither suppressing the splash nor sending away my consciousness.

No, actually I still have a little bit of consciousness. I know that Ah Zhu and Hei Er were groping me at the bottom of the pool, and I heard them discussing.

Sure enough, I saw you right about this animal...

I just woke up the next day.

Arjuna was sitting by my bed, looking very unhappy.He said: "It's also drunk, why did Xu Zhenren lie on the edge of the pool and sleep, why did you get on the diving platform?

But, but it's obviously that guy who teased me...

"Taoer." A'Zhu said, "The real person asked his attending physician, and he said that your situation may be caused by excessive psychological pressure, and that you may have self-injury and self-harm in the future. Let us observe you carefully." .”

He pulled the stool closer and said, "From now on, I will monitor you closely 24 hours a day."

I was dumbfounded: "Are you kidding?"

"No kidding."

"I am fine."

"busy."

"For what reason would you rather trust a neurologist than me?"

"Because you're crazy!" he growled.

The first time I saw him lose his temper, it was still scary.

"Where's He, He'er? Where's Master Xu?" I began to seek maternal comfort.

"I went to class, and I'm on duty for these few hours."

We sat in silence for a while, my face must be paler than the wall now, and for the first time, I had the idea of ​​not wanting to see him.

I loathe myself.

"Where are you going?" he asked.

"museum."

"go together."

"No need" I said feebly.

"Go together!" he roared.

"Okay, okay, stop barking, I'm very upset..."

I squatted in the corner of the museum and drew with a sketchbook. I have been drawing for more than half an hour. The ghost knows what I am drawing. It is just a bunch of messy lines. , without any signs of fatigue.

I secretly called Hei'er and said, "Come and pick me up, Ah Zhu is too scary."

Hei'er said "Cooperate with the treatment" and cut the cord.I could only call Mr. Xu, who laughed like no one else in class: "Aha! Ahahaha! Ten-meter platform! Ahahahahaha!"

brute!

I put away the pen and paper, and Ah Zhu asked, "Are you leaving? Where are you going this time?"

Some people will kill me and wait for the artist's heart to die, I can't think of where to go, sometimes two people alone are not called dating.

He suggested: "Go to the Internet cafe, I will play games with you for a while."

I don't play games, not every idiot does.Yan Xiaoer added me as a friend, and after 15 minutes of tirelessly beating his profile picture, I clicked on the message.

Yan Xiaoer asked, "How are you doing recently?"

I said: "It's okay."

He asked, "How is Ah Zhu?"

"What do you care about Arjuna? What laws of physics does he violate?"

Yan Xiaoer said: "If you feel unhappy, go out and have fun. Traveling is the best way to get happiness, and it can also gain spiritual enlightenment."

I was awakened by him all of a sudden, and when I returned to the dormitory at night, I announced that I was going to Tibet.

"Don't worry about it, Tao'er!" Hei'er said casually.

I didn't make a fuss, I just went to Tibet, I went on a pilgrimage, to learn scriptures, to purify my soul... How did that song sing? "Mani piles on the sun and rain", I want to bathe in the sun and rain.

"Are you rich?" A'Zhu asked.

I still have more than 1000 under my pillow, a computer that can be sold, and a half-new bicycle that I can ride to Lhasa.I sat down and started writing a glowing note to my English teacher, which I crammed into her office overnight.

At eight o'clock in the morning, I set off facing the rising sun, and I didn't expect any of them to see me off. Xuanzang was lonely, Jianzhen was lonely, Kumarajiva was lonely, and anyone who wholeheartedly seeks the Dharma is lonely.

I glanced at the dormitory with nostalgia, saying goodbye to everyone, and I might have been sanctified when I came back. I left the dormitory building and saw the English teacher standing in front of me.This powerful woman overpowered me in an instant with one hand.

"Going to Tibet? Huh?" She pinched the back of my neck.

"Let me tell you, I have been a volunteer for your Academy of Fine Arts for so many years. Every year in the middle of the summer vacation, there are always a few people who jump out and clamor to go to Tibet, to Dunhuang, to Qaidam, to Lop Nur, to pilgrimage, to Gather the wind and discover the true meaning of life. Think beautifully! No matter you escape to the ends of the earth, go to the ninety-nine world, go to the five oceans, or go down to the eighteenth floor of hell, CET-[-] is still waiting for you! You can’t escape! Now go back to your dormitory go!

I rolled back to the dormitory, and the three Ma friends were waiting for me in their spare time. I buried my head in Heer's arms and silently shed tears of humiliation.

Hei'er said, "Seeing Shao Liming this morning, how do you feel?"

"It's so exciting." I sobbed.

"Shao Liming is like this, always giving you a fatal blow when you are not expecting."

Even Master Xu said sympathetically.

At this time, Shao Liming shouted from downstairs again: "Who was that just now! Peach, peach or something! Peach shadow!"

I timidly poked my head out of the window.Shao Liming said: "Since you guys are so free, why don't you help our old Wu! I'll pay your wages!"

Her old Wu is Xu