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Town God's Temple, one of the "Three Great Temples of the Yangtze River", City God: is one of the important gods generally worshiped in Chinese religious culture. It is played by famous ministers and heroes who have contributed to the local people.

It has a history of nearly 600 years since its construction.

Today, it has become a tourist attraction in S City, a must-see place when you come to S City.

I sat on the subway with Sanbao, feeling the comings and goings of the big cities.No wonder there were not many people on the street. They were all in the subway, and everyone was silent. It seemed that their corners had been worn away by life, and there was only mechanical obedience.Occasionally, a few young children are also looking down at their mobile phones.

I imagined that I was the same as them, and I was about to enter the workplace, full of expectations.

Am I going to be like them too, with a peaceful life, day after day, even less smiles, no, I will never be like them, I will be full of hope in life, full of enthusiasm for work, no matter how busy I am. Have fun and smile no matter how hard it is.I was happily fantasizing about the future, looking back at Sanbao, what would it be like if I were still with Sanbao in the future, would it be that he worked at night and I worked during the day, and we all had to squeeze time like that?

After all, Sanbao is slowly getting better, and finally knows that he has worked hard. Although the nature of the job is not from five to nine, it is still self-sufficient, not like a casino.

I looked at Sambo again.

Sanbao asked: "Why are you looking at me? You have looked at me several times, and there are spots on my face?"

"Well, there is a flower, a big red flower."

To be honest, if it weren't for the crowds in the subway, I would have wanted to go up and squeeze a couple of them.

Sambo has silky smooth skin, not as white as mine, but smooth to the touch. I always touch him afterwards, like a child greedy for sugar, over and over again, reluctant to let go.He was annoyed by me touching him several times, he hit my hand fiercely, and said: "Sex devil", I always told him ruffian: "If you want sex, you are the only one, what is the skin on your body like?" What's the matter, why is it so good?"

"Who knows, you're the only one who said it."

"Then what did other people say?" This is a proposition.

"Forget, don't remember." If you can't answer, take forget and don't know as the standard answer.well known.

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"Don't look at me anymore, it reminds me of the movie about the idiot in the subway, your eyes look like that now."

"When we have money, we can buy a bus, drive it to travel, and have a picnic at night." I smiled maliciously.

"What are you thinking about every day? Didn't you have enough to eat last night? Return the bus, can you have some ambition, if you want to buy it, buy a RV."

"Well, that's fine too."

When I mentioned last night, I couldn't continue. My mind was filled with five G's. I quickly stopped thinking about it. After all, I was in the subway.

Most of the relationship between me and Sanbao is physical fit, and what is needed can no longer be needed.Although two years have passed, and the freshness of the beginning has passed, but Xiaobie is better than newly married, and it doesn't feel like...

I didn't want to think about it, I desperately changed the crab roe buns in my mind, suppressing my desire with delicious food.

The Town God's Temple is very big, and there are people everywhere, even if it is not a Saturday, people come and go.How can there be so many people in the world who don't have to work?Are you here to visit Chenghuang Temple?It’s okay for middle-aged and elderly people to say, what’s going on with so many young people?Today is Thursday.

Oh, yes, my study, I have already skipped classes if I wanted to. After all, I am a senior, and the teacher doesn't care much.As long as I pass the exam, that’s fine. I have read the books well, so passing the exam is no problem.

There are many shops and snacks here, row upon row.There are many people like praying at a temple fair, yes, this is a temple fair, it is indeed like praying.Each store basically has its own characteristics and competes with each other.There are those who display cut sugar at the door, those who hammer rice cakes by hand, and those who fry broad beans freshly.Milk tea shops also have their own strengths and weaknesses, and they are really exhausted for business. From color, packaging, to copywriting, each one is more eye-catching than the other.

"It doesn't matter if you don't have a partner, I will be sad if you don't drink milk tea."

"My wish: to open a milk tea shop."

"Can you steal your boyfriend's money and take me to drink milk tea?"

"It's not fun to drink too much milk tea, three cups a day is just right."

"It's so supportive, I need a cup of milk tea to digest..."

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I read the wonderful copywriting sentence by sentence, wondering if all the businesses are so cute now?

"Brother Bao, do you think all the businesses are so cute now?" I pointed to the milk tea copywriter who just walked past, and Sanbao turned to look at me: "Not cute, not as cute as you."

Unexpectedly, he was teased.

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There are also many things I like to eat on the fried stalls, such as iron plate squid, Xinjiang lamb skewers, fried chicken tenders... With my gluttonous body, I want to eat everywhere. We visited most of the shops in Chenghuang Temple with the flow of people Circle, drank a cup of milk tea from Chenghuang Temple, it was delicious, it doesn’t matter what you go shopping, the key is who you go shopping with, what you drink is not important, the key is who you drink with.

Sanbao and I finally walked to the legendary crab roe bun, a quaint small building, there were no seats left, so we had to take out for takeaway.

Indeed, there are two big rows in line, and it looks like it will take a long time to queue. I thought I would stop eating. I wasted a lot of time in queuing. Sambo also agreed. After all, we are all impatient people. We found a home It looks like a very distinctive bun shop, with red buns, green buns, and brown buns. We ordered a basket to make up for the regret of not eating the old-fashioned crab roe buns.

The taste of S City is a bit like my hometown, refreshing, although some vegetables are thick in oil and red sauce, they are clean and tidy, pay attention to the image of the plate, and the buns are like buns. We sat down and found that we were a little tired.The right to eat is a rest, and I have to go to the Bund at night.

Sanbao took a rare leave of absence for me. We rushed all the way and arrived at the Bund when it was getting dark.

It really deserves to be the magical city of S City, magnificent, luxurious, and bright.Nanjing Road is overcrowded, full of people, Chinese and foreign, every scenic spot has people taking pictures, and there are many professional photographers, some for themselves and some for business.Sanbao used his mobile phone to help me take a photo with the boat, complaining that I can't pose, and doing a few demonstration actions while talking.

Sure enough, I don’t know how to pose. Perhaps others have praised me for my good looks since I was a child, so I seldom take pictures subconsciously, as if beauty is also a sin.

Sanbao is doing the movement of opening his hands: "See, it will be more tense, and it will look better when it cooperates with the boat behind."

"Stand over there a little bit, open your hands, open your feet, and stretch."

"Squat down and take a picture of your back."

"From the side, look up, and look at the sky."

I was commanded by Three Treasures, and I did take a lot of good-looking looks. My Three Treasures, how can you be so good? You can even take pictures, so talented.This little discovery added another star to my heart of admiration.

My three treasures.

Walking around the Bund at night, enjoying the cool autumn wind.We kept moving and didn't feel cold. The moment the wind blew over, the corners of our clothes bulged.

The romantic exterior scene is accompanied by pleated starlight, the sky is on the ground, and a suit of Chinese clothes.

The Altair is far away, the Han girl of the Jiaojiao River.Slender hands are pulled out, and the sticks are used. ——The Han Dynasty: Anonymous.

I secretly fantasize about a future that is a little closer to Sanbao. If things continue like this, Sanbao and I will come together. Apart from love, we finally have some future fantasies.

He started to work hard and started to get better. I will graduate soon and start working immediately. Everything is going in a good direction.I no longer have to cry secretly in the long river of love, and no longer have to worry about losing the Three Treasures.

We have a future, and there is only a little light in the future, a little is enough, a little can give me hope.

Sanbao and I walked on the tidy road and lamented the responsible management of the Bund.The clock tower from decades ago still retains its quaint taste.

The salty sea breeze, wrapped in a fishy smell, hit us.As if exhausted all the strength of the whole body, leaving no tenderness during the day.We sat on the bench holding hands in the dark, and I asked Sambo, "When did you know you were gay?"

"I don't know, I didn't know it when I was a child, no one told me, I was always normal when I was a child, until there was a boy in high school who stood in front of the faucet and smiled at me and said: Hello, my name is Wang Jie, Outstanding Jay. I didn’t know what happened at the time, but I felt my heart start beating. His smile played back in my mind over and over again, and I still remember it until now. Maybe it was that smile that made me feel the same sex, but I didn’t. I care about it, I grew up later, I fell in love with other people, and no one told me what was wrong with not being interested in women. Steady, God knows I really don’t want to. It wasn’t so obvious at the time, and then I got married, and my husband and wife life was also very dull. After I had a child, I couldn’t even arouse interest. I had different rooms for a year, and my ex-wife guessed that I was outside. With someone, I was suspicious all day long, looking through my mobile phone, looking through my wallet, I was annoyed by him, so I started to do it, from the same bed in different rooms to later sleeping separately, until I met the friend who had dinner last time , he is my elementary school classmate, he came back from abroad, he knew that I was an idiot, and he had a wide range of opportunities, so he insisted that I find him a boy. I was also shocked at the time. Is it okay for men and men? Later, after a long time in contact with him, I gradually realized that this is just a sexual orientation and has nothing to do with perversion. Combined with the fact that I am not interested in women, I guess Me too, later I tried a boy, I really am, a deep cabinet, to be precise, I should not understand, but if someone guides me when I was young, I will not get married. Later, as you can see Same, I am divorced, since I know I am gay, why drag others down, my ex-wife still hates me now, because I beat her out, I used this method to make her leave me, and I don’t want her to know it’s disgusting, After all, it was someone I loved when I was young."

I listened to Sanbao slowly report that Sanbao lives in the suburbs, his father works in a factory, his mother sells fruit, and he has only one sister. Even if he was vaguely attracted by the smile of a boy in high school, he did not recognize his orientation.The people around him are all heterosexual, and he thinks this is the right way to get married and have children to start a family. Only in the dead of night, when he faces the loneliness that cannot be dispelled, is the fatal loneliness. Who would understand this kind of loneliness?If you are not the person involved, you will never understand the hardships involved.

Some people say I can.For a day, for a year, for a lifetime, there is nothing more painful than liking the same sex.

Sanbao continued: "I don't want to be like this either. Why am I like this? I am in more pain than them. If possible, I also want to follow the requirements of my parents. My family is a good wife and my children and grandchildren are happy, but I can't do it. I can't help it." Ah. Unless I kill myself, I can’t do what they say. In those two years, they were happy, but I found it more and more difficult. It can be said that I am suffering every day. I know that if this continues, sooner or later, it will explode and destroy everyone. Fortunately, I later understood myself and found a way to solve the family partner. The problem."

Yes, as long as it is possible, who wants to do this, everyone wants to be a good son in the eyes of the world, a good husband in the eyes of a wife, and a good father in the eyes of a son. We have achieved what the world needs, but the world has never thought about what we want .

This is not fair.

There are so many people who are getting married and having children, and if there are a few of us, it will not affect the birth rate.The earth has a population of more than 60 billion, so slow down and not be afraid.

Sanbao and I are holding hands, passing each other's temperature in the night wind. We are like two children abandoned by the world, clinging to each other, clinging to each other, only each other.

The lights in the distance are folded and shining, and the brilliance of the sky pours into the eyes.The sound of the boat is still ringing, and it will continue tomorrow.

The Bund of City S is not our permanent place to stay, and the sea breeze gushing ashore cannot blow away our souls.

I don't want to meet you at the corner. If I can, I want to ride with you, play with you, go down the river with you in summer, and harvest with you in autumn from when you were a child.

I am saddened by the fate of Sambo, if only I could meet you sooner.Seven years, we have a difference of seven full years, but it seems that we have a difference of a century.

I can't perceive his ignorance when he was young, but I can understand his helplessness after marriage, how many sleepless nights he had, and whether he was struggling in other people's families like me at that time.

If we had known each other early...

Shall we start out as friends?

Would I replace that high school teenager with a smile?

Will we hold hands first and then kiss like ordinary lovers?

Will we run for love, as the world says?

Will we make long distance calls for each other?

Will you fold a thousand origami cranes for each other?

Will you receive milk tea from the other party on the way out of school suddenly?

Will the two of you write and write together on the days when you didn't pass the exam?

Will you see me off and I will see you off under the dim street lights?

Will it be indomitable in the rain and mud?

I make up for all the first loves we missed, and I describe every possible scenario in my heart. I wrote the two of us into poems and sent them to Qiu.

I looked at Sambo for a long time, I wanted to hug Sambo, use my body temperature, use my heart, hug him hard, and tell him: "I am here, I am still here, you still have I……"

The author has something to say: The copywriting of milk tea belongs to Baidu