Fearless

"Cough, cough, cough!" As soon as Lin Yanzhi said this, Meng Huaiyu choked on his own saliva.

Fuck, fuck, this isn't Lin Yanzhi's sultry style of painting, is it?What kind of blow has he suffered in the past few years?How dare you say that to your family? !

Hearing Meng Huaiyu's cough, Lin Yanzhi looked at him while maintaining the posture of answering the phone, frowned slightly, then walked towards him, touched his back by the sound, and patted him slowly.

"Ahem, ahem! I'm fine, I just choked..." Meng Huaiyu quickly patted Lin Yanzhi, so that the other party didn't have to take care of him. "You answer the phone, answer the phone, leave me alone..."

"...In other words, after all these years, you haven't forgotten him?" After a moment of silence, Mrs. Lin opposite spoke with a slight sigh, "It's not that Mom doesn't understand your feelings, but he has already I'm dead, I think if Meng Huaiyu has feelings for you, he will feel sorry for you when he sees you like this..."

"You don't have the right to mention him." Lin Yanzhi's tone turned cold when Meng Huaiyu was involved, with a hint of anger, "Mom, it's been so many years, it's fine not to mention him, but I have to tell you that when you I know about going to him." However, even though he was in a cold state, Lin Yanzhi still did not forget to pat Meng Huaiyu on the back to help him feel better.

Meng Huaiyu, who was listening to the conversation between the mother and son, was taken aback.

"In other words?" Mrs. Lin's voice finally changed when she heard her son talking about the past, with some panic, "It's true that I didn't know...but you can't hate your mother for an outsider. Many years! Mom is doing it for your own good, for so many years..." Mrs. Lin's tone is no longer tough now, although she is calm but faintly pleading, "Listen to my mother, come back to have a meal at night? Your father also Miss you... we are a family together, okay?"

"...I see." In the end, Lin Yanzhi just said this, his tone still cold and unfamiliar, "I will go back tonight." After finishing speaking, he hung up the phone directly. Although he suppressed the coldness in his eyes forcefully, Meng Huaiyu How could it not be seen that Lin Yanzhi was in a bad mood right now.

In fact, I don't have any feelings for Mrs. Lin, Meng Huaiyu, neither liking nor dislike, nor trampling on dignity. Although Mrs. Lin came to him to open his mouth to give money and keep his mouth shut. It was indeed a severe blow to his fragile youth. Self-esteem, but he never felt that the other party was wrong.

That's right, no matter how bad Lin Yanzhi was, he was still protected by his parents, worried that he would disturb his son's future, and worried that his son would be discriminated against for being gay, but as for him, he was born without a mother.

"Hey, Lin Yanzhi..." After thinking about it, although she didn't really want to take on the role of comforting people, Meng Huaiyu felt that it would be better to explain some things clearly, "You know me, I'm just a broken man. Personality, so when your mother came to find me, I wasn't too shocked...because I was really not good enough for you at that time, and what your mother said was right..." Lin Yanzhi looked at it with dark eyes Meng Huaiyu didn't speak.

Seeing that Lin Yanzhi didn't answer, Meng Huaiyu twitched the corners of his mouth, and could only continue to rack his brains, "What do I mean...you don't have to make trouble with your mother now, I'm dead anyway , what happened back then has passed so long, there is nothing to worry about... Your mother is right, I see you like this now... how to say... it's strange."

"So? What do you mean?" Lin Yanzhi spoke, his tone was colder than before, "You are telling me what to do now?" His expression was still indifferent, and his expression did not show much anger Or anger, but Meng Huaiyu shuddered abruptly. Now he suddenly sensed a danger from Lin Yanzhi, quite dangerous.

But the words have come to this point, and Meng Huaiyu has no intention of backing down, "So...I think, you can go home and have a good talk with her. Your mother's intentions are good, and I agree with her point of view , you should find someone to take care of you...that would be good for you."

After saying this, the entire space was suffocated in silence for a long time.

"Meng Huaiyu, why didn't I realize that you are so kind before." After a long time, Lin Yanzhi gritted his teeth and said, his eyes were bleak, "What are you thinking? You still don't believe me, do you?"

Meng Huaiyu remained silent.

"I really don't understand sometimes," Lin Yanzhi saw that Meng Huaiyu hadn't spoken, so he leaned against the wall to himself, as if talking to himself, "I admit that I used to have a bad personality. Let's communicate. No, I admit it too. It was my fault when you left, but you have also seen how much I have changed over the years, and you have also seen what kind of mentality I have to love you—seeing death as home .That's how I treat you. But what about you? What do you think?"

Meng Huaiyu opened his mouth, but found that his throat was blocked and he couldn't make a sound.

"If you think I'm not doing well, you can tell me, we can coordinate, I really cherish you more than anyone else now, really," Lin Yanzhi never said such things before, now it seems It was also forced by Meng Huaiyu, "Do you know how I endured that day when I found out that you were dead? Meng Huaiyu, you have always been like this. When can you think about it for me?" It's a question. "You've been with me for a long time. I don't believe you don't have any feelings for me. But, since you've seen my feelings, how do you say that?"

The atmosphere was silent again.

"Lin Yanzhi...how did you ever understand me?" Meng Huaiyu said suddenly, the tiredness in his tone was imperceptible, "I want to know what ghost image I am in your heart now." He suddenly realized own mistake.

He always said that Lin Yanzhi understood him, understood him, and understood his character, which was true, but Lin Yanzhi's impression of him had been solidified in high school, and he could not see any changes after Meng Huaiyu's death. He always thought that Meng Huaiyu was selfish, inferior, and never caring about others.

But Meng Huaiyu thinks that he is not such a person now.People are subject to change. He thought he had changed for the better, but Lin Yanzhi couldn't see it.He also said that he didn't trust Lin Yanzhi, did Lin Yanzhi never trust him?

"Anyway, we don't have anything to talk about now, can we not talk about it?" Meng Huaiyu became annoyed after thinking about it. He knew that he was emotionally unstable now, and he didn't want to fight Lin Yanzhi, who was also emotionally unstable, over this matter. , the best way is for both parties to calm down and deal with it coldly first.

Lin Yanzhi closed his eyes, as if he was trying to suppress his emotions, "Okay," he opened his eyes again, and his tone and movements returned to normal, "Calm down." After a pause, he continued He said, "Meng Huaiyu, I hope you really trust me."

... Get rid of your uncle's trust!Meng Huaiyu endured and endured so that he didn't explode. To be honest, he has never thought about anyone so much in his life. He has always been selfish. It's true, but Lin Yanzhi doesn't think about it. If Meng Huaiyu is still selfish now People, will he persuade Lin Yanzhi to find a partner?He's not stupid, even though he is a soul body now, wouldn't it be better to have someone to take care of him and accompany him for the rest of his life?If he was really selfish, why didn't he just tell Lin Yanzhi "I love you" and use this to trap Lin Yanzhi for the rest of his life?

But he can't now.He also has feelings for Lin Yanzhi, so he naturally hopes that he can live a good life. Meng Huaiyu is dead now, even if he lives in this state, he is not alive, and his future is no future.But Lin Yanzhi's future still has a long way to go.So he wanted to find someone who could take care of Lin Yanzhi, but Lin Yanzhi didn't understand him at all.

To put it bluntly, Lin Yanzhi still didn't trust him.

Because of this unpleasant conversation, the atmosphere between the two of them in the afternoon was not hostile but dropped to a freezing point. Lin Yanzhi would still take care of Meng Huaiyu and help him turn over the book, but he would never say anything again, although he was originally a seldom talker. Meng Huaiyu was even more obvious. He used to talk a lot, but now he doesn't speak at all, just burying his head in the book. Sometimes Lin Yanzhi changed his focus to a document and forgot to turn the book for him, and he didn't say a word. When Lin Yanzhi found out After that, his face became colder.Not to mention those intimate body movements before, all are gone, and even Meng Huaiyu doesn't touch Lin Yanzhi at all.

When Lin Yanzhi finished handling the company's business, it was almost evening. Lin Yanzhi hesitated, "Are you with me?" He spoke.

"...No need, I'll go shopping by myself and I'll go back tonight." Meng Huaiyu thought for a while but refused, not to mention what he would do with Lin Yanzhi in that stiff atmosphere, he also He really didn't have any interest in the short stories of the Lin family's parents. What would he do if his parents cared about their children.

"En." Hearing Meng Huaiyu's words, Lin Yanzhi's eyes flashed a gleam of gloom, but he concealed it so well that Meng Huaiyu was so absent-minded that he didn't notice it, "Then I'll go first, and you...be careful." Then, Lin Yanzhi got up, put on his coat and took the keys to leave.

"Well, it's okay, let's go." Meng Huaiyu said casually, looking at the scene of heavy traffic and dim lights outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, showing no expression.

Lin Yanzhi opened the door and left without hesitation, leaving Meng Huaiyu sitting on a chair alone, thinking about how to spend the night for such a long time. After all, even though he said he wanted to go out just now, he really had nothing to do. Just say it casually.

After thinking about it, Meng Huaiyu stood up and stretched her waist. Forget it, let's go for a walk first. Walking around is boring.

The author has something to say: There are still conflicts between two people. After all, no one is perfect, and everyone has shortcomings. You always need to adjust to your own shortcomings...Only when the relationship is resolved will it be stronger qwq