Eunuchs are not easy

My name is Ann.Because when he was sent to the palace, the jade pendant he carried with him had the word "An" on it.

At first I was Xiao Anzi, and later I became Mrs. An.

After I went to the inner school and learned how to read and write, I gave myself a name, Single Character Ci.

Taking such a name does not mean that I am hypocritical, because I am a hypocritical person.

I've always liked the name.

Until later, I suddenly felt that the meaning of this word was not good, and I didn't like parting.So not long after I returned to the palace that time, I asked the old eunuch of the inner school to change my name by taking the opportunity of promotion.

An Huajin.

An Huajin can be called by everyone, but I just want to leave it to one person to call An Ci.

Entering the palace at the age of six, he has experienced countless ups and downs in the world since he was a child, and he also thinks he has recognized the ugliness of the world.I have long been a blank slate, I like to cover up my bad nature with a hypocritical smile, slowly become smooth, and at the same time, I am used to both ways.

As long as you have more power and higher status than me, then after you slap me, I will pass the other hand with a smile on my face.

But if you are not powerful, no matter how bright your smile is and how low your head is, I will not give you a good look when it comes to interests.

This is the law of survival in the palace. It took me eight years to go from being ignorant to mastering it.

In the past eight years, I have been ridiculed by others, and I have also ridiculed others.My heart is hard and has never been softened by anyone or anything.But the smile on the face is not, depending on the price, as long as you are useful, my smile will not be stingy.

Of course, I also learned to use my own advantages, and gained the favor and rewards of the masters by virtue of the face that once made me miserable.I will also use the limited power in my hands to control those powerless noble girls, let them become my pawns, and help them climb up. The higher I climb, the more I control and the more I can control. People step on the soles of their feet.

I have seen a lot of darkness in the palace, and the cold blood in my bones can no longer be concealed. Sometimes I even feel that what I see in front of me is not a flesh and blood person, but a doll made of bones. There is no emotion in the eyes, only eternal interests.

The coldness of the blood gradually seeps into the flesh, no matter how warm the sun is, no matter how hot the stove is, it can't drive away the cold air around me. I am like an outsider, but I can't get out.

I walk a lot at night, and there are always times when I wrestle.I don't know which noble person I was lucky enough to get in the eyes of, but I was appointed as the supervisor of the army going to Liaodong.

It is said to be an appointment, but in fact it has the same meaning as distribution to the frontier. Who knows what will happen on the road so far away in Liaodong.

Sure enough, ever since I got out of the boundary of the capital, people who came to kill me started pouring in wave after wave.Like how valuable my life is.

I thought this journey would be boring until I died, until I met the sun in my life.

Her blood is hot and her body is warm.

Eyes are bright, when you look at people, you are very focused and sincere, and when you look at each other, you will find that there are all your reflections inside.

Whenever I encounter danger, I will not leave alone, but will hold my hand together.Even though I knew that the source of all disasters came from me, I never thought of leaving me behind.

In fact, this relationship came very suddenly. I grew up in the imperial palace, and I know about the affairs of men and women, but I also disdain the affairs of men and women.

I have been through so much that as long as other people's eyes stay on my face, they will feel sick.

I'm not a real man, and she's...not like any woman I've ever met.

Although I dislike women's attire, the moment I came out with bridal makeup, the surprise in her eyes unexpectedly didn't make me feel disgusted, because there was only a touch of appreciation in it.

After all, this body bag is still somewhat useful.

She fell into my arms, splashing hot blood on my face. At that moment, the helplessness I felt when I was a child, the sense of powerlessness that had been suppressed in my heart for a long time, surged up again.

Suddenly thought, life is too short, maybe you can try it.

After being taken away by bandits, I did not deny my relationship with her.After all, the overall situation must be taken into account, and I am too lazy to explain.

From waking up from a coma, pretending to be married, to leaving.

Those ten or so days were the happiest I had ever lived. I didn't have to worry about being murdered, intrigues, and petty gains.

All you need is a handful of dry firewood to cook a pot of hot rice, and a roll of needlework to mend a dress.

After arriving in Liaodong, I was busy dealing with things at hand, so I didn't see her often.

So that every time I meet her, my eyes will involuntarily focus on her.

I have never thought well of people, so I often feel powerless to deal with her for a while, and after I recover, I realize that I have unconsciously met her countless times.

She gave me many things, a cat, a bunch of candied haws, a wooden sword... and a piece of paper and Li Shu.

I kept everything as complete as possible, except for that Zhang and Li Shu.

I almost tore it to pieces on the spot, but Huanhuan didn't see it.

She even wished me a safe trip.

How can I be safe, I just want her to remember our marriage, let her know that she can't go back on what she made, and let her not forget me.

However, I didn't receive anything from her until I returned to the capital.

I'm a person who often has an almost horrific paranoia about certain things.

As long as it is recognized, it will be obtained at any cost.

Even people.

In order to realize this obsession, for Huanhuan can only belong to me.I began to climb up crazily, even if I became a knife in the hands of others, even if I angered everyone, I would stand at the highest point I could stand.

Within five years of leaving Liaodong, I won the favor of the King of Zhou and became the head of the Rites Supervisor, in charge of all affairs in the court.

Others say that I am a courtier, relying on His Majesty's favor, domineering and reckless, so that all civil and military officials in the Manchu Dynasty regard me as a scourge, but there is nothing they can do about me.

However, only I know that I am just a knife to seize power and kill people in the hands of the powerless emperor, it can be me or someone else.

Although I am in the capital, I know the big and small things in Liaodong. I know Huanhuan's difficulty, and I also know her suffering.

I feel sorry for her, but there is no other way, the only thing I can do is to wipe out those who are against her and want to hurt her in the capital.

Time passed quickly, and the kittens in my arms were fat and fat.

I can't wait to see you again.