A bloody knife

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Zhao Ning nodded: "I came back this time to talk about this matter."

As he said that, he looked at the person opposite: "I was too young back then, I didn't care about the consequences, and I was too impulsive. I apologize to you, Dad, I was wrong. I hope you can forgive me. I will no longer be a Man, if you can agree, I will come back with him to see you and your mother every Chinese New Year."

After a few seconds, the man got up to get another wine glass, walked back and poured some wine into both glasses, and handed one of the glasses to Zhao Ning, silently expressing his intentions.

"Your dad agrees, hurry up and drink up."

When Zhao Ning heard this, he finally stopped being nervous, and suddenly poured the wine into his mouth, the movement was a little hasty, but he choked.

Zheng Qin quickly reached out to pat him, and he gently took the woman's hand away and said with a smile, "Mom, I'm fine, I'm very happy."

The woman blinked, almost crying again.

……

"Ah Ning, are you asleep?"

Zhao Ning just sent a message to Qiao Ran, and when he was waiting for a reply, Zheng Qin knocked on the door outside.

He responded, and turned on another light in the room as well.

The woman sat on the edge of the bed with her things, saw him fiddling with his mobile phone, and asked with a smile, "How about chatting with her?"

Zhao Ning put down the phone: "Well, it's so late, is there anything else?"

Seeing him like this, Zheng Qin was also happy, took his hand, and gave him the bank card he was holding.

"The money here is what you have paid back in the past few years, and some of it was saved by me and your father. Your father is like this. He will not take the initiative to say anything. This money was originally intended to marry you. Use it, you take it."

"No, I can make money by myself. He is very sensible. We are together and don't spend much money."

Zheng Qin scolded: "She saves, you really let her save it so much. Now there are only the two of you, and when you have children in the future, the expenses will definitely not be comparable to what you have now. It's better to live in your house alone. After you have a baby, you have to get a baby room. Parents are useless and can’t give you much money, but the money is enough for you to pay a down payment. After you go back, you can find a new house. The down payment is paid, and later, parents will work hard to help you."

Zhao Ning's expression was a bit complicated under the light, Zheng Qin saw that something was wrong, and hurriedly asked: "What's wrong?"

"We couldn't have a baby," he confessed.

The woman was stunned for a moment, and soon regained her expression: "Have you asked the doctor? It's okay. If there is no other way, it is convenient to adopt now. When you feel suitable, go and have a look, but Mom thinks, you should go earlier .”

Zhao Ning pursed her lips: "What if we don't want children?"

The smile on Zheng Qin's face is no longer gentle: "How can you not have children? Is it because she doesn't want to? No wonder you said you can't have children. Ah Ning, Mom is from here. I know you are still young and don't want children to disturb you. You, but how can you not have children? In this way, when you are old, who can take care of you, right? Mom knows that before you have children, you will be afraid. Mom was like this before giving birth to you. Later, when I saw you in the hospital When you are tightly wrapped up, Mom feels that everything is worth it. Ah Ning, please persuade her again, okay? If not, Mom will help you persuade her, okay?"

Zhao Ning's voice became softer: "What if he just refuses?"

The woman still had that gentle expression, but the words she spoke were colder than the wind in the twelfth lunar month.

"Everyone should have a baby, look at our village, which girl doesn't have a baby, just your cousin, the first child is a girl, the face of the mother-in-law's family changed on the spot, even during the period of confinement, Her own mother took care of them. Later, she gave birth to another one with a handle. Her mother-in-law smiled so much that her mouth was grinning to the sky. Mom is not that kind of person. Mom likes both boys and girls. Mom knows that A Ning has always been very good, even if she did something wrong, it’s all in the past. Now that A Ning is back, we won’t talk about the past. A Ning, you will listen to your mother, right? Ever since you were young, you have been the most Listen to Mom."

The smile in his eyes seemed to be frozen, and some forgotten memories came back.

When he pretended to be firm and left here step by step with expectations, the person in front of him who claimed to do everything for his own good was also standing in front of the door without a word of convincing.

The man who was about to break his leg could at least say one thing, as long as you admit your mistake, it's as if nothing happened.

And Zheng Qin——

From the beginning to the end, I just looked at him with that disappointed look. Those eyes were like a knife. After a long time after I left, I cut off the flesh of his body over and over again, giving him bloody pain.

Later, he survived those difficult days alone, and the woman finally came to the first phone call.

Everyone is greedy for warmth, even Zhao Ning.

So he selectively forgot what happened at that time, and forgot that this gentle person was also the person who hurt him the most.

Zhao Ning didn't mean to conceal Qiao Ran's gender. He knew what homosexuality meant in this village. He didn't care what people thought of him. If people reject him, there are at least two people who can accept it because of him.

He had a glimmer of hope in his heart, thinking that maybe after the marriage was concluded, the certificate was obtained, and everything was settled, the two people might agree.

Now, he realized that he was ridiculous.

Zhao Ning raised the corner of his mouth, it was an indescribable expression that Zheng Qin had never seen before, which made people panic.

"Mom, I forgot to say that the person I want to marry is a man."

It seemed that he was not satisfied with the confession, and he added another sentence with a smile.

"Your son is gay."

……

As the saying goes, fallen leaves return to their roots.

Zhao Ning knew that in his life, his ashes would never enter this land again.

Zhao Ling's ruthless slap that slapped him with a fishy smell, and Zheng Qin's disgusting eyes that looked at him like a monster, all confirmed his thoughts.

——What they want is a well-behaved, obedient and motivated Zhao Ning.

And that Zhao Ning had already been killed by himself when he was in high school.

When he came, he carried two big bags of things, and when he left, he was alone.

There are also those insults, like the seal of Buddha, the words are like nails, engraved on the spine.

During the day, the simple and honest villagers with friendly faces and praises turned into executioners who wished they could kill people with their spittle in the night.

"It's actually gay."

"I've already seen that he's not normal. How can a normal child not go home for so many years? Poor Zheng Qin. After so many years of raising him, he has raised such a disgusting thing."

"I heard that he works in City X, son, you can't go to City X in the future, Mom doesn't want you to suffer from this disease."

"I touched him just now, tsk, this disease is not contagious."

Ten years ago, he left because of his rebellion. While regretting his previous achievements, those people scolded their children loudly, and they must not learn from him.

Ten years later, he contracted the so-called "disease". The group of people who had been educated by him as a negative teaching material grew up and used the same harsh words to educate another group of people who were about to grow up.

When Zhao Ning was at the entrance of the village, he looked back.

The waste soil covered under the cement gave off a rotten and disgusting smell.

……

"Is it Brother Zhao?"

A van stopped in front of him, and the glass fell down, revealing a familiar yet unfamiliar face.

The other party took the initiative to introduce himself: "I, Zhao Chong, you gave me extra lessons when I was young, remember?"

Hearing his mention, Zhao Ning had a vague impression in his mind, and nodded hesitantly.

The young man leaned over and opened the co-pilot's door: "You just came back this afternoon, I still want to see you, but there is a lot of business today, so I can't get away. It's so late, you want to go to town?"

"No."

Zhao Chong was not intimidated by his cold attitude, he patted the cushion of the chair: "Come on, it's very cold, it's hard to call a car, where are you going, I'll give you a ride."

Zhao Ning only hesitated for two seconds before getting into the car.

"Thank you, let's go to the station."

"Station? Are you going back? Didn't you come back for the New Year?"

Zhao Ning: "Well, I won't be coming back."

Zhao Chong knew about that incident back then. After Zhao Ning left, for a long time, the villagers liked to use Zhao Ning as an after-dinner conversation topic.

"What's the matter, you haven't come back for so many years, and now you're finally back, is it possible that Uncle Zhao can still quarrel with you?"

Zhao Ning said softly, "I was kicked out because I thought I was gay."

When he said this, he paid attention to the road conditions.

The car did not drift, and the person operating the steering wheel was as calm as if he hadn't heard anything.

Then, Zhao Chong laughed.

It's the kind of smile that's relaxed and doesn't contain any malice.

"What kind of person is he, he must love you very much?"

Zhao Ning was a little surprised: "Aren't you afraid?"

"What are you afraid of? Did those people say that this is a disease, nausea or something?"

"I'm not them, brother Zhao, I know what you worry about, but please believe me, I'm different from them. In fact, I regret watching you leave like this at that time. If there is a chance to do it again, I I must go with you."

Zhao Ning's mood became a little complicated.

When everyone was eager to contribute and kick him into hell, a person suddenly appeared and gave him a hand.

This feeling cannot be described with simple touch.

"Thank you."

……

Zhao Ning was stopped before entering the station.

The young man ran up to him panting, and handed a brand new red envelope to him.