Reluctant

He didn't seem to realize it.

Then he tried hard to smile.

"I'm working hard to stay alive, you can see that right... you can see that I'm smiling..."

"I'll fall asleep later, you remember to come and see me, I left a light for you."

"Su She, have I told you..." Bai Huan let go of his hand, laying it flat on the ground, looking at the ceiling a little distractedly, "I don't like being alone..."

"Alone... really lonely..."

"Very lonely..."

(53)

When Bai Huan woke up in a daze, there was light coming in from the window.

His vest was cold, Bai Huan got up on the ground, his expression a little sad.

Opening the door, Liu Liu fluttered at his feet.

Bai Huan leaned over to pick it up, and rubbed Liuliu's head affectionately, "It's dawn..."

The lights left last night were still on.

Pressing the switch, Baihuan went to the kitchen again, let Liuliu stay on the blanket beside him, and started washing rice and cooking porridge by himself.

After cooking the porridge, Bai Huan took a sip from the spoon, frowned, and threw the pot directly into the trash can.

There was white gas coming out of the trash can, Bai Huan stared blankly for a while.

"No…"

No taste of Sushe.

"Nothing..."

……

When Su She knew about Bai Huan's body cold, he was so anxious that he ran to the traditional Chinese medicine hospital every day.

Looking for an old Chinese doctor to find a way to dispel the cold, Su She would make the house look like a medicine stove every winter.

Bai Huan was afraid of suffering, so he always kept a cold face and refused to drink the soup. Su She patiently cooked porridge for him, saying that after taking the medicine, the porridge would taste like his mother.

Back then, Bai Huan said coldly that you would also know the smell of mother?

Su She had no choice but to lower her head.

Now that there is the porridge bought in the hotel in front of him, Bai Huan only feels bitter in his heart.

Back then...why did I treat him like that.

My hands and feet were freezing in the snow yesterday, and I slept on the floor at night, my head was a little dizzy, and I felt like vomiting without taking a bite of the porridge.

He didn't buy anything to keep out the cold. Sitting cross-legged at the small desk in the office, Bai Huan felt a little cold.

The familiar people around looked at him with pity, as if he was dying.

Thinking about it, Bai Huan felt it was funny, so he curled the corners of his mouth.

Liuliu looked better when he went out in the morning, remember to bring some jerky for him when he returns home at night.

The sugar at home is almost gone, um... go to the supermarket downstairs and move all the counters back...

Su She's spring clothes should also be bought.

Hmm... and the cake he was clamoring to buy a few days ago...

"President..." Secretary Ruan's voice came from the door, "Miss Shen from Shen's Jewelry said she wanted to see you."

Bai Huan glanced at the door lightly, there was already a woman's body leaning out from behind Ruan Qing, her smile was suppressed and her voice responded coldly.

The woman pushed Ruan Qing away and walked in.

Bai Huan looked at Shen Qian as usual, with a trace of indifference in his eyes.

"Bai... Young Master Bai." Shen Qian lowered her head slightly and looked at Bai Huan who was sitting on the ground, her unnatural voice weakened.

"What's the matter?" Looking at the marriage partner he was going to meet tomorrow, Bai Huan couldn't say he hated it, but that was all.

Shen Qian wrung her hands, as if it was hard to say it.

Seeing that she was speechless for a long time, Bai Huan lowered his eyes and stopped looking at her, "If it's hard to say, don't say it. It's the same if we meet tomorrow."

"No..." Shen Qian shook her head, "I...I have a boyfriend..."

Bai Huan glanced at the corner of his mouth when he heard this, and his eyes showed some clarity, "Yeah."

"Then... I broke up with him." Shen Qian grasped her hand a little helplessly.

Bai Huan didn't respond this time, but just gave a faint "hmm".

"I... know that your Bai family is very powerful." Shen Qian looked up at Bai Huan's profile, "Even if we get married...you won't like me."

Bai Huan remained silent, his expression a bit cold.

"My dad asked me to marry you, so I can only break up with him..."

"Miss Shen means that if we can get married...you still want to fall in love with that man, don't you?" Bai Huan interrupted Shen Qian directly. With a trace of tiredness, "It's up to you."

I really can't love anyone anymore.

Shen Qian's expression changed, "Master Bai..."

Bai Huan really had a severe headache, so he stretched out his hand to support the table, "Please tell me the main point."

Seeing that Bai Huan's expression was really bad, Shen Qian didn't hold back anymore, and raised her voice slightly, "I broke up with my boyfriend because of you, so he might hold a grudge against you... Then he doesn't have much ability, I'm afraid he will do something stupid."

Bai Huan was a little tired, his eyes narrowed slightly, "The Bai family's power is divided into black and white, are you afraid that if he fails to retaliate against me, he will be retaliated by me instead?"

Shen Qian nodded, "He can't do any big things, and he can't hurt you. If something really happens, please don't remember the villain's fault..."

"Yeah." Bai Huan nodded slightly, feeling amused in his heart.

Being hated before getting married and deciding on a partner?

but…

Sushe.

You should know, right?

I am getting married.

……

It was not easy for Shen Qian to leave, but the porridge turned cold.

Bai Huan took a sip of the porridge from the bowl, before spitting it out before swallowing it.

Fortunately, I didn't spit on the ground.Bai Huan thought to himself while wiping with a paper towel after vomiting.

Throwing away the porridge, Bai Huan got up and went downstairs to buy the cake Su She said he wanted to eat last time.

"Akihabara..." The manager of the cake shop muttered and frowned, "This kind of cake has raw chocolate and should be stored in the refrigerator. Because of the high cost, we stopped selling it two months ago."

Bai Huan looked at the room full of desserts and cakes, and felt a little churning in his stomach.

Rolling up his sleeves, Bai Huan asked softly, "Can I do it now? The price is whatever you want."

"But raw chocolate can only be bought in a few houses on the South Ring Road, and if you buy it, you must get it back within an hour." The store manager looked at Bai Huan with some embarrassment and said, "Raw chocolate is easy to melt...and this chocolate Workshop House only makes [-] a day, if you miss it, you won’t have it. It’s almost noon, and the business over there is very good, and it’s probably sold out.”

Bai Huan glanced at the clock on the wall, 10:30... There is still time, "I will try my best to get back." He said he wanted to turn around and walk out.

As soon as he got in the car, Bai Huan heard the manager of the cake shop shouting from behind, "Oh, that's right! I heard that the owner of that shop is planning to move out, and today might be the last day... You have to hurry up!"

Pursing his lips, Bai Huan's face turned pale.

When I was young, I went to the countryside to play, and the old man there said, "After a person dies, he will go back and look at it for the first seven days; on the eighth day, he will think about waiting; The day is gone."

When you leave, you will never come back.

Is it time to show Su She the cake...

Bai Huan's hands holding the steering wheel trembled slightly, and the speed of the car continued to increase.

——So adults, why are you still afraid of ghosts?

——To be afraid of ghosts is to do something bad, let me tell you...

——One day you will not be afraid of ghosts, it must be my credit.

"Bah." Bai Huan watched the road going backwards, and voices kept passing through his mind.Since the morning, I have been feeling unwell and dizzy, but my mind is still clear, and I still want to refute with Su She in my mind, "I wish you didn't have this credit."

"I'd rather die by myself..." Bai Huan sighed, feeling tired from heart to body, "We should have been together in the last life..."

"Because I love too much and hate too much, so my whole life is not enough, I have to save it for this life."

Su She loves Bai Huan so much that she can't find a glimmer of hope in her bones.

That's a good thing to say.

but…

Don't you hate it so much that you can't find a trace of souvenir in your bones?

So you will be lost.

so.

……

"There are so many things that money can't buy these days." The chocolate maker said without raising his head, "And my last order has just been sold, so I won't make it."

"...I can't ask because I want something..." Bai Huan subconsciously blurted out as he looked down at them sorting out the materials.

"Well...but I don't have any raw materials for this. If you really need it, you can go to other customers to buy it." The master looked up at Bai Huan and frowned.

Why is this guest's complexion so pale, he looks like a dead person.

Bai Huan's eyes suddenly brightened when he heard the words, "Well... thank you, master."

"Are you sick... your complexion is very bad." The master stretched out his hand and pulled Bai Huan's sleeve, "If you keep running around like this, something will happen..."

Bai Huan paused for a few seconds, then smiled at the master, "It's okay... I just didn't sleep well this morning... Thank you for your concern."

"Is it important?" the master asked suddenly.

Bai Huan was stunned for a moment, realizing that the master was asking about chocolate, and then recalling Su She's happy face when he ate a cake last time...

Nodding slightly, she said softly, "My wife likes it very much."

……

Although I knew that the chances of getting the chocolate were slim, I was really sorry when I heard several consecutive replies, I had already eaten it... that feeling of powerlessness.

I just watched the surveillance video and then ran to find those guests. It was time-consuming and laborious, but there was still nothing.

When he walked to the front of the small flower bed and stopped, Bai Huan was panting a little, his eyes turned black, and he leaned slightly on his knees.

"Heh...there are so many things that money can't buy...cough..." Reaching out to wipe off the sweat on his face, Bai Huan shook his body unsteadily.

"I can't buy your life..." He sat down on the edge of the flower bed half-slowly, with slightly longer bangs covering his eyes, "I can't even buy this..."

"Bai Jinglin called me today." Holding the edge of the flower bed slightly with his hand, Bai Huan's voice was a little far away, "Heh, I told you to go to the ground as soon as possible."

"I want to keep you in this world. Even if there is only a handful of ashes..."

"I want to protect you too."

There was still twilight flooding of water on the ground, and snow on the dry shrubs in the flower beds.

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