Hedgehog

When I left Su Ying's house, it was already dark.

Ji Rongfu should be going home soon, I dressed slowly and left, Su Ying didn't keep me, insisted on giving me an umbrella, saying it would snow outside, I didn't want it, she sent me downstairs instead .She belongs to the kind of person who is easily hurt and heals easily. After crying, she calmed down as if nothing had happened, but her eyes were still swollen.

"Lu Yan's studio wants to sign a contract with me." Almost downstairs, she suddenly said this: "I didn't agree."

"why?"

"I know that Lu Yan helped me because I am your friend." She smiled reluctantly: "Besides, I know my own strength."

When I got out of the elevator, because of the snow, the ground was full of footsteps from people who came and went. I put on my coat and hat, and was going to go to get the car.

Su Ying walked behind me holding an umbrella. After a moment of silence, she asked again: "Are you living outside with that person now? I didn't see you when I went to your house last time."

"Well. Call me next time you have something to do."

"It's okay, I just want to play with you."

I know what she wants to say. She has the key to my house. She must have gone in and looked at it. My house is almost emptied by me. The longer I live in the house, the more strange it looks when it is vacant. Now I even talk about "going home" Both words refer to Ji Rongfu's house.

"I'm really fine now." I stood in the snow with my hands in my pockets and smiled at her, but she didn't smile with me.

"What's wrong?" I don't understand.

Her thoughts were written all over her face, but it was rare for her not to speak out.

"You, what's your plan next? Like releasing an album?"

I thought she was going to persuade me to find a benefactor again.

"I don't have any plans. I will continue to write and write songs. Occasionally, I will sing at music festivals. It's good. In the past two years, film and television music has become very popular. Maybe I will go to make soundtracks for movies..."

"Lin Sui, I'm leaving Beijing."

"What?" I looked at her in surprise: "Why?"

She looked up at me, then looked down again.

"You know, I actually have no talent or strength in this line of work, and I'm too old." A wry smile flashed across her face: "Although I often say that I want to be close to the gold master, but every critical moment, I can't always do it... In short, my parents can find me a job as a civil servant at home, or go back to open a store, and I have saved a little money over the years."

I didn't know she had already made a life plan.

After being friends for a long time, there is often an illusion that she will still be here after ten or twenty years.When Yuan Rui left Beijing to become a savage, it was enough to catch me off guard.

"but you……"

"No, Lin Sui, what I'm talking about now is not about me." She interrupted me suddenly.

"What?" I don't understand.

The snow was falling heavily, and the wind-blown snowflakes flew like goose feathers, sticking to our clothes, hair, and in the parking lot, the tops of the cars seemed to be wearing thick white hats, and the sky became darker. Get low.Su Ying remained as silent as a statue.

Finally she spoke.

"I watched a movie recently. It was about a math genius, but because of his family, he kept hanging out with a bunch of friends in front of a construction worker. Later, when a professor appreciated him and wanted to take him away , he refused to leave, his friend said something to him..."

"And this passage is also what I want to tell you."

She looked up at me, her hair was covered with snow, but her eyes were as clean as when we first met.

She said: "Lin Sui, you are my best friend. I hope you will be happy more than anyone else. I can call you at any time. We can cook together, eat hot pot together, discuss things in the circle, and be happy together. Calling other people stupid is a very good thing..."

"But Lin Sui, if I am 30 years old and you are still here, living in your house without an elevator, writing songs one after another and selling them to others, and never going on stage or singing live again, No concerts, no albums. If I push open your door at 30 and you're still in your little world, I'll kill you. Because you're the smartest, most resourceful person I've ever met Talented person. You can write such a good song, do you still remember the song "Mad" you sang on my 20th birthday? It was the best live I have ever heard."

She said: "Lin Sui, don't ask me what I want to do. I am not important, Yin Xi is not important, and Zhang Wenbin is not important. We are like this at the age of 20, and we will be like this at the age of 30. We have not created The talent for good things, we can't tell a story with our songs, I'm so full of holes in a bad third-rate comedy. No one will remember me in 100 years."

"But you are different. God gave you such a talent, not for you to live a mediocre life. If I could have your talent, I would give everything in exchange. You remember when you were drinking, I went along Looking for you from bar to bar? Do you think I want to do this? Do you think I don't want to be comfortable in bed? If I didn't meet you, I could, because I wouldn't think: If I don't Go, maybe the most powerful singer I've ever seen will be hit by a car and killed in the street!"

She said: "Lin Sui, do you want to know what wish I made on my last birthday? I don't want everyone to be here on my next birthday. On the contrary, I hope you are not here. Just like in that movie As I said, I hope that when I opened the door, you had already left, without leaving a word or a note, you quietly left our life and returned to the place where you should stay, no matter it is Yin Xi By my side, there is still Jian Ke Pei Shangyu. You go where you should go, do what you should do, instead of being here with me, wasting your talent and life day after day!"

I didn't know that Su Ying's body, which was shorter than mine, could burst out with such a powerful energy. She didn't seem to be persuading, but rather scolded me. At least she looked at my eyes as if they were about to spew fire.

I stood there stunned, Su Ying also stood there, we were like two statues in the wind and snow, facing each other silently, my fingers were about to crack from the cold.

Finally I break the deadlock.

"Then... that movie," my face was frozen, "what's the name?"

""Good Will Hunting"!"

Su Ying spoke angrily, turned around and left. After walking for a while, she probably remembered something, then turned around again, angrily stuffed the umbrella into my hand, and walked away by herself.

I stood alone in the snow for a long time.

Finally, I took out my phone from my pocket and started typing to send a message. My fingers were freezing and I typed every word very slowly. I typed a message slowly and pressed send without hesitation.

Ten seconds later, Jian Ke came back: Is this a condition?

I replied: No, the review was a misunderstanding, and it’s all over now.I won't go to your and Yin Xi's company, just like you won't come to beg me.

In fact, Ji Rongfu did the right thing, don't do to others what you don't want done to you.

Jian Ke didn't return for a long time.

Then he replied: Why do you think I will agree?

I typed a paragraph, thought about it, and deleted it.

In the end, I said: Just rely on the little confidence I have left. If my talent is not enough for you to be a producer for me, at least you can agree to it.

About 3 minutes later, Jian Ke replied with one word: OK.

The surroundings are as cold as an ice cave, but my mood is as warm as a midsummer in the dog days.The shell of my whole body seemed to be frozen, but there was a fire burning wildly in my heart. I opened the door and got in my car, but my whole body was like a balloon that was blown up, lightly about to fly.

I turned on the air conditioner, sat down, and started calling Ji Rongfu.

It was twilight all around, and there was only a little light from the headlights. Maybe it was too long in the cold. My fingers were trembling, and I couldn't even press the dial key a few times.

The phone rang three times and was answered over there.

It was Ji Rongfu's voice.

"Lin Sui, I'll be home in half an hour."

"Ji Rongfu!" I happily called his name: "I'm not going back tonight!"

"Huh?" His voice rose subtly, and I heard Zhou Jin's voice next to me, and after being stopped by Ji Rongfu, everything fell silent.

"No, I didn't run away from home!" I explained to him enthusiastically: "I'm going to do something, a big thing, anyway, just stay at home and wait for me to come home. Make it free and tune the TV to sv station!"

There was silence for a while.

Then Ji Rongfu asked me: "What clothes are you wearing?"

"Coat, what's the matter?"

"Ask Aunt Xu to bring you a down jacket, it's very cold in the south now."

It seems that he really doesn't know that I have met Lin Caiwei.

"I know, I will pack my luggage myself!"

"Also," Ji Rongfu's voice was a little dangerous: "When you come back, you don't need to wear such strong clothes."

"Why?" I was keenly aware that something was wrong.

"Because you stayed outside for three or four days without my consent..." I can almost imagine him raising his eyebrows over there: "I'm very unhappy."

My ears were burning, and I quickly hung up the phone: "I got it, I got it, goodbye!"

The message I just sent to Jian Ke was that I wanted to have a show at the New Year's Eve party on sv station, and it was not a threat. Regardless of whether he agreed or not, I had already let Zhou Jin let go of sv station's review.

If my talent is not enough to make Jian Ke give up the idea of ​​taming me and become my producer.At least get him to say yes to this.

I want not so much anymore.

I just need to write my song, sing my song, whether it is popular or not, and whether I can release an album, I leave it to fate to decide.I have fought against fate for 27 years without a single victory, but at least I won Ji Rongfu in the end, which shows that I am not without luck.I don't believe that I spend my whole life doing one thing, but in the end I can't do it.

Lin Caiqin said that because of my stubbornness, I would eventually achieve nothing, and gradually become a person I didn't know, and finally parted ways with Ji Rongfu.

But if I stop being stubborn and live the way other people do from now on, I'm already someone I don't know.

Su Ying has come to this day, gentler and kinder than me, and finally separated from the boy who can play the guitar.Destiny can never be changed by manpower. Lin Caiqin talked with me about her experience today, but when she was young, how could she have imagined that the world would become what it is today.

Follow your heart, at least you won't regret it in the future.

What's more, I am not a fish to be slaughtered.Even if I can't sing now, I can still write and play.What's more, I have an amazing talent. I can write any song I want to write, and sing any beloved note. My success and failure are not determined by the market, nor by Jian Ke, nor by her Lin Caiqin to conclude.

My life can only be judged by myself.

I picked up my phone again and called Ji Rongze.

As soon as he picked it up, I told him: "Ji Rongze, don't listen to their voices."

Ji Rongze had no idea what I was talking about: "What?"

"You won't become someone you don't know!" I told him seriously: "I won't either, we will continue to be stubborn like this, no matter others think we are downcast or pitiful, as long as you stick to your own Faith, you are not a loser. Success is not difficult, you and I both know how to be successful, and success is not cool. Even if you know the consequences, you still don’t turn your back on the road to success, that’s the coolest thing thing!"

Ji Rongze was silent for a while.

Then he asked me: "Have you been drinking?"

"No, I can't drive if I drink alcohol, but I will drive to the airport later." I told him enthusiastically: "And I called Ji Rongfu, I didn't run away from home this time! The problem of escaping is also cured!"

Ji Rongze probably regarded me as a lunatic.

"I don't know what you're talking about, I'm going to bed." He told me calmly, "Good night."

"Good night."

After I said good night, I thought about it, and felt that something was wrong, so I quickly yelled into the phone: "You know what I'm talking about!"

"Yes, I know what you're talking about." Ji Rongze said with a smile in his voice, "Good night."

"Good night."

I was driving towards the airport, there were not many pedestrians on the long street, the snow outside had stopped, there was a good moonlight, I suddenly felt better, as clear as the moonlight, I was probably infected by Ji Rongze's literary temperament He felt a sense of poetic enthusiasm, so he simply stopped the car, took out his cell phone and called Su Ying.

"Su Ying, let me sing you a song."

Su Ying probably fell asleep, her tone was helpless and nasal: "Can't you sing again tomorrow?"

"No," I said stubbornly, "You just said that my song is the best you've ever heard."

Su Ying's face suddenly became thinner: "Okay, okay, stop talking, you can sing."

"You push the window open, the moonlight is beautiful outside!"

There was the sound of a window being pushed open.

"Sing, I'm listening."

In fact, I didn’t remember a single word of the Mongolian lyrics last time. I just remembered the melody. Fortunately, the moonlight outside was good. I faced the phone and sang the farewell song that Yuan Rui sang to me last time. , high pitched howling, low pitched humming, without a single line of lyrics, Su Ying didn't fall asleep after listening to it.Outside the car window, the moonlight shines on the dark road, and the wind blows the branches of the poplar trees.

"Su Ying, when are you going back?"

"Before the Chinese New Year."

"Bon Voyage."

"Well, good." Su Ying hesitated for a moment, and probably wanted to say something, but in the end she didn't say anything, and only said softly: "Goodbye."

"Goodbye."