Tears

"What's wrong? Why are you struggling? Is there something shameful?" Shangxian's voice sounded above his head, gnashing his teeth, "Now you know how shameful you are? Why aren't you afraid when you do it?"

"Are you cheap?" Shang Xian panted heavily, "Can't I watch it? So many people have seen it, so I can't watch it? Huh?!"

Gu Jiang suddenly stopped struggling.

The purple 'Bitch' appeared in front of Shangxian's eyes, and the shock he saw with his own eyes was hundreds of times greater than that on the phone screen.He could barely think for a moment, something crumbling inside him.He never thought that one day, Gu Jiang would appear in his circle of friends in this way.

"Seriously," Shang Xian's voice sounded like an ice peak buried in a volcano, "That's what you said, are you serious?"

He leaned over to hold Gu Jiang down, reached into his hair with one hand, and grabbed it hard.Ajaan was forced to raise his head, and the awkward posture made it difficult for him to breathe.

"Is that why he treats you so seriously? Is it his bad taste, or are you trying to please him?" Shangxian gritted his teeth, "Gu Jiang, for him, are you willing to go so far? Why, he will be excited when he sees this? Will you Do it more comfortably?"

The place where Gu Jiang's tattoo was no longer red and swollen, the coquettish cursive characters were outlined on the fair skin, Shang Xian didn't want to look at it, but couldn't move his eyes away.

"Speak? Why don't you speak?"

"There's nothing to say," Ajaan's voice was as dry as if it had been squeezed out of a mountain ravine, "You're right."

Shang Xian was silent, he could not speak for a long time.A-Jiang felt the hand pulling his hair gradually lose strength, he was let go, and the heat source behind him slowly left.

"Ajaan, how could you do this."

Shang Xian's voice was soft and distant, Ajaan closed his eyes, his eyelashes gradually moistened.He buried his head in the mattress, the blood faded from his lips, and the boundless cold crawled from his fingertips along his limbs.

Everything is coming to an end.

Ah Yin was desperate for him, and the only person who came to him was also leaving him.

The warm touch was imprinted on the tattooed skin, and the hot air that spewed out while panting hit Ajaan's buttocks.

Ah Yin is kissing there!

A-Jiang's heart, which was almost frozen, burst instantly, blood rushed straight to his forehead in an instant, his eyes were so red that he wanted to eat people.

"Ah... Yin"

Gu Jiang was at a loss, he didn't understand what Ah Xian's kiss meant, his heart was beating like a drum, he never dared to expect anything from Shang Xian, but now he couldn't control his wild thoughts at all.

He didn't dare to react, he was too scared, he was afraid that he would get the wrong idea, he was afraid of bearing the disappointment of blowing out a colorful bubble with his own hands, and being punctured again, he would rather not have it from the very beginning.

"Ajaan"

Shang Xian was the complete opposite of Ajaan. All along, he refused to think about some things, things that he was actually very sure of.He felt that as long as he buried these things deep in his heart and didn't let anyone see them, it would be fine.

He had always hoped that Ajaan would return to normal, and that Ajaan would have a girlfriend.Even if it doesn't work, he still hopes that Ajaan can have a stable lover.As long as Ajaan is well, he can be well.

Every time A-Jiang broke up and got drunk, he would be furious, and every time he got a new boyfriend, it would be a new round of rage.He hated Gu Jiang to the core, why was he so unselfish, every time he would angrily go to the bar to find the drunk A-Jiang, and then sneered and mocked A-Jiang how long he could talk this time.

But he knew that he wasn't really angry, not only was he not angry, but he was kind of proud.He knew everything about A-Jiang, he knew that A-Jan would find a new boyfriend, he knew that A-Jan would break up soon, he knew that A-Jan would not listen to him, and he would not find stability. boyfriend, let alone a girlfriend.

He didn't expect that A-Jiang would meet Lu Aizhen, and when he met Lu Aizhen, A-Jiang changed.He couldn't guess Ajaan anymore, he couldn't see Ajaan's feelings for Lu Aizhen clearly.

Ajaan said that they were serious, Ajaan said that as long as Lu Aizhen still wanted him, he would not break up, and Ajaan told him not to come to him again.

Ajaan has never been like this.

Shangxian always thought that the knot between them was in his hands, and as long as he was willing to control Ajaan, their relationship would not be broken.They would be brothers forever, as long as he wanted.

He didn't expect that Ajaan would let go first.

This tattoo made him jealous, how could A-Jiang demean himself so much for Lu Aizhen.He couldn't accept it, he felt that he was going to lose Ajaan.

He began to fear, could not eat, could not sleep at night.He asked someone to find out when they would return to Shanghai, and came here early to wait.He didn't actually think about what he would do after Ajaan.However, at the moment when he kissed the tattoo, everything was answered.

"Ajaan, outside Xiaoni's ward that day, what did you want to ask me?"

Ajaan was silent.

"You want to ask me if I was really insane that night and I don't remember anything, right?"

They all knew which night Shangxian was talking about.

It was the night of Shangxian's graduation ceremony.

A-Jiang has graduated for a year, tonight, he invites everyone in the dormitory to dinner.They lived in the last three years of Ajaan's university, maybe because of Axian's relationship, maybe because the IT guys are more hearty, they get along well.

Before A-Jiang came, A-Xian was the oldest in the class. After A-Jiang came, he became the eldest, and A-Xian retired to the second child.

Ah Xian was not happy with that meal.He wholeheartedly wanted to become a Spirit Dragon, which was the goal he set since his freshman year.Especially after Ajaan entered Linglong last year, he knew why Ajaan went there.Although he never asked Ajaan, Ajaan never said anything to him.

He was wearing the gray shirt and suit trousers that Ajaan bought for him, imagining that they would go to work together every day in the future, going to the interview with great ambitions, but returning home in failure.Ajaan found him and said that he could help him go to the personnel department to find a way to see if he could have another interview.

He refused.

He was so drunk that the youngest, fourth, and fifth gave up their lives to accompany the gentleman. When they came out of the hotel, their feet were numb.At that time, except for Axian and Ajiang, everyone else had girlfriends. Gu Jiang couldn't help laughing when he saw them holding up their phones to be scolded and slurring their addresses to the driver.

They are all cute.

Ajaan didn't know why he thought the drunk old men were cute, but he just thought they were cute.Perhaps, it won't be long before we see such a lovely Ah Yin.

What kind of girlfriend will he find?Would you also scold him when he was drunk, but did you not forget to tell him to be careful on the road?

With a girlfriend, it's not easy for them to see each other often.Shangxian's whole body was hung on Gu Jiang's body, as soft as if he had no bones.He was originally two or three centimeters shorter than Gu Jiang, but now he couldn't stand up straight, his chin rested on Gu Jiang's shoulder, and he couldn't help but slid down.

Gu Jiang could only wrap his arms around his waist, but no matter what he did, Shang Xian writhed in his arms as if he was uncomfortable, refusing to stop.He was always the one who took care of him when he was drunk, and Gu Jiang knew for the first time that drunk people are so difficult to deal with.

Shangxian's face was flushed from drinking, and his breath was full of alcohol.Gu Jiang was almost drunk, and in this thick midsummer night, he suddenly felt selfish.

Gu Jiang took Shangxian home, and Shangxian lay on his back on the big bed, breathing deeply.Ajaan wrung out a hot towel to wipe his face, they had never been alone like this before.Perhaps, there will be no such opportunity in the future.

Ajaan thought, just for a moment.I'll just kiss him, no one will know, just say goodbye.

Ah Yin is about to start working, and they will be busier and busier in the future.Ah Yin will work overtime, slowly get promoted, then have a girlfriend, maybe soon get married and have children.Their contact will become less and less, from going out for drinks on weekends, to having time to meet during the New Year and holidays, and then to WeChat with only Chinese New Year blessing text messages.

Maybe he'll go to Sang-hyun's wedding, or even full moon wine.He would sit under the stage and watch Shangxian take another person's hand and promise him his whole life, that person would smile and say the three words "I do" that he was never worthy of saying.He will see the birth of a little life that combines Shangxian and that person, and it must be the cutest child in the whole world.

Ah Yin, happy graduation.

Ajaan kissed Axian, he had never watched Axian so closely.A-Jiang's eyelashes fluttered like butterflies, but he was reluctant to blink.

Ajaan backed away slowly.Enough, he should be satisfied.Leaving here, Ajaan said to himself, everything should be over, let Axian go.

Ajaan looked at Axian.

Ah Yin, I'm sorry.

A-Jian overturned again, he was no longer satisfied with the touch of lips and lips, he stuck out the tip of his tongue, and carefully traced the shape of A-Xian's lips.The spicy breath became sweet, and he sank, unable to extricate himself.

A-Jian couldn't remember when A-Xian started to respond, when his consciousness came back, his tongue danced in A-Xian's hot mouth, plundering everywhere without contentment.

Ajaan suddenly woke up, he quickly retreated, only to find that the back of his head was being held.He couldn't help but swallow.Ah Yin is drunk, who does he think of him?Just thinking about it makes it unacceptable.

A-Jian's struggle seemed to have angered A-Xian, and A-Jian exchanged places with A-Jian without much effort.

"No, Ah Yin, wake up, look at who I am?"

Axian's eyes were closed tightly, and Ajiang's two hands were pushed to the top of his head to hold him down. He could only twist his body, but his whole body became stiff because he touched the hot hard mass on Axian's body.

Ah Yin found A Jiang's mouth and blocked it.The disturbing words were instantly cleared up, Ah Xian was satisfied, and the movements of his hands became more and more agile.

The clothes and pants left him one by one, and Ajaan was lying naked on the bed in a moment.

"Don't, don't be here."

He muttered and begged, his words were swallowed between Axian's lips, Axian pressed him, and his lips fell right next to his ear.

"like you."

Three words, Ajaan threw away his helmet and armor, and was defeated.

They entangled until almost dawn, Axian fell into a deep sleep, and Ajaan stayed up all night.This night completely tied the lives of the two of them together.Ajaan can no longer leave, he is bound here by an invisible silk thread, life after life.

Even if he knew that Axian didn't like him, and he didn't tell him that he liked you, but Axian said it, and said it in his ear.It was like a spell, a spell that could never be undone, and Ajaan was willing to be bound by it.He allowed the thread to slowly embed into his flesh, rejoicing that he could no longer escape.

"I know," Shangxian whispered in his ear as he did back then, "I'm sober, I know what I'm doing, and who I'm doing it with."

"I'm a coward, I dare not look at you, I dare not admit it. I deceive myself and tell myself that you are my brother, and everything I do is to wish you well."

"No, not at all." Shangxian's fingers were dancing on the tattoo, Ajaan wanted to hide, but there was nowhere to hide, "I don't like you having other men, I hope you belong to me alone. I just don't like Dare to admit, dare not admit how happy I am every time you break up and get drunk, dare not admit how scared I am of who you will fall in love with. I persuade you to find a stable lover again and again, I just want to hear you say don’t worry about me .”

The kiss on the tattoo just now was like a switch, unlocking the magical beast that had been sealed in Shang Xian's heart for a long time, he watched it rush out, rampant in his heart, unscrupulous.He was no longer afraid to admit that he was miserable, and he finally understood that losing Ajaan was worse than anything else.

"I dare not admit that I like you," Shangxian turned Ajaan over and lay on his back on the bed, just like that night.He leaned over under A-jaan's gaze, and whispered in A-jaan's ear, "I like you."

Ajaan suddenly tensed up.

"Ajaan, I like you."

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