Xiao Mu

On the way to the work base, Xiao Mu and I kept chatting.Chat, 24 hours a day, except for the ten hours of work and seven or eight hours of sleep, there is not much time for chatting that really belongs to us.What is there to talk about?Life, ideals, love, childbirth...all topics that can attract interest deviate from reality, we are locked in a confinement place, without life and ideals, let alone love and childbirth——Arabian Nights It was used to coax His Majesty to sleep. People like us can't afford it.Occasionally, we also think about living things.How to live, how to live, and what to live to be happy.Just thinking, not discussing.In fact, to live is to take care of the present and nothing more.We who are the least free know the true meaning of life better than the freest crowd.

At □□, through the window of the base workshop, I saw the blue sky and white clouds, and occasionally there were a few birds chirping, but I don't know which direction it came from.Ah Zheng was taken away at this time.His willpower is weak, he can't stand the toss, and he collapsed in two or three strokes. He has been yelling in the base since early in the morning: "I want my godmother, I want to eat grandma, I want me to fuck Mom, I want to eat grandma..." The staff next to him first threatened him: "You are a fucking madman, and if you make trouble, you can't eat it." Then the leaders came, and they said nothing. Without saying anything, the security guards were called directly, and Ah Zheng, who had been shouting indiscriminately, was forcibly taken away.We watched Ah Zheng and the security guards leave, but were interrupted by the ensuing scolding.We continue to work in peace and daydream restlessly.

Two days later, Ah Zheng's inspection report came out: everything was normal.The leader asked him a few mentally handicapped questions like how much one plus one equals, and he answered them all fluently.So I guessed that the situation the day before yesterday was just the periodic restlessness of the boy, and it should not affect his work in the future.Ah Zheng was sent back again.When he came back, he bowed his head shyly. After the leader finished speaking, he also made a formal speech: "Two days ago, I wandered off in my thoughts and brought bad influence to everyone. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. "The workers in the base were very knowledgeable, and they gave warm applause one by one, which seemed to forgive Ah Zheng, showing: You are still our comrade in arms, and we will work together to fight for a better tomorrow.Ah Zheng was very happy about this, and the bosses smiled knowingly.Xiao Mu glanced at her surroundings indifferently, subdued her faint emotions, lowered her eyelids, and continued with her busy work.I tried to find some answers from Xiao Mu's expression, answers that she might have already touched—I admit, I am no wiser than Xiao Mu—but it was in vain.

The last three days, the ordinary and safe three days, seemed ordinary, but they were more like accumulating some kind of energy, an energy that could not be increased or decreased by others, and could not interfere with existence.Only, only I can feel it, it is the eagle's love for the sky, the boa constrictor's love for the grassland, it is a kind of primordial instinct, showing the ultimate beauty.

The sky of that night seemed to be smeared with thick ink, deep and steady, intoxicating and seductive.It hides the eagerness to move, seduces all spiritual beings, and bewitches all ghosts and monsters.Space is limited, time is stagnant, only the sky is free from any constraints, which has a symbolic meaning.People who yearn for freedom and try to get rid of limitations and stagnation will flock to the sky and devote themselves to the eternity of themselves, just like the shining stars in the sky and the eternal night wind blowing.Against this background, in a space-time background with very insinuating conditions, a sharp sound pierced the silence, the calm night was shaken, and the small animals that moved safely were frightened—A Zheng, our young comrade-in-arms, Colleagues, poor workers, independently directed a curtain call performance, and then were gently and affectionately taken away by the night. ． ．

For the first time, the lights in the base dormitory lasted all night. Xiao Mu and I hid in the corner of the wall, listening to the noisy footsteps, shouts, and pushing outside the wall... The dawn of the next day seemed to be waiting for a thousand years. It became a little haggard, and so did Xiao Mu.We passed each other, met each other face to face, our eyes met plainly, silent, without words.Then, as usual, I dressed up, washed, took fluids, and ran to the workshop. The long day unfolded peacefully.

The loudspeaker in the work room was so loud that the leader's sonorous and powerful voice spread to every corner of the base. He said: "A certain worker slipped and fell to his death, please pay attention to safety. A certain worker slipped and fell to his death last night. As a warning..." There are many words and tricks, but there is no more content, which is a bit of a waste of our waiting.Xiao Mu was raising his hand, and the newly added supervisor asked, "What's the matter?" Xiao Mu gestured, meaning to go to the bathroom, and the supervisor nodded to express his permission.I followed suit and raised my hand, but the man yelled at me viciously: "One by one!" I couldn't protest, so I cast a long glance in the direction of the toilet helplessly, and then waited for Xiao Mu's return with peace of mind.Am I also very charming at this time?Suddenly, I feel that what Xiao Mu said is right, it doesn't matter whether it's charming or charming, it's nothing, we are all the same.

I asked Xiao Mu with my lips: "Why did you go?" Xiao Mu replied: "Go to the bathroom." I didn't believe it.If saying this insults our friendship, then I can change my words: I believe, believe that what Xiao Mu said is a lie, and she knows that I know.Xiao Mu's white paper disappeared, and the candy never crawled out of her pocket. She was always doing the work in front of her.If the intention is for her to use work to numb her nerves, or if she can't bear the intimidation and works unrestrainedly, then Xiao Mu's image will become ordinary and not distinctive.As her friend, I have to describe this to you: Xiao Mu is a meticulous person, and she can skillfully express these character traits in her work.Yes, she followed the procedures, methodically, and worked conscientiously, without showing any emotion or thought.This is the correct "knowing the current affairs to be a hero", and the correct "being wise and protecting one's life".Xiao Mu can grasp the right movement, the right everything, and I am extremely proud of being her friend.

In the evening, we sat in the cafeteria and had dinner, a bowl of small rice and two side dishes.I tentatively asked Xiao Mu: "How do you feel today?" Xiao Mu didn't answer me, and confidently released the poor thing that had been in his pocket for a whole day, and pressed the red button to restart the machine.After reading the data successfully, three messages popped up on the screen. I could clearly see that there were three messages.Xiao Mu didn't look at them, just threw them into the trash can, and pressed "Permanent Erase", never to see them again.I can't understand this kind of behavior, it's not Xiao Mu's style.Xiao Mu looked up at me and gave me the answer: I don’t need this thing in the future, it’s troublesome.Meaning, she doesn't care about these things anymore—our connection to the outside world, whatever the outside world reflects and offers. "Caring" is a delicate thing. Under the constraints of time and space, we have to make some adjustments in due course.Adjust caring to not caring, and adjust not caring to caring. This is not a violation of the wish, but it is to better and enrich the reality of the temporary space on the ground.Truth rules everything, and we are ruled by everything.I didn't express my intentions, I have been in alliance with Xiao Mu for a long time, so she should be able to understand it.