Reluctant

, the way you look at him..."

"Ok?"

"It's like one glance and one less glance."

"When you look at me, you seem to be telling me, 'Look, Baihuan, I'm leaving you'."

……

After going out for a few days and delaying chemotherapy, Su She's spirit is better than before.

Although his face was not rosy, it was not that pale either.

Seeing this, Bai Huan silently covered Su She with a quilt and told him to rest earlier.

"I'm going to book a plane ticket and take care of some things by the way."

Su She nodded slightly, her whole body was tightly wrapped by the quilt, unable to move.

Bai Huan stared at him for a while, then stretched out his hand to cover the corner of the quilt, "Come back tomorrow at the latest, remember to call me if you have anything to do."

"Okay, I got it." Su She couldn't help but smile, "Do you know that you look like an old lady now?"

Bai Huan raised his eyebrows slightly, "It's because you don't want to make people worry."

Su She smiled after listening, "I'm going to sleep."

Knowing that he was tired, Bai Huan didn't speak anymore, filled the water glass on the table and turned to go out.

Su She was lying on the hospital bed, her eyes touched the thick white of the wall, and her brows were slightly frowned.The body slowly curled up into a ball, and the quilt that Bai Huan had put on was also messed up, Su She felt chills all over.

The feeling of falling into the abyss of absolute cold.

In addition to the cold, there is also pain, continuous, nerve-twitching pain.

"Cough..." After a while, Su She reached out and put her hand to her mouth, wiping the warm blood from the corner of her mouth.

Su She smiled helplessly, "There is no need to make arrangements, how long can I live like this..."

Small and faint voices came from the empty room, which seemed lonely and empty.

……

"What's the matter?" Bai Huan looked at the uninvited woman in front of him with cold and calm eyes.

Lin Xiu frowned, looking at Bai Huan who was thinner than the last time we met, feeling a little distressed, "Xiao Huan, how long has it been since you came home?"

The corner of Bai Huan's mouth curled up when he heard this, and he asked back, "Home? What kind of home?"

Lin Xiu was speechless and remained silent for a while.

"Ms. Lin, you can go out if you have nothing to do." Bai Huan turned around and went to the workbench to make himself a cup of tea, and said in a calm tone.

"Is Su She okay?" Lin Xiu asked suddenly.

Bai Huan suddenly turned his head to look at her, with a sullen expression on his face, "What else do you think of him?"

"...I don't think about him, I just want you to be well." Lin Xiu said, "Su She shouldn't be living in this world, if he can make you happy, that's fine."

Bai Huan looked at her coldly, "You have no right to decide his life or death."

"Yeah." Lin Xiu showed a rare smile.

Bai Huan frowned even deeper, "You treat me so well...why?"

Lin Xiu was stunned for a few seconds, then shook her head, "I also liked someone before."

What Lin Xiu said was inexplicable, but Bai Huan was at a loss when he heard it.

After dealing with the company affairs with a sullen face, Bai Huan went back home.

Liuliu has been staying at Lin An's house for this period of time. No one has lived in the house for almost half a year, and there is a smell of dust in the air.

After taking out a jade pendant from the drawer in the room, a smile finally appeared on Bai Huan's cold face.

The whole body of the jade pendant is dark green, and a small word "she" is engraved inside the square.

This was the jade pendant he had begged for Su She from the temple half a year ago, but Su She had always wanted to leave at that time.

Just put it on hold.

Su She was hospitalized for more than half a year, and Bai Huan had almost forgotten about it. A few days ago, Lin An told him that Su She's condition might be very bad in the later stage of treatment, so he remembered about the jade pendant.

I heard from the presiding officer in the temple that the jade that is prayed for has spirituality.

He can protect the people he loves year after year, safe and sound.

……

"Are you sure he won't beat me up when he comes back?" A deliberately low voice came from the ward, Bai Huan frowned slightly, and stopped walking.

"I'm almost thirty, and I can't decide this by myself?" Su She lowered her voice.

"Then you still keep your voice down, huh... This is a sign of being henpecked." Bai Huan didn't hear the first voice at first, but after listening to this tone... Is Lin An planning to die again?

"Xiao Lin, did Xie Yang, your family, ever say that you owe, fuck?"

Suddenly hearing Su She's words, Bai Huan put his hand to his mouth, his shoulders leaning against the wall trembled a little.

"...Brother Bai is not here, you show your true qualities as a man, you have the guts!"

"He's quite kind in my presence. Wait a minute, you're far away... Let's return to the topic of Liuliu."

Hearing the word "Liu Liu", Bai Huan narrowed his eyes and moved closer.

"Why do you really want me to raise Liuliu?" Lin An's voice.

"It's not a temporary raise, but a stream for you." Su She's voice was a little low, but she didn't hesitate at all.

"...you are crazy!"

After Lin An yelled in a low voice, no one answered for a long while.

Bai Huan, who was standing outside the door, stared at the gray wall in a daze.

"If I die, Liuliu can't be left to Bai Huan. He has his own life. Although Liuliu is not a child or something, he is my baby. I can't let him stay with Baihuan. I can't leave me alone. Leave everything to Bai Huan."

Lin An was at a loss for Su She's resolute words.

Bai Huan pushed the door open and walked in.

His face was normal, even with a hint of a smile.

Su She froze for a few seconds and quickly recovered, showing a smile, "When did you come back?"

Lin An frowned and looked at Su She with a stiff expression.

Bai Huan handed the jade in his hand to Su She, the smile on his face became thicker and thicker, but his voice was a little cold, "This is a jade gift from a friend half a year ago. I found someone to make a jade pendant. If you want it, you can buy it." Keep it, I'll throw it away if you don't want it."

Hearing what he said, Su She quickly snatched the jade pendant, before looking at it carefully, she said, "Since it was given to me, how can you throw it away!"

After hearing this, Bai Huan sneered, raised his eyebrows and looked at Su She, "Since you love me, what does that mean to me?"

Su She was stunned when she heard the words, her face turned pale.

Looking at the jade pendant in his hand, the word "She" is written all over the body in green.

"You still don't believe that I like you, do you?" Bai Huan put his hands in his pockets, looking at Su She with dim eyes.

Su She raised her head to meet his gaze, and quickly shook her head, "I believe it, I believe it."

"Su She, have you ever thought about me?" Bai Huan's face was gloomy, and he clenched his hands in his pockets tightly. The way Su She looked at him... Ever since the accident happened in his company, he always seemed to be sympathetic .

Su She was at a loss and was speechless for a while.

It was only then that Bai Huan really laughed, his eyebrows and eyes were curved, and the corners of his mouth did not show a trace of indifference.

"When you say you love me, you can die for me," he said.

"When you say you want to leave, you can leave without hesitation."

"You said that Bai Huan is a good person, Bai Huan is a good person? How is he good? If he is good, you will become like this?"

Su She opened her eyes wide and looked at Bai Huan's smile, trembling with pain all over her body, "No, I don't blame you... none of your business."

"It's none of my business? Everything about you is none of my business. Liuliu is your baby, are you afraid that I will live a good life and treat him badly?"

"No... how can you think so..."

"Oh, what do you make me think? It's your baby, but you are mine." Bai Huan took a step back suddenly, his eyes filled with sorrow, and he wanted to squat down in sadness.

"You always say what to do when you die? What to do? What do you want me to do?"

"When I don't like you, you still do something to make me like you. You say you..."

"Others say that Bai Huan is indifferent, wanting nothing. It's funny, it's funny... How can a waste be wanting nothing, because he's afraid of asking too much and getting nothing."

"You have considered Liu Liu, Lin An, and Xie Yang."

"And me?"

"What should I do?" Bai Huan asked in a soft voice.

Su She looked at him and opened her mouth, but there was no sound.

The ward became quiet all of a sudden, and the birds chirping outside the window could be vaguely heard.

"Winter is coming soon." Su She recovered after a long time and looked out the window.

Bai Huan casually glanced out of the window.

Su She's soft voice came from next to my ear, "I hope you get married and have children, and live a good life. Su She is just a wet clothes on a rainy day to you, and there will be no traces after drying... just forget it. "

Bai Huan suddenly chuckled, "Okay, as you wish."

"Marry and have children...forget about you."

Su She blinked and smiled, "Well, good."

Bai Huan looked at his smile for a long time before looking away, turned and walked out the door without saying a word.

The closing action of the door made a crashing sound.

Su She seemed to be awakened with a startled look on her face.

"Xiao Lin...Bai Huan just...did he cry?"

Lin An on the side was silent for a long time, when he suddenly heard Su She calling him, he paused for a few seconds and shook his head, "No."

"But I think he's crying." Su She said softly.

Lin An frowned slightly, "That's because you were crying."

Su She was a little distracted, "Really?...I'm crying...Xiao Lin...Liu Liu is really begging you, I can't give it to Bai Huan."

Lin An looked at Su She, he didn't really understand Su She's original intention of doing this.

Even if you die, why don't you cherish the present?

Moreover, how could he be willing to hurt Bai Huan?

"Okay." But no matter what, Su She decided that he would definitely help, no matter what.

Hearing Lin An's response, Su She smiled lightly.

"Little Lin, you are so kind."

"I also ask you to take good care of Bai Huan."

(48)

Bai Huan kicked off the Coke bottle on the ground, and stood by the lake frowning.

"Stupid." Throwing a stone into the lake caused little ripples.

Bai Huan simply sat on the ground, leaning against the guardrail by the lake.

He looked at those ripples expressionlessly.

Su She that idiot.

If only I were the one dying.

Sighing lightly, Bai Huan found that he couldn't get angry at all, he really didn't know if it was okay or not.