Come on, butcher

Fei Mo drove out, passed a convenience store, got out of the car and carried two boxes of beer up, and drove the car to the beach, looking for a quiet place to drink, but the beach was extremely noisy in summer nights, and there were people camping and barbecues.

Fermo went to two beaches, but he didn't intend to go down. Xiao Xi suggested, "Why don't I drive, and I'll take you to a place with few people."

Fei Mo didn't speak, but stopped the car, got out, and replaced Xiao Xi as the driver.Xiao Xi drove the car to Binhai Road, which has mountains, cliffs, reefs, etc. There are relatively few beaches, and there are scattered beaches among them, and the area is not large, and there are few tourists.Xiao Xi was very familiar with this area, so he soon drove the car to a bay and stopped. Below was a small sandy beach, enough for a few people to sit and enjoy the sea breeze.

There was no one here, and Fei Mo, who had been silent all this time, suddenly said, "It's good here, it's quiet."

Zheng Haifei got out of the car and silently moved out the two boxes of beer.Xiao Xi thought for a while and said, "You go down first, and I'll come as soon as I go." After speaking, he drove away.

Xiao Xi knew that the two of them must be looking for a place to drink, but they couldn't just drink without eating, so he drove to a nearby supermarket to buy a bunch of snacks and cooked food.When they came back, Fermo was already in the sea, and Zheng Haifei was sitting on the beach drinking.There was no light on the beach, only the street lamps on the Binhai Road faintly shone, and with the half moon in the sky, it was not too dark.

Xiao Xi carried his food and walked to Zheng Haifei's side. He saw three lit cigarettes stuck in the sand, and three opened bottles of beer lined up in front of the cigarettes. It seemed that they were paying homage to Zhang Huayuan.Xiao Xi silently sat down beside Zheng Haifei, took a sip of beer.

Zheng Haifei put the beer on his knees, pressed his face against the mouth of the bottle, looked at Xiao Xi, and said suddenly: "Sometimes I feel that my life in this world is actually superfluous."

Xiao Xi almost choked on the beer, he quickly spit out the wine in his mouth, coughed twice: "What nonsense are you talking about?" I thought Zheng Haifei was a very strong man from the outside to the inside, but I didn't expect his heart to be so fragile. Probably everyone has weaknesses.

Zheng Haifei looked up at the bright moon in the sky: "You won't understand. When a person's relatives and friends are far away from him, wouldn't he doubt the meaning of his life?"

Xiao Xi said: "I may not be able to empathize with your situation, but I have never doubted the value of life and the meaning of existence. No matter what, whether it is sad or happy, it is a way of life. Brother Zheng , I feel very sad to see you like this, I don't think this is you, or rather, it shouldn't be you."

Zheng Haifei smiled wryly: "I'm sorry to disappoint you."

Xiao Xi shook her head: "I'm not disappointed, I just hope you can be happier."

Zheng Haifei suddenly raised his hand to wipe his face, then poured the wine bottle into his mouth, and found that the bottle was empty with only a few drops of wine, so he threw the bottle aside and said: "The day Hua Yuan died, I was actually on duty. , but I suffered from chronic appendicitis, so painful that I couldn’t get out of bed, he went to take my shift, and there was an accident. I really can’t forgive myself for this, if I had operated on when I first had appendicitis If I had done it, this kind of situation would not have happened. Because I was lucky enough to not have the operation, and as a result, my mother lost her son, Hua Ming lost her brother, Fei Mo lost her lover, and I lost my best friend. A good teacher and helpful friend. Although they all say they don’t blame me, do you think I deserve to be forgiven?” He said, his voice choked up.

It turned out that this is the case, Xiao Xi glanced at Fei Mo who was desperately beating the sea in the water, and looked back at Zheng Haifei sympathetically: "Brother Zheng, no one can predict this kind of thing in advance, right? It has already happened, and we have lost some There is no way to restore it, so we can only make up for it as much as possible.”

Zheng Haifei didn't speak, and buried his head in his arms, wondering if he was crying.Xiao Xi didn't bother him, he got up, walked to the beach, and said to Fei Mo who was fighting against the waves in the water: "Brother Fei, I bought something to eat, do you want to eat?"

Fermo finally stopped his thumping movements and floated on the sea surface, allowing the waves to carry him up and down from time to time.Xiao Xi is not worried that he will drown. Swimming lessons for nautical majors are compulsory courses, and the requirements are not as simple as passing.He waited on the shore for a while, and when he was about to go down, Fermo changed his position in the water and started to swim towards the shore. ?”

"I bought chicken legs, pig's trotters, shredded squid, beef jerky, and alcoholic peanuts."

"I like the drunkard Peanut." Fei Mo wiped a handful of water with his hand, and walked towards Zheng Haifei, with the usual expression on his face, looking like a normal person.Xiao Xi knew that Fei Mo was not all right, he went into the water without taking off his clothes, and now he just vented his emotions in the sea.

Fei Mo walked up to Zheng Haifei, raised his foot and kicked him on the calf: "Old Zheng, go make a fire to warm up, it's freezing to death."

Zheng Haifei raised his head from his arms, nodded, got up and left.Xiao Xi hurriedly followed: "I know where there is firewood."

Zheng Haifei glanced at him and nodded: "Lead the way."

Xiao Xi took Zheng Haifei to find a pile of dry tree trunks and fallen leaves under a rock, which should have been washed up by sea water, and the two carried all the firewood back.Fei Mo took off all his clothes and lay on the beach with only a pair of underwear on. He was chewing squid shreds and throwing drunkard peanuts for fun. Hearing the movement, he twisted his neck back and said, "Squid shreds and peanuts, I found it tastes better like this." Pretty good too."

Xiao Xi wanted to help light the fire quickly, but he had never done this kind of thing before, and he was short of ignition materials. The lighter could not light wood at all, and he was indifferent after lighting it several times. Zheng Haifei said: "Leave it alone, I will He walked away for a while, found some dry leaves and weeds, put the branches on top carefully, lit the leaves with a lighter, and the branches above were also ignited as the leaves burned. To help the fire, the dry branches burst into flames, and the light on the beach brightened.

Fermo saw the fire, sat up, and moved closer to the fire: "There is really fire, you are really good."

Xiao Xi took out all the food, spread the bag on the beach, and placed all the food on the side of the bag, and the three of them drank and ate by the fire.Fermo gnawed on the chicken leg, looked at the fire, and said unconsciously: "I came here for summer vacation that year, and you also took me to the beach to camp, just like today."

Xiao Xi raised her eyes, glanced at Fei Mo, then at Zheng Haifei, but said nothing.

Fei Mo raised the bottle: "Hua Yuan is not here, but Xiao Xi is here, and there are still three of us. For this rare fate, let's make a bottle and drink it up as a respect!"

The three bottles collided with each other, making a crisp "ding" sound, and all three of them blew down on the mouth of the bottle.Fei Mo finished drinking, sighed, raised his hand and patted Zheng Haifei's shoulder: "Okay, it's been seven years, it's time to turn the page, don't worry about it, it's not your fault, It was purely an accident. The life of the living must continue. I came this time to tell you that I will not come every year in the future. For me, Huayuan has to turn the page, of course I am not To forget him, just put him in a corner that won't be easily turned over. You said, Huayuan won't blame me, right?"

Zheng Haifei looked at the gradually blurred sea under the moonlight: "Of course not, you should have your life."

Fermo said: "You too, look forward. Today is my farewell ceremony with Huayuan. You can drink with me at the bar. If you don't get drunk, you won't go home."

Xiao Xi naturally risked his life to accompany the gentleman.To be honest, the two pieces of beer were not much. With Zheng Haifei's drinking capacity, he probably wouldn't react if he drank them all by himself. However, all three of them were drunk, and Zheng Haifei was the most drunk. It seemed that the drinking capacity was also related to his mood.Both Zheng Haifei and Fermo fell asleep directly on the beach, Xiao Xi drank the least, and he was the clearest, knowing that the night at the beach would be a bit cold, and wanted to wake them up and go back to his house to sleep, but they couldn't wake them up at all. He couldn't help the two big men who were completely asleep, so he ran to the car, found some clothes and blankets that could keep out the cold, set them up for Fei Mo and Zheng Haifei, and found some dead branches. He burned the fire vigorously, and then lay down next to Zheng Haifei.

As the temperature dropped at night, the fire was gradually extinguished. Xiao Xi felt cold in her sleep, so she subconsciously searched for a heat source, and finally found a warm body, and fell asleep next to her.Zheng Haifei also felt a little cold, so he hugged a small warm stove beside him in his arms.

Fei Mo woke up from the cold, he opened his eyes, the sky turned white, and the morning star was gradually disappearing from the sky, he glanced around, there were only a few ashes left after the fire, Zheng Haifei and Xiao Xi hugged each other To keep warm, to hug like a person.He couldn't help laughing, his cell phone rang suddenly, someone sent a WeChat message, he looked at the content of the WeChat message - "Should we start now?" Fei Mo smiled and replied: " Yes! Wait for me to come back!" After speaking, he stood up, covered Zheng Haifei and Xiao Xi with the blankets on his body, took his own things, and walked back to the car gently. He took a photo, sent it to Zheng Haifei, and added a sentence: "Cherish everything in front of you." Then he started the car and left.