Hedgehog

I wrote it until it was dark, and the harmony was almost done. I don’t know where the main theme is, but I’m not in a hurry. The style of my rhythmse writing in the past two years has almost become rigid. This song is an exception. I wrote it and sent it to Lezi Forget it, it's a late gift, thank you for his high regard for me back then, for making a movie with tens of millions, asking a 20-year-old trainee to invite a song is also considered courageous and insightful.

The song I gave to Ji Rongfu seemed to be eaten by Bai Yu, the lyrics haven't arrived yet, but Yin Xi mentioned it last time, it should be Ye Sangqing who tipped off the news.

In the evening, I drove to Channel B to re-record the last episode of the program. The time division of Channel B has always been strange. The best episodes are broadcast repeatedly during the Spring Festival, and the other stations are during the summer vacation and winter vacation. Only station B has the highest ratings during the Chinese New Year, and no one watches it at all during the rest of the time.

After recording for three hours, I don’t know who notified the deputy station, who blocked the door of the recording studio and invited me to dinner.

The bureaucratic style of station B has always been prominent. In the past two years, the propaganda trend has been proud of being upright. Many young stars want to be honored. I got all kinds of meat and eight vegetables, and I don't know how many people were slept.

My attitude has always been negative. In the past, when the show was half-dead, I would not go to the wine table. Now it is even more popular. Wang Futai is a fat man in his 40s. He wanted to talk to me about signing a contract, but he didn't want to show that he was in a hurry, so he asked the intern next to me to talk to me, and Wang Futai looked majestic next to him, mainly to deter me.

I listened to it for a long time before I realized that they had added a new bargaining chip this time, and decided to show mercy and let me participate in a competition-style music show in the station.After all, the intern is young, and he knows how popular I am on the Internet, so he dare not speak in a charity tone, which is considered polite. Deputy Wang's expression was not very happy when he heard it.

Bullying and dominating the market has always been the tradition of Channel B. Last Spring Festival, they wanted to cater to young people. They invited a bunch of Internet celebrities and let them fly to Beijing on the second day of the Lunar New Year. "It's cheap for you to come here, don't be shameless" written on the face.

I really wanted to laugh, originally I wanted to watch a monkey show, but thinking that Ji Rongfu might be going home soon, I had no choice but to decline: "Sorry, I have something to do when I go home, let's meet again next time, see you on the substage."

This is the rule in this circle. When you are popular, others will catch up with you. When you are not popular, you don’t want to follow others. Celebrities have a high premium, the price is much higher than the value, and the fluctuation is also large. Today may be an announcement Hundreds of thousands, in a few months, it is estimated that I will have to go to the [-]th tier city to sing for the annual meeting. From the leadership to the small workers of station B, they all have higher hearts than the sky, and the more popular they are, the more they have to put on airs. They don’t understand the market, and I have no obligation to teach them. Besides, I want to concentrate on making music now. I didn't want it.It's a pity that it just happened to be popular, and they probably think I'm playing a big game.

Driving home, I was in a good mood at first, because the recording of the X-League will be finished soon, and I will spend a lot of time writing songs in the future, so I don't have to fly around anymore.Every time I drive home, I always have the feeling that I hid a candy in my schoolbag when I was a child. It seems that the whole world is lit up, and I am happier than usual when I do my homework, because I know that there is still a candy waiting for me.

Ji Rongfu is that candy to me.

It's a pity that today is destined to be very busy, and the phone rang again before the car arrived home.When the lights came on outside, I couldn’t find a parking space for a while. I glanced at my phone and saw that it was an unfamiliar number, so I could only resign myself to my fate and pull over.

Before, Ni Jing sang for Pei Dongyu for three consecutive nights in a bar, and later, I waited for Jian Ke to call and received two tickets in a row.

This time when I picked up the phone, a male voice said "Hello", and I immediately put on the handbrake.

It's Jane Ke.

We are all smart people, that cup of chili water, followed by my retirement, are all well-known things, so it is not easy to bring up the topic, but Jian Ke is a senior after all, with profound skills, first report himself: "Lin Sui? I'm Jian Ke."

"Good morning, Director Jane."

"Are you in Beijing now?"

"Here I am."

"I'm having dinner with my friends at about nine o'clock. I'm here at Wangfujing. Do you have time to come out and meet?"

I restrained the thought of dying, and answered honestly: "Yes."

"Okay, I'll call you at nine o'clock."

Another Hongmen Banquet.

Jian Ke's tone was too calm, as if he came to Beijing to deal with an artist who retired from his show as a big name by the way, and it has nothing to do with who I am.This atmosphere is too similar to when he taught me "there are rules".But he was willing to call me himself, which was somewhat hopeful.

I stopped by the side of the road for a while, took out my phone, flipped from A to Z, and finally surrendered and called Ji Rongfu.

Ji Rongfu picked up the phone and said "Wait a minute," probably to Zhou Jin and the others, and then asked me softly, "What's wrong?"

He really sees through me. For a person like me, having a mobile phone is equivalent to not having one. I usually send a message at most when I go home late, and I will call him when something happens.

I didn't want to tell him that I was feeling anxious because I was going to Jian Ke's Hongmen banquet, because it would be too embarrassing to say so.But if you don't tell him, you can't get the comfort of the right medicine, and your willpower is really suffering.

I struggled for about a second, and then chose to tell him the truth.

"Jian Ke contacted me. I'm going to meet him at Wangfujing at nine o'clock."

"That Jian Ke who you want him to call your father?" Ji Rongfu has always had a terrible memory, and he can remember every casual sentence clearly, so I dare not easily provoke him.

"Yes." I simply told the truth: "I dare not go now, of course I will go in the end."

To put it bluntly, I just want to hear Ji Rongfu comfort me.

Ji Rongfu laughed: "Why didn't you dare to go?"

"Because I haven't written a song for him to call me daddy yet."

If I had known that I would not practice guitar at noon, I might have been able to write the melody of the song I sent to Lu Yilan, but this is far from quenching my thirst.It would be great if Bai Yu sent back the song I gave to Ji Rongfu. I really don't know how I have lived in the past few years. I haven't saved an amazing song.

Footsteps sounded from Ji Rongfu's side, probably from a different place, maybe he was answering the phone during a meeting.

"You can sing him 'Street Lights,'" he joked with a laugh. "I don't mind."

Ji Rongfu looks gentle and gentle like jade, but in fact he is very domineering. I wrote "Street Light" for six or seven years, and I sang it to him only once. Now it belongs to him. You are not allowed to sing it to others. When the song was sent back, it probably became his as well.

"It's useless, he has already heard "Street Light"."

With Jian Ke's listening volume and Ye Zhen being the queen of SV, it is impossible for him not to have heard this song.Masked Singer is his program, if he knows about the retirement, he also knows which songs I sang.

But he had heard all these songs, and he still didn't like me.

This feeling of not being able to impress someone no matter how hard you try is just too bad.

Ji Rongfu probably never knew what it was like, but he explained to me gently: "Maybe he is different from your type, there is no right or wrong in this kind of thing. Of course there are people who will be moved by you."

"Like who?"

"like me."

"You don't count," I couldn't help but die, "I've already got you."

Ji Rongfu laughed, I knew I was going to be unlucky again tonight.

But I have no choice but to continue, I know what Ji Rongfu means.Now the entertainment industry is the most lucrative, and Ji Rongfu should have dabbled in it, otherwise Yin Xi would not have appeared in his office back then.Although the matter with Yin Xi is over now, sooner or later he will open an entertainment company, not to mention anything else, at least it will be convenient for money laundering.

But I'm not going to be the second law of the week.

There are some things in this circle that only a person like Nie Yuan can give. There are some things that Nie Yuan and Ji Rongfu can’t give, and I can only give them to myself.

This includes Jian Ke's respect.

I shouldn't have arrived at nine o'clock on time, because it was embarrassing to see Deputy Wang and Jian Ke coming out of the hotel together.

Jian Ke's activities seem to have been in the south of the Yangtze River, and it's rare to see such a well-dressed appearance.In fact, we didn't know each other at all, and we didn't even have a real face-to-face conversation, so this scene was particularly embarrassing.

Deputy Wang was able to endure humiliation. When I arrived, he was walking out with Jian Ke. When he saw me, he was taken aback for a moment, and then smiled meaningfully: "It turns out that Xiao Lin really has something to do at night."

I just laughed, anyway, the recording of the last episode is over, and then everyone will shoot and break up, and he can run on me whatever he wants.

Jian Ke is good at this point. He doesn’t ask what’s going on at all. Of course, it may be that he doesn’t have friendship with me so it’s not suitable to ask. He just asked me: “Are you going to Iridium?”

"Yes." Anyway, I have already reported to Ji Rongfu.

"Let's drive our own cars."

Being single for 20 years is good. Jian Ke has such a rich nightlife. I can’t even remember the last time I went to a bar. Anyway, I’m also a member of the rock circle. No one will believe me when I tell him.

We sat at a table in the corner. I have an impression of this bar. In the past, their jazz band was good. When we were chatting, a female singer sang, and the three-legged cat dared to sing Billieholiday. It is really ignorant and fearless.

At first glance, Jian Ke is a frequent visitor to nightclubs. He is very skilled in ordering wine, and looks very polite, which surprised me.He probably didn't even think about whether he would sing or not for the rest of his life. He drank strong alcohol, and I knew my drinking capacity, so I honestly ordered a glass of mineral water.

I really don't know where to start, Jian Ke is already looking at the bar, I don't want to delay going home until early in the morning, so I can only ask, "Director Jian is here in Beijing for business?"

"A friend started a new company and wanted me to cooperate with him, so I just came over to have a look."

This is the typical nonsense of "talking a lot but not having any information after listening carefully". Jian Ke spent almost 20 years in SV station, and at least half of his life's talents are used in this kind of internal friction of interpersonal communication, and he doesn't No one felt it was a pity, because he was considered successful now.

"Director Jian asked me to come out for something?" I don't want to be the second Jian Ke, I would rather go home early and play with Ji Rongfu.

"The Masked Singer program team told me that you were going to withdraw from the competition. I thought it was strange, so I just asked you to come out and ask."

"Director Jian is going to a friend's company?"

"I don't really want to go." Jian Ke started drinking tequila.

"Did you come to Beijing to ask me?"

Jian Ke raised his eyes and looked at me: "It is."

It's refreshing.

"I didn't think it was interesting for me to win, so I retired."

"The champion of The Masked Singer has an album to come out, how can it be boring?"

"Director Jian thinks I can be the champion?"

"If you sing Drunken Dream Book in the final, of course you can." Jian Ke actually said something nice to me: "Not everyone can be Huang Qi's closed disciple."

Huang Qi is the old man who was about to release an album for me, and he is also a leading figure in the music industry. Fu Yong scares away with just one word, which shows that in this world, there are indeed first-class officials and second-class businessmen, and third-class actors are actors and actresses.

"Since Director Jian thinks I can win, why don't you invite me to drink chili water?"

I like this kind of clear sword and clear gun, it's good, don't worry about it, everyone let it go, if it doesn't work, just shoot and break up, forget it and let me worry about it.

Jian Ke laughed.

"No wonder you are said to be short-tempered, and you retired after a glass of chili water? It seems that you care more about your own face than the championship album."

"What if I really drank it?" My heart became angry: "How can Director Jian deal with himself?"

"What's wrong with me? If you really drink it, it just proves that you are a fool who doesn't cherish your talent, and I don't have to feel sorry." Jian Ke drank the wine: "You can take this as my love for you It's a test. Sorry, I'm old, I don't dare to trust people easily, and I don't have energy to waste."

I laughed angrily at him.

"It seems that Director Jian's views on music are different from mine. The selection of singers is not based on talent and strength, but on whether they can drink chili water."

"Like I said, I'm going to test you because of your talent and strength. If you're all about getting into the entertainment industry, you'd rather have a bad voice, just to save me time."

"What if I don't come today?" I asked him back: "What if I hate this test and just quit the race and disappear?"

"That just shows that you are immature. Persistence and compromise are indispensable in this circle." Jian Ke looked at me carefully: "With all due respect, your personality is the reason that hinders your success. If you You ran away from Huatian with courage before, and now it's not my turn to test you."

I stood up and called the waiter directly to check out.

Jian Ke continued to drink, watched me take out the card, and then said slowly: "I don't know if you have heard a saying? Brave people die noblely for their beliefs, while braver people live humblely for their beliefs. You Entering this circle, you have nothing, and the resources in this circle are in the hands of others. If you want to achieve something, you must follow our rules. If you leave like this, you are irresponsible for your own dreams. It doesn't matter, it's just a trip in vain, I have plenty of time."

I swiped my card and told him: "You speak very well, but tell me, if I'm used to living a humble life, how can I write standing songs in the future?"

The bottom line is never a little lost, and if I learn to compromise on this today, I might learn to compromise on songwriting tomorrow.If I obediently follow Jian Ke's path, I may never be able to write a song like "Madness" in the future.

"Whether you can write songs standing up depends on how firm your heart is, and it has nothing to do with how you live. According to what you say, there should be no stories of reckless sacrifices. If you occasionally do something against your heart, it will affect your heart. Then why do you want to impress me?" He looked into my eyes: "I have been in SV for more than ten years, according to your logic, I should have fallen by now."

The programs under Jian Ke present a very serious polarization. There are X-League, a popular rubbish variety show that simply invites popular stars to play house, and Masked Singer, a pure music program that no one cares about. All the singers wore masks, and [-] spectators voted on the spot, whoever voted best.Every time he came up with a music show that no one cares about, and after occupying the prime slot of SV Channel and being quickly withdrawn, he would soon be able to come up with a new popular show and regain the trust of the management.

He comes from a family of Cantonese opera, he considers both music and drama, and appreciates both refined and popular tastes. He has the talent to grab the attention of the audience, and he can become famous in entertainment programs alone, but he never forgets music.

But he hasn't promoted a newcomer in more than ten years, and he hasn't made an album. It's almost forgotten that he can still make a song like Drunk Dream Book.

I was almost convinced by him, besides, I am 26 years old and have already learned to reflect on myself.

But I still have to be stubborn: "The same is controlled by others, why should I choose you instead of another person who is moved by me."

In fact, I will never choose Ji Rongfu. I have been disappointed many times in music, and I don’t care about one more time. I just dare not take risks with him, just like a true best friend never dares to do business together.

Jian Ke laughed.

"Believe in my 46 years of life experience," he looked at me calmly: "Don't choose the person who put you in the X League, he understands you better than I do. Besides, there are few true feelings in this circle, and they can't stand your ruin. "

It seems that he doesn't know who the person who let me join the X-League is. Just hearing the order from above, Ji Rongfu's identity can deter gossip magazines, but it can't scare the gossip. A network like Jian Ke must know that Ji Rongfu and I are related. So I guess the person who let me join the X-League was Ji Rongfu.

But what he said somewhat relieved my hostility.

I’m already miserable, the producers I met along the way abandoned me one by one, I don’t know what kind of wonderful artist Jian Ke met, so that he was bitten by a snake for ten years and was afraid of well ropes, he knew me clearly Quite deep, even Yin Xi's affairs are clear, but he has been standing still.I have been secretly watching me try my best to impress him, it is really perverted.

"You at least let me know where your bottom line is." I have already given up: "I clearly tell you my bottom line, I don't want outsiders to interfere with my music, the market belongs to you, the prototype of the work belongs to me, and the finished product is produced together. You can give your opinion. You can easily convince me, after all, "Book of Drunken Dreams" is a masterpiece in my mind, but I don't want you to use your status to oppress me."

"You really want to know?"

He looked at me through the rimmed glasses. His lenses were flat. He probably didn’t wear glasses for concave shape. No one has the same concave shape for more than ten years. He was to hide his eyes. People who feel insecure are like this.Like wearing a mask, after taking off the glasses, the whole person may be a different person.I used to play like this too, wearing glasses to drink, as if I was not the fallen person, took off my glasses and went on stage to sing rock, convincing myself that the drunk person was someone else.

"Tell me," I tried my best to win his trust, "I'm not as irritable as you think, and there is no righteousness in business."

He said that I have a high spirit, but why do I have a high spirit to play Tai Chi with him here, and even go to his show secretly. People who are really high spirits are so poor that they are starving to death.After the Huangshan band disbanded, my master Zhang Xiao went crazy. Their lead singer, Qin Fu, is now making new music. He doesn’t see anyone all year round.

But I can't become a fairy after all. I sing to make people listen, to influence thousands of people, and to make countless people hear this song ten or twenty years later, feel lost in their hearts, shed tears and think of themselves The year when I first heard this song.I don't have the idea of ​​writing it and it's over. I have to be responsible for every song I write.

Whether it is ambition, revenge or vulgarity, this is my dream.

But Jian Ke doesn't believe that I will bow down for this dream.

"Really?" He was still staring at my face, I don't know what he wants to see from this face?It can never be fear.

"Honestly."

"My bottom line is that you must at least sign me and my friend's new company. This company has the best agent in the industry and the best resources. After I enter, it will also have the best music team. If you don't enter this The only reason for the company is that you value your vain ego over your dreams."

"Oh, why didn't I join this company?"

"That's why I talked so much to you today." Jian Ke looked at my face with burning eyes, saying word by word: "The general manager of this company is called Yin Xi."

I splashed the wine directly in his face.

Jian Ke was not angry, he was still sitting, just calmly wiped off the drink from his face, and even sniffed it.The way he looked at me was very strange, like disgust and nostalgia, he just looked at me with a complicated expression, until I walked away, he still didn't look back.